1A/N: This chapter gets more back into the mind set of Robin's decision and brings about Beast Boy in an actually important role. He may seem serious in this chapter which is not like him but I believe the only time he would ever be serious would be when it concerned Terra which for the most part stays true to the show as he was quite serious anytime Terra was involved...well almost always. Anywho, enjoy.

Disclaimer: I do not own the Teen Titans, but hey, I think we all knew that already.

Trying To Do the Right Thing

Chapter 8

By: Finalitylife

Robin P.O.V:

I can remember when I was still completely consumed by Slade that time seemed to fly by, that there never seemed to be enough hours in the day for me to accomplish everything I wanted to do yet now, that I am consumed with an entirely different problem, I find that the clock ticks by the pace of a snail. It feels like its been weeks since all this started and in reality, so many things have happened that it should have been weeks but its only been a few days. I feel like the whole world has continued moving yet the tower has fallen into slow motion, leaving me to dwell over so many things that I still don't think I understand completely. The only plus to the entire situation is that in the last twenty four hours or so, since the incident with Raven in my room, a tentative peace has settled over our home. Raven had barely been seen, choosing to spend most of her time in her room meditating. Starfire had been leaving the tower for almost the entire time to...see the beauty of Earth as she put it, but I believe what she was doing was her own type of meditation. Beast Boy and Cyborg seemed to be affected by the quietness of the tower itself and had taken to lounging around on the couch flipping through channels, not even having the motivation to argue about meat. On occasions, Cyborg would give me a look that I knew was asking me if things were getting resolved and all I could do was slowly nod my head because I was doing my best to get everything resolved, it was just an arduous process.

Anytime I'm faced with a problem that I can not fix or a mystery I can not solve, I always throw my entire self into finding the solution no matter the cost. It is my obsessive nature that helps make me a prepared leader and effective detective but it is also that nature that made me Red X, the first apprentice, as well as nearly took my life battling my own inner demon when the dust entered me, when I simply could not let go of finding Slade. However, this problem I faced now had evolved into something I almost feared, something that I don't think there was a true answer to. I've always wanted to do the right thing, I've always wanted to make sure that no one I cared about got hurt because of me, but I knew, with this, that someone would inevitably hurt, and the jury was still out on whether that person would be me after breaking someone's heart. The other problem in all of this was that I simply did not understand my own feelings as I really had never put too much thought into the depths of my own heart because for a long time I never thought I needed to. Batman had raised me not to worry about such things but he had made it clear from our talk that it was something I needed to do, evaluate what my heart desired. Even then, I'm not entirely sure what I'm looking for as the truth of the love I am searching for is a foreign concept to me just as I'm sure it is to Raven though I'm sure Starfire has felt something at one point to a lesser extent. Of course I'm supposed to be the great detective so I should be able to find something no matter how difficult, but I don't think I've ever had to find something as elusive as love.

Two beautiful, amazing women had fallen in love with me, two stunning, remarkable beings cared for me above anyone else in their lives and that thought was still hard for me to understand though after the talks with both of them the depths of all it were made far more clear. Starfire loved me. Raven loved me. It still sounded a little bit strange to hear but after hearing from both of the girls, I found that it wasn't as bad to hear, even comforting to hear. Maybe because I hadn't heard those words since my parents and that had been so very long ago.

I understand there are many different types of love one can feel. The love between friends, the love between parents and siblings, and the love between two people that goes beyond simple definition. I'm trying to be as logical as possible about this situation, trying to figure out what simply makes the most sense, and I am starting to understand that may be my problem. I am trying to be logical about emotions rather than simply trying to feel them. I sit down writing lists of pros and cons of both girls over and over again in my room, yet as rational as it is to chose to love the one with most pros and least cons, it is idiocy to think that is an acceptable solution. You can not help who you fall in love with, you can not choose based on a list of their qualities, but I still don't know how you know. I just don't know and I am so damn sick of thinking that same thought over and over again in my head.

