Title: Does it really matter?

Author: .KuroxFye.

Rating: T

Warning: I've read pretty far so spoilers might come up at some point I'm not sure if I'll include them.

Disclaimer: I do NOT own Tsubasa or any of its characters.

Why? After so many years he had spent placing mental blocks up… placing them so he wouldn't ever have to remember, so he'd never feel the pain again. Yet within a couple seconds talking with Kuro rin all the memories came back. He didn't understand why Kurogane would be having visions of his past, to be honest he really didn't care either. And what was for sure… he wasn't going to answer ANY of the man's questions.

Fye came in to recall his own memory …

"Hello? Is anyone there?" He walked closely to the bars and yelled…"why am I here, who are you, what do you want?"

A dark and sinister voice seemed to appear from no were. "I think a better question is 'what are you?"

"My questions first! What am I doing here?"… he paused for a second "Answer me!"

"Hmm, you should know. Don't play dumb, with Your power it's amazing you've lived this long in the free world." That dark voice only moved closer.

Fye had remembered his mother telling him something about this… in this country magic wasn't un heard of but it was un common, people who had magic were sealed away for protection of the general public. Women were left alone though… because woman there could become no more then healers.

His heart gave a tug… mother always told me not to worry about this, she said I didn't have enough magic to be taken serious. But I knew she was wrong… my magic always surpassed hers. I had just never showed her… I didn't want her to worry, and even in her hour of death 2 years ago I refused to show her… I could have saved her, I should have saved her after all, the ones that killed her were actually coming for me.

After that I was given this damn tattoo to hide my power, and even so look at me now. I've been caught anyways. All her worrying, all my efforts everything wasted. I landed just were I never wanted to be.

Fye scoffed at the man. "It's not like I actually ever use my powers" Fye felt like he was about to vomit... this was all to much stress… he tried to hold his head high, he himself wasn't sure why he was trying to hide his fear but he did so anyways. "In fact even now I'm sure I could break out of this cell with my power… but I won't… without permission that is." The first of what was to be a long line of fake smiles appeared on the boys face with shear determination.

"You've got an awfully high opinion of yourself for someone who lives on the streets." The dark figure finally moved out of the shadows.. it was… it was…

"A… Ashura o!" Fye gasped. His king, he had just talked down to his king seconds ago. 'Damn, why am I so dumb?' Now I'm cretin to be killed.

The king looked over the magical being and made an offer. "You, you are powerful…perhaps the most powerful yet caught. You say you can get out of that cell which is cursed with the strongest magic available. If you prove yourself right here, right now and get out of the cell I'll hire you to work with royalty, you'll be respected for that magic you've been hiding." His face was smug… he was next thing to laughing he didn't seriously believe anyone had the power to escape that magical container.

He had thought just a little too soon.

Fye didn't even bother trying to protest, he had nothing left to lose and everything left to gain. He clapped his hands together and let a protective magic run threw his body. It almost made him glow as he took a few steps forward and with ease, simply walked threw the bars and stood in front of his shocked king.

At first Ashura didn't know what to do, he hadn't been serious about the job offering because he was cretin that the task was impossible. But there he was…that fine featured boy stood in front of him.

For some reason this spiked his anger. Ashura lifted his right hand and slashed Fye right across his face with a ring he had been wearing. "You're nothing! You worthless peasant!" he was more frustrated then anything…

Fye knew the king was just looking for a way to ease his frustration… but he wasn't about to let him have that glory… the gash on Fye's cheek healed with a small swirl of magic and then Fye smiled at his king.

Fye snapped back into reality… I guess that's were the big picture first came into play, thank god Kuro tan hadn't seen that far… because then he'd have more questions then ever.

There were so many things he needed to do at the moment. He needed to gather up the pieces of his shattered mask and put it together, he needed to go see Kuro chan and tell him that he was leaving soon. Over all he just needed to leave and get things over with.

