a/n: ok page breaks, now instead of the oooooooo s i was using, which i decided have no meaning whatsoever are now lalalalalalaaaaaaaaaaaaalalalaaaaaaaaaaaalalaaaaaaaaa so if you want in your head you can sing the lalalas from the show. Or not. whatever. Don't mock me... i heard that.

ok and responses this week wahooo...

proffesser- I am truly sorry to you and to everyone else who had a problem with my written french accent, and let me assure you that my spoken french accent is not so good either...haha.. his character is just more real and funny in my head when he has that stupid french accent and i just typed it how the Michel in my head was saying it to me..Im not crazy i swear...and i know it came out kind of weird and can be kind of annoying but it was only a few lines and hes not going to hold any major roles in the rest of this, i don't know if he'll even come up again it was more of an impulse thing, so you probably don't have to worry about it but im sorry. Thanks for letting me no ill tone down the accents, continue reading and thanks for the review.

avesnovuelan- thanks, i know a lot didn't happen i really just had to set up for this chapter soooo yeah. Um i just forgot everything i was going to say..o yeah thanks for the review and the song, its a good song ive heard it before and the lyrics are really relevent. I'll see where i can fit it in thanks! Im happy you like it so far!

Cinny72, yet again your review makes my day. Thank you. I really don't know what else to say. And i no i am so excited for that episode...I will be on my couch in my spongebob squarepants pajama pants with a bowl of popcorn watching that one, that means its important- i don't break out my spongebob's for just any occasion...

i wish i was mrs danes 117-I just reviewed your fic I'll Be seeing You but i actually just remembered something i was reading your profile and i think its soooooooooooo funny. Hahahhaha. I lOvE friends and im going to find that episode right now to watch it with hummswhilehepees. Chris is such an ass...i completely agree with you there. I would totally join your chris haters club anyday...haha lol fun. and this is for everybody, if your ever really down, go on youtube and look up the Luke punching Chris scene, oh and just replay the part with luke punching him over and over and over and over and over and over and over...sooooooooo much fun. :)

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Chapter 7: Like We Never Loved At All

(faith Hill/tim McGraw, lyrics at bottom)

It was around eight o'clock that night and while the Diner was completely empty, Luke's sign was still flipped to 'open'. The majority of the town, even Kirk who was usually at the diner for most of the day, was at an emergency town meeting taking place in Patty's that was called to investigate a new family that had moved onto Perkin's Street that Babette had sworn she overheard admitting that they were a clan of serial killers making their way down the east coast.

Lorelai had been pacing outside of the Diner for the past five minutes. She was debating whether she should go in or not, he had asked her too afterall. It wouldn't be weird, no why would it be. It's not like they hadn't been alone together since the night he tried to stop her from moving and she turned him down. She thought sarcastically. But god, that coffee. She needed coffee, and she needed a friend. Something in the way that Luke had talked to her before, told her that he was still there for her. She didn't deserve him, even as a friend. But when she looked up, she saw Luke looking at her with an amused look on his face, so deciding that it would be more embarassing to just go home she opened the door to the diner and stepped inside, the bell signaling her entrance.

"Hey." He said, still amused by her.

"Hi. So um, how long were you watching me?" She asked with a hint of humor in her voice as she made her way up to a stool at the counter.

"I wasn't watching you." He said. "I was just timing how long it would take you to come in."

"Ha ha." She said dryly. "I was just getting some...exercise."

"Exercise..." Luke repeated, nodding, pretending he was taking her seriously but finding it hard.

"Yes. Problem?" She asked him.as she put her purse on the counter next to her.

"Not at all." He said. "So why aren't you at the meeting?"

"well technically I don't live here anymore." She said. He nodded, looking slightly saddened but trying to brush it off. 'And frankly I couldn't think of a more awkward time to come into the diner for the first time in six months than when it was completely empty.' she thought to herself.

"Oh- Coffee?" He asked after a while, she gave him a 'duh' look and he turned around to pour her a cup which he placed in front of her.

"Ahhh..." She sighed. "I've missed you " She said talking to her cup of coffee before she took a long sip.