I feel like banging my head against the wall, oh I don't know, until I lose consciousness, and I'd be lying if I didn't say I was about five seconds from jumping out the window into the cold water of they bay just to try and stop the relentless thinking I was being subjected to yet just by the barest margin from doing either of those things, something hit me. I had not even thought about going to him, but when does anybody go to talk to Beast Boy about solving a problem. Usually its going to Beast Boy asking why he found it necessary to cause this particular problem yet Beast Boy knew the feelings that I needed to find within myself, needed to be able to recognize. He had been in love with Terra, a fact that was obvious to us all, and I knew, when she was around, the young man had never been happier. Her betrayal had nearly destroyed him but I think he understood her better than anyone, understood what would have driven her away into the arms of Slade, and I think she made it clear in the end that she loved Beast Boy just as much as he did her. I was tentative about bringing up something with Beast Boy because I know Terra was still a bit touchy with him but he had proven to be stronger and more resilient that I had thought, proven he could handle a conversation like the one I was going to initiate. Just maybe, a talk with him would help point me in a better direction. Beast Boy was fueled by emotions and whims, and again, maybe I was being still a bit too logical, but maybe talking with someone like that would make me better.

By whatever small bit of fortune that was willing to still shine down on me, upon leaving my room and heading down to the main room, I found Beast Boy, by himself, sitting on the couch watching some type of show that I didn't quite recognize. Of course there were so many shows out there with so many channels that it was impossible to know them all, though Beast Boy was dangerously close to achieving that impossibility. I walked over and sat down on the other side of the couch, he barely moved.

"Hey Beast Boy, where's Cyborg at? I haven't seen him off the couch in forever." Beast Boy didn't look at me but did respond.

"He said something about the T-car needing work and that he had been lazy for too long so had to do something. Honestly, I don't know what he was talking about. We only watched tv for like 14 hours. Its not lazy until at least double that." I couldn't help but quietly chuckle at the joke which for all I knew, could have been complete seriousness. Silence between the two of us resumed for quite a bit as Beast Boy seemed to be engulfed in what he was watching. Eventually, I figured it was time to try and start what would probably be a very awkward conversation.

"Hey Beast Boy...how did you know you were in love with Terra?" I knew it was blunt but I had to try and get his attention somehow. His body visibly tensed up for a second but then relaxed again. The sound of the tv clicking off was heard and after a few seconds, he responded.

"That wasn't a question I ever thought I'd hear from you Rob. What brought on your sudden interest in that?" His voice was quiet though was surprisingly relaxed sounding. I hesitantly responded, feeling slightly nervous in front of Beast Boy. That truly was a first.

"Well, as you may or may not noticed there have been some things going around the tower as of late, disruptive things, and the answer to that question may make things easier for me on how to deal with this all." Beast Boy's head turned toward me and I found a seriousness in his eyes but a small smile on his lips.

"Is it Starfire or Raven?" I wasn't really shocked by Beast Boy's observation skills. He may have not been the most intelligent of people but to not understand my reasoning for asking him this particular question was not beyond him.

"That's kind of where the problem lies Beast Boy." He nodded his head in a serious manner and a serious Beast Boy was a very strange sight to behold.

"Well if me telling you how I knew I loved Terra will help, then I guess I'll tell you. What a lot of people don't know, is that I used to have a thing for Raven." Again, I wasn't shocked by this news but it had been obvious for awhile.

"Maybe it was the whole, opposites attract thing or maybe that I kind of knew I could never have her, or maybe it was because she was the only one I never made laugh, but whatever it was, I did have feelings for her. Of course, then Terra came along, and I know it wasn't love at first sight, but the second I saw her, I knew she was special. It all started from there, all started from that feeling that she was just something important to me. I got quickly over Raven when Terra came back but that was just some feelings. Of course the more I hung around Terra, the more I realized just what being with Raven would be like if we were together. With Terra, I was free to be myself entirely, free to act exactly who I am, not having to pretend I was someone else, and she truly cared for what I really was.. I knew that if I was ever with Raven, I'd have to change because parts of what make me me clash with some of the parts that make her her, things that would never be able to work together." I slowly nodded my head as I listened, doing my best to make sense of what he was saying.

