Hey!!! Obviously this is no longer a oneshot. And thats because of you guys. I was blown away by the response I got. You are the best reviewers ever and I'm so happy you liked it. Hopefully you like this update just as much. I can't wait to hear what you have to say! Thanks again!

Disclaimer: I don't own Instant Star or the characters. Also Hold On is by Good Charlotte...I have to rights to that song. And Beautiful Disaster is by Kelly Clarkson...I have no rights to that song either.

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After turning to leave Tommy doesn't look back. He also isn't paying attention so when the person who had come out with Sadie starts following him, he doesn't hear it. But he does hear the person shouting after him.

"So that's it!"

Turning around Tommy lets out a long tired sigh. "What do you want Kwest?" Tommy says still walking away, but not as fast as he had been.

"To understand what your problem is." Kwest says grabbing his arm and stopping him. "What do you think you're doing?"

"I'm leaving. Jude's better off without me."

"Are you dense, blind, or simply stupid? Have you looked at the girl? Listened to her?" Kwest asks and Tommy just nods his head. "Then how the hell can you say she's better off without you?"

"Kwest she seems find. My coming back would make it worse."

"Tom! She is missing you! She's practically dying with you being gone! She hasn't been the same since you left."

"She doesn't need me Kwest. I just cause her pain."

"You cause her more pain by being gone."

"Jude is strong. Give her time, things will get better."

"No Tommy. She's gotten worse." Sadie says walking out from the back ally door. "Kwest they need you inside. You better hurry. Jude goes on in about 20 minutes." Nodding her head to him to go inside Sadie turns to look at Tommy. Neither one say anything for the longest time. They both just sort of look at each other.

"One question Tommy. If you planned on leaving again. Why did you ever come back? Why would you chance hurting Jude more than you already have?"

"I didn't mean to hurt her. I came back to see her. To see if there was any need for me here."

"Ok. Then why are you leaving again? Jude needs you. So go in there on your hands and knees and grovel for her forgiveness." Sadie says walking further into the ally. "Don't run. You will just cause more pain for her when she finds out."

"And how is she going to find out? Would you honestly tell her?"

"No I wouldn't Tom! I love my sister more than anything. And I know if she found out you came back to Toronto and didn't try to contact her it would crush her already broken heart." Sadie says clenching her hands into fists. "I wouldn't have to tell her anyways. The press will tomorrow morning."

"What are you talking about?"

"Did you honestly think you could come back to Toronto after three months with no word and not get noticed?" Sadie asked and all Tommy can do is shrug. "God you are and idiot! I've been getting phone calls since you got off your plane at four this afternoon! Every tabloid and news paper has some sort of picture of you. Tomorrow's headlines are all going to say "Is Quincy Coming Back???". So I ask again. Did you honestly think you could sneak back into town without being noticed?"

Tommy doesn't say anything for awhile. "Who all knows I'm back?"

"Well after the firts phone call I told Darius and Liam there was rumor of you being back. They told me to just say no comment. Then after the 11th call we knew you were back."

"So everyone at G-Major knows."

"No. Darius didn't want everyone to know. Figuring the more that knew, the betther the chance was for Jude to find out. We aren't stupid Tommy. Only Darius, Liam, Kwest, and I knew for sure that you were in town."

"Well I'm sorry for all the trouble. But I'm still leaving. You can just tell Jude that the press is lying or something. Say the pictures are older ones of me or something."

"So you don't care about my sister? About all the pain you've caused her?" Sadie asks crossing her arms. "I should've know you could never trully care for anyone. I mean look at your track record. Your ex Portia. Me. A string of loose, easy groupies. You've never been in love before. I don't know why I thought you loved Jude. You have to have a heart to love." Sadie says giving Tommy a disgusted look. But on the inside she was hoping she was getting through to him.

"I love Jude! Don't talk about something you know nothing about. I would do anything to take away the pain I've caused."

"Good. Then turn your ass around walk through that door and tell her you're back! Stay Tom! Help her." Sadie asks walking towards him and putting her hand on his arm, turning him so he's looking at her. "You think Jude is better, but you're wrong."

"How am I wrong?"

Looking up at Tommy Sadie wipes away a stray tear. Thinking about the past two months just makes her want to punch Tom for the pain he's caused. "You would think since Jude isn't crying anymore that she's ok, that she's getting better. You would think that since Jude is sleeping at night instead of tossing and turning and crying out for you, that she is getting better. You would also think that since she is smiling again and laughing, that she is getting better. But you'de be wrong. Jude is a shell of the girl she use to be. Instead of feeling and working with the pain, she has become numb to it."

"But what can I do Sadie? If I came back it would just bring all that pain and hurt and anger back to the surface. Jude would have a lot to deal with."

"But maybe then, with you here, she would actually deal with it. Instead of shrugging it off. Tom I know I told you earlier to leave her alone. But I was wrong! As much as I hate to say it. Jude needs you. She's lost without you."

"I still think my coming back in her life would only make matters worse."

"Fine. If you don't believe what Kwest and I are saying then listen to Jude. Let her tell you."

"Sadie I don't want Jude to..." But he gets cut off by Sadie.

