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Chapter 4 "Breaking Promises"

So, I'm going to the park with James today. While Dylan and Cole are filming their movie all day and Pia is having her own Anime marathon.

I wonder if he knows I have a boyfriend.

He should, since it is plastered on every teen magazine, but then again, those are girl magazines, not guy ones. I wouldn't expect him to read girl magazines, unless he is THAT bored.

Because if he happens to ask me out or something, I would probably say yes. But, only on an impulse, I wouldn't really LIKE him, even though he is really cute and nice and everything.

I got dressed this morning in jean shorts, and a purple short sleeve shirt. I found a pair of flip flops on the bottom of my closet to wear, and then went downstairs.

I saw James, already waiting to walk to the park, in my living room. He was in a pair of jean shorts and a purple short sleeve shirt. My mom and Gracie were mobbing him. Now somebody else knows what I feel like when I go to a mall.

"Hey James!" I said, coming off the last step of the stairs, waving. "Hey Julia." He said back to me, "Ready to go?" He continued. My mom and Gracie left the room, "Yes I am." I said, walking out the front door, and on to the park.

The whole walk to the park we walked side by side, not saying anything except the casual, "What's up?" and "Nothing much…you?" type of things to each other.

We finally got to the park, seeing that no one else was there besides the two of us. We both sat in the rocks, underneath the slide, and all of the sudden started to talk.

"You know what's weird?" He asked me, leaning back on his hands, his arms leaning back. "What's weird?" I asked him, leaning my back up against the slide. "I was a big fan of you, and I didn't realize that I knew you until I met you. And I thought that when I met you, you would be really stuck up, like a lot of celebrities."

"Well," I said, "Thanks for being a big fan, and for not stalking me like a lot of people do. And, I'm glad I'm not stuck up, like a lot of other celebrities people meet." I smiled after saying that.

"Do you want to go out to dinner tomorrow night?" He asked me, sounding nervous to ask. "Sure, of course." I said, kissing him on the cheek and leaving the park.

What was I thinking!?!

I said yes to dinner tomorrow night. I think that would be considered a date, and probably cheating on my boyfriend too.

Why did I have to go and kiss him on the cheek?!

I'm so stupid. I have a boyfriend, why did I say yes to go to dinner with him tomorrow night!?

I'm so stupid. Well, I don't know what to tell Dylan.

Oh I know, I'll just say, "Oh Dylan, I'm going to dinner with James tomorrow night, because I think he's cute and I like him, hope you don't mind that I'm going to dinner with him"

NOT. Yah right, like I'll say that.

Well, I have to go to the dinner. I can't just blow James off. But what will I say to Dylan?

Eh, I'll just tell him that I'm going somewhere with my mom. Yah, that's what I'll do. But that's lying.

When we first started going out, we promised each other never to lie, and that we were always going to be honest with each other, since we don't want to keep any secrets.

I'm breaking our promise we made.

I know Dylan would never break our promise, and here I am breaking it. Now, I'm letting myself feel guilty!

But, it's one white lie. What can one LITTLE white lie hurt? It's not like I'm murdering anyone am I?

And it isn't a date either. It's just dinner between two old friends, that's IT. That is it, isn't it?