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Flashback- Grandma opened the door, and she did not look too happy.
Ok, so we all said hello, and she gave us a weak greeting. She ushered us into the living room, dad, and mom sat on the couch with me in the middle. It was really quiet so I assumed they got the grade news. "So Elizabeth, how is school treating you?" Wow, that caught me off guard. She said it really sharp and what is the other word- RUDE. I glanced quickly at mom and she was just confused by it. "Its good grandma." I hope she didn't get the news.
I gritted my teeth wondering what she would say. "Good you say, how can it be good if you're failing 4 classes. Don't your want to go to a college like Yale and be like Rory." Grandma yelled at me, it was something that I couldn't even explain. Sure, I knew it was going to happen, but it feels weird. She's my grandma; they are supposed to spoil their grandchildren not yell at them. Her voice was a piercing yell; mom shuddered flashing back to when she was yelled at by grandma. I felt like mom's twin literally, being yelled at by Emily Gilmore. Although they didn't seem small too me, mom said they did when they yelled at you. "Why do I have to be like Rory, everybody tells me to. My name is Elizabeth Abigail, not Rory, and school is not my strongest thing." I told my grandmother with all the rage my depressed body could dish out. " Honey Elizabeth if you were having that much trouble you should have said something." I got a sympathy look from mom, she felt sorry for me. I was always going to be put up against Rory. I was depressed when it happened.
Grandpa just got up and left the room, walking to his study. Giving up on Chilton to them was drawing a close second when mom told them she was pregnant. Seeing my grandparents like that broke my heart, I couldn't cry though. Something about their disappointment made me angry. They always want me to be what they want; I have no say in anything. I can never have dreams that conflict with theirs. I looked at dad he had on the same face as mom. I looked down at the floor, and as all these feeling from everybody sunk in, I let my hot tears fall down my cheeks. Chilton made me cry, I embarrassing to say. It ripped me apart; it stole my dreams and my plans in life. I left me confused on what I wanted to do in life; the grades made me look stupid in this highly educated world.
Some things I can't tell anybody, these secrets are kept close to my heart. The only way they are told, are through tears. I was also being bombarded by all these questions. I didn't feel to good either, I was stressed and depressed.
My first impulse was to run and that's what I did. I ran out the door to the Jeep. I didn't run to mom's old room. It would just depress me even more. I had to just get out of my grandparent's house. Therefore, I went where I felt safe. Mom and dad saw my whole breakdown. They came running out to the Jeep, mom's face was undesirable. Dad was so down, he was so upset that his little girl was hurting so bad. I looked at his eyes. They were filled with hurt; they were even filled with a few tears. He didn't know what to say, he was never taught how to love like a father. It was hard for him sometimes to show he cared. He finally got the courage to whisper in my ear. "Elli, I love you with all my heart, I will always be her for you. If school is making you sad or tired tell me." That one sentence I'll never forget, every bit of love he had for his failing daughter was in it.
He stepped back to let mom comfort me. He always let her comfort Rory or me. He figured she could help more than he could. I think dad felt ignored, I just wished I could tell him everything. I love him with all my heart; I just wished I could show it. Like father, like daughter, neither letting the other show how much they care. I was sitting on the little sidebar rail thing on the side of the Jeep, so mom sat next to me on that. She just looked at me for a second; I just saw her blue eyes. It was like looking at my mom for the first time, I saw all of my mom. Everything she felt over her entire life, I saw. Her years of pain, happiness, and her love were shown all over face. Her eyes always told you how she was feeling. She had an intense blue tonight, meaning that she wanted to cry along with me. Mom had seen me cry so many times, she felt that she was a bad mother to me. Rory never cried really, so she just assumed she was a bad mother, because I cried. "I'm such a bad mother Elle." Her voice was quivering. "Mom, no your not. There are so many things I can tell you, that most girls can't tell her mom. I want to make you proud, because you do sacrifice so much for Rory and me. I'm the bad daughter, I screwed up my education." "No, don't blame yourself, I guess I am a good mom." She joked the last part. "You're a wonderful mom, most kids don't ever want to say I love you to their moms, I say it not because I have to but because I want to." I wanted to tell her how much I loved her.
I hugged my mom this time. She hugged me back, and I cried in her shoulder. Her hair always smelt so good, that was one thing I remembered from when I was little. Her smell always made me happy again. It was nice to have such a good relationship with my mom. Most of my friends never hug their moms, I don't think there was ever a day that I didn't hug mine. I think I needed a hug from mom to make it through the day. I told mom I would be back. I ran over to where dad was. I had to talk to him and tell him everything. "Dad, we need to talk." "Ok." " I just wanted to let you know that I love you. I know we shut you out a lot, but every time I do something that could get me hurt or in trouble, I always think about what you would say. I love you too much to upset you. Yesterday, the thing with Logan and you being mad at me broke my heart dad. I've never hurt so much. Also don't worry about all the guys I date or how nervous you get with me being a teenage girl, dad I'll always be your little girl." With that I hugged him; he needed to know how much I appreciated him. My words were in stone on my love for him, they could never be erased. You couldn't break our bond. Dad's eyes glazed over, he was crying because he needed to hear me say I love you to him. I walked back over to mom, dad and I hand in hand.
"Can we go home now?" I said still with a choked up voice. "Lets go home." Mom replied. Dad got into the driver seat, mom in the passenger and me in the back. Nobody said anything on the way home. When we pulled up, I was glad to see our welcoming house, the crap shack. Dad unlocked the door; I went in and said good night to mom and dad, told them I love them and gave them a kiss. Then I went to my room; I crawled in to my bed. I sat and analyzed my day. I thought about how stupid this problem was. There are so many kids that have major problems, and I'm depressed because of school. Maybe I felt so bad, because of having to compete with Rory and be just as good. Mom and dad went to be already, because the house was quiet. I sat wonder what my future held, what I was going to do about college. Nobody could solve my answers; I had to research the answers. I closed my day wondering if my decisions would hurt my world.
A/N- Well there is another chapter. I'm thinking about her going and moving to SHH and meeting a boy who is a bad influence. Keep reading and hit me with reviews. Please, Please, Please!