He wanted to do it before his mind even had the change to doubt itself. He was going to die, that was unavoidable no matter what decision he made, either he went back and died by choice or he ran until he died by force.

Back in His world he knew what he planned to do, the only way everything could be prevented, he'd have to use all the magic he could gather and throw himself back in time… then kill off what started this whole mess… 'Himself'. It was the one and only way for everyone to be saved.

'Is it worth it?' he wondered… but that thought didn't last long. 'Right, my life isn't worth anything… so why not throw it away to save what is.' Hmm, Kurogane would be angry if he heard what I was going to do… I was going to tell him but maybe it's better that I don't. I'll tell him I'm leaving tonight… maybe if I'm lucky I'll get a good bye kiss. The man smiled a little and giggled on that thought.

Fye thought about how he would word his departure but eventually gave up. There was no light hearted way to tell them that he'd never see them again, that he'd never see Sakura's happy ending or Kurogane's world. He had finally found real friends but he couldn't stay. Not this time… not this last time.

"Fye san?" Sayoran had come to check on him… or find him, either way he was here now.

"Yes, Sayoran kun." Fye smile was perfect… sometimes he even amazed himself at how fast he could pull his act together.

"Fye san… is something wrong? You left very silently." The young boy's face wasn't exactly set on just one emotion… You could read several different emotions appearing at once. Concern, determination, sadness, and hope... 3 of the 4 were just how Sayoran carried himself but the concern was an interesting addition.

"Wrong? Well I would say that exactly." His gaze left the boy and he looked over at the wall. "Sayoran… I 'll be departing from you all soon." He didn't see any reason to hide this from the boy, if anything he could use the opportunity as a test run for how he would later tell Kuro rin, he imagined that would be a lot harder to do.

"What?" he looked utterly shocked… what had Fye san just said, how, why? He didn't detect any strange behavior from the man… nothing sudden but then why was he going to leave us? "Why… why are you leaving?" his expression started so calm into it's usual cool again, but didn't quite reach normal gain.

"There are some things I have to do. Things I should have taken care of in the first place." He felt almost as if he was being heroic, talking as if he was doing something noble when really he was just cleaning up the after mess of the things that should have been avoided in the first place. Yet again be began to laugh at himself… it was a sad laugh, it sounded like someone who had given up on everything. Fye had forgot Sayoran's presence for a second, and didn't put it past him to notice this sudden behavior so he quickly recovered.

"So… is Kuro sama alright?" he changed the subject hoping that the boy would go along with it… but no such luck charmed Fye today.

"Yes, he's fine, bye Fye san I think…"

"That's good" he cut him off… it came pretty naturally; he had gotten good at dodging subjects he didn't like. "I'm going to go rest for a while… I'll see you at super Sayoran chan" The smile grew ever wide with that last little nickname. He had never tried using one with Sayoran and figured that this being one of the last few conversations he'd have with him he might as well get a few ideas out. He did admit to himself though… the name didn't really fit Sayoran… only Kuro tan and Sakura chan cold pull off those names, and let's not forget Mokona.

Sayoran's face flushed with a slight blush after being addressed with that name. He actually had always wondered why Fye never used those names on him. Everyone else was pinned with those names by Fye but Sayoran was always set aside. Now that he had been given one he decided that 'kun' would do perfectly well.

"Well... alright Fye san I'll see you at super." The kid gave a nod and left it at that.

That was a pretty Fye centric chapter ne?

I'm always worried that I'm going to mess this up or forget something really important so I have to re read the whole fic. Like 4 times a day and write down all the questions I'll have to eventually answer. It hurts my brain sometimes.

I'm literally writing things as they come to me… the first 2 chapters were planned and well from there on it was pure idea of the moment. --;;

So review, because like I said… Idea of the moment which mean I could randomly wrap the whole thing up in one chapter or I could stretch it out for like 20 chapters, little or no reviews means you'll get little or no story from me.

Thanks for reading

- KuroxFye