"Being around Terra, I felt at peace, I felt comfortable, I felt happy to be immature and green skinned, not like an outcast I've dealt with a lot in my life." I could see him smiling as he talked, no doubt reminiscing about some memory between him and Terra in is head as he spoke, happy memories.

"You asked how I knew I loved Terra well it was something that eventually just was. I cared deeply for Terra. I respected her, I lusted after her, I trusted her, and I loved just being me around her. She made me happy, she made me sad, but she made me complete. All these things simply came together over time, and one day, I simply knew that I was in love with her more than anything in this world. I just simply knew that what truly lied deep with in all my feelings, was pure love for her." I was truly surprised by the words of Beast Boy. The words were compelling, strong, and held so much of his own emotions in them. I realized I was looking at a Beast Boy that probably very few had ever seen though I was sure a blonde haired earthmover was one of the fortunate few to see this man appear more than once. I had no idea what to say to him at this moment though it seemed he was still willing to do all the talking for both of us.

"If you're not sure how to respond to all of this Rob, that's cool. If my answer didn't give you a final answer to your question, well that's cool to. I guess what I'm trying to tell you Rob is that there is no answer that is going to just pop up and say hello. I was in love with Terra but it took months for that feeling to emerge. Now you've known Starfire and Raven for a long time and if you're not sure about where your feelings ly, then its probably because they don't ly anywhere, haven't become what your looking for. The answer won't appear because your dead set on looking for it, but will appear when its actually supposed to be there, not when you want it."

"Wow Beast Boy, that...that was profound." He gave me a big smile.

"Hey man, I can't get by on my good looks and sense of humor alone ya know." I couldn't help but laugh as Beast Boy returned back to his usual self though when he had spoke those words was no less a legitimate part of who he was.

"Thanks man, I'm glad I came to talk to you."

"Anytime Rob. Anytime. But now if you'll excuse me, I have a James Bond marathon to start watching and that will require all of my vast, all-knowing brain power." Beast Boy struck some type of strange pose that almost made me question the fact of why I would ever listen to someone like him but his words always came back to me, and the truth that lied within them. Everyone had been telling me I had to make a decision, had to figure out who my heart was with, but Beast Boy had made it rather clear. I didn't have to make a decision because if I couldn't figure out who I was in love with, that was because I wasn't in love with either of them. I was trying to force out emotions so that I could solve the problem I faced, get this over with as soon as I could, but that just wasn't a possibility. I had to be honest with myself and like he said, I would simply know the feeling of love when I truly felt it. I think in my quest to try and decide, I almost started allowing myself to follow a path that I didn't believe whole heartedly in, and if I walked down one of those roads without truly wanting what was at the end, then I would have just made another huge mistake. I rose from the couch as Beast Boy was already engrossed in his marathon and decided to head back to my room. I felt a little bit lighter, like a weight had been lifted off of my shoulders for a time. I still was faced with a particular decision but I knew that hastily trying to make this particular decision would only end in disaster. I knew, that one way or another, time would settle all of this out, and I, for once, just had to be aware of what I was feeling, to learn to truly understand what I was feeling, and that would eventually lead me to the right path. .

spiderbob: This was about as fast as I could get this chapter out because I have been busy recently and I don't see me having anytime to write until Monday night but the next chapter should be out about then so patience is key.

evilsangle: I still don't know which way I want to go with the coupling though my history does point to where I usually go. This story should be okay for you on the crying thing because it shouldn't be too sad or too tragic. Hey its okay to be weak, but never in public, but that's just one man's paranoid opinion. Anyways, your opinion has been strongly noted and I will keep it in mind as I progress with the story.

Cherry Jade: Ah the sugar high, I remember those in times past though reality and fiction over even the most recent of years have blurred far too much to know if what I remember is right. As always, thanks for the very kind words from you and anytime you want to call me the best, well then feel free to but only if I deserve it and yeah, I did deserve it for last chapter. And on to another note, thanks for the defense of me and my writing in that review. You are a hundred percent correct in what you said but in the end, I guess you can't really stop people from speaking their minds even if it really doesn't make sense. Oh wellz, I really appreciate it and II just think its funny that after everything I've written that's the first time a pairing issue has ever come up.