Hey everyone!
I am so sorry that I haven't updated in a while, but I here is an update at last, with the next chapter almost done. I am back to living at home, and haven't had as much time to write as I would like to. However today is my birthday, so I felt justified in taking the morning to write. So here it is. And if you wanted to give a birthday present, I would love to hear what you think of my story so far. The more reviews I get the more encouraged I will be to give up sleep to write.
So read, enjoy, and please review.
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The next morning dawned bright and sunny. The air was crisp and clean, the merry songs of birds seemed to be the music which a light breeze and the flowers danced to. It was the kind of morning lovers held each other close, and parents smiled in on their still slumbering children. Poets basked in the beauty of days like this, their muses smiling contently down on them, and even non believers saw the beauty of a higher power in astonishments of nature. It was a morning the instantly cheered all who greeted it. Everyone that is except for Lexa Pierce.
At the first loving cares of the morning light against her eyelids, she pulled the blankets over her head, in an attempt to block out the world. After once again having a nearly sleepless night, Lexa wanted nothing more then to go back to bed, but she had chores to do before she and Jesse went off exploring the outlying woods, and caves. Just the thought of seeing the handsome blond after last night, was enough to have Lexa groaning and burring herself deeper under her blankets. Foolishly feeling that if she stayed right where she was, she could hide from the world. She really didn't want to deal with what had happened last night, so the light molecular started to think up ways she could get out of her 'date' with Jesse this afternoon.
Realizing what she was doing, Lexa flung the blankets of herself in a fit of self-disgust, and rolled out of bed. Lexa Pierce was not a coward! She told herself, stripping of her clothes as she headed to her adjoining bathroom. Leaning into the shower Lexa turned it on, waiting for the shower to regulate itself, as she continued her lecture to herself.
I have gone into many dangerous situations before, eyes closed, on the directions of others. Who I didn't trust. Just to help my brother. I have gone undercover more times then I can count, I have had been poisoned, drugged, shot, beat, and stabbed. I was a top GSA agent, a valued member of mutant X twice, and I am a top operative of the Dominion. So I have no reason to be afraid to confront Jesse, a friend, after what happened last night. Stepping under the warm spray, Lexa lifted her face, enjoying the feeling of water hitting her face, and sliding down her tired body. Bracing her hands on the walls in front of her, Lexa wiped her mind clean, and stood there just concentrating on the warm caress of the water. After a minute, she turned around and picked up the shampoo, and started washing her long silkily strands. Her massaging fingers on her own scalp, and the warm comfort of the shower, relaxed Lexa, and gave her a calm and a security to admit something to herself, that she couldn't admit before. She was afraid of Jesse.
What had been happening to her over this past week, was scaring her. Being her with the Chadwicks and Melinda was making it impossible to keep all her walls up. She had already let her walls down lower then ever before with Jesse, but know it was if those walls didn't even exist. I mean I had cried all over him just last night, Lexa winced to herself, imagining the pitiful picture she must have made. but he didn't mind, a little voice whispered to Lexa, and neither did you. And that was where the real problem lay, Lexa admitted. She didn't really mind that Jesse had seen her like that, because she knew, deep down, that Jesse would always be there for her, and would never use a weakness against her. Turning off the shower, Lexa reached for her leave in conditioner, while her mind continued to think about her situation. What it all bottomed down to was, did she trust Jesse wholeheartedly? Her answer shook her so much she had to sit down on the lip of the tub for fear of falling on her now unsteady knees. Yes. She trusted Jesse completely, in a way she had never trusted anyone before. Not even her brother. She knew that Jesse could and would protect her no matter what. He would always be there for her, and there would be nothing he wouldn't do for her.
Slowly standing up, Lexa wrapped herself in one of the fluffy rose towels hanging beside the shower, and walked slowly into her room, almost in a dream like trance. Sinking down on the edge of her bed, Lexa suddenly and urgently wished she had a close girlfriend whom she could discus this with. She briefly considered finding Anna and discussing it with her, but quickly dismissed the idea, realizing there was much about her past, Jesse's and their current situation that she could not tell her.
Realizing there was one person who she could talk to, Lexa twisted her ring nervously around her finger. Calling this person, and confiding in her, would lower her own walls some more, to another person. Lightly chewing her bottom lip, Lexa sat there for a few minutes of indecision before she blew out a deep breath, her mind now made up. Standing Lexa walked over to her bureau, dressing quickly, before returning to her seat on the bed to make the call.
