Inspired by the song Always & Never on Coheed and Cambria's Good Apollo I'm Burning Star IV: Volume One: From Fear Through The Eyes Of Madness. Thought it was a nice angsty HyuRoi line. And goddaim, are We in the mood for angst.
Pairing: Post-HyuRoi
Disclaimer: Don't own it! Title's disclaimed at the top, lyrics in the fic are from Soldier Side by System of a Down.
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ALWAYS & NEVER
here... i'm still waiting here, my dear
for one kiss from you
Those days are lost, in an amber haze he remembers little of. Ever since that night, the night he'd gotten the wordless call from... you. He still remembers that night as if it were yesterday, although he views that phrase as much too cheesy. But he does. It's clear in his memory as if the memory itself was created just a few moments ago, though by now he knows it's been years.
The low beat of a drum reaches his ears; he's put the radio on, for some reason he doesn't know. If he strains his ears he can hear lyrics:
"Young men standing on top of their own graves
Wondering when Jesus comes, are they gonna be saved?
Cruelty to the winner, bishop tells the king his lies
Maybe you're a mourner, maybe you deserve to die"
He grins to himself, but it's not a happy grin. It has no feeling, no soul involved. The hand holding the stout glass of bourbon shakes uncontrollably, and he has to put the glass back on the table so he doesn't shatter it. He knows someone who can fix it easily, without having to draw anything, but demanding help from a boy half his age is not something he wants to damage his pride over.
He realizes then that along with his hand, his eyes are prickling, and a fat droplet of water begins to form on his lower eyelid. Why is he... No. He doesn't care anymore. He lets the single tear slide down his cheek. It reminds him of the funeral, really. It was sunny that day, and the sky is clear tonight. Looks like it's
starting to rain.
But... it's not raining...
Yes, it is. This is rain.