Everything I wanted- Billie. Found it this morning, pretty nice.

Chapter 36

Jacob didn't come. Instead, it was Quil. He told us Sam received the news and understood our plan, but wondered what their next move should be. Carlisle suggested the wolves should keep doing their patrols, but keep them close to their land to lure the newborns in. They had to remain a surprise. He would contact him somehow to let him know the coordinates on which they should meet. I volunteered to call Billy if it came to it. The Cullens had to search for the boulder in Alice's vision. They'd do that and hope Alice had another that helped them find it faster.

With that, Quil nodded and turned to disappear into the trees.

"Quil! Wait!" I called and rushed forward. He seemingly reluctantly stopped.

"Where's Jake?"

"Back at Billy's. He's fine." There was zero emotion in his voice. I wrung my hands.

"But we're not fine,"

"He just wants some time alone," he said, but he paused. "It's none of my business, but... he's sorry. Just wait for him to say it,"

I nodded awkwardly. I wasn't sure if I could believe that. He meant it when he said we were enemies. He hated us. How could he believe what he believed in and still have room for us?

Because the battle was only a week away, we didn't find having more training sessions necessary. Spending time with our loved ones was. I brought Renesmee to Charlie's a few times, and he loved it. I offered to bring her for Christmas, and he said he'd allow Edward to come. He mentioned he'd invite Jacob. I wasn't so sure if we'd still be friends after the battle, but I nodded anyway. Renesmee was elated, of course. My heart would stutter frequently with her.

She had asked me when Jacob would come back, and I told her he had to stay and guard La Push for a while.

"But he came before anyway?" she said.

"I know. That was because he could, then. Right now, they need all the wolves they can get. It'll just be a week," I explained.

I considered calling him to visit her, she missed him. But I would lose my nerve.

He never called. I didn't want to see him either, not yet. I wasn't ready.

I missed him, the old him. He was everything to me when I was alone and afraid. I couldn't possibly live without him. Was I important enough for him to stay, anymore? Or did he hate me for choosing a side? Would he stay for Renesmee?

When the flurries began, it felt... ominous. When they wouldn't stick, I'd give a sigh of relief while Renesmee happily played in the snowfall and tried to catch snowflakes. I always hated the cold and wet for its 'wetness', but now I was scared of it.

Bags and the jeep were prepared so we could go at a moment's notice. I couldn't hate jake much for telling Charlie because now we had the answer to our question. There haven't been any unwanted visitors at his house since the theft of my red blouse, so Renesmee will be staying with him for the duration of the battle.

In the week leading up to it, I'd watch her play wondering what I'd say in order to explain the plan. I started with Charlie, explaining that I'd bring Renesmee over the day before. She'd stay over a night, and she had to be dressed in the morning. I said that if anything went wrong, someone would come to get her. Either Jacob or a Cullen. And if that happened, he should say goodbye.

"It's time to take care of the problem. I know that it's soon, but...I need you to protect her for me. Leaving her here is keeping her safe," I said seriously.

"If we have to come get her, it's because the problem slipped from our hands but everything we've said still stands. You be careful in the woods, alright? Ask Jake or Quil in La Push for help. I'll be in touch if I can,"

"Bella-"

"Don't worry, Charlie. We refuse to allow people to live in fear. This plan is just in case, okay? And I never planned to go AWOL permanently, not again." I said, gripping his arms.

He huffed in the olive-green hallway I steered him to. Edward was outside, entertaining our daughter before I dropped her off.

"I don't understand what's going on, I know that's part of the plan too, but... Be careful, Bells," he said. I nodded.

"Does she know?"

"I have to tell her. I will, tonight."

"Wait," he said when I turned to bring Renesmee in.

"Arizona. Was that something too?" By the way, he looked at me, he was clearly suspicious of it.

"I broke my leg, dad. I'm pretty clumsy," I said.

Walking out of the house, Edward gave me a comforting smile and I helped Renesmee out of the car. I didn't want to be apart from her, not ever, not while she was still growing. She'd be taller when I collected her after the battle, but it was a sacrifice we all had to make. Maybe not one I should force Jacob to make.

Charlie did well in pretending he didn't know anything. I didn't say anything either, not wanting to sour this visit for her.

"Should we just wait, til we absolutely need to tell her?" I asked Edward. We hung back while she went into the house.

"It might be too sudden," he said shaking his head but not at all at me. "I don't want to tell her either, but the sooner, the better," I nodded at that.