"I'm not saying talk to her face to face! Listen to her sing. Jude's only written two songs since you've left and she's singing them both tonight. Come inside with me and listen to her. If that doesn't prove to you that she needs you then nothing is going to."

"She's only written two songs? But I've been gone three months."

"I know that Tom."

Shaking his head Tommy walks past Sadie and pulls open the door to G-Major. Looking inside he sees everyone dancing and laughing. Everyone looks happy. Changin his mind Tom turns around, but Sadie is standing right there. "No. Just listen to her." Nodding his head Tommy turns back around and steps into G-Major. Sticking close to the wall and in the shadows. Shaking her head Sadie just follows Tommy. "No one is going to know who yo are Tom."

"Yeah well you did."

"That's because I was expecting you to show up."

Tommy turns to reply, but he sees Darius walking up on stage and knows that he's coming to anounce Jude. "Hey everyone!" Darius shouts into the microphone causing everyone to shut up. "I would like to introduce one of my favorite artists, a girl who is going straight to the top, a Ms. Jude Harrison!" Darius shouts while starting to clap his hands. And sure enough Jude comes out from the back with SME following her. Giving Darius a hug and kissing his cheek Jude walks up to the mic.

"Hey everyone! I hope you're all having a great night. I'm going to be singing a couple of songs if that's ok with you?" Before she can continue the crowd starts cheering causing Jude to smile. "Well I love to hear you're support. I'm going to start out with a new song. I wrote this one two months ago." Walking away from the mic Jude nods to Kyle who starts a beat on the drums followed by Wally coming in on bass. Finally turning back to the mic Jude starts to sing.

This world, this world is cold
But you don't, you don't have to go
You're feeling sad you're feeling lonely
And no one seems to care
Your mother's gone and your father's not there
This pain you cannot bare

But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go thru

Tommy turns to look at Sadie with a shocked look on his face. All Sadie does is just nod her head and look back at Jude with a frown on her face. "She wrote this about a week after you left. She came in told Kwest she had a song and sat down. Darius decided to sit in on the recording to listen. Kwest told me that half way through the song Jude broke down in tears. Darius told her to take a little vacation till she felt better."


Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know


Your days you say they're way too long
And your nights you can't sleep at all (hold on)
And you're not sure what you're waiting for
But you don't want to know more
And you're not sure what you're waiting for but you don't want to know more

Looking over at Tommy, Sadie wonders if he's even listening to her. His eyes are following Jude on stage. Never looking away Tommy just nods his head. "How long did she stay gone?"

"Maybe a week. She told Darius that she belonged here. At home she felt lonely. Which she was. Everyone was busy trying to take care of things at G-Major. No one could stop to be Jude's support system."


But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go thru

Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know

Don't stop looking you're one step closer
Don't stop searching it's not over...hold on

"What about Jude's friends? She couldn't have been that alone. What about family? Couldn't you guys make time for her?"

"Don't judge me Tommy! You of all people have no right to do that!"

"I'm not Sadie. I'm sorry. It's just. Your parents. Her friends. SME, Jamie, and everyone. Where were they?" Tommy asks looking in the crowd of people. And sure enough there's Jude's "friends". Jamie and Patsy are dancing and talking to each other, completely oblivious to the actual words of Jude's song. Jamie of all people.


What are you looking for?
What are you waiting for?
Do you know what you're doing to me?
Go ahead...what are you waiting for?

He was suppose to be there for Jude. What ever happened to him and Jude being team. Tommy remembered having to fight Jamie to stay away from Jude and now it seemed that Jamie had abandoned her. Exactly like he did. Mentally punching himself Tommy looks back at Jude.

Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know

Don't stop looking you're one step closer
Don't stop searching it's not over...

Following Tommy's gaze Sadie shakes her head. "Don't blame Jamie. He had been working like crazy around here, while at the same time keeping his and Patsy's relationship going in. The kid's been busy. And our parents?" Sadie just laughs.


Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know...hold on

Finishing her song Jude holds her hand in the air and smiles. Turning around she tries to quickly wipe away the tears on her cheeks. Looking a Speed she smiles.

"You ok Jude?' Speed asks with a worried look on his face.

"Yeah I'm great. Just a little tired. Thats all." Turning back around Jude grabs the mic. "How about we have a up beat song now?" And when the crowd cheers she just nods her head. The opening lines of My Sweet Time starts up.

Watching her on stage Tommy sees a difference in Jude. She looks happy and is dancing and moving around like the old Jude. And for anyone who didn't know Jude as well as he did wouldn't notice. But there was a difference. She didn't have the light, carefree, natural attitude.

The finishing chords of My Sweet Time end and Jude stops to take a quick drink. Looking out in the crowd she yells into the microphone "How about an oldie?" And before the crowd can stop screaming, you hear 24 Hours starting up. Watching her Tommy wishes he could just run up and say "here I am!" But he knows it's not the easy. If he does come back it's going to get a lot crazier.

Looking into the crowd Jude sees everyone. Darius is in the corner with Liam trying to work over the noise. Kwest is in the corner running everything. Jamie is having fun dancing with Patsy. Everyone seems happy. Everyone is just oblivious. 24 hours is over and Jude is taking a mini break and Kwest comes up. "How you doing Jude?"

