Hey everyone!!! Here is the newest update!! I know it took me awhile, but I just wasn't really in the mood for writing this week and it's been a challenge to write. So hopefully I don't disappoint you guys! But anyways…I have news about the story. I know when I posted the first chapter I said it was only a one shot? Well obviously I sorta lied since this is now chapter three…But I just want everyone to know this is going to be a shorter story with four, maybe five chapters, that all depends on how long chapter four is going to be. I hope that's ok with everyone!!! Anyways enough of me rambling…I bet half of you don't even read this. LOL So on with the chapter!
Disclaimer: I don't own Instant Star or the characters. And all songs mentioned aren't mine. Frozen obviously belongs to IS and Show Me the Meaning of Being Lonely and Shape of my Heart are Backstreet Boys songs. I own none of them and wrote none of them!
Running backstage Jude can't really see where she's going since her eyes are full of tears. Bumping into Speed Jude quickly apologizes.
"Hey Jude. Are you ok?" Speed asks grabbing on to her elbows. Keeping her from walking away. "I thought I heard you say Tommy was back. Is that true?" Speed asks looking down at Jude and then over her shoulder.
Looking up at Speed Jude pulls her arms free and wipes the tears from her eyes. "I…He…Umm." Not quite sure what to say Jude looks away and sees Tommy swarmed with reporters. Getting more upset with every moment Jude looks away and back at Speed. "Yeah. He's back apparently. He showed up while I was singing. Now if you'll excuse me I need to be alone." And without even waiting for Speed to reply Jude just walks away. Hearing a noise from behind her Jude turns expecting to see Speed or possibly Tommy, but instead there are a couple reporters. Letting out a long sigh Jude quickly runs into the room at the end of the hall, not really thinking about what room it was. Turning around after slamming the door however she sees that she's ended up in Tom's old office.
Letting out a sigh Jude walks further into the office and sits down on the couch. However after sitting down she gets a little curious about Tom's office and stands up again. Because even though she had been in there for almost an hour before, she hadn't really looked at the room. She was too busy getting ready and in all honesty she didn't want to see what Tommy had left behind when he left.
Sitting down at his desk Jude hears a knock at the door and then a voice. "Jude. This is Cindy Rhimes with the Daily Chatter. I was wondering if I could talk with you. You know about your producer and close friend, Tom Quincy, and how you feel about him being back."
"I have nothing to say to you! If you have any questions please go talk to my manager Darius Mills or my current producer Kwest Roberts. As for Tom Quincy's sudden return…" Jude stops to think. How does she truly feel about Tommy being back? "I'm as surprised as everyone else. And apparently we weren't as great of friends as everyone thought, because I didn't know till about five minutes ago where he was. Let alone he was back in Toronto." Jude says and quietly waits for a reply. When she hears nothing Jude assumes Cindy Rue or whatever has left to talk to Darius.
Looking back at Tommy's desk Jude opens up the first drawer, and sees a bunch of pictures. Pulling them out she sees the first one must've been just after she finished her first album. There's Darius, Georgia, EJ, and Kwest all standing around her and Tommy. Who are sitting in the front, with Tommy pulling Jude into a hug and holding on to her CD. Smiling Jude flips through the rest of the pictures. All of them are from G-Major and most of the have Tommy in them. But all of them have Jude in them. Starting from when she first joined G-Major all the way up to before her second CD was released. Smiling at the memories Jude sets the pictures down on Tommy's desk.
Looking back in the drawer Jude sees a notebook, taking it out Jude opens it and sees that there are lyrics in it. Flipping it through the pages Jude stops when she sees that only like the first eight pages are written on. Turning back to the first page Jude starts to read. Recognizing right away that the lyrics are Frozen, just rewritten and better then before. Flipping through and she is reading remix of one of Boyz Attack's last songs, called Show Me the Meaning of Being Lonely. Reading the lyrics Jude notices that they're all songs Tommy has already written. Turning to the last page Jude notices that his hand writing in it is much worse and there are a lot of words crossed out. Meaning that this is probably a new song. Leaning back Jude starts reading the words aloud to herself.
Hmm,
yeah, yeah
Baby, please try to forgive me
Stay here don't put
out the glow
Hold me now don't bother if every minute it makes me
weaker
You can save me from the man that I've become, oh
yeah
Lookin' back on the things I've done
I was tryin' to
be someone
I played my part, kept you in the dark
Now let me
show you the shape of my heart
Sadness is beautiful loneliness
that's tragical
So help me I can't win this war, oh no
Touch me
now don't bother if every second it makes me weaker
You can save
me from the man I've become
Lookin' back on the things I've
done
I was tryin' to be someone
I played my part, kept you in
the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart
I'm here
with my confession
Got nothing to hide no more
I don't know
where to start
But to show you the shape of my heart
I'm
lookin' back on things I've done
I never wanna play the same old
part
I'll keep you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of
my heart
Lookin' back on the things I've done
I was tryin'
to be someone
I played my part, kept you in the dark
Now let me
show you the shape of my heart
Lookin' back on the things I've
done
I was tryin' to be someone
I played my part, kept you in
the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart
Show you the shape of my heart
Blinking Jude feels a few stray tears falling down her cheeks. Setting the notebook down she quickly wipes her eyes, but it does no good. The tears just keep coming. Shaking her head Jude gives up on wiping the tears away. Instead she hits her hand on the desk. It wasn't fair. Tommy loved her! That song proves it! Yet he still ran away. He still broke her heart. He didn't have any trouble hurting her over and over again. Why? Why was it so easy to break Jude's heart?
Hearing a knock on the door Jude looks up. Rolling her eyes Jude shouts out. "Listen up, Sandy or Cindy or whatever your name is. I don't want to talk right now! I want to be left alone!" At first she doesn't hear anything Jude thinks she has won. But then there's another knock. Throwing the notebook Jude hits the door with it and the book makes a solid thud noise before hitting the ground. "Please leave me alone. There is nothing to say! I know nothing!" Jude shouts out.
But again there is a knock on the door, this time it's louder. Standing up and walking to the door Jude goes to unlock it. "I have nothing to say to you. I know nothing about Tom Quincy. I don't care about Tom Quincy. To me there is no longer a Tom Quincy my friend and producer! I now only know the Little Tommy Q. So if you have any questions go talk to the booty shaking, lying, cruel, heart breaking, hate…" Pulling the door open Jude stops talking, because there isn't a reporter on the other side of the door. Nope. Looking the person in the eyes Jude hopes he won't be able to tell she had been crying.
"Well. If it isn't the Little Tommy Q now?"
Hey everyone! I hope you all enjoyed the update. It was a challenge to write because I wasn't really in the mood for writing a chapter, but I felt so bad not writing. So hopefully I didn't disappoint anyone! I'm hoping to update this again tomorrow if I get the time. Don't hold me to that though!! I'm not promising anything because I don't know how far I'll get in my homework and besides I want to give you guys time to review! LOL Anyways…Thanks SO so so much for reading and an extra special thanks for those who reviewed. You guys rock!