"...I'd have to tell her about Jacob too, then,"

"We'll tell her together," he assured me, touching my arm. I trapped his hand as it slid down it, and we walked into the house hand in hand.

We got her night routine started, tag-teaming. I bathed her and he got her clothes ready. I asked about her day, making sure it was great. She already loved Charlie. There was something about her. She was as nervous as any child when meeting someone knew, but when she knew, she knew, and she was completely open. Or no one could help loving her. Charlie immediately jumped to make up for the lost time and keep her happy even though her size was still strange to him. I'm glad they got to have a few afternoons together, at least.

Strange how an adult could be afraid of their own child, of being hated by them.

She sat still, reading to herself while I took care of her waist-length hair. Edward joked with her if she was trying to put herself to sleep.

"No!" she giggled. "I just wanna know what happens next. I'll let you read the good parts,"

We chuckled and ushered her into bed, Edward tucking her in. He took the book from her, making sure not to lose the place she was saving with her finger. I sighed in front of her.

"I'm really glad you got to meet Charlie," I told her. "It's good it happened than not at all, right?"

She nodded. She reached to touch my cheek and showed me how it'd be nice to live with him but wanted to live at the Cullen's house at the same time, and how frustrating it was she couldn't do both. How she wished La Push beach was nearby, too.

"Yeah. It'd be nice to have everything," I said, trying to smile.

"Renesmee... you already know we've been preparing to fight the other vampires," she nods.

"In a few days-well. It's time now. Tomorrow, your father and I, and the rest are going to meet up with the wolves in the forest. You'll be staying with Grandpa Charlie for a night. And when it's all over, we're going to come to get you. It will only be 2 days tops," I said, trying to make her not worry.

"What about Jacob?" she asked, sending another image of Jacob. Or was I seeing her uninhibited thoughts? Her was resting on my arm.

"He'll be in the woods too. Now, I'll be giving you a second backpack. It is important that you don't part with this backpack, ok? Your father and I will do our best to come get you if anything happens. But if it's not us or your aunts and uncles or the wolves you've met, don't go with them. Understand?" I tried to explain calmly.

"Mom?"

"...It might be the last time you see Charlie for a while, 'til everything settles if that happens. So, enjoy your time with him."

"Mom!" she asked about Jacob again. Surely it was about time he came, that he'd come before she was dropped off.

"There may not be a chance to see him again-" she cried and beat her hands against me. She's already been so patient. And in her mind, I knew about this before she did. I was taking her from him, suddenly.

"I'm sorry. The day Rosalie had you play with her outside for a while was when we figured out a way-"

"No!" she screamed. Edward tried to shush her, holding her arms to her torso and rubbing her head. She kicked.

There was more to it, I wanted to say. It was Jacob's fault he wasn't here. But how much did she really have to know? How much did I have any right to tell her, to weigh on her?

"Renesmee...what is Jacob to you?"

"He's my best friend! He's family! YOU said he was family to you too!"

"...I know, I know." I got up, smoothing down my shirt, unsure what to say. He was family and I currently hate him? He's away because I'm mad and he's mad at me? He may never come back because he hates me?

"Shhh..." Edward soothed. "It isn't mommy's fault. It's alright. She isn't mad at you. I've got this one," he said to me. I nodded and headed to our room first.

Thank you for coming through with the follows. Now I really need you to come through with something else! PLEASE DON'T SKIP THE FOLLOWING MESSAGE!

In PMs please advise me on how I should handle the conversation that should've been obvious is coming up. I've been very sensitive to people's opinions about how the imprinting thing was you-know-what-ish, and I know it's unlikely a against-twilight person would read this story, but would you allow me to sort of skip over the conversation? Maybe I'm overthinking it but... there's certain topics or arguments where, somehow, you'd always be wrong, and I really don't want to be in the middle of it or used in it in any way because I'm not even in it, you know?

I just sort of wanted to play out how Edward and Bella would cope and fit it in their heads seeing as its new and very uncomfortable for them too and Edward can sort of relate and understand how painful it could be to have never met 'the one'. Especially after knowing how great it is to have them around. (he has stuff going on in his head) And work in Alice's vision. Especially because of the vision. That vision is practically what makes everyone have to sort of let it happen because, in the future, Jacob will be extra important to her. And they know they don't have the right to ruin it. That's what I think happened. HELP!