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Chapter 13

Lily walked in to the Great Hall alone. (A/N: Yes I know I said that in the last chapter.)

She caught various glances from people (mainly boys) but she just took it in her stride. Maybe it had to do with how She sauntered over to Sirius and Brianna, who were standing next to Amelia and Ludo who were deep in snogging. Sirius kept shooting them dirty looks. "Where's Emily?" Lily yelled at Sirius, since the music was exceptionally loud.

"She's with Jacque, the other French exchange student. Apparently, he's better at French then I am." Lily had to smirk. "Karma's a bitch," she said. "So I've heard," he replied, once again looking at Amelia.

"Where's James?" Lily asked, trying to sound casual, but she probably didn't. Sirius shot her a look that said, Oh JamesLily just stuck out her tongue. "I honestly don't know," Sirius said afraid that Lily would hex him. "Vanessa's over there," he pointed to a corner where she and her friends were talking to some Hufflepuff boys ", But he's totally M.I.A."

They were then approached by Victoria and Remus, who had been dancing. (A/N: I know actually dancing at a dance, what were they thinking?) Then Peter and Elizabeth came. Ludo and Amelia had stopped snogging once they'd realized there were other people in the room. No one knew where James was. They talked and danced for a little while and then James showed up, alone.

"Where's Vanessa?" Lily yelled to James. "Huh?" James yelled over the music. "Why aren't you with Vanessa?" she yelled louder. But he still couldn't hear and she gave up. James took Lily's hand where he led her to the dance floor and they danced. They all had a lot of fun and lily was beginning to see a light at the end of the tunnel.

!#$&()

Later that night Lily went into the bathroom to fix up her makeup. While she was there Vanessa, Dani, and Jen came in. "Can you believe it?" Vanessa was asking the other girls exceptionally loud. The other two just shook their heads. Lily had never like the expression curiosity killed the cat.

"What can't they believe?" Lily asked.

"Oh," Vanessa said, acting surprised like she hadn't seen Lily. "James told me he loves me!" Cue cat dieing. Vanessa fanned her face with her hands like she was so overwhelmed. Lily just looked in the mirror.

"Oh," Lily said with a monotonous voice ", that's err… great."

"Isn't it?" she replied. Then she left to let Lily wallow in her misery. Lily just looked in the mirror. She could feel tears welling up. She blinked them away and left the bathroom. She told Amelia she had a headache and left.

Once in her dorm she began to think. Now she couldn't steal James away because when you love someone, you want them to be happy. And somehow Vanessa made James happy. So Lily wouldn't get in the way. Lily shouldn't get in the way. She couldn't get in the way.

She put on her pajamas and washed her face. She buried her face in her pillow and started to cry. She didn't know how long she lay like that, but it was long enough that she ran out of tears. Then she heard someone come up the stairs. She pretended to be asleep.

"I wonder what happened to Lily," Brianna was saying.

"She claimed to have a head ache," Amelia said like she didn't believe it.

"I wonder why," Victoria said ", She was having fun with James." They ended the conversation there and went to bed. Once all the girls were asleep she got out of the bed. She just couldn't sleep. She put on a pair of flip flops, since she hated slippers. She went down to the common room to try to get put an escape.

!#$&()

James went up to the dorms with everyone else when the dance was over. He put on his lounge pants and a tee shirt and tried to sleep, but it was impossible. Thoughts of Lily raced through his mind. He was restless. He just wanted to tell her what he felt. He went down to the common room to think, or at the very least to shake off some of the energy he had built up.

He sat near the window and looked out. He started to sing.

Without You from RENT

James
Without you, the ground thaws, the rain falls, the grass grows.
Without you, the seeds root, the flowers bloom,
The children play. The stars gleam, the poets dream, the eagles fly, without you.
The earth turns, the sun burns, but I die, without you.
Without you, the breeze warms, the girl smiles, the cloud moves.
Without you, the tides change, the boys run, the oceans crash.
The crowds roar, the days soar, the babies cry, without you.
The moon glows, the river flows, but I die, without you.

Lily (emerging form the shadows on the stair way, shocking James who thought he was alone)
The world revives,

James
Colors renew,

BOTH
But I know blue, only blue, lonely blue, within me blue

James
Without you. Without you the hand gropes, the ear hears, the pulse beats.

Lily
Without you, the eyes gaze, the legs walks, the lungs breath.
The mind churns!

James
The mind churns!

Lily
The heart yearns!

James
The heart yearns!

BOTH
The tears dry, without you.
Life goes on, but I'm gone.
'Cause I die, without you.

James
Without you.

Lily
Without you.

BOTH
Without you

By the time the song was over Lily was standing next to James by the window.

"So, umm hi," Lily said nervously.

"Hi," James said. He ran a hand through his hair, but stopped when he remembered how much Lily hated that. He knocked over a book that was on the windowsill and they both went to grab it, their hands touching. They looked each other in the eye and straightened up.

"Did you see RENT?" Lily asked, trying to make small talk, not really sure what to say. James nodded. It was weird having some one he loved so much so close to him. "Where?" Lily asked.

James said ", I saw the movie." Lily nodded. "I saw it on Broadway, in London, and I watched the movie. I love that song," she said wishing that this would get more comfortable. "Me too," James said. There was a silence as they both looked out the window. James couldn't believe he was having this conversation with the girl he loved so much. He was about to speak but Lily did first.

"Are you really in love?" she asked him softly and slowly, secretly praying that her heart wouldn't be shattered. James was shocked she'd figured it out. He had to come clean.

"Yeah," said James with the same softness in his voice. He looked her in the eye "I really am." Lily stared at him. She couldn't stand to look at him anymore. She didn't understand how she could hate and love him so much at the same time. She could feel tears welling up in her eyes. She tried to blink them back. She didn't want him to see her cry.

She turned around and ran through the portrait hole, tears running down her face, leaving a very confused James alone. He yelled something, but she was too far away to hear it. She didn't know where she was going, but she had to get there fast. In her eyes, anywhere was better then here.

A/N: Oh, poor Lily! I would just like to say to Alex: James is not a wimp! And to 100 Harry potter obsessed: random is good, right? I'm sorry it took so long to update. I don't write a chapter once. I write it, then edit it, then edit it again until I'm happy with it. Anyway, please review and it'll be like David Wright just hit the World Series winning grand slam.