Author's Note: Okay, I just want to let everyone who as reviewed my story that I really am glad that you are being so helpful... I especially like the long reviews... Also I wasn't trying to make Dylan sick but after I realized that I had written it that way I decided to see it through... I promise I will not kill him off... I like him too much to do that!

Casa Walsh Brandon and Kelly's bedroom

Kelly was lying on the bed watching Brandon fidget with the blanket. He looked so panicked, an emotion she rarely ever saw from him. It kind of scared her especially if she was the reason he was acting this way, but at the same time she was smiling inside. She wanted them to really be a family and if that test came out positive she knew that they would face it together... she hadn't planned to get pregnant so soon, but here they were waiting for the alarm to go off telling them that their lives were about to change forever. The alarm sounded and Brandon's fingers stopped fidgeting with the blanket and looked towards the bathroom. "You ready?" Kelly asked him looking into his eyes.

"Let's do this..." He said a little unsure if he even wanted to know anymore.

Brandon squeezed Kelly's hand as she got up from the bed, mainly to let her know that he was there for her, but partly to reassure himself that they were doing the right thing. Kelly smiled as she walked toward the bathroom door... This is it! As she looked back to Brandon she noticed he was smiling at her. She opened the door and there it was sitting on the counter... the stick that would change her life. She picked it up and held it in her hand for a moment before looking at the result. There was a minus sign... according to the box that meant not pregnant. Kelly wanted to cry right then and there... she wanted to throw the stick at the wall and scream... but then she heard Brandon's voice.

"Hey is everything okay in there?" He called from the bedroom.

"Yeah... I'm okay." She replied smiling inwardly knowing that he loved her enough to be doing this with her.

"So what does it say?" He asked as she came back into the room.

"It's negative... I'm not pregnant." She said showing him the results in her hand.

"Kel... I'm sorry I know you wanted this..." Brandon said as he got up and put his arms around her.

"No... I shouldn't have put you through this... I can't believe I even thought I was pregnant..." She said crying into his shoulder.

"It'll happen someday when we're ready for it..." Brandon said as she pulled away from him.

"I need to be alone for a while... I think I'll go take a walk along the beach." She said as she walked out of the bedroom.

The Beach

The Beach had always played an important roll in Dylan's life... It was the one place he could go that seemed to make all of his problems go away. Today was no different... and as he sat on the sand listening to the waves pounding against the rocks all he could think about was his son, and how he would grow up without his father. Dylan knew what it was like to grow up without a father and didn't want that for Jacob... he wanted to be there and he wasn't about to let this brain tumor stand in his way.

"Hey... I thought I might find you here..." Kelly said walking up to him. "How bad is it?" She asked referring to the tumor.

"They want me to go to the Mayo Clinic in Rochester Minnesota to have it removed... I'm supposed to be there by the end of the week..." Dylan said watching the waves roll in.

"Have you told Brenda yet?" Kelly wanted to comfort him but wasn't sure what to say or how to act.

"Yeah... she's been great... she has a hotel booked for us and everything is taken care of..." Dylan was now looking at Kelly. "Sometimes I think that I will wake up tomorrow and the whole thing would turn out to be a nightmare..."

"Dylan, I wish that would happen too but the reality is you need to get that surgery or you may..."

"What Kel?... Die... you think I don't know that? Well I do and I'm scared as Hell!" Dylan said wiping the tears from his eyes hoping that Kelly couldn't see them.

"It'll be okay..." Kelly started to say but Dylan cut her off.

"No... It won't be okay... my life is falling apart and all anyone can seem to say is that it will be okay! Kel this is my life that we are talking about... I know that death has never really fazed me but right now it scares me to no end! I don't want to die... I don't want J.J. to go through life the same way I did..."

Dylan was spilling his soul to her and all she could do was stand there and stare out at the water... things out there seemed so peaceful. So right, like everything was in its place and no matter what happened that was how it was going to stay. Kelly knew he was going through a tough time but she didn't know what to say to him... she had never been through something that traumatic. Yeah, she had some hard times fall her way... like her mother being an alcoholic and drug addict... or her father leaving all the time and then getting arrested... when she lost the baby... and when she was recovering from her cocaine addiction. She had never had any illnesses to deal with, at least nothing where death was a very real possibility.

