Chapter 31
Morpheus rested his head into his hands, dwelling about the situation they were in. He found himself lost in thoughts, and didn't notice that Trinity stepped into the cockpit, resting her back against the wall.
It wasn't until she cleared her throat that he lifted his head and noticed her.
" You took off in a hurry, " Morpheus said as he saw her. They both knew what he was indicating, no further explanation was needed, and none would be given.
" Yeah… " she answered, " got a lot of things to think about. " Morpheus nodded, resting his jaw onto his hands again. He motioned for her to sit, but she shook her head, indicating that she wouldn't be staying for long.
" It seemed that Neo got that, too, " Morpheus said and she looked at him, wondering if he could see how afraid she really was by looking into her eyes… they had known each other for a long time, but perhaps it was still only Neo that could read her like that.
" I think we both got things to think about for a while now… but I'm not sure that we have such time, " Trinity told him, and he furrowed his brow. What had the Oracle exactly told them, leaving them both in a state like this?
" Did she tell you anything that you think I should know?"
Trinity looked at her Captain, at her friend. She heard all the things the Oracle had recently told her like a winded tape inside her mind, and for a short, short moment she wanted to tell Morpheus everything, what the Oracle had said and how afraid she was… just so that she wouldn't have to keep it all within herself, it was all becoming too much now… She had always been strong, and would always be, but even the most beautiful and still pond would have ripples.
Therefore she shook her head, looking into the ground.
Morpheus knew that she didn't want to let him in into the things that were creating the chaos inside her mind, just like a time a very long while ago, when she had come out from the first visit with the Oracle. She had seemed so lost inside her mind then as well, as if her fate had been doomed… but he knew that in a way, it was happy news, just news that she wasn't quite ready to face up to. Ready to hear, yes, the Oracle would never have told her otherwise, but not ready to take to heart…
" You should get some rest. And tell Neo to do the same." Trinity nodded, half smiling to him, as if she wanted to tell him something… both they both knew that she wouldn't.
" Yeah. See you tomorrow, " she said and without another word she left the room, hearing Morpheus goodbying her as her steps descended down the hall.
They have both grown incredibly much in the last months, Morpheus thought. Probably since they had found each other in the very sense of the word, they had both become more sure of each other and themselves. He had watched Trinity do progress like never before, and actually smiling every now and then when she met them in the Mess Hall… and she had never been like this when they were on a leave in Zion.
And Neo was just the same… he had found himself as the One and grown accustomed into the role, but still remaining that humble man Morpheus knew he would always be.
Looking at the clock on the monitor, Morpheus yawned, rising to head off to his bed… where the rest of his thoughts would be collected and gather together.
It was late, now.
She knew it was.
As she slowly, carefully opened the door she hoped not to wake him, because she knew that he had even more things on his mind to work out that she had.
As she entered the room, she could see him lying in the bed, stomach down, legs sprawled out to his sides, boots still on. He so reminded her of another time, a time when things had been so different… she had been so different… they had been different.
Everything had been different. But she knew that it was all the differences that had led them to this moment, and she knew that somewhere she should be thankful for all the sorrow she had been through… after all, they had brought her him.
And like in that other time, she sat down by his side, by his face and breathed in his scent. He still smelled the same way actually; he had never smelled like fresh coppertops usually did. Neo smelled of Neo, that heavy scent that would always intoxicate her… that brand of him that she knew, in part, was hers.
She wondered how he was able to mantle this burden, all the responsibility that was laid upon his shoulders? He was such a simple man, and she was the one to know, she knew he wanted nothing else but to live in peace, alone with her by his side, and that would make him content. He had said so to her, and she felt likewise, but both knew that the dream of theirs would never come true… not when they were parts of something so much bigger than them.
She knew that the sum would be bigger than the parts, but it did not stop her from being selfish enough to dream herself away into a distant future, where only herself, Neo and perhaps their child would matter. Where nothing else was actual in the world; and they knew what was real…
She wished to elope more than anything else, just to run from all the responsibility that was now getting to the better of them… Most of it was bestowed upon Neo's shoulders, but they usually shared every burden with each other, having learned early in their relationship that open honesty and trust would be essential and something that made it easier for both of them to actually just be able to live. But where would they run to?
It would always end up with the same thing in the end, and they both knew it…
Like she had heard Neo whisper in a dream- it was them against the world. Against everything.
Two souls of soldiers desiring to be nothing more than alone and by themselves…
… in a world that would never allow it.