Title: Does it really matter?

Author: .KuroxFye.

Rating: T

Warning: … nothing really in this chapter.

Disclaimer: I do NOT own Tsubasa or any of its characters.

//Must come down…//

Fye left his suspicion at that, again, he knew better then to anger the king. They may be close… he doubted Ashura o would ever scold him for being curious but none the less he figured it better left alone.

Another 3 years had passed and he was now 22, for 22 years of age he was very well established… frankly Fye found loads of pleasure basking in the glory of his power, his lover and his status… everything went his way, except one thing. Years later and memory issues were still becoming worse, now he would forget even the most casual of things like what he did last week, or what he had eaten for lunch. Sometimes he would find himself heading somewhere but then not know why he was heading there or where he was going anymore. He knew he couldn't hide the problem much longer, but how he loathed admitting un perfection. He had even created a girl named Chi as his assistant, she would follow him and constantly remind him of important things so he wouldn't appear unable.

It was nerving, he didn't want to have this talk with Ashura. He himself disliked flaws but Ashura was on a whole new level of picky… Fye often found it funny how precise everything needed to be around him, it was a quirk that was distinctly 'Ashura'. Even though he found it cute with other things, when the king would point out kinks in Fye it was painful to listen to, though he supposed that was just part of any relationship, it's the comfort zone they had reached where words no longer needed to be watched. Still it hurt, and this would undoubtedly hurt as well… He figured Ashura would be kind though, after all they were in love.

This evening after duty shifts ended they were going out for dinner; both had been so busy that they hadn't seen each other for over 2 weeks; Fye now had something of importance to say so they made time. He couldn't decide whether he was anxious for it or dreaded it, possibly a mixture of both, if that were possible… still he carried out his work with a smile and watched the clock tick by.

9:00 pm and they met outside one on the finest restaurants in Celes, moved indoors and were seated by personal waiters.

Everything had been going fine, Fye found himself wondering if he even had the heart to tell Ashura of his problems… he didn't want to worry him, maybe the king had forgotten there was something to discuss… but he hoped too soon.

"Fye, this is such a nice place you've picked." He looked around at the well decorated room.

"Hmm, well don't thank me… I just asked around a little, I've heard they have the best chocolate cake, I plan to try some." Smile, such a bright smile… what was almost a real smile… funny how nothing looked real around the blond even when it was.

"I may try as well…" Ashura's voice trailed. "I believe there was a reason you asked me to come? You mentioned having something to discuss."

"Do I need a reason to ask my boyfriend on a date?" With a head tilt to the side one could mistake him for a dumb, bubbly puppy.

He sighed; he was getting a little too used to the game of cat and mouse after all these years. "Of coarse not, it's just I distinctly remember you saying you had something to tell me… I'd like to know."

"Well alright, though I don't want you to worry… I shouldn't even mention anything." 'Shit' Fye thought to himself… 'I'd give anything to not talk about this now… why'd I get myself into this?'

"Tell me…"

"You see, remember a long time ago I mentioned to you that my memory was flaky. You said I was just being paranoid and at that time I agreed with you, but it's un deniable now… I'm missing quite a few memories, I couldn't tell you what I did last week for the life of me, I'm not even sure if what I remember was last night was actually last night and not some other random night I remember. This isn't something I can ignore… I don't think it's best for Celes if I maintain my position, head mage with a mental block problem doesn't sound to promising." He tried to smile, he really did… but all he could do was prevent himself from frowning.

"Well of coarse!" Ashura exclaimed so matter of factually. "Fye… you're the most magical being I've ever met but your information is so limited, you should work on that."

"What are you talking about?"

"Hmm, you see that sacred tattoo you have there on your back… it is used to suppress strong magic correct?"

"Hai."

"Well think of it this way, that marking is only meant to seal powerful things, with you EVERYTHING is powerful. When you use your magic it activates the tattoo and suppression takes place. The more you use magic the more suppressed your mind will become. I didn't see it at first either but after a while I understood you were having mental difficulties. I'm still confident in you, so long as you follow my order I still wish you to hold your position."

Fye was shocked, how had the answer been so plain and simple… and he didn't notice, it made perfect sense. He was also happy Ashura seemed quite excepting of the stats.

"I understand now, maybe I'll try and cast a regaining memory spell… I'd still feel safer that way."

"Do what you think is best… though Fye I wasn't going to say anything but, we already had this same conversation only 2 months ago. You said the same thing and then forgot within the week."

"I did?" wow, this was worse then he had thought… though he wasn't really surprised, actually he half expected to hear something like that, it had been happening a lot with little things lately.

