-Okay, so my last chapter was longer than the first two, so that is good I suppose. I am working to make longer chapter because who am I kidding, I am just being lazy. -- My bad. I am working hard to get quick updates, and long chapters. I do frequent role-playing, which are long-term role-plays and are very literate, so they take all my creativity from me and often put me on writers block, but with my partners being a bit slow lately, I have more time a more juice left in the ole' noggin, meaning more stuff for youz guyz!
Disclaimer: Hmm, yeah. I do not own Inuyasha. xD
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Like silk, like cotton, the warmth of around was heaven, yes, had she finally gone to heaven to leave behind her worries, her sorrows?
Was she going to be able to forget, to be able to hear his name and not breakdown in tears, to not be finding death as a getaway from her pain. A way to ease it all away and such a simple way that would make things, less complicated.
But it would make it all the more complicated it seemed. Nothing would ever be easy.
Out of nowhere, the young maiden began thrashing and kicking the blankets off her small body, she fisted the sheets around her as her back arched and her face screwed into pain as her eyes squinted closed roughly and her teeth gritted together.
Her head tossed from one side to another as her hair became a mass of tangles, one of her socks loosing it grips on her foot as she pulled her leg up a bit, the white sock sliding off as her leg straightened it's self once more before turning sharply to the side.
Between her lips escaped a groan, a cry for relief as she turned to the other side mumbling light nonsense.
Her blouse sliding up a bit revealing the light bits of maroon seeping through her once white bandages from all the rough movement, re-opening her wounds once more.
The gash along her cheek only seemed to stretch lightly as her face strained with the large arch of her back.
Beads of sweat made their way down her forehead and all down her body as no more blankets remained on her body. Her body was almost sticky with her own perspiration as she continued to kick and thrash.
Around her neck, a white glow seemed to emit, with a light tint of pink it seemed within it. Upon this appearing, a scream escaped the young woman's lips as her hands immediately released their hold on the sheets beneath her and made their way to the low ring around her neck. Her hands made built until to almost get it off her, scratching at her skin.
In no time it seemed, Sesshomaru flung open the door to her room and found himself beside her bed, letting the mask that made him who he was slip for a moment as he was in shock at the view of the human before him.
Reaching out, he grabbed her roughly by the shoulders and shook her hard in attempt to wake her. "Miko! WAKE THIS INSTANCE!" Sesshomaru could not help but find himself a loss as she tried to push him away.
As the girl within his arms seemed to stop trying to push him away and remained limp in his arms, shivering profusely, he pulled her flush to his body. With an arm secured around her waits and one cradling her head, he held her against him, having no idea to help her, what to do or how to wake her. Then as if Kami had answered his prayer, her heard the sound of her heavy breathing as he sense her aura tense down a bit, her eyes slowly opening as her chin rested atop his left shoulder.
She could feel the sweat rolling down off her face as she rested against his body, his form the only thing keeping her from falling to the ground in a heap of clothing and tangles.
Her breathing seemed to ease a bit as the pair stayed in their current position for a bit of time. Until finally, she felt the release of the security of his arms as he held her away from him, then laid her back down upon the bed.
He left her only for a moment to retrieve the blanket that lay in a heap on the floor next to the bed, grab the ends and somewhat toss one end into the air as her brought it down over her, letting it rest to serve as a blanket over her once more.
He gave one last glance to the girl as she kept her eyes on him, watching him as golden eyes met brown ones, as if trying to search her very soul for an explanation to what happened.
Looking down to the girl before him, he did not fail to notice the glimmer around her beck missing, leaving nothing but her pale, creamy-completion, as if nothing had ever been there.
Turning his back now to her, he left the room to his study, he needed to think. To think on his actions as to why he held her the way he did, why had her condition at the time made him feel… different. As if he felt he needed to help her, to make things better, to make her not hurt anymore.
No, she was merely disturbing him with her noises and such while he was trying to look over a letter sent from the eastern lands. She was just an inconvience that needed to be taken care of and he had done just that, taken care of the problem.
So why did he feel he was not being honest with himself?
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She merely watched his retreating form until he closed the door behind himself and she could see him no more. Yet, she continued to stare impassively at the door.
Her face bore a blank emotion, but ones eyes were the window to their soul and through her very eyes, one could see a long lost longing, a longing to be held, to be loved, to be wanted by someone.
