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The doctor moves the wand across my stomach. I'm nervous. I don't know what to expect in this first visit. Sam said they would look for a heartbeat. I guess that's what terrifies me most. A heartbeat. I don't want to think anything negative but what if they don't found one? I'm already in love with this baby. I know Sam is too.

I don't want to disappoint him. I want to have this baby more than anything in this world. I suddenly can't see my future without it. I just can't.

I found the OB-GYN online about two weeks ago. Roz Washington is her name and she had a lot of good reviews. She's a nice but stern doctor. She seems to be in her early 40's with her short blonde quick weave. She moves the wand lower on my stomach and I look away, suddenly impatient.

Sam is standing right next to me. He holds my hand as he looks at the monitor. He went over my blood results as Dr. Washington and explained them to me. She said my blood pressure was normal and she confirmed that I was indeed pregnant. When we saw the baby on the monitor, she said I'm about 9 weeks which is what I calculated. I'm going to be due around late December. December 21st is the date she gave me.

She also suggested that I start taking prenatal vitamins. I told her proudly that I already was. I focus on Sam as we wait for what seems forever. I can't wait to start this exciting part of our lives. We're going to become parents. Parents. How did that happen? This seemed impossible just two months ago.

A sound fills the room then and a gasp escapes from my mouth as I turn to look at the black screen. Lub-DUB. Lub-DUB. Lub-DUB. Lub-DUB.

Dr. Washington turns to smile at me. "And we have a heartbeat."

"Oh my God." I whisper as I listen to the sound. I can't believe I'm listening to my baby's heartbeat. A baby that is inside me. A baby that is mine. The baby looks like a little bean on the sereen and Dr. Washington points to it. She's saying something but I can't really pay attention to her. All I can hear is the heartbeat. It's like a miracle.

Sam and I made that baby.

Sam is grinning. "Amazing, isn't it?"

I nod as I clean the tear on my cheek. "It really is, "

The room is silent for a few minutes as Sam and I try to memorize that sound. The baby has a heartbeat. I wish I could listen to it all day. Then I realize I have a phone! I take it out and recorda whole minute of my baby's heartbeat.

Dr. Washington leaves the room afterwards to go get the sonogram pictures. I clean the gel off my stomach with the towel she handed to me then Sam helps me sit up.

"Well, both the baby and mom are healthy," Dr. Washington says when she comes back.

"Thank you so much," I say to her as she hands me the pictures.

"Oh, it's my pleasure. Congratulations to the both of you."

"Thank you, Doctor," Sam says but

I'm already walking out of the room to find Jane in the waiting room. She wanted to give us some privacy and now I can't wait to show her the pictures.

"How was it?" She asks when she sees me.

"We heard the heartbeat!" I say excitedly then hand her the pictures.

"Oh my God, Cedes." She hugs me. "I'm so happy!"

"I'll be due in December. You better come home for it."

She smiles. "Are you crazy? I'll miss finals if I have to!"

We laugh while Sam joins us. "Let's go have some lunch?" He suggests.

We nod then follow him outside. I text Quinn the video of the baby's heartbeat as Sam drives. She calls me seconds after sending her the video.

"You're pregnant?!" She shouts in my ear making me pull the phone away.

"Yes," I say turning to look at Sam confused. "I thought Sam told you."

Sam chuckles. "Oops. I forgot."

"He did not!" Quinn says at the same time. "I can't believe this!"

"You can't believe that I'm pregnant or you can't believe that Sam didn't tell you?"

"Both!" She laughs. "Wow, Mercy, this is great news! You're going name her Lucy, of course."

"she could be a he and no, are you crazy?"

"Wow, I'm hurt." She jokes. "I didn't even know Sam was with you, though. Kind of rude of him to not tell me anything."

I glance at Sam as he drives. "Yeah, you two might need to have that conversation later. Sorry I didn't tell you earlier."

"I forgive you, Mer. This is really great, though, I'm truly happy for both of you. You guys are going to be great parents, I know it."

I smile, suddenly feeling emotional. "Thank you, Quinn. I'll talk to you later."

"Sure. Later, Mer."

Sam reaches for my hand. "How butt hurt is she?"

"She actually took it pretty well," I say with a smile,

Sam chuckles. "She'll l hold it against me, just wait."

