Chapter 6: How can I go On?

(Queen- and I wanted to thank everyone else for there suggestions but I couldn't really fit any of them into this chapter although I am actually planning on using some for future chapters, but shout out to bellybuttonsrcool who reminded me that queen is the best band ever made so when I looked up a list of all of their song titles I realized that any questions in life can be answered with a queen song. that's my tip of the day. Ok keep those song titles coming… p.s. lyrics from this song are posted at the bottom of the chapter…enjoy. And thanks to everyone who reviewed I love you all. I hope you enjoy this chapter I'm sorry I didn't have time to respond to reviews and I thought you would rather get the update now instead of later so I posted it instead…thanks and review please….)

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The next day Lorelai was in the kitchen of the Dragonfly Inn, a place that she had missed more than she would have liked to. She was drinking a cup of coffee and Sookie was catching her up on the happenings of the past couple weeks that she had missed.

"and then Michel got out the broom…" She went on.

"No!" Lorelai said in disbelief.

"And he was like, iv you do naut oh-pen zat door I vill break my way in!" Sookie said trying to imitate his French accent.

"with a broom?" Lorelai asked, enjoying the story and yet upset that she had missed it all.

"Yeah I don't know what he was thinking but apparently the guy got scared." She continued.

"Of the broom or Michel?"

"I'm not sure, but he opened the door." Sookie said.

"and the birds were…." Lorelai said motioning with her hand, wanting to know how it ended.

"there were no birds!" Sookie laughed.

"No!"

"Apparently the guy has a hard time trying to sleep-" Sookie said.

"Well with crazy French men threatening him with brooms-" Lorelai interrupted.

"and he had one of those 'sounds of nature' machines that he brings around with him-"

"Oh my god!" Lorelai laughed picturing Michel's face. "poor guy."

"No, poor Michel" Sookie corrected.

"poor Michel?" Lorelai asked.

"Well after Michel searched the room high and low for these birds, the guy completely cracked, and he starts screaming about privacy and the purpose of doors and he totally flipped out."

"and Michel…"

"Cried." Sookie stated, unable to remain serious.

"Michel cried?" Lorelai asked.

"He comes into the kitchen and yells 'Zie Queet" in this loud high pitch voice and runs out the door."

"No!"

"of course he came back in the next day pretending like nothing had happened." Sookie explained.

"he cried?" Lorelai asked.

"well it's hard to tell with him, but his voice started to get really high, and his face was all squinted up, and there were definitely tears."

"Aww." she laughed sympathetically. "what happened to Mr. Nature Machine?"

"Oh we gave him free meals for the rest of his stay and discounted his room. Molly's decision." Sookie said, referencing the woman who Lorelai had employed to take over as manager while Lorelai was not there.

"Smart woman" Lorelai said with a hint of jealousy in her voice.

"Lorelai…." Michel called as he came into the kitchen with an annoyed voice.

"oh hey Michel..." Lorelai said trying not to laugh.

"Zum vun iz here to zee you." He said, trying to figure why she was acting so weird.

"Who?" Lorelai asked, Rory was hanging out with Lane the whole day.

"I am not your mezzenger, go zee vor yourzelve." He said continuing his way into the kitchen.

"Hey Michel?" Lorelai said trying to keep a straight face.

"Yez?" He answered annoyed.

"Do you hear something?" she said looking at the ceiling.

"no"

"It sounds like… I don't know" Lorelai snapped her fingers as if she was trying to place the sound.

"I don't hear anyzing" Michel said panicked, looking around.

"Oh wait there it is again…" She said looking around. "caaaaaw- cah caaw!" she crow'ed her best impression of a bird out of the side of her mouth. She broke out laughing when she saw his face.

"You told her!" He said pointing at Sookie, betrayed. Lorelai left the room laughing as Sookie tried to explain her self. Her laughing, and heart nearly stopped when she got to the Lobby and saw Luke waiting at the other side of the desk. She went around to meet him.

"Something funny?" He asked her curiously in a voice as close to normal as he could manage.

