Hey! Thanks to all who have read and reviewed! I'm glad that you liked the last chapter. I'm so sorry this has taken so long to get up, but I've been really busy. I am leaving to go out of town again to Miami, FL on Monday morning through next Sunday so I won't be able to post until then. But I promise that I will post the day that I get back!

In the upcoming chapters, Seth and Summer will be reacquainting and going back into their normalcy and how they acted pre-Summer leaving. Hope I doesn't feel too rushed and enjoy!

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Chapter 5

The week had passed by slowly for Seth. Jenny was busy all the time with work and he had no friends there. After that night that Summer had told him of her boyfriends death, he had no clue as to how and act around her. What were they now, friends, acquaintances, shopping pals, gossip buddies? Seth realized that he needed to let his guard down a little bit and let her in, no matter how hard it was.

Meanwhile, Summer, Jenny, and Cameron were becoming very close. They did everything together and sometimes, even Seth would tag along. Jenny has not yet realized just how awkward things could be for Seth and Summer and has yet to find out that they had been in love and the possibility that they still were.

"So, this weekend, finally we can go shopping," Summer told Jenny.

"Yeah," Jenny said, sounding distant.

"Hey, you okay?"

"Yeah, I'm totally fine. Why would something be wrong?" Jenny asked Summer.

"Oh, I don't know, you just seem like something's wrong."

"Actually something is wrong. It's just Seth has been acting really weird since that night at the club. I don't know why and he's not telling me. All he says is that he's fine and then changes the subject. I don't know what to do about it, I mean, should I ignore it or keep trying to force it?"

Summer looked down, she didn't want to tell her why exactly he had been acting weird.

"I'm sure he's fine, although he never acted like that in highschool.." Her thoughts trailed back to those days and thought about the things that she had regretted, like how she never gave him a chance. It was like a massive flashback that went through her mind of all of the major things that happened in their relationship- the good and the bad.

"In highschool?" Jenny looked very confused.

Summer hadn't realized that she let that out. 'Shit' she thought.

"Um, what stores do you want to go to this weekend?" She said, trying to change the subject before she would say something else that she would regret.

"No, Summer, what did you mean?"

She hesitated before starting. "Jenny, I have been keeping something from you for the past week that you should have known since last week. See, Seth and I went to school together, from preschool all the way through highschool."

Jenny just looked at her and she could tell that their was more that Summer was leaving out.

"And?" Jenny urged.

"And, we dated, for a long time."

"But, that still doesn't explain why he's been acting so weird."

"Uh, yeah, it sort of does. See, we were supposed to go to college together and..." Summer didn't exactly know how to say this. "We went through a lot together. Like one summer when he sailed away cause his best friend and brother had to go back to Chino where he could have gotten a girl pregnant, and when my best friend died, and when his mom went to rehab, and when my dad started dating my best friends mom. God, I could go on forever. And things didn't end so well between us." Summer really didn't want to continue, and she hadn't meant to talk that long, but it seemed like the words just kept coming and she couldn't stop them.

"How do you mean?" An interested Jenny asked.

"Uh, well, I went into his room one day and told him that I was leaving. That I didn't want him to have to fall because of me, that I would just drag him down. So I left. Never called, never e-mailed," she thought back to the night at the club. "And I never came home for holidays. I knew that if I saw him that it would be too hard to leave again."

Summer sighed, again reliving some of her past.

She paused, not sure of wether to say what was on her mind at that very second. But, she said it anyways, "I loved him, all of him." After she said those last words, she didn't think that she would be able to look at Jenny in the eyes so she got up and walked away, back to her room.

Seth decided that today, he was going to go and search the streets for a good comic book store.

So far, he had not come across anything spectacular which he found very weird considering all the stores New York had to offer.

He didn't know how long he had been walking or even where he was, but what Seth Cohen did know, was when he found a good comic book store. He looked up at the street sign and noticed he was on St. Marks Place, crossing through Cooper Square and 2nd Avenue. Ah, here it was- Saint Marks Comics. Now, this would be his haven.

Just as he was about to walk up the stairs into the building, his cell phone rang.

"Hey."

"Hey, I, um, I need to talk to you about some very important things. Could you come back to the hotel now and we could go out for dinner or something?"

Seth sighed and rolled his eyes. He had been searching all day for a good store and he finally found one.

"Yes, I'll be there soon." He flipped the phone shut before Jenny had time to say anything else.

He got a cab and headed straight back.

Earlier that day, Sam had ordered all of the people who worked at the reception desks around the country to meet in the lobby of the Hilton. She had wanted to discuss some different things that would be coming up in the new year and how to handle different things that would be taking place around the new offices.