"So hows the Inn?" He asked her.

"New or old?" She asked.

"Both."

"Oh they are both doing really well actually, I've really missed the Dragonfly. Sookie was telling me this crazy incident that happened last month with this guy and a sound machine that made bird sounds. Long story short Michel thought that the guy had real birds in his room and threatened him with a broomstick and then the guy made Michel cry..." She said laughing a little, and he let out a chuckle as well. "I just didn't realize how much i have missed all that. that crazyness..." She trailed off, and he nodded his understanding.

Lorelai's phone started to ring again and Luke looked at her, waiting for her to pick it up. "Grrr!" She let out in frustration before she turned her phone off.

"What you don't pick up your phone anymore?" He asked her, leaning on the counter.

"Well you don't allow it." She said motioning to the sign that was on the wall behind him, trying to avoid the real reason.

"That never stopped you before." He said.

"Well now it does okay?" She said trying to change the subject.

"Are you and Rory fighting?" He asked her seriously, noticing that she was more off than what had become normal for her lately.

"No." She said. She looked up and saw him look down, realizing she had been a little harsh she decided to explain. "It was Chris."

Luke swallowed hard and looked at the ground. Crap. She thought. Should she have told him that? He was talking to her again, why did she have to bring up Chris?

"Oh-" Was all he got out. She had missed Luke so much and the reminder of Chris to her was a reminder of what she had lost and how she had lost it. A single tear made its way down her cheek and she fought to hide it. "Hey..." He said trying to soothe her, he put a hand on hers but at his touch she quickly took her hand away and put it on her lap. Fearing that he had taken it the wrong way she decided to explain.

"Don't- I don't deserve this." She said. "Not after everything that happened, I don't deserve this." She repeated sternly.

"Lorelai-" He said but she interrupted.

"Look at me." She said sounding disgusted with herself as she wiped her eyes with her hand. "Look how completely pathetic I am...I'm sitting here, in the diner of my ex-fiance, crying infront of him about how my life has turned out, and it's all my fault..."

"Hey-" He said softly trying to get her to calm down.

"And look at you! You're great, of course, as always. And your trying to make me feel better after how I treated you...After everything I did to you...I don't deserve you..." She said.

"It wasn't all your fault Lorelai..." He said putting his hand back on hers. "We messed up, we both did. I was a big part of that...don't blame it all on yourself...I'm always here for you..."

She looked up and caught his eye, and he squeezed her hand before he reached under the counter and produced a pack of cards. "Five card draw." He said simply before he started dealing them out.

She laughed slightly through her tears, remembering the last time they had done this. "You're on." She said repeating herself, only slightly sadder this time.

A couple of minutes later Christopher was standing outside the Diner window, watching Lorelai and Luke laugh cautiously as they played cards together in the dark diner. Lorelai threw her hands up, and he could tell that she had won when Luke turned around and poured her another cup of coffee, and she smiled gratefully accepting it. When Luke went to shuffle the Cards again, Chris couldn't take it anymore. The bell rang as he entered the diner, a little angrily and the door shut loudly behind him. Luke and Lorelai jumped at the noise and turned to see who had entered. The small smile immediatly left Lorelai's face when she saw Christopher standing in the Diner.

"Lorelai-" He said seriously, Luke excused himself silently and he went into the kitchen, not avoiding hearing their conversation.

"Chris." Lorelai said imitating his tone.

"I have been trying to reach you for two days!" He said, sounding worried.

"Well its nice to know that you could take off of work for five minutes to see if I was okay." Lorelai said dryly.

"You didn't call me. Rory didn't call me..." He went on loudly.

"Oh, are you sure that the daughter you said was the quote mistake I made when I was sixteen unquote didn't call to see how your day was? maybe you just missed the CALL!" She yelled. Luke was starting to get angry from the other room, but it was not his place to say anything, not anymore, and besides Lorelai could hold her own.

"Lor- You know I didn't mean it like that, you should have answered my calls! I needed to talk to you!"

"Ok. Well we talked, are you done now?"

"No! And I refuse to have this conversation here."