I smile as I look down at the pictures. "I'm so happy.

Sam turns to smile at me as he stops at a red light. "Me too."

I look up at him and he leans in to kiss me.

"Uh, the light is green." Jane says from the backseat after a moment.

We laugh as we pull apart. I really am happy. Everything is going so good. I can't remember the last time I felt so- whole. Though I know this is going to change when Jane leaves for New York. I know she's an adult now but she'll definitely be taking a part of me the moment she gets on that plane. I wish I could fly with her to New York but I have to stay for work and the house. I suddenly can't wait to leave Arizona. I want to be in California already. In that house Sam bought for us-for our little family.

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The next few days go by pretty quick mostly because I don't want them to. Before I know it, it's the end of another week and I'm saying goodbye to Jane at the airport. It's harder than I thought it would be. I don't want to let go off of her.

"Please be careful," I say into her ear as I hug her tightly. "Don't do anything I wouldn't do."

She laughs softly. "I won't do anything then,"

I smile, feeling sad. "Deal."

"I really need to get in line," She says after a moment.

I know she's right. She still needs to go through security to get to her gate. I wish I could go with her. I probably won't see her until December for winter break. It's crazy to think that the next time I'll see her, I'm going to be close to having my baby. In a way, Jane will always be my first baby. I took care of her since she was little since mom worked all the time.

I'm going to miss her so much. And worry about her, of course, but I know I have to let her go. She needs to live her life. I'm proud of her for doing this.

"Okay," I say after a moment. I know the line is just getting longer. I pull away and Swallow the knot in my throat. "I'm done."

Jane smiles at me. "I'm going to be okay, Cedes. I promise. Don't worry about me "

"I'm always going to worry about you." I tell her touching her shoulder.

"I know. Try not to though. I'm going to be fine. I'll call you every day."

"Yeah right, you're going to call me every day."

She laughs. "Okay maybe not every day. I'll text you every day, that's more realistic."

"Just be careful. Take care of yourself."

She nods. "I will." She looks behind me and smiles at Sam. "Bye, Sam. Take care of my sister and the baby."

Sam takes a step forward, next to me. "I will, I promise."

Jane smiles then hugs him and hugs me again. She looks at us for a moment.

"We're all going to be just fine."

I smile because she sounds so grown up.

"Yes, we are. Now go before I buy a ticket and leave with you."

She reaches for her carry-on bag and smiles. "Okay. Bye."

"Bye."

She walks to go get in line. Sam puts his arm around me as we wait for her to go through. She waves at us one last time before disappearing even farther into the airport.

"She's going to be just fine," Sam says softly. "She's a smart girl."

I smile but I'm crying. Sam puts his strong arms around me and embraces me in a tight hug. I'm so glad I have him here with me now that Jane left. I know that I'm going to be okay. I pull away when I remember that we're at the airport.

Sam holds my hand as we walk back to the car. The ride back home is silent. I'm trying to come to terms with the fact that Jane is gone, though I know it's going to take some time. She's responsible for herself now. She's an adult and though I know I'm always going worry about her and check up on her from time to time, everything is up to her now.

"Are you okay?" Sam asks when we get home.

I set my purse on the dining table and nod. "I'm going to be."

Sam smiles at me. "Yes, you will." He reaches out and puts his hands on my cheeks then leans in and presses his lips against mine. "Just let me know when you feel lonely and I'll come right over to make you feel better," He says softly.

I smile as I put my arms around his waist. "I might take advantage of that."

"Please do," He says against my lips before kissing me.

"I love you, Samuel Evans." I tell him after we pull away.

He smiles. "It always feels so good to hear you say that."

I kiss his neck, right on his Adam's apple. "I love you."

He looks down at me. "And I love you."

"You know, we are alone in the house.." I smile.

He chuckles then surprises me by literally sweeping me off my feet. He carries me over to the couch. It's the same couch I've spent so many lonely nights on in front of the TV-trying to pretend that I was okay, trying not to think about how I was married, trying not to think about him but missing him anyway-that Sam lays me down on now and makes love to me.

Hey my loves, I just wanted to give yal a lil update on this story. It's not a long chapter just something to give yal while I work on my other stories.

I hope you all are having a wonderful day.

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