Cameron had done all that she needed to do and was on her way up the her room. She walked in and saw Summer, deep in thought.

"Hey, what's up?"

Summer didn't answer.

"Uh, hello? What's up?"

This time, Summer looked up and noticed that Cameron was in the room. The next day, after the club incident, Summer had told Cameron all about her past with Seth and how seeing him again made her question herself.

"Oh, hey, sorry. I was just thinking about some stuff."

"Anything you want to talk about?"

"Yes, I do."

"Okay," Cameron urged her to continue.

"Well, I had a coffee today with Jenny and the topic of Seth came up and I kinda told her everything..." Cameron's eyes widened as Summer said that.

"Well, you know, everything except the fact that I might still be in love with him. I only told her that I was in love."

"Ah, Summer," Cameron said, sympathetically.

"I know, I know. It's just so hard, seeing him again, especially after what just happened with Danny."

"Maybe you should tell Seth how you feel?"

"Yeah, right. Are you crazy?" Summer looked at Cameron like she was crazy for even suggesting that, although on the inside, she caught herself second guessing what she had just said, 'Maybe I should do that, let him know how I still feel?' she thought.

"Maybe he would tell you the same thing as what your feeling."

"No, he won't. He has Jenny now."

"Summer. If you love him, fight for him. After everything that you have told me about him and how he fought for you, he needs to know that you can fight for him, that you won't give up, even if he thinks you don't love him. Hell, I wish I had someone who I knew I loved and who I would fight for. No guy has even fought for me and the fact that you have someone who fought for you, well, that should tell you everything."

Summer looked up from the bed spread and smiled at Cameron.

"Thanks."

"You, Summer Roberts, Miss. Know-It-All should have been able to figure that out on your own." Jenny said with a straight face, then let her lips start to curl into a smile.

"I don't know why I like you,"said a joking Summer.

"I'm irresistible," Cameron smiled.

"Uh huh," she said, as both girls giggled.

While Summer had received a new understanding of what to do with Seth, Seth had just gotten a cab back to the hotel. He took the elevator up and slid the hotel key card into the slot and walked in, seeing Jenny sitting on the bed. Seth walked over and sat down next to her. He put his hand on her arm and looked at her intently, forcing her to look up from the glare.

"You okay?" He asked her.

"Yeah, I just haven't seen you in a while and you've seemed a little out of it these last couple of days," Jenny said as Seth looked towards the ground.

"Yeah, well you've been busy with Summer and Cameron and work."

"Don't blame this on me Seth, you're the one who has been acting weird ever since Bungalow 8," Jenny said, getting angry that Seth was blaming her for their lack of seeing each other.

"Whatever, Jen. Do you want to do something tonight or not?"

"Yes, Seth," Jenny spat, "I want to talk to you about some things. Right here, right now."

"Okay, what?" He said as he threw his arms in the air.

"I want to know what has been going on these last couple of days. And I also want you to tell me about Summer."

Seth looked up at her at the mention of Summer. 'What could she know about that?' he thought.

"That part of my life doesn't matter anymore. She doesn't matter anymore."

But Seth knew, he knew she still mattered. He hated admitting that to himself. He hated knowing that he loved her but that she didn't return that feeling.

"Yes, it does matter, Seth."

"What does talking about my past have anything to do with what is going on here?" he said.

"Summer. She's from your past. I know Seth."

Seth turned his face more away from her hoping that she wouldn't be able to see his shocked face.

"She has to be why you have been acting so weird. Just tell me what happened with you guys."

Her voice was soothing, understanding. At the calmness of her voice, Seth looked up and into her eyes.

"Well, lets see. It all started in the 3rd grade when she would feed the squirrels her lunch. I would watch her everyday and everyday she did something that would pull me in farther even though she didn't know that she was. She didn't even talk to me until I was a sophomore. That was the year that Ryan came to live with us. He then started to hang out with Marissa, Summer's best friend at that time, which caused us to be able to spend time together. Then something just happened and she started to like me, and that was arguably the best day of my life." Seth smiled, remembering. "But then, Anna, my ex-girlfriend, she came into town after being away from a sailing trip and then I started to like her because I wasn't sure that I would ever get that chance with Summer. Then we had like this triangle thing for a while and then Anna came over to my house on New Years Eve, cliche, I know. And after that we started dating. And then Marissa got involved a little with this guy, Oliver, and then he threatened to shoot himself and then I was happy to hear that Marissa was okay and then I told Anna that I was going to call Summer and tell her that Marissa was okay and then she got mad and we broke up and then I went to Summer's house," he said, skipping the part about their little rendezvous. "And then we started dating and a bunch of other stuff happened and well," he unsure of weather to say the last part, "I fell hopelessly in love with her." He finished, mad at himself for basically reliving his life up until the end of sophomore year.