"Sorry, I'm going to excuse myself… I need to collect… what I can." With a re assuring smile he gracefully left the table and left for the castle.

I wonder how long I can be pulled along like this… what happens when I can't even remember things from seconds before?

… Time again

Two more years had passed and what Fye never wanted to happed had… he couldn't remember anything; he'd set something down, turn around and forget what it was he was doing. He couldn't start nor finish a task without someone to guide him through it step by step constantly telling him what it was he was doing.

He didn't have opinions or worries, he didn't have time to have any… by the time he could conjure up an opinion he'd forget what it was about. Literally a walking shell, he was the perfect dummy.

Worst part of it all was that he was in constant pain. Not to his knowledge of coarse, Ashura had taken to beating him… he was an imperfection and would be dealt with as such. He wouldn't remember how he was hurt within seconds anyways.

One of the second hand mages had taken notice of current events. He and Fye got along very well before the problems became so bad. His name was Koshumi and he had an idea for his long lost friend. He had spent about a month working on a magically cursed scroll of resistance… with any hope it would stop the memory loss, though he knew it would never actually give him his memory back.

Koshumi had requested Fye's magic for one of his assignments; if this were to work he would need at least an hour of the former head mage to himself. So later in the day Fye was to be brought to his work area, no one would be there and so he could cast the scroll's enchantment upon the wizard.

So later that day a few house keepers lead Fye to the room, Koshumi requested their leave kindly and they did so… now it were only a matter of skill, ohh how he hoped he could do this…

Unrolling the scroll and placing in on the ground in front of him and Fye he began to chant.

"Orosoma shinbu kashi shota himburogoshi" he took a breath. "Mysari gonza tabushi dinzi."

There…. That was it, he would have to wait for results though, and this wasn't a very quickly done thing. So he sat and waited… watched the hollowness of Fye's eyes begin to mix color, something was happening though he wasn't sure if it were good or bad.

45 min. had passed, the enchantment was almost complete and He was showing tremendous results. Everything looked as if it were in order, within seconds the old mage would be back in control, though he wouldn't actually understand anything… but he'd remember from there on out at least.

And it was over, flashed of light simmered along Fye's skin, his eyes dulled back into their regular sky blue and he looked at Koshumi with confused features.

"Who are you?" those were the first words from his mouth that he would actually remember in so long.

With a nod of appreciation. "I am Koshumi Sashigure, second in line to be head mage of the Celes court."

"Th…then who am I?"

As he suspected, Fye didn't seem to know anything beyond typical information.

"You are Fye D. Flowright, former head mage of Celes and most powerful being in this land."

He was about to explain more but stopped when Fye gripped his head as if in immense pain… "Fye?"

His head hurt… so much, he couldn't make the pain go away, ohh why was there so much pain, what the hell was going on? He fell to his knees pushing down on the back of his head with both hands and he let out a long scream in pain, trying to release the pressure building up in the back of his mind. Little did he know what they would result in… it was too late, build up power he had no control over exploded from the thin body, whipping threw Celes in a bright blue light killing anything in it's path, it was beautiful he thought upon release, looking at it threw castle windows as it spread all the way along the land… it wasn't until after he realized everyone was dead.

He had just killed off an entire country, a world he knew nothing about, people he knew nothing about… except Koshumi whom was also killed on impact. At first he didn't know how to react, did he really care that a world full of strangers just died… or at least he thought they were all dead, it's not like he knew them anyways.

Dragged out of deep thought he looked up when someone else entered the room.

"Chi?" a petit blond looked at him dumbly.

"What…"

"What's wrong Fye?"

"You, how did you survive that? What's going on, what did I just do?"

"Chi does not know. But Chi is not a person so Chi can not die."

"Ohh is that so… then what exactly are you?"

"Chi was made from Fye, I don't know how though." She looked so cute, innocent, it made Fye feel shame for what he had just done… though the two shouldn't be connected at all.

"Made from me?"

"That's right."

He had more questions, but another person had entered the room… 'Jeeze' he thought to himself. 'Are all the survivors like drawn to me or something?'

Ashura's voice was dark, sinister, and murderous. "What did you do?!"

"I don't know." He waved it off with a non caring attitude… at the time he really didn't care. "Who are you?"

The king looked pain struck, how dare he forget who's in charge… how did this happen, who helped him? And why did he blow up the whole god damn country!?

"I am your king, and you my former friend just blew up our country!"

"Ohh, is that so, well you see I don't exactly remember anything from more then just a few moments ago, so you say that… for all I know it's a complete lie."

"It's not a lie you fool!" he snapped. "The only reason I survived was because of my own large amount of magic, It took all my protective magic just to keep myself safe."

