Casa Walsh Living Room

Kelly was sitting on the couch watching Caleb roll around on the floor while she talked with Donna and pushed Crystal in the swing. As she looked over at her son she was reminded of Brandon… She had hoped that Caleb would start to look like her a little more, but the older he got, the more he looked like Brandon. He had the same eyes… the same hair color… the same nose… the same smile… and even the same laugh. Kelly sighed as she turned back to her conversation with Donna.

"So I had a few ideas for the new fall line…" Donna trailed off once she noticed the look in her friend's eye. "Kel what's the matter?" She asked.

"Nothing… I was just thinking about… Never mind… What about the fall line?" She asked not wanting to bother Donna with her problems.

"You're not getting away with this that easily… spill!" Donna said with a smile plastered on her face.

"Okay… fine… you win… It's just that every time I look at Caleb I think about Brandon… he looks just like him and I guess…"

"You guess you just miss him… you want him back… It's okay to say it… he's their father… and you can't move on because you still love him… Just admit it!"

Donna was just telling Kelly what she knew was true, but it still hurt to hear it from her. Tears started to form in her eyes as she tried to fight the feelings she had… before she could stop them a single tear fell down her cheek. Donna felt bad for how she had made Kelly feel, but she really needed to hear it. Just then a shrill scream came from Caleb… he wasn't around anything that could have hurt him… he had just started screaming. Kelly bolted from her seat on the couch and picked him up… she started to rock him back and forth… but he just kept screaming.

"Sweetie, it's okay… mommy's here… you're okay…" Nothing Kelly seemed to be doing was working. "What's wrong baby?" Kelly asked desperately.

"Why is he crying?" Donna yelled over Caleb's screams.

"I don't know!!!! What do I do?" Kelly was about to loose it, and Donna wasn't helping.

"Don't ask me… I don't know!!!" Donna yelled back as Caleb's screams got more intense.

Upstairs in Brenda's Room

Brenda had just finished giving Jacob his bath and Dylan had just finished writing another poem he had thought of. While he was in the hospital he had started to write poems just to pass time, but he found that he was really good at them… He even almost had enough of them to publish a book. Brenda was so proud of her guys… Dylan had turned his life around and Jacob was turning into a bright little toddler.

"Okay J.J. time for your nap…" Brenda said as she put him in his crib.

"Daddy!" He shouted…

"Okay… I'm coming…" Dylan said walking over to where is son stood in the crib. "J.J. you have to take your nap… or mommy and daddy won't take you to the beach later…"

Dylan knew that Jacob's favorite place was the beach… he loved playing in the sand… and it was the perfect thing to say to get him to lay down in his bed. It had worked every day since they had gotten back from Minnesota… and even though Brenda didn't like that he was bribing their son… it made it so he would take his nap. Brenda turned the light off and the two of them left the room. As they walked into the hall, however, they heard Caleb screaming up a storm.

"What is going on?" Brenda asked looking in the direction of the screams.

"I'm not sure…" Was all Dylan said as the two headed down the stairs.

Living Room

"What happened?" Brenda yelled over the screams.

"I don't know… one minute he was fine and the next he is screaming and I don't know why!... He doesn't have any cuts or marks on him… he doesn't have a fever… I tried changing him… and feeding him… nothings working!!!" Kelly was starting to freak out.

"Maybe we should take him to the doctor…" Donna suggested, seeing how scared Kelly was getting.

"Here… let me take him for a little while… You two go in the kitchen and grab a few blankets off the table… I just folded them earlier…" Brenda said knowing that Kelly needed to breathe and that it was nothing to worry about.

Kelly just nodded as she pulled Donna into the kitchen with her. She leaned against the counter for a minute grateful that Brenda had been home. She took a deep breath and as she let it out she thought about how hard the past few months had been. She felt like she was raising them all by herself… yes, she had her friends helping her out when she needed it, but she didn't have the one person that had help get her in this mess. Brandon, I need you… you would know what to say… you always know what to say… Kelly thought as she heard another scream come from her helpless little boy. She snapped out of her self pity and grabbed the blankets off the table.

"Now what?" Kelly asked placing the blankets on the coffee table.

"Okay… all we are going to do is wrap him tightly in the blankets and you are going to hold him as close to your heart as you can… he's just insecure… a little cuddling should make him feel better…" Brenda said as she handed him back to Kelly.

"How did you know that?" Kelly asked as Caleb started to calm down as she rocked him back and forth.

"J.J. got like that when Dylan was going through treatment… the doctors told me that he felt left out… like I wasn't giving him as much attention as I was giving Dylan… I felt horrible but this helped… Caleb probably feels like Crystal is getting more attention than him… its normal." Brenda said watching the two.

"I guess I have been paying more attention to her… she doesn't remind me of Brandon every time I look at her… I'm sorry sweetie…" Kelly said as she looked down at Caleb.

"He does look a lot like him doesn't he?" Brenda said with a slight laugh.

"The spitting image… I mean go look at the photo album in the cabinet over there!" Kelly said nodding with her head.

"I'll get it…" Donna said as she pulled it out and flipped it to the correct page.

" Brandon age three months…" Brenda read the caption under the picture. "Wow… If I didn't know any better I would swear that, that was Caleb!!!" Brenda was shocked at the resemblance.

"I can see why this is so hard for you…" Dylan said taking Crystal from her swing.

"Yeah… sometimes I wish I would have told Brandon… because I know he would have came home… but it wouldn't have been for the right reason… He would have felt obligated to come back, and that is what I didn't want…" Kelly said looking down at Caleb who was now sleeping in her arms.

"And how do you feel now?" Donna asked.

"I still want to tell him… I just don't know what to say anymore." Kelly began.

"Just tell him the truth… he'll understand!" Brenda said smiling… she wanted Kelly to tell him.

"I will!" Kelly said as she got up and headed up to her room.