She very much wanted a certain person to offer these things to her unconditionally, but it seemed he did not have them to offer to anyone. He had already given them to someone else, someone who was no longer of this Earth but walking it like the living and taking what once belonged to her, keeping it from other, keeping it from one who would do anything to receive it.
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"Pervert!"
"Ah Sango… one cannot help what is but a curse." The monk rubbed lightly the top of his head that now supported a rather large bump while and infuriated taijiya stood just in front of him, hiraikotsu still held above her head from the previous assault on the hoshi.
"You never learn do you Miroku." Shippo spoke with a sense of knowing as she sat on the ground, his legs crossed beneath him while his arms rested cross against his chest.
"Keh… could we stop playing around a get a move on. Only a few more shards left."
"Well Inuyasha, if you would not have upset Kagome so badly, we would not be having this much trouble finding shards, and would not have to be going back to Keade every time we find one. At least with Kagome, we did not have to worry about anyone one us tainting a shard by carrying it."
"Yeah Inuyasha, wad' you do to make Kagome so mad?" Shippo frowned up at Inuyasha who stared down at the small kit." At least when she comes back I'll be looking forward to another sucker!" With this, Shippo stud, his arms crossed to his chest in a proud manner as he grinned.
Miroku and Sango exchanged sympathetic glances at Shippo's comment, it seemed he had not seemed to realize yet, Kagome was not coming back. Inuyasha merely turned his back to the three as he seemed to stare off into the distance, letting his mind drift.
Shippo did not catch on as he plopped back to the ground. "C'mon Inuyasha, I am tired can we rest?"
Inuyasha stared off still with a blank expression. "Keh… whatever. I will be back later." With that, the hanyou walked towards the forest without another word, it was all too obvious where he was headed as a few soul collectors weaved in an out of the trees just off in the distance. He sure did never learn.
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All she saw was white, all around her, surrounding her, engulfing her as she stared up, up to the ceiling and blocking everything else out as she just looked onward, as if looking to find something but unable to do so.
Light black bags had made their way to beneath her eyes as her skin seemed to almost shine ever so lightly from the moon's reflection on her skin from previous epdisode.
She had long ago kicked away the blanket from her body in attempt to cool down and seemed to not notice or just not care to the red seeping through her bandages, a bit seemed to have stained the white satin sheets beneath her.
But she did not care, none of it mattered as she let everything slip away from her, for just at least one moment.
One moment of peace, one moment of happiness, one moment of home.
Maybe she could forget, just let it go and move on to make something better of herself. She was only seventeen now, nearly an adult for her times views.
She had devoted so much of her life to shard hunting that she had failed to graduate high school. Her parents told her once she slowed down with her shard hunting would they just home school her then get her to take the tests required to get a diploma before seeing about a college if even she would go to one.
She had often though after the demise of Naraku and after the jewel to be completed, she would stay with Inuyasha, always having been so sure he would mate her.
Yes, that had been what she wanted, to have her own perfect ending, but fate said otherwise as reality took a hard hit on her life.
So maybe, just maybe, she could let it go. She could let it all go for good.
She could forget him and move on. Yes, she would move on.
Slowly letting her eyes drifted closed as her vision hazed out of focus, she let herself fall asleep.
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Okay so I worked very hard to get this chapter done when I did and it is longer than the others are, I think… I will have to check. I think in the least, each chapter has gotten longer than the last.
Well, I have in mind what is up for the next chapter and I cannot wait to start typing it.
I will start typing it tomorrow seeing as I need to get myself some sleep for school tomorrow.
Yay for school, finals studying time…. But you know the drill, give me some of them reviews. The more reviews I get, the fast I will update. I updated twice today because I had no homework and nothing to do, but I usure, lot's of updates longer chapters and quicker updates. Oh, and if anyone what to give me some ideas, that would so rock, ne? So help me to make the story more to your liking, tell me if things are moving too slow, too fast or just right. Some insight on what I could do always helps.
I love writing but I want my readers to enjoy it to the full extent! So, give me comments on what you would like to see!
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Oh, and I know my grammar and spelling is horrible and I often do not do that good of a job checking over it. Anyone want to a beta for me? XD because that would be way awesome.