Somewhere in his personal darkness, Kai stumbled about with no sense of direction, unable to even tell up from down; everything around him was black and cold. He felt feverish; shivers ran down his back yet sweat beaded his face, his breath came in ragged gasps and his eyes were veiled with a swirl of emotions. Fear, pain, regret, anger, grief…
Suddenly, a spark of red light caught his attention; it was faint, but he also heard a whisper, pressing him towards the light, calling… Calling his name…
Kai broke into a run, the whispers pulling him on, the light slowly growing, slowly emitting warmth… He wanted it. He wanted the warmth to take him, to surround everything and envelop him forever. Somehow… he knew he needed it, as if his life depended on it; a cure… It was a cure to his illness… Another thought joined the first: he thought he recognized it… The light and its warmth were close now; he could feel a hot wind caressing his face, dispelling his sickness, erasing all doubt…
Kai…He abruptly stopped running and found himself face to face with a man. He was a handsome man, perhaps in his early twenties, but something about how he held himself told Kai he was much older… The man was fair skinned and well built; he stood with a good head higher than Kai. He wore crimson pants and a short sleeve-less jacket of the same colour, which he let open on the front. Some sorts of symbols were tattooed on his exposed stomach and more ran down his arms; the red symbols seemed to radiate the heat Kai felt around him. The two-toned haired youth now raised his head to examine the new comer's face. This man's hair was fiery red, the back tied in a long tress, reaching below his waist and gently swirling around behind him by the calm breeze; two pointed ears poked out from among the strands of red. Then, his eyes… Kai met with his gaze and was taken aback; they were a light blue and had a piercing quality to them, as if he could look straight into someone's soul…
At first, he had a serious expression, making the youth before him uncomfortable, but when their gazes met, his lips curled into an affectionate smile.
"Kai…" He said with a touch of fondness.
The other merely looked up at him, unable to tear his eyes away from those endless blue orbs looking back at him and unable to speak. He felt as though he knew this man… just a feeling, but it was there; familiarity…
All of a sudden, he raised his hand; Kai flinched and closed his eyes, afraid of what he might do. Gently, he caressed the two-toned hair's cheek then passed his hand through his hair, brushing it back from his face. Kai was confused but refused to look up at the man for fear of locking into his eyes again. He didn't know why he was treating him as though he was…
A girl… He gasped, his eyes going wide and meeting the other's face, I'm a… a girl…
"Kai…It's been so long…" Said softly the other, "How you've changed…"
"I've become a girl…" Replied Kai bitterly, dropping his head.
"Yes you have…" The man smiled again, "A fine-looking girl at that…"
He tenderly took Kai's face with both hands now and raised it, making him look straight at him, making him fall back to those blue eyes.
"What are you…?" He gasped, but was silenced with his grave look.
"Kai… Are you afraid?""No… I… I'm…" He stammered.
The man examined him as if he were penetrating him with his gaze; it seemed pointless to answer since he was just going to see it for himself.
"You are terrified…"His tone was tinged with disappointment, like he had been expecting more from him.
"Yes…" Kai finally answered, defeated.
He remained silent, studying the girl before him. Outside, he was impassive, save for the scowl and the cold reflecting in his eyes; inside, he was confused as the girl, as to the how, the why; he knew the who…
In the end, he sighed and a warm smile replaced the frown. The girl before him had once been strong, at another time, with another face… He wanted her to be strong again. In a moment, his features had become unreadable, but stubborn determination burned inside him.
"Do you trust me?"Kai looked up, puzzled.
"What do you mean?"
"Do you?" He insisted.
"I…" He began, but hesitated, "I… do." He shook his head, "I don't know why, but I know I can trust you…"
"Then listen to me…" The man took him by the shoulders, "You will not throw your life away."
How… Kai's eyes widened, How could he know?
"You will live and persevere, no matter how hard things get." He continued, "And besides… you're not the only one."
"You mean… Max?" The man nodded, making Kai even more puzzled, "But… How do you know?"
"I know much, but that is not the matter at hand." His hands slid from his shoulders and up his neck, up to hold his face again, "You must promise me…"
Something was happening to Kai; he felt warm… hot even… At first he thought it was the wind, or just being there, enveloped by light. Something told him he was wrong, that the heat came from within him and yet… the man. His presence was filling him, spreading through his body and rushing in his veins from where is hands held him; his touch was the source of the fire in him.
"Promise…?" Asked Kai softly, slowly being taken over by both the heat and his gaze.
"Yes…" He replied just as softly.
The man's hands slid farther, his fingers going in Kai's hair. As he did, he leaned forward, his face almost touching his; Kai could smell his sweet breath, feel his silky hair fall around the both of them. He was now sure the man was causing him to feel the way he did; so… warm… so close…
"Promise what…?" He managed to say in a whisper.