"Dunno, you sound pretty suspicious to me." He teased… lord how could he be teasing at a time like this, it briefly reminded Ashura of the old Fye, but that thought was quickly taken from him.

"In honor of the fallen people, I will end your life here and now Fye, you can't get out of this… you'll have to except punishment and only hope the devil may go easy on your strained soul."

Fye felt like laughing, though he wasn't really sure why… it felt like a reflex maybe, whatever it was it came automatically. "You kill me? I'm not sure but for the strangest reason I don't think that's possible."

A cold breeze rushed threw the room and Fye's eyes looked somewhat sunken… as if he were relying on an auto pilot or something when he dodged the first attack made by his king.

"Is that really the best you can do? I thought you said you were the king."

He dodged attack after attack making no effort to strike back, Ashura started to look worn after a while and stopped.

"Good" Fye sniggered. "Now it's my turn." A sharp smile rest upon his features… it looked to knowing for what it should, he really didn't know anything at all, he was relying in instinct.

Fye hummed, magical characters gathered around Ashura and wrapped him tightly forming a case… if the king had tried to resist he was obviously failing because you could see nothing of him. The magic finally settled in the form of a glass case, Ashura sleeping inside of it.

"What a waste of time." Fye thought it was rather odd to just leave the king there, so he moved him to the central pool and pushed the restraining container in, Chi seemed to think it added nice effect, he simply thought it was a waste of time.

His heart ached, again he didn't know why exactly but he felt it must be something to do with the king… maybe he was wrong to kill him, but he really just didn't have the ability to sit and hear things explained quite yet. Being concerned in the slightest degree he undressed his top half and entered the pool. Swimming to the bottom to see if maybe the 'king' was still breathing, he didn't exactly realize what he was doing until he was half way there.

Looking closely he could see inside the container his highnesses chest was moving up and down, seems like he didn't put enough effort into the attack… he had only put him to sleep. Swimming back towards the surface he realized something, he couldn't live here. There was no life left on this world, and anyone lucky enough to be left would only want to kill him. At that moment a dark haired woman flashed in front of his eyes, before he continued to swim the word "Yuuko" escaped his lips, not that anyone could hear him. He had never seen the woman before in his life… but he knew her name and knew he needed to leave, he supposed it better to follow his gut now then wait for disaster later.

Reaching the surface he climbed out and began to dress while having a small conversation with Chi.

"Is it okay, if I change you for a bit." Well, she was made of his magic, it only made sense that he would be able to change her.

"Of course, Fye made chi after all."

And that was that, in seconds what was once a girl was made into a series of connected arches.

Absent mindedly Fye walked up to the side of the pool and uttered few meaningless words to the sleeping king. He picked up his staff and decided he needed to go. He wasn't really sure what exactly he was doing but he knew he didn't want to be there and every natural fiber of his being was telling his to go to that woman he had seen moments ago.

"Well, I'm off to see the witch!" The markings made with his staff in hand moved around him in a purple form, and like that he was gone from that frozen world.

…arrival

When he got there he seen there were already 3 other people among them, him having seen the witches face in his mind already knew which one she was. He introduced himself and enjoyed a few harsh glairs from the man dressed in black.

Mainly threw this little ordeal he was zoning in and out, he was aloof at best, catching only the main points. He knew that to avoid his world he would have to travel with the other people here and that their prices would combine as payment… that's actually all he really cared about, so long as he got his wish.

"Your price… is your marking."

My what? He thought in his head, then briefly remembered a symbol he had noticed creeping around his sides when he had gone in the water… He didn't know exactly what it meant to him but if the witch wanted it that meant it was probably of high value.

"I don't suppose this staff would do instead?" he held up the golden staff he had brought, it was of value… he knew that, but he also knew he could go on without it… this marking he knew nothing about.

"It won't."

"Then I suppose I have no choice."

The second it was lifted his whole world was flipped upside down, he managed to smile threw every memory flash though… no one could see the hidden pain he was calmly waiting threw. Everything came back to him in that instant… memories from as far back as 4 years of age all the way up until now, he even remembered the things he couldn't before. Only god knows why he didn't start crying right there realizing what he had done. But all the same he smiled; killing himself inside… he still smiled.

And that's where it all would have begun. Every little thing that made him Fye, a life time of hardship brought back within minuets… it's no wonder he was broken.

Holy this is a long chapter, seriously I'm hyped up on pixie sticks right now so if anything in the chapter seems weird that's probably why.

Again, I'm sorry about the wait for these 2 chapters.

Thanks for reading, please review.

- KuroxFye