Daydreamer: This chapter revolves around Horohoro and Ren, and what happened right before Horohoro left.

Chapter Five

Horohoro and Ren sat at the table of their hotel room, Ren reading a book and Horohoro surfing through the channels of the tv. But the Ainu found nothing interesting and clicked it off. Taking a look at the clock, he got up and came to his bed, deciding to go to sleep for the next day's performance. But just as he reached the foot of the bed, a hand took hold of his shoulder and pushed him face down on the matress. Horohoro rolled over but before he could get up, he was pinned down by Ren. The Chinese held his wrists down and locked the onyx eyes with his golden orbs. The Ainu didn't need him to say any words. He knew what the question was.

Do you think I haven't noticed?

Horohoro knew what he meant and didn't know why he hoped he'd get by. For the past week, he hasn't been the same towards Ren. He avoided eye contact and getting alone somewhere with him, and he did his best to not make those glances he always stole (Though Ren never knew of this). But what was most noticable was probably how the arguements were. They still argued, but the drummer didn't seem to put as much effort as he usually does and didn't put up any good fight. In the end he'd just sigh and shut up as if he didn't even want anymore pointless conversations. Ren only acted like he noticed nothing and played along with it for a week. But his patience snapped, and he decided to give him a message. The vocalist leaned in and kissed Horohoro hard. The bluenette knew he wanted Ren, despite how he was lying still without returning the gesture. But as he did he could feel his resistence crumbling and once again getting lost in the Chinese's power, slowly kissing back. It took some effort, but he turned his head and parted their lips. Ren rose above him, still holding his wrists, and quirked a brow. Not wanting to drown in those gold pools, Horohoro kept his eyes averted with a frown. Ren let go and got off of him. He gave a light shrug with his monotone expression and went to the showers.

Horohoro lay alone in the room in his bed, biting down on his lip. It's true, he wants Ren, he always does. Whether he's with him or not, he yearned for him and the younger male rarely left his mind. Along with himself knowing, he knew that Ren also knows that he just lied. The answer was always a yes before the Chinese even made the invitation. He wanted that body that's showering right now, he wanted to be taken. Because that's the only time, the only way it felt like Ren loved him back. But he's tired, fed up with it all, and that's why he tried to break the addiction. But he can't, not ever. Not like this. And it's killing him.

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The next day came like every other day of a show. The only thing different was Horohoro's attitude towards Ren, but the Chinese ignored that. Today was the last performance of their third world tour, but that made no difference in the tension. They were all excited, just like every live show, and it rose as it got closer. Along with nervous-ness, they had confidence and the excitement mixed as they could hear the arena being filled. Even Ren, who always kept his calm composure, was tapping his foot impatiently. Before going out, he looked at everyone and nodded with a slight smirk. He met eyes with Horohoro for a small moment, but the drummer averted. Ren acted like it was unnoticed and they entered the stage.

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The last song ended, leaving another show a success. Ren held the mic and gave words of thanks and such to the audience. His last words were followed by the roar of the audience. Ren and the rest turned to get off the stage. But Ren stopped short when he saw Horohoro, who wasn't headed for the exit, but to the front. Ren, Yoh, and Faust all stared at him, none of them knowing what's going on. Even Manta was looking confused.

"What the hell are you doing!" Ren hissed at the bluenette as he walked passed him to the mic. He turned it on and brought it to his mouth.

"Hey, I know it's the end, but I've got something to say. I, Horohoro...am leaving Oversoul."

Ren shot his eyes open, finding himself lying in his bed and staring at the blank ceiling. He slowly sat up and looked around, no longer at the concert but in the hotel room. Reassured that it was a flashback dream, he put a cool hand to his forehead and shook his head.

"Good morning." Ren looked to find Faust sitting at the table, awake and ready before him.

"You slept in quite a while for yourself. I was surprised that you didn't wake up when Manta called our room earlier. He said we'll be going to the hospital later." Ren nodded in reply, still recovering from the dream. Faust noticed how distressed he seemed.

"Are you ok?"

"Yeah, I'm fine." Ren was finally able to speak. "Just a stupid dream." He got up and decided to take a morning shower to lose the sleepiness. He looked at the clock and scowled when he read 11:45 AM. Damn dream He thought and went into the showers. The warm water soothed his muscles and tensed mind. But he couldn't forget the dream, afterall it's a flash back memory. It was probably brought back by the current situation. Why didn't you stop him? Yoh's question returned to him. Ren growled and leaned forward against the marble wall, supporting himself with an arm. He placed his head on the arm and heaved a sigh. No one told him to leave. He chose to go.

It's hard to say
I held my tongue
It's hard to say if only...
Since you've been gone, it's not the same...

TSUZUKU

Daydreamer: Quite sad, don't you think? Don't blame Ren too much though, a lot of things about him will be explained in the next chapter. Right now it's mostly about the past, so there's just a lot of regrets that he's still kinda denying.