"Fine." She said. Luke emerged from the kitchen and she gave him an apologetic, slightly embarassed smile. He nodded, understanding her. "So I'll see you tomorrow?" She asked him in a much kinder tone than she had adressed Christopher.

"Yeah...tomorrow." He said softly. She grabbed her bag and followed Christopher out the door.

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By the time they got home, the one in Stars Hollow, Lorelai was ready to explode. Christopher and her had not talked the whole way there and she could tell that he was fuming, what reason did he have to be angry at her? She had done nothing wrong! When the front door shut, Chris turned around.

"are you done?" He asked her.

"What are you talking about?" She asked incredulously.

"Whatever this is, whatever you came here for, are you done?"

"No Chris...God I still have so much to catch up on...besides the fact that I don't want to even be talking to you right now let alone living with you!"

"Well that's too bad because I'm not leaving you here."

"Excuse me?"

"Listen I'm sorry about what I said before, I really didn't mean it. Just- Just please come home with me." he said calmly, deciding to change his approach. He walked towards her and put his hands on her upperarms softly caressing them. She looked up at him and he leaned forward and kissed her motionless lips. He kissed her again more forcefully but her lips refused to respond. He stroked her cheeks with his thumbs but she stood there emotionless, silently reminding herself that this is what she had chosen.

"Talk to Rory and then you can talk to me." She said before she went upstairs and turned on the shower.

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It was Sunday morning and Rory and Lorelai were walking down the streets of Stars Hollow one last time before Lorelai headed back to Boston and Rory headed back to Yale.

"So you wanna eat?" Rory asked her mom.

"Sure...yeah...eating's good." Lorelai said distracted.

"Westons?" Rory asked automatically starting in that direction.

"Oh...Ok...Or you know we could..." She trailed off.

"We could what?" Rory asked.

"We could go to Lukes." She said casually. Rory's face lit up.

"Since when do we go to Lukes?" Rory asked wanting more information.

"Since now ok, Do you want to or not?" Lorelai said trying to change the subject.

"Of course I want to...What happened, spill!" Rory told her mom.

"We'll talk later ok?"

"Fine, but you better tell me."

"I will." Lorelai said. She felt guilty that she hadn't told her daughter that she and Luke were talking again, but she would also feel guilty if Rory knew. For some reason it felt wrong, she was married afterall, and to Rory's father.

The girls walked into Luke's and the bell signaled their arrival. Luke looked up and when he saw who had entered a smile passed his face uncontrollably. It had been so long since they had come in the diner together to eat. It had been two days since he had seen Lorelai at all and Rory hadn't stopped by either.

"Hey" He said regarding both of them, he gave them a small gesture to say that he would be right with them before he went back to the customer that he was talking to. Rory chose a table by the window and she gave her mom an excited yet confused look.

"Ow!" Rory said when Lorelai kicked her under the table.

"Stop looking at me like that." Lorelai whispered loudly.

"He said hey..." Rory told her encouragingly.

"Ror-ry..." She whispered.

"When did you guys start talking?" Rory whispered loudly.

"I said later!" Lorelai whispered back.

"Why are we whispering?" Luke said loudly from over them, startling them both causing Lorelai to grasp at her heart.

"Oh my god Luke, are you trying to kill me?" Lorelai asked him.

"Yeah that was my plan, taking your orders is just the gravy on top." Rory was happy to see that they were talking again, bantering still, but was there a hint of flirting underneath? She could never tell with her mother and Luke.

"What can I get you?" He asked Rory.

"Hmm... I'll have Chocolate Chip Pancakes covered in whipped cream, side of bacon. Large cup of coffee." She said as he wrote it down. "And can i get a plate of hashbrowns?" She asked him.

"Sure." He said. He nodded at Lorelai.

"Ok...well..." She tried to decide.

"I don't have all day." He said impatiently.

"Keep your pants on Luke I haven't been here in a really long time!..." She read over the menu in front of her, humming slightly. When she realized what she had said she felt her face starting to blush so she chose quickly. "I'll have the same." She said.

"You won't live to see 40" he told her in a gruff yet amused tone.

"It's good to be back." She said ignoring his comment. He walked away and she looked at Rory who was giving her a knowing look and she just shrugged at her happily.