He needed more, the heat, this feeling… that man. Unconsciously, his hands went on the man's hands, then slid down to his arms, down to his chest; he shivered at feeling his chest, powerful and built, and his heart beating quickly. From there, his hands grabbed his jacket. He closed his eyes, drinking in this sensation, when he suddenly felt the man's chest come in contact with his, or rather, his feminine chest. He gasped, his eyes opening again; he felt him through his clothes, like skin against skin, making him look. He was still clothed, yet it felt as though he wore nothing but his skin, the other's chest pressing against him, heating him. He closed his eyes and smiled despite himself, loving the sensation; at this, the man closed his own eyes and rested his forehead against Kai's, sliding his hands a few inches forward in his hair.
"Promise me that you will never stop…"Kai's heart began beating faster, yet he didn't know why, just that it had to do with the heat surging through him; he could feel the other growing warmer too, as if his desire was the heat…
"Yes…" Murmured Kai.
"That you will never quit…"The man gently kissed the two-toned hair's forehead, then brushed his eye with his lips, making him grip his jacket and pull him closer to his self. The other smiled as he continued his taunts, letting one hand slide behind Kai's head while the other went around his waist, pulling him even closer, groin to groin. Kai's heart raced and the heat was overwhelming his senses but he didn't care… Not the why or the what… Just the heat… Just the man and his passion…
"Never…" He repeated.
Kai tried to answer, but the most he managed was a soft moan, making the man shiver. Without realizing, the two-toned hair was making the man want him more and more, despite what he had originally meant; it took all of his self-control not to kiss the girl in his arms, not to make her his. He was surprised to suddenly feel her hands caressing his face, her lips brush lightly against his; forgetting himself, he closed his eyes and leaned forward.
STOP!The man's head snapped back, eyes wide, and Kai, startled, huddled closer to him; both looked in the direction of where the shout had come from. A woman had appeared; a blue aura like rippling water encircled her and she moved graciously, as if gliding on that water. She was wearing a long shirt, the neck opening in a v-shape, and a tight fishnet shirt underneath; a long cloth hung like a banner on the front. Bare foot like the man, bandages wrapped her feet and hands, making her look like a strong warrior. Kai's eyes trailed up to her face; she had two long bangs while the back of her hair was short, like she wanted to prevent it from going in her face. Her eyes were a light aqua colour, looked always watchful; now, they also showed anger.
"What do you think you're doing?" She growled at the man.
The man merely narrowed his eyes on her and passed his arms around Kai protectively.
"Have you forgotten our mission?" She continued."I have not." He replied curtly.
"Then what are…""I will do as I wish!" He cut her off, then lowered his voice to a dangerous growl, "You are in my territory… Leave now."
When she didn't move, the red aura surrounding him grew, like fire blazing higher and higher; so did the woman's own aura. The two opposing forces stared each other down; the tension building up between them was almost thick enough to cut with a knife. The two-tone hair felt unsettled, as if this was somehow his fault…
"Please…" He said softly, "Please don't fight…"
The man turned his gaze on him; his eyes were ice cold, but Kai sustained it with a pleading look. Finally, his gaze softened and a smile crept on his lips.
"We will not…" He said reassuringly, caressing his cheek with the back of one hand.
Kai closed his eyes and held his hand, resting his head against the redhead's chest; it heaved as the man sighed. Kai looked up to find him smiling, but it was a sad smile…
"You're so selfish…" Said the woman to herself in an annoyed tone, then spoke louder, "Do as you will, but finish quickly, we need to leave."
The man shot her a deadly glance, making her cross her arms and raised her nose, as if insulted.
"You are… leaving?" Gasped Kai, "So soon? Why?"
The man tried to step back from the girl, but Kai still held his jacket; he seemed a little surprised, but sadness was truly obvious in his blue eyes.
"Kai…" He started, but swallowed back whatever else he was about to say.
"Please, can't you stay just a while longer?" Pleaded the two-tone haired girl.
The man shook his head, then took her hands in his, taking them away from his jacket.
"I am sorry, but I cannot…" He said softly as he dropped to one knee.
Kai felt as if he would die without this man, as if his sole existence revolved around his passionate heat. After a short silence, he managed to ask…
"Will I ever see you again?"
The man looked intently into his eyes before his lips curved.
"Perhaps… In time…" Getting back up, he added, "Just remember that…" He gently placed one hand above her left breast, "I will always be there with you… Forever…"An impatient grunt from the woman told them both that it was time to separate; the redhead gave her an annoyed glance before brushing back Kai's hair and kissing him goodbye on the forehead. He let go of his hands and began walking away, joining the woman who was still waiting, her aura shivering with her irritation.
"Wait!" Suddenly exclaimed the two-tone hair, "You… you never told me your name!"
The man turned around and smiled warmly.
"You already know me."
And with that he was gone…
Darkness crept back, devouring all the space that light had once occupied, bringing with it cruel realization; Kai dropped to his hands and knees, feeling distressed once more. The heat was gone, the light and the safety he had felt with that man had disappeared with him and…
He didn't even know his name…
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Is this kinky and emo or what! D Not to worry, there will be more stuff like this, just... a lot farther ahead. HAHAHA!
Sorry for the confusion by the way, I might change this later on...