During the drive to the airport, Jack had figured out that this wasn't one of those alternate reality situations. From what his mind had been able to recall from having to endure Major Carter's long winded techno babble explanations, if this was an alternate reality he would at least still be in his own body. Anyway, this situation was far more bizarre like…like he had slipped into the Twilight Zone.
For Pete's sake, he's inside Jacob Carter's head! Not even Major Carter could have calculated that one. There was no way that Daniel would have anything like it in those books of his. And Jack heard his own voice over the phone. Yeah, that was his voice claiming to be Selmak. Jack's mind just couldn't fathom such a thing ever spewing from his lips, not even as a joke.
But after his mind got over the shock it suddenly dawned on him what had happened. Somehow he and Selmak switched bodies. Now, Jack was experienced with such a situation having swapped bodies with Teal'c before. The scariest part about that had been when Teal'c had nearly shaved all of Jack's precious hair off. But in that case, Jack was Teal'c not Junior! And he didn't have to deal with someone else's thoughts or emotions constantly like he has had to endure this time around.
It had been mind numbing dealing with Jacob's thoughts as he had showered with Janet. Thankfully Jacob had been in enough control to not let Janet get out of hand in the shower, as Jack hadn't been sure how much more he could take. Though he could strongly feel just how much Jacob had wanted to make love to Janet again in her bed. Jacob's restraint had been great. Not to mention his stamina had been impressive when making love with Janet even though he was only a few years older than Jack. Jack had actually heard Jacob's internal debate whether to change their flight or not.
This wasn't lust towards this woman. No, it was nothing like that at all. Jacob loved Janet deeply. It was pure, unconditional love. And Jack could feel every bit of it; it was so overwhelming, how could he not! Jacob's love for Janet was present in every word, every gesture, every look and every gentle touch towards her. It spread through every fiber of the man's being. And from what Jack could see, Janet reciprocated that love.
It was actually a very peaceful and tranquil feeling that Jack had seeing that with all there was out there in the universe these two people were able to come together to share something truly wonderful. For a soldier like Jack, this was what they were fighting for. Not just for their freedom from the Goa'uld. But the freedom to live and love.
Then there was the guilt Jack felt each time Jacob reached out to him…to Selmak. Jack could feel the exceedingly deep affection that Jacob had towards Selmak. It was bizarre. Jacob didn't have to say the words. Jack could simply sense them through his connection with Jacob. But of course they would be affectionate. It was inevitable when having such an intimate, mind sharing relationship. Yes, the old man loved the even older…possibly ancient snake in his head. She must reciprocate that love or else Jacob wouldn't have been so protective of her and it would explain why Jacob has repeatedly tried hard to get Selmak to simply talk to him.
So, this is what a true blending was supposed to be like.
Jack never knew that because Kanan never extended himself the way Selmak obviously had done with Jacob. The host was supposed to care for the symbiote and vice versa. They were supposed to love each other enough to take care of each other. That sounded far too much like being married but without the benefits of sex. Actually, from what Jack understood now, it was worse than marriage. At least the husband or the wife could leave the room and slam a door before, during or after a heated argument. A host and symbiote were stuck with each other…literally!
And that's what Jack was…he was stuck. He couldn't move. Well, he could wiggle but that only caused Jacob to have a sick feeling in his stomach. There was no way he could leave Jacob because there was no where to go. Jack didn't want to cause Jacob anymore harm than he already had. It was bad enough that Jacob was worried about Selmak.
That's where Jack felt so guilty. Though his anger had been directed solely at Selmak, Jacob had been affected by it as well. A host and symbiote who have truly blended are one. Which meant what happens to one happens to the other. So, each and every time Jack got spiteful with Selmak meant he got nasty with his good friend Jacob.
But how the hell was Jack going to convince Jacob he wasn't Selmak? Shit, how the hell was Jack even going to get back to his own body? First of all, the state of mind Jacob was in at the moment didn't bode well for Jack. While Jacob's front thoughts were primarily focused on Janet, lurking closely behind them was his red hot anger towards Jack for making Selmak feel so bad, as evident by the brusque telephone conversation earlier. Second, if Selmak couldn't convince Jacob, Jack sure as hell didn't even have a chance.
On the other hand, Selmak had figured out about the body switch which meant that she would be able to figure away to put things right! After all, she was way smarter than Jack was or will ever be. And she had her own body at the moment and could do whatever she wanted which hopefully meant she was working on a solution.
Correction, she had her Jack's body and could do whatever she wanted...
Crap! Jack didn't even want to think about the ramifications of that! After all, hell hath nor fury like a woman's scorn or something like that. And Jack knew that Selmak was pissed off at him. But if she did any physical harm to his body she would be doing it to herself, right? She wouldn't do anything like that to get at Jack. That's just so beneath her. Or at least that's what Jack gathered from Jacob's thoughts.
Whew, Jack was a little worried there for a moment!
Ok, so all Jack had to do was lie low until Selmak figured out how to get them back in their proper bodies. Piece of cake! He could do that no problem. Jack could just keep doing what he's been doing by isolating himself from Jacob as much as possible.
