This Is …Me

Summary: Jennifer De Silva is like your normal, typical, over-ambitious and highly intelligent teenager. There's only a few things wrong with her life: She doesn't have a boyfriend, her whole family are keeping secrets from her AND she can talk to ghosts.

Disclaimer: I don't own the Mediator BUT I DO own several of the characters i.e. the next generations of DeSilvas, McTavishes, Slaters, Ackermans etc. AND I own this amazing plot which might have been used before by someone else but I dunno…whatever

Jen writes in normal script, Odette in bold italics and Brooke, in bold. Letters and E-mails are in italics and stressed words are underlined

The Journal of Jennifer Josephina De Silva

Chapter Four

A/N Sorry for not updating this like, forever but I went on hols and stuff…yeah, so sorry! But please, I know you're angry with me, but keep on reviewing! AND, I just realised that American's hols are in June, so I'm changing the month to September.

18-09-31

First Period

Freakin' hell!

Rookie did NOT just do what I think she did!

I just checked my mail this morning and voila! Two e-mails from Rookie. One, very normal and the other-not like her at all!

SHE TOLD ZACK SHE LOVES HIM!

That's so unlike her! And so wrong! How is she gonna get him to like HER now? He'll just use her, get her pregnant then throw her onto the streets where she'll rent a flat with a perv and end up working at McDonalds because she wouldn't have completed high school, forcing her to possibly resort to her sexual prowess for money. Eww!

And plus, if everyone told the person that they really loved, that they loved him/her, the whole world would break up. I bet there are a million women who don't love their husband but someone else, and if they admitted it, a million marriages would break apart! People would be used for their love!

What's with the exclamation marks?

Rookie, you can NOT just snatch someone's journal like that! It might have something really, really private written on it! That's why it says PRIVATE in size 72 across the front

Don't worry, I didn't read it

Phew

Ooh! Were you writing about Lucas?

No

Really?

Yes, now can you please change the subject?

Okay, fine. Did you get my e-mail?

Yeah, but I should warn you that National Geographic keep showing reruns these days

No, I mean the other one

Did you mean Zack as in Zack-Zack or ancient Zack from ancient show, Saved By The Bell?

What the hell is Saved by the Bell?

The show from History class

With all those fashion-don'ts?

Yep…1980s, it seems like a long time ago

But Zack WAS cute though!

You have a thing for people with the name Zack, don't you?

Indeed I do

So, why'd ya tell him?

I dunno, I just…I wanted him to know my feelings about him, and maybe then he would give me a chance. To let him know that there's someone there who likes him as much as he likes you.

But you shouldn't have TOLD him! Now, he'll take advantage of you and in a year you'll produced a baby Zack who'll grow up without his father

Ewww! That's so not gonna happen! Why are you being so pessimistic anyway? Something good might come out of it!

I'm not being pessimistic, I'm just warning you

No. You just want all the guys to yourself. All your life, guys have been chasing after you and you've been encouraging me in the search for the perfect guy. Finally when there's hope for me, you destroy it

Okay, now that's just being over-dramatic

Over-dramatic huh? What about, "You'll end up with a Zack-baby!"

That was a fair argument

So was mine!

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NEW E-MAIL

To: Jennifer De Silva

From: Zack Ackerman

Hey Jen…um, I got an e-mail from Brooke saying that she loves me, and I was wondering whether is was a joke or something….or maybe you were the one who wrote it and sent it from her address by mistake?

If it wasn't any of them, then…tell Brooke I really need to speak to her…I've tried myself but she's avoiding me…

Love Zack

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SENT MESSAGE

To: Zack Ackerman

From: Jennifer De Silva

I'm sorry but I'm not on speaking terms with Brooke at the moment. Perhaps you could ask Oddie?

Jen

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NEW E-MAIL

To: Jennifer De Silva

From: Odette Ackerman

Oh My God! You and Rookie aren't speaking! And you thought I wouldn't notice!

Why?

Luv Oddie

P.S We're deciding our outfits for the par-tay today remember? If you and Rookie aren't talking to each other I'll be bored out of my skull so make up by then!

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SENT MESSAGE

To: Odette Ackerman

From: Jennifer De Silva

She told Zack she loves him. I just explained why that might be bad and she blew up.

None of it was my fault…really

Love Jen

P.S I'm not sure I'll be able to come to your house if Brooke's going to be there. And plus-I only checked my mail before school. I had no time to pull together an outfit.

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NEW E-MAIL

To: Jennifer De Silva

From: Odette Ackerman

You must come or I will kill you and don't worry about the clothes.

We'll go shopping first.

Luv Oddie

P.S Like it wasn't some of your fault!

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NEW E-MAIL

To: Jennifer De Silva

From: Lucas Slater

Hi Jennifer. I was just wondering where you were at recess cos you were supposed to show me round (maybe you were ill?) but it doesn't matter or anything. This girl called Celine did it instead. She even said she would take over your job for you if you were too busy-wasn't that nice of her?

From Lucas

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Lunch

That bitch! How dare she show him around? I mean, I did forget, but we could have toured the school now! And no flipping way am I gonna let her take my job!

And how can anyone just walk up to someone and say in sly tone with a hint of bitter sweetness, "Forgetting your responsibilities, tut, tut. And you're little fight! How sweet! Just like I used to have with the gang when I was 9! Looks like Jennifer isn't so grown up yet. Or should I say LITTLE Jennifer."

And I didn't know what to say. Really. That's what Celine's taunts can do to people. It's not the thing she says, it's the way she says them. Evil, really; pure evil.

Oh my God! He's coming here! Lucas! Eek!

Be calm, Jen, be calm.

I must record this as he talks to remember it forever.

"Hi," he says.

"Hi," I say, "I got your e-mail. I'm sorry I wasn't there at recess…I kinda forgot."

"It's no big deal," he says, half smiling-his eyes are smiling too!-, "There must be a huge pressure on you, being clever and stuff."

He understands me perfectly! It's like we're soul mates!

"Are you writing everything I'm saying in there?" he asks.

I blush.

'I must record this as he talks to remember it forever.' I'm such a freak!

He's taking out something from his rucksack.

Oh my God, it's a journal! Saying 'Private' on it except in size 74!

Wow, his secrets must be even more important than mine.

"Cool," is what I'm about to say but I'm interrupted my someone's screeching.

"I miss my Howard!"

I feel sorry for this Howard, his lady had a really horrid voice.

"That's so loud!" I exclaim.

"What is?" asks Lucas.

Oh my God.

It must be a ghost!

I turn around and see my mum talking to a glowing woman; the woman with the screechy voice; the ghost.

Lucas sees my mum too talking to what he must think is air.

"Hey! Your mum's a mediator!"

What. The. Hell.

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