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"Shal, are you there?" a soft voice rang out, in the ferals dark room. Moaning softly at having her sleep interrupted, the feral, shoved her hand under her pillow, hoping to silence the offending ring.
"Shal?" the soft, now slightly muffled voice once again asked, before pausing and finally adding, "Damn!" It was that damn that got the ferals attention. Realizing the soft, worried voice belonged to her team mate Lexa, Shal's brow furrowed in concern over the tone of her voice. She sounded… soft, and uncertain. Her female genes kicked up, and she suddenly realized, for what ever reason her team mate needed to talk to her, women to women. Sitting up, her back propped up against her head board, Shal activated her ring, and responded. "Yeah Lex, what's up?" The pause on the other end, had Shalimar's concern upping tenfold.
"Nothing much, just wanted to see how things were progressing on your end." Lexa answered at last, causing Shalimar's eye brow to lift in amusement.
"Sure Lex" the feral mumbled in amusement, before she rushed t answer the question. "thing are going really slow. Dr. Owens is working really hard, but I think he needs more help then either Brennen or I could give him. I was thinking that maybe we could call in Dr. Marcus. I mean Brennen and I haven't been much of a help, in fact I think we are more in the way then anything else."
"Yeah that makes sense. I was talking to my Dominion contact the other day, and he told me they heard Gray and the other Shadow chasers, may be in your area."
"Okay so you want me and Brennen to track them down and keep an eye on them?"
"Yeah that way we can have a heads up if they start heading our way, and we can get Cat to safety, and the Cladosporium strand destroyed for once and all." Lexa paused for a moment as if wondering what to say next. Shal waited wondering if Lexa would bring up the real reason for her call. "well I guess I will let you get back to sleep. Sorry for waking you up."
"Wait Lexa," Realizing that her team mate was not going to bring up what ever was going to bother her, Shalimar's voice conveyed her concern as she asked, "what's really up? Are you okay?"
When Shalimar's questions were only meet by silence. Knowing how hard it must have been for the extremely private Lexa to call in the first place, she decided to take the next step in their friendship. "Lexa, if something is up, you can tell me. I'm your friend, and want to help you. You can trust me, you should know that by now." Shalimar finished a little hurt by the lack of trust between herself and Lexa.
"It's not that I don't trust you Shal, you know I trust you with my life. It's just that..,"
"It is so much harder to trust people with your feeling, I know. That is how I felt hen I first got here too. I was so afraid of the love and acceptance that I felt coming form Adam and Jesse, and it took me a long time to realize that I could trust them. I had to learn to trust my heart, and to listen to it, instead of my head."
"It's just so hard." came the soft response over Shal's ring. Her heart ached for the women on the other line, who was so obviously hurting. For the first time in her relationship with the mysterious mutant, Shal found herself wanting to comfort her.
"I know Lex, but we know better then anyone that life is hard. And nothing worth while is ever easy. There is one thing that you can be sure of Lexa, and that is that you are safe with us. Brennen, Jesse and myself, will never do anything to internally hurt you. You can trust us." then deciding that she would take the next and final step Shal added. "Just like I trust you."
With the add of her feral hearing, Shalimar heard the little intake of breath on the other end of the line, indicating that Lexa had understood Shalimar's meaning. Once the ferals trust was given to someone, it was permanent. That person would forever hold a place of trust in her heart.
"Thanks Shal. For everything." the emotional tone of Lexa's voice brought tears, to the ferals eyes, as she realized she had just made a very good friend.
"Any time Lexa. Now you take care. And say hi to Jesse." Shalimar's emphasis on Jesse's name let the brunette know that Shal had figured out the real reason of her distress.
"I will and you and Brennen take care too. Night."
"Night" Shalimar, slid back down in her bed, hit her pillow a few times, then pulled the blankets up around herself. Smiling she lay her head back down on the pillow, and contemplated the new turns the relationships of mutant x were taking, as she slowly drifted back to sleep.
hey guys just a quick note i frgot to mention before. i couple of people have emailed me afraid i wasn't going to countiue this story, so i though ti would post my promise to finsih this story. i may not be quick finishing it, bu ti promise i will finish it!