There was just one problem with that…Janet.
"She doesn't feel like a rock back there anymore," Janet whispered, her fingers gently kneading the back of Jacob's neck.
Whatever Janet was doing felt a hundred times better than any back rub Jack ever had in his entire life! A part of him wanted her to stop. It was only a small part of him. The other part instinctively relaxed as the tenseness that had enveloped him started to fade.
"You were right," Jacob spoke softly into Janet's ear. "I think she's starting to feel better. I could sense she's…more relaxed. Even a little…happy."
"Good, now maybe she can tell me what you both are up to," Janet smirked, pulling her hand away.
Jack was mildly disappointed but somewhat content as he listened to their conversation.
"We're not up to anything," Jacob replied.
Of course Jack could sense differently. This weekend's getaway was very important to Jacob, like something special was going to take place. That was the reason why he had been so adamant about pulling Selmak out of her shell. She was an important part of what was to take place this weekend.
"Then why the need to get away?" Janet asked.
"Janet, it's practically winter here in Colorado, who in their right mind would turn down a few days in Hawaii?" Jacob countered.
Janet just looked at Jacob. Jack had seen that kind of look in a woman's face before. Women were born with the ability to sniff out many forms of bullshit! They could even detect it before the man even opened his mouth. Whatever line of bull Jacob was handing to Janet wasn't bad for Jack could sense the joy and anticipation in Jacob. And from the sparkle in Janet's eyes, Jack had a sense that she had some idea of what it was.
Funny, Janet has the same look that Sara had right before Jack asked her to marry him.
'Oh – my – God! Jake, you dog! You're going to pop the big question!' Jack exclaimed as the very reason for the weekend just came to him.
'Of course, I'm going to ask. It was your idea,' Jacob shot back at Jack, who momentarily forgot that Jacob could hear what he was thinking. 'And since when am I a dog? I have been a perfect gentleman while courting Janet.'
'It's just an expression I picked up somewhere,' Jack mumbled.
Jacob let out a heavy sigh. Jack knew this wasn't the end of the conversation. He also knew he couldn't just turn tail and hide like he had done before. Jacob seemed…determined to not let that happen.
"Janet, excuse me, I'm going to the restroom," Jacob said. "They won't be calling our flight for another fifteen minutes."
"You feeling ok?" she asked her hand sliding affectionately over his forehead and down the side of his face. "You feel a little warm."
"I'm fine," he smiled, holding her hand against his cheek. "Selmak's just stewing in there, that's all."
"Ok. Be here when you get back."
Jacob kissed her cheek then got up and headed to the men's restroom. And Jack suddenly felt like he was five years old again, standing before his father for a long lecture. He wasn't disappointed.
'Selmak, what has gotten into you?' Jacob started, after he went to the furthest sink and turned the water on. He splashed cold water over his face. 'We've planned on this weekend with Janet for a month and now you start acting like a child! This was your idea! I admit that I would eventually have asked Janet to marry me, but you said, and I quote, Why wait? You love the woman that much! '
'Sorry,' was all Jack could think to say. He figured the less said the better.
Again, Jacob sighed. Jack could feel the man's frustration and his anger was beginning to rise. But again like before, the anger was directed towards Jack…the Jack that Jacob knew existed. Jacob had no idea the switch had taken place and thus had no reason to doubt he wasn't talking to Selmak.
'Selmak, it's pointless to ask Janet if you're not with me on this!' Jacob snapped. 'We're a team remember? We live as one…we love as one. And we both are asking Janet to be a part of our lives as she has openly accepted both of us into hers.'
'Jacob, I'm sorry. I know how special Janet is to you…to us,' Jack said, not even knowing if what he said made any kind of sense. 'It's just that…'
'Just what?' Jacob expectantly asked.
Ok, time to test Jacob's bullshit detector.
'I'm just still pretty damn upset about Jack calling me a snake!' Jack said then held his breath.
'Look, I'll deal with Jack when we get back,' Jacob said, his tone softening, his anger fading. 'Let's enjoy our weekend. Deal?'
'Deal!' Jack said in relief.
'Selmak, one more question.'
Jack cringed. He thought he was in the clear.
'Is it hot in here or is it just me?'
'It's a bit warm in here,' Jack lied to pacify Jacob because Jack had no idea how to gage if the room was warm or not.
'You sure? I'm feeling a bit too warm.'
'Jacob, its nerves. You're excited and scared about asking Janet the big question, that's all,' Jack answered, having experienced something like it when he had asked Sara to marry him.
'Of course…you're right,' Jacob sighed, then dried his hands and face.
Whew! Jack was glad that was over. Jacob bought it and seemed in better spirits as he headed back to Janet. They walked hand in hand as they boarded their flight.
Maybe Jack was going to pull this off. After all, lying low in Hawaii for a few days wasn't really that bad of an idea! He wondered if Jacob packed the sunscreen.
Janet suddenly giggled at something Jacob said after they had buckled their seat belts. Jack just rolled his eyes. Who was he kidding? They probably weren't going to need the sunscreen!