"Looong story." She said stretching out the word to emphasize how long it actually was.

"Oh! I- uh…" He said producing a large to-go coffee cup from behind his back and offering it to her.

"Oh, thanks." Lorelai was hesitant at first but took it gratefully and looked up at him cautiously waiting for him to talk.

"I heard you really didn't drink coffee anymore, but I figured you hadn't had it in a while so-"

"Yeah, Thanks actually I really missed this." She said before she took a sip of the heavenly liquid. He stood there awkwardly shifting and Lorelai couldn't decide if it was because he was waiting for her to say something or if he wanted to say something. "So, um what's up?"

Luke realized that this probably was just as weird for her as it was for him. "well-I just- I saw you drive by last night, and I didn't uh know if you would come in at all."

"Oh."

"Yeah but. You…you can you know. If- if you want to, I mean." He stumbled over his words.

"oh ok" She said quickly trying to get past the weirdness.

"Not that you couldn't before- I just meant that it wouldn't be weird. It would be-"

"Not weird" she cut him off, smiling a little bit.

"Right." He said.

"Like this." She motioned between them

"Yeah- I just, I know how what happened" he said emphasizing his last words "before you left last time and I- I didn't want it to be-"

"Weird." She repeated his words.

"Yeah…" He trailed off. He found himself getting lost in her eyes, he had missed her so much. But something about what was going through his head sent a pang through his heart. Too much had happened between them, he reminded himself. To much had happened since then. But she wasn't looking away.

They were interrupted when Lorelai's cell phone started playing the theme to Charlie's Angels.

"I should probably-" She said motioning to her phone with her head.

"Right." He said, before he nodded his goodbye. "So I'll see you?" He asked her.

"Yeah, I'll see you." She responded with a small smile before she picked up her phone without looking at the caller ID.

"Hello?" She answered it.

"Lor-" was all that Chris could get out before she closed her phone and putting it on the desk far away from her. She switched it to silent mode before she walked into the kitchen.

She spent the rest of the day in a haze of thought. What had just happened before? She couldn't help but question the feeling that she got in her stomach when Luke had looked at her like that. She knew that she still had feelings for him, how could she not. He was Luke, and what they had was so special. She knew that she Loved him and would probably always love him. And that had been ok when she had been so content with the fact that he hated her guts. But what she saw in his eyes was not hatred. There was sadness, and a little regret, and something, else. Something that she had longed to see for so long now that was there. Something that definitely was not hatred. And it scared her. She had tried so hard to move on from Luke, to hate him, to hate herself. She had tried to give up, and when she failed to do so she instead just shut out her feelings alltogether. Her head hurt, and she decided that not fighting with Luke was definitely a lot harder on her emotionally than fighting with Luke was. She immediately felt guilty when she saw her phone light up from across her desk, knowing that the person who was calling was definitely not Luke. "uhhh!" She groaned in frustration before she walked into her office and closed the door.

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a/n- yay! Ok that's chapter six everyone. Please review…and these are the lyrics from the chorus that made me want to use this as the chapter title….

How can I go on From day to day/ Who can make me strong in every way /Where can I be safe/ Where can I belong/ In this great big world of sadness/ How can I forget Those beautiful dreams that we shared /They're lost and they're nowhere to be found/ How can I go on?

If you don't like it deal with it. Queen Rocks.

(if you don't like spoilers dont read whats below)

by the way have any other spoiler junkies out there read the spoiler for 7.08? I cant frickin wait and i know that they obviously aren't promising anything but im just excited for the interaction there. because in the show its been soo00oo00oo long since they actually talked at all and this is something thats important that luke turns to her for support,aww. I hope they realize that they need eachother and cant live without eachother. november 21st everyone, hopefully the episode will make up for everything the writers have put us through this past year already. I dont know i dont want to get my hopes up, but i can't wait to see how they make Lorelai and Luke get back together on the show, and i have a feeling that it will happen eventually when they realize they are loosing fans by drawing out this christopher/lorelai thing, but i don't want to wait too long, you know?

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