The whole time Lorelai found herself unable to pay attention to her daughter, she was constantly distracted by Luke's presence, stealing glances at him when she could. A few times he caught her and she looked away quickly. It was so wierd to her how quickly things had started to get back to 'normal' for them. Not that they were anywhere near there yet, and 'there' only being when they were just friends. At the same time it made sense, because even though after everything they had gone through, they had been friends for eight years before they even starting to go out. Talking to him, laughing and joking with him, even the bantering and flirting, it was just natural as if she had no control over what came out of her mouth. It was unmistakeable that things were different now, now they knew what they had, knew what they were when they were together and how happy they had been.

There was a sense of sadness when they talked that was not present before. A part of her that she often hid and pushed away still missed him so much, he was physically there now, but she missed who they used to be together, she missed being able to kiss him and hold him whenever she wanted. She missed the part of him that he only gave to her. She missed how happy she had been when they were together, how he made her smile, how he laughed, how he comforted her when she cried. She missed 'them' and it hurt her and scared her so much to know that she would probably never get it back. But she pushed these feelings away because now she didn't have any other choice.

When Rory left and Lorelai had to pay her bill she decided to bring it up to the counter instead of just leaving it on the table.

"Thanks." He said when she handed it to him.

"I'm um, leaving for Boston." She told him. When he was getting her receit. He looked up, with shock apparent in his voice he spoke.

"Oh, yeah." He said casually as if he had known already.

"What?" She asked him.

"Nothing- I just thought..." He trailed off wondering if he should tell her what he thought.

"Well good for you scarecrow." She laughed at her own joke.

"Wizard of Oz" He said. "If I only had a brain." She smiled with pride.

"My work here is done." She said overdramatically. She immediatly looked down, to hide the sadness that had overcome her face when she thought about what she had said. "Really, what were you thinking?" She asked him seriously before looking up at him again.

"No-I just didn't think you'd be going back." He said quietly, mumbled slightly. She looked up at him and searched his face for a deeper explanation.

"Oh you mean because..." She said remembering he had been there when Chris and her had fought. She immediatly became embarassed in her decision to go back to Boston. "We...talked." She said.

"Oh." Luke responded, obviously having feelings on the subject but opting not to go any further. "And ...Rory's okay?" He asked her.

"Yeah. They...talked too." She said feeling uncomfortable, she felt like Luke could see right through her, and saw how weak she had been in deciding to forgive Chris.

"Ok." He said to her. "For the road?" He asked sliding a to-go coffee across the counter to her. She saw dissapointment in his eyes and a part of her wanted him to tell her that she was making a horrible decision, she never should have forgiven Christopher for what he said about Rory, or the way that he treated her. But she knew that that was a part of Luke that it would take a very long time to get back.

"Thanks." She said instead taking the coffee, leaving him with a small smile before she exited out the diner door.

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a/n: haha i just thought you should know a funny blooper story...I was typing this up the first time and the line where i wrote...'she felt guilty that she hadn't told Rory her and luke were talking again' I mistakenly wrote...'she felt guilty that she hadn't told Rory her and luke were dating again.' can you imagine if i had missed that? youd all be like...what? when did that happen? and the fic would pretty much be over...so yeah..anyway hahaha i thought that was pretty funny but thats just me.

and i know that was an extremely eventful chapter, well kind of i think it was the longest one so far but nothing much really happened last chapter so i wanted to make up for that and i'm going away so im debating updating again tomorrow because otherwise it would have to wait till next wednesday, and if i don't have time to update for tomorrow ill feel really bad so this chapter is supposed to make up for that too. I think that made sense, i don't know.

Lyrics to chorus-but the rest of the song fits too so look em up, and i know its not like they hate eachother now but their back to being friends on some level so i guess i thought i kind of fit in with how they are both feeling? I don't know check it out.

How can you just walk on by
without one tear in your eye?
Don't you have the slightest feelings left for me?
Maybe that's just your way
of dealing with the pain,
forgetting everything
between our rise and fall
like we never loved at all.

okreviewme!

-Java-Junkie-...Ness.