Falling
Chapter 3- What do you care!
Roger sat by the locked door of Marks room, it was locked from the outside so Mark couldn't get out.
"Step 3," Roger said under his breath, "denial." Roger finished, he made a list of steps that druggies go through when dealing with withdrawal. Mark has been through three steps so far.
Step 1, asking for help. Step 2, anger and regret for asking for help. Step 3, denial and fear that you might not make it. The rest of the steps roger would just have to figure out as time progresses.
Roger could hear Marks pleas to be let out from the other side of the door, "rog, please, just let me out! Rog!" Mark shouted, and Roger sighed he has heard that plea for the millionth time it seemed like that night. He was already stupid enough to fall for it the first time.
Except very plea seemed to tug on Rogers heart, that desperate sound in his voice as he called out to him, that's way he let him out the first time, he felt bad.
That was a mistake though cause as soon as Roger opened the door, Mark tried to run out and get a hit, luckily Roger grabbed him and dragged him down and back into the room. The whole time Roger was pulling mark back into his room he could hear Mark say, "just on hit, please just one hit." And mark kept repeating it. So, Roger learned from his mistake and was not going to open that door, until he believed that Mark was ready.
Roger then heard banging on the door, "Time to calm him down before he hurts himself….again." Roger said as he stood up and opened the door, Roger was ready if Mark was going to run.
Instead of Mark running and trying to push him out of the way, mark just backed away from the door and his body began to shake, not only from withdrawal but, with sobs.
"Roger, what have I done?" mark asked in a whispered voice, "I just want it to be over." Mark admitted, Roger knelt down beside him and put a hand on Marks shoulder, "Mark, something like this takes awhile, but you're strong, you'll make it through this. I need you to." Roger said and mark looked back at him with cold eyes. "What do you care!" Mark asked as he stood up and moved away from roger.
Roger stood up and sighed, it was now or never, "I care because, I love you and I don't want you to hurt anymore." Roger said as he looked to the floor then back at Mark.
"No, you can't." Mark told Roger, his voice cracking with emotion. "Why?" Roger asked as he took a step closer to Mark and having mark back away as a result. "Because, you just can't! Roger, look at me! I've got nothing, I am nothing! My films are worthless, they are just films of the past and the past wasn't all that great! Roger, how could you love someone like me, HOW?" Mark shouted at him.
Roger could tell Mark was afraid, he could feel tears sting his eyes, "Don't you ever say that your films are worthless because they're not! I love you Mark and I won't deny that, I can't." Roger said as he tried to blink back tears.
Mark let out anannoyed sigh, "Why? Why do you love me?" Mark asked hoping he was dreaming.
Roger lowered his head, "Because, you never left." Roger said as the tears fall freely. "What?" Mark asked, not sure as to what Roger said. "You never left me! During all of this, you stayed! I fell in love with you!" roger yelled and Mark just looked at him shocked and said, "Rog, I'm not ready for this yet so please just go. Leave." Mark said coldly.
Roger wiped to tears from his eyes and with a sad sigh, heleft, he made sure he locked the door. Then, he sat back down by the locked door of marks roomand muttered, "Step 4," Roger sighed, "push every one away and fall into depression." Roger finished as he heard Mark start to cry.
END of chap 3
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