Chapter 5

Cloe sighted again. They were on the beach, and she was leaning against Ved. "Thank you so much for this day Ved. I don't think you know how much it meant for me! It was just perfect" she said with a dreamy smile. "I'm glad you liked it baby, nothing makes me more happy than making a beautiful girl like yourself happy" Ved answered while gazing into her eyes. "But although I wish this night would go on forever, it's 11.30 and as you might know I have to be back at St Helens at 12. So I'm afraid we have to go home" Ved said with regret all over his face. "I'm afraid you're right.. But we'll do this again right?" "Sure, and I'll see you during your cheerleading practice tomorrow!" They walked over to the car, and both felt the drive to Cloe's home was way to short. When they arrived Cloe gave Ved a goodnight-kiss and got out of the car. She stood there waving at him for a bit longer and went to the gate.

Cloe opened the gate to her house with the feeling she was walking on air. She walked to the door, and was surprised to see that all the lights were off. She opened the door and was about to shout that she was home, when it hit her that Marguerita was in the hospital and was severely injured. She felt so bad and mean for having fun all day while the woman who she almost considered her mother, and who took care for her like she was her mother, was in the hospital. She ran up to her room, turned on the radio and picked up the phone, ready to call Amber. Then she heard the lyrics from the song on the radio:

"You don't know how it's like to be like me,

To be hurt, to feel lost,

To be left out in the dark…

To be kicked when you're down,

To feel like you've been pushed around.

To be on the edge of breaking down,

With no one there to save you..

No you don't know what's it's like!"

The truth struck Cloe. That was so true, Amber wouldn't understand how she felt. In Ambers point of view she had the perfect little life. Captain of the cheerleading squad, a straight a student, nice friends and enough money to live for the rest of her life… No, Amber wouldn't see it her way. Amber would just think she was complaining about nothing. So what if her parents weren't home all the time? At least she'd got parents who let her live at home, in stead of dumping her on a boarding school. That Cloe didn't feel it like that wouldn't be understand by Amber. She felt so desperate, like she was all alone on this world. She just wanted Marge here, to hold her and tell her everything will be alright! Her eyes started to fill up again, and Cloe didn't see any other option… While shaking all over her body, she walked towards her medicine-cabinet. She knew it was weak to do, but it seemed to be the only way out of this misery. For the second time in 2 days she took some of the painkillers. Cloe felt her whole body relax a bit, and she decided to take a bath before going to bed. She let the water run, and got in the tub. She felt a bit drowsy, but she didn't pay any attention to it. The hot water made her entire body calm down, and she finally stopped shaking. Without noticing it, very slowly Cloe dozed off. And even more slowly her body started to lose grip of the bottom of the bath. As if it was in slow motion Cloe went under. Normally she would have woken up by this, but after the painkillers Cloe didn't even stop breathing.