Chapter 6:

Their days fell into a pattern. She worked with Rin everyday, took a break to walk threw his gardens. He spared with his men, held small battles in the courtyard below. Sometimes she would watch him and he would show off to impress her.

One day when she was watching him, he rode over to her. "A token, my lady. A scarf if you please." He bowed to her. "A lord must were the colors of his lady in a battle, you know."

Kagome smiled, but a sudden sadness washed over her. "My lord, you should carry the colors of a woman who has a title and who has a chance of becoming your wife."

He gazed at her. "You forget the rules of a battle, Kagome. You are the one woman I care more about than I do myself. A Lord wears the colors of any woman that he admires." He didn't smile and she knew that he was dead serious, and she was sorry that she had said anything.

"I'm sorry, I know that you love me…"

"And it's not enough!"

"It is enough!" she vowed. It was not. Not for either of them. But she did love him deeply, and so the days passed on.

A month after they had their argument Sesshomaru had been called to lead a group of fighters and to go to war once again. She waited days, and days, and days. But he did not come back. For a month she would sit in his room just to feel close to him, hoping that it would fill the emptiness that she felt inside of her, hoping that he would come back to her even if she would only ever be his mistress.

At long last he did come back to her. A servant came to tell her that he was in the great hall, and she rushed to meet him there. When she got to the hall there were men everywhere, crowding the room making it very hard for she to spot him. Finally she spotted him talking to his men. Oh how she wished that she could run up to him and throw herself in to his arms and tell him of how she missed him so. But she knew she couldn't, she could never let the others know of their relationship. She thought she would die if the night didn't end soon and he could come to her.

While she was talking to some of the gusts on raised his glass to her and commented on the lord's good fortune.

"Well this is not a fact yet but the other lords have finally gotten to the point where they are going to chooses a mate for Lord Sesshomaru, in fact they have already picked one out. It will be announced at the god's tournament next Thursday. He is to be mated to Mly, cousin of the lord of the north. It will be a wonderful paring." He lifted his glass and shouted, "To lord Sesshomaru, Lord of the west!"

Kagome nodded, and smiled. Suddenly she felt sick, her head spun and she felt like she was going to fall over.

She ran from the hall and hurried into her room. She sat on the floor in front of her fireplace and hugged her knees to her chest, fighting the string of tears that came pouring down her face. Soon after they came there was a knocking at her door. "Kagome!" his voice was rich, deep, and created a sense of longing with in her. 'No don't think about him your going to lose him, if you don't get close to him then you wont get attached to him even more, yeah that's it just ignore the lying cheating asshole! Wait he didn't cheat on me. Who cares he is going to marry some other person that's close enough'

"Go away, Lord of the West!" she said warningly

The knocking did not come again and she felt like she wanted to die again. He didn't even try!

But then she jumped to her feet, aware that he had come in through the shuttered door. Swift and determined footsteps brought him to her. She gasped out furiously, slamming her fists against his chest trying to free her from his hold. He would not let her go. His lips were on hers and she could not twist away from them. His hands were on her, and it seemed that clothing melted away from her body. "Little idiot! I love you!" he told her. She tried to fight him still, but she lost the battle with her own heart. He yanked the covers from the bed and laid her on the cool sheets, ravishing her with his most tender kisses. He made love to her that night with as much passion as he could muster.

"She is not some ugly old hag with a big mole on the side of her face with little hairs growing from it. She is the cousin of the lord of the north, young and beautiful, I imagine."

"Kagome-"

"No! " she spun away from him, dragging the sheets with her to cover her nakedness and to exposes his. "I'm glad for you, really. It wouldn't change anything if she were ugly and old. Don't you see it wouldn't change anything? And it had to be like this. I knew it and yet I still let it go this far, because I lo-"

"Kagome!" he leapt out of bed, naked as well, determined not to let her escape his bedroom. She backed against the wall with one hand up.

"Please!" she whispered. "For the love of God-"

"Yes for the love of God!" he said, and trapped her with his arms. She laid her head against his chest. She tried not to cry but it was a battle that she lost- the tears came.

"Please let me go." she whispered. "Somewhere far away, please…"

"Please my lady grant me this!" he told her. "Grant me time! Give me until it is official, and I swear, I will see you to safely wherever you wish to go"

"You will never touch me again, never seek to find me? Never see me, swear it!"

"Give me time, Kagome. Give me that, and I will swear to what ever you wish! Damn you, Kagome I am not married yet, and perhaps-"

"The lords have all but planned your honeymoon!"

"Kagome give me time"

"I cant"

"You must"

She hated herself, hated him. But that night she slept in his arms that night, and she could not really hate either of them. Because she loved him.

A/N: ok the girl he is going to marry her name is Mly ( em-lee). Ok him soo, soo, soo, sorry that this took forever to get this chapter up but I had sort of a problem on where I wanted this story to go… but it's up know… I'm thinking of ending this story soon but I'm not sure if him going to ok well bye bye and R&R to let me know if I should end it or keep going .

Akada