"Then go to the Mayo Clinic... get the surgery and get better... then come back!" She said finally like it was something she should have said a long time ago.

"What is wrong with you... one minute you are concerned about me and the next it is like you are biting my head off... what are you pregnant?" Dylan all but yelled finally realizing why she looked like she had been crying.

"No Dylan... I can honestly say that I am not pregnant... the test just confirmed that one!" She said in a slightly sarcastic tone as she flashed him a smile and looked back out over the water. "Don't you just wish that you were part of the ocean sometimes?" She asked him.

"I use to..." He began.

"Everything out there is so peaceful... everything has its own part and they all work together to create this beautiful image that we see everyday!"

"Kel, I know you feel like you are on a rollercoaster right now but let me tell you this... Life is a roller coaster and like it or not you have to learn how to ride without turning back because in life there is no turning back... once you make a choice to do something that's it forever... there is no turning back!" Dylan said as he walked away leaving her alone on the beach.

Four Hours Later...

Brandon walked down to where Kelly was sitting on the beach. He was worried about her because Dylan had said she was a mess when he walked back into the house. Brandon wasn't sure if it was because Dylan had told her that he was leaving the day before the wedding or if it was because of the results of the pregnancy test she had taken. Whatever it was he was soon going to find out. As he slowly made is way down to the water... it was dark and he had forgotten how hard it was to walk in the sand when he couldn't see it.

"Hey!" He said just trying to get her attention.

"Hey..." She said back.

"You do know that the sun set was two hours ago right?" He was trying to make her laugh.

"Yeah... I just wasn't ready to go home yet." She said still staring out at the water.

"Is this about Brenda and Dylan or is this about this afternoon?" He asked gingerly as he placed the blanket he was carrying around her shoulders.

"Thanks... it's about me... I don't want to be riding this roller coaster... I don't even like roller coasters... I don't feel safe on them..." Kelly was rambling on and on about roller coasters and Brandon had no idea why.

"Okay... Kel, we are nowhere near a roller coaster!" Brandon began.

"Yes... we are... it is our life and I feel like I could fall at any moment and no one is going to be there to catch me!"

"I will..."

"What?" Kelly asked turning towards him.

"I will catch you when you fall... I will be there for you when your world is coming apart... I'm not going to let you fall... I don't want to lose you... I'm here..." Brandon said holding her.

"I just..." Kelly sighed as she finally let go of everything she had been keeping inside.

"Ssshhh, I know... you feel like you life is unraveling before your eyes and there is nothing you can do to make it stop... Dylan and Brenda are leaving... we are getting married... everything is changing and you're scared... I am too." He said stroking his hands through her hair.

"Thanks..." She said plainly looking up at him.

"For what?" Brandon asked.

"For being you... the wonderful man that I fell in love with... the one that puts up with all my crap and never tells me that I am being unreasonable and self centered. I love you... you know!"

"I know and you wanna know something else..."

"What?" She asked smiling up at him.

"I love you too..." He said as he kissed her ever so sweetly. "Now can we go home because it's getting kind of cold out here?" He said as he faked a shiver.

"I just want to sit here for a little while longer with you... I'll share my blanket!" She teased as she wrapped the blanket around him.

Without hesitation Brandon found himself sitting on the beach with Kelly sitting between his legs, her back leaning against him. He leaned up against the rock behind him and just held her as close as he could. She was his world and right now things couldn't be more perfect... well except maybe the fact that Dylan wasn't sick and could be there for the wedding that was happening in a few days. He didn't know how long they had been sitting there but he did realize when Kelly had fallen asleep. Carefully he got up and carried her up to the beach apartment where he knew Donna and David would be watching yet another tacky horror movie.

"Hey Brandon what's up?" Donna asked as she opened the door for him.

"Kelly's asleep and I was hoping we could crash here... I really don't want to drive back to the house tonight..." He began.

"Oh... yeah... you guys can sleep in her old room!" Donna said moving out of the way so Brandon could come inside.

"Thanks... I just didn't want to wake her up."

"No problem... See you in the morning..." She said as he disappeared into the bedroom.