"I'm fine Kwest. And how are you?" Jude asks with sarcasm.

"I'm good. So I was wondering what the last two song you were going to sing tonight? I thought you could maybe sing the one we were working on last week and then White Lines. Everyone likes that one."

"I'll sing Beautiful Disaster Kwest, but not White Lines. I don't want to sing that song."

"But Jude..."

"No Kwest! I'll sing Another Thin Line. Something a little more up beat."

"Ok. Good luck!" Kwest says walking back to the tech board.

Coming back on stage Jude looks out in the crowd. She can't find Sadie anywhere. She figured she would've come and talked to her at her break. Realizing everyone is waiting for her Jude smiles. "Ok. I'm going to sing another new one for you. Now besides my producer Kwest and my sister, no ones else has heard this. So let me know." Turning back around she talks to SME. "This one is acoustic. So if you want you can go back stage and wait." The guys just nod their heads and walk off. Picking up her guitar Jude grabs a stool and sits down. Closing her eyes she imagines herself being gone. With Tommy. Starting the chords Jude keeps her eyes closed.

He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme, I know
He's as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I tried to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just ain't right, it just ain't right

Tommy just watches Jude. His eyes are filling with tears.


Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster?

Looking over at Sadie he sees that she already has tears running down her cheeks. "Now tell me. Does that seem like a girl who is ok? Like a girl who is getting better?" And all Tommy does is just shake his head and look back at Jude.

"I'm so sorry Sadie." He says not looking away from the broken girl on stage. He had hurt her so much. Jude, his Jude. He loved her so much and has caused her so much pain. He had to fix it. He had to help her.


He's magic and myth
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
And do I try to change him?
So hard not to blame him
Hold on tight, hold on tight

"Don't apologize to me Tommy. It wasn't my heart you broke when you left." Sadie says turning to walk away. Her job was done. She had done everything she could to prove to him that he was needed. It was now up to Tommy. Walking towards Kwest Sadie looks up at her sister. Her heart breaks for Jude. Her little sister has had to deal with so much and so fast. Turning back to where she left Tommy she sees an empty space. Shaking her head she walks over to Kwest.

"Hey hun. Are you ok?" Kwest asks putting a arm around her shoulder and hugging her close.

"Yeah. It's just Tommy. I don't know what to do with him. After everything. He still thinks she's better off. It doesn't make sense."

"What makes you say that?"

"He's gone." Sadie says pointing to where she had left him. "He must've went back out the door. Even after everything. He still is going to leave." Sadie says wiping her eyes and putting her head down on his shoulder.


Oh 'cause I don't know...
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster?

Rubbing her head Kwest looks through the crowd to see how they like the new song. Seeing something surprising he quickly looks back up at Jude and sees she still has her eyes closed. Poking Sadie "I wouldn't be so sure about Tommy."

"Oh. And why's that?" Sadie asks looking up and seeing Kwest pointing into the crowd. And sure enough there's Tom Quincy dressed as Zorro standing about 15 feet from the stage.


I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm waitin' for some kind of miracle
Waiting so long,
So long

Looking up at her Tommy doesn't think he's ever seen Jude look so grown up and beautiful. Gone was the 15 year old punk rocker girl with an attitude. The girl with something to prove. Now she was 17 going on 30, a woman. She was beautiful. And she was hurting.


He's soft to the touch
But frayed at the end he breaks
He's never enough
And still he's more than I can take

Jude doesn't want to open her eyes. As long as she keeps them closed she's safe. As long as they're closed Tommy isn't gone. But the second she opens them she'll have to go back to reality, back to all the pain. With her eyes closed she sees Tommy. Taking a breath before singing again Jude opens her eyes and adjusts to the light. Looking out in the crowd she sees her Zorro friend standing not 20 feet from the stage. Smiling at him she notices how familiar he looks. Blinking a couple of times and looking closer she wonders if she's going insane or if maybe she's dreaming. But could she possibly dream up those blue eyes?


Oh 'cause I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster?

Thinking to herself it couldn't be Tommy, Jude looks away, but notices the mystery man is taking of the mask. And sure enough the masked man Zorro takes his mask off and Jude sees him. It's Tommy.


He's beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster

He's back. Back for what though? To hurt her some more? To apologize? To leave again? What did he think messing with her emotions was a some sort of sick joke?


Beautiful
Beautiful disaster

Closing her eyes Jude finishes the song. Opening up Tommy is still there. Not wanting to cry in front of everyone Jude says "Tom Quincy", but in the microphone causing everyone to look. Realizing why Jude said it all the press that was there starts going into a frenzy with cameras flashing. Jude turns away running back stage, but before Tommy can follow her he's being stopped by the swarm of cameramen and the rest of the press. Darius walks up behind Tommy putting an arm around his shoulder and whispering in his ear.

"Welcome back Quincy. You can fix the mess you made with Jude, but first lets get rid of the press." And with that Darius with the help of Liam, Kwest, Jamie, and Patsy. Get the press out of G-Major. Leaving Tommy to try and find Jude.

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