Jenny's face fell. They both really did love each other. And the fact that Seth had been acting weird this past week spoke volumes.

"Do you still, you know– love her?" That was the last question that she wanted to ask, but she needed an answer.

This was Seth's time to really think about what she was asking. He sat there for a minute, not looking at Jenny. Seth pursed his lips and finally came up with an answer.

"See, I hate this question because there would be so many ways to answer that. To be totally blunt, yes, I love Summer Roberts, always have, always will. But, I love you, too."

It killed Seth to say those 3 words. Those 3 words were monstrous and they held true meaning, but when he said that to her, it wasn't like when he told Summer that he loved her, loves her.

"I love you too, Seth, but this is like huge news to me. My God, you loved each other. You loved her- she loved you."

"I just have one question, how did you find out about Summer and me?"

"Summer told me, actually. But right now, I'm going to take a walk."

"Jen, it's like 10. Were in Times Square, you shouldn't be by yourself."

"Seth, I'm fine. I'll be back soon, I just need to think about this for a while."

She got up and kissed him on the cheek and walked out of the hotel room.

Seth thought about why had just happened and he decided that there was only one thing that he could do now. Go and see Summer.

He walked out of the room after grabbing his key and made his way up to the 17th floor. He held his hand up to the door, ready to knock, but pulled it away. Was he ready to do this, talk to her again, alone? He decided that this was a better time than never and knocked 5 times in that rhythmic way.

"Coming!" Summer yelled. She threw open the door and there he stood. Her breath became caught in her throat and she opened her mouth to say something but nothing came out.

"Hey."

"Cohen, what are you doing here?"

"I wanted to talk to you about some stuff."

"Uh sure, come in. Or do you want to go get something to eat? I just realized that I haven't eaten dinner yet." She smiled.

"Yeah, dinner's good. I haven't eaten either."

She grabbed her purse and they were off. They walked down the street in silence, but for the first time that week, it was comfortable. They came upon this small Italian restaurant and got seated right in front of the window. They ordered their drinks, ordered their food, ate their food and still they had not talked about what was on both of their minds. The left the restaurant and walked down a quite back street where the apartment lights were both off and on.

"So..."

"Yeah, Cohen, I think that we should talk."

"Yeah, um, Jenny came to me today and asked me about our past. I told her basically my whole life story and you were in quite a bit of it," Summer raised her eyes. "Yeah, your right, all of it." Seth admitted, "But, I don't know, I just- God I don't know."

"Don't worry, I know what you mean."

'God, I cannot believe that I am about to do this,' Summer thought.

"Seth, um I have something to tell you. Something like, totally monumental."

"Okay," he said, wanting to know more.

Summer stopped walking before beginning to say what was on her mind.

"Since Danny has died, I have been thinking a lot about when I left and about the people I left, more so you, but I see how stupid I was to leave you and leave what we had. I was so scared, Seth, of losing you, of making you crack because what I went through would have done that."

"I would have cracked for you, you know that, Summer. I would have done anything for you."

"I know, but let me finish, please. I know that I told you I loved you, but my love for you is something that is never going to go away, as much as I make it try. And believe me, I have tried, but I don't know what it is about you Seth Cohen that keeps reeling me back in."

Seth had a feeling of what she was about to say, but he wasn't sure.

"And what I really want to say is, I love you. There are no other words to express how I feel because those 3 words mean everything."

Seth looked into her eyes and a look of relief flooded through both of them. He smiled a little as did she. He leaned down to her and raised his hand to rest it gently on her neck and slowly inched closer, his eyes never leaving hers. He finally captured her lips in his. It was now her turn. She got up on her tippy-toes and snaked her arms around his neck and locked them at its base. He pulled back a little and opened his eyes too look at her. Her's were still closed, her mind twirling with new possibilities. He leaned in again, rougher this time. They stood like that for a while, kissing, enjoying the others touch that they had lived without for so long.

They finally broke apart, their lips swollen with a newfound connection to each other.

"I missed you. I missed this," it was Seth's turn to talk.

"Me too." Summer looked up at him and reached for his neck again to bring him down into another kiss.

Seth's thoughts wondered over to Jenny. He quickly changed them back to Summer and noticed how easy it was to do. It was ironic how all of those years go by without Summer and how he could not block her out, but now that she was here he could block out everything else.

I am sorry if this chapter is shit. I had a lot of trouble writing it. Please read and review and suggestions are totally welcome!