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Chapter 6 "It isn't supposed to end like this."

"Is this about James, or Dylan?" She asked me, while I came into the room and sprawled myself across my bed.

"Both. It's both of them. They are both so perfect for me, but I feel awful." I said, starting to cry again, my mascara running down my cheeks, making them look black.

"Why? Dylan will never know you went out with James tonight. So, why are you crying?" She said, looking at me curiously.

"He did find out. He saw when James kissed me. But, that's not the point. I broke the promise we made. That's the point." I said, still crying with the tears coming down onto my cheeks in little, wet, and clear droplets, as if they came from an eyedropper.

"Oh. That's bad." Judy said. "Of course it's bad! He hates me now, and I really don't blame him at all." I said, almost yelling, but my tears drowned the yelling out.

"I know he still loves you." She said, almost in a whisper.

"No he doesn't. How do you know?" I replied. "I just know these things." She said, "And I know that you still love him."

She continued, "You are almost made for each other, you know that? Don't let this one little thing come between you two."

AT DYLAN AND COLE'S HOUSE (below)

"I can't believe this. She broke our promise." Dylan said, sitting on his bed, Cole on the opposite side of the room, sitting on his own.

"I know she still loves you." Cole said, almost in a whisper, like how Judy had said it to Julia.

"How do you know that?" Dylan asked him, not crying, but looking as if he could any moment.

"Because, I saw her. I saw how she looked at you. She loves you." Cole said, looking across to his brother from the other side of the room they both shared.

"I know that you still love her too." He continued, after a pause of about 30 seconds. "I have no idea what I feel, so how can you?" Dylan said, looking across at Cole.

"I'm your brother. I can see these things. Plus, you and Julia, well, you guys belong together. About everyone knows that by now, you were almost made for each other." Cole replied to his brother.

BACK TO JULIA'S HOUSE and POINT OF VEIW (below)

The rest of the night, was so awful.

Judy was doing her best to make me feel better, although it didn't work very well.

I lost my boyfriend. (At least I think I did.)

I lost his trust.

I broke his heart.

I did all of this in all one night. I feel so horrible about everything that happened tonight with Dylan.

But, Dylan will never know that. He probably never wants to talk to me again, let alone stop hating me long enough for me to tell him that I still love him too much to let him just walk away.

Did I just say that? Maybe Judy was right. I can't stop loving him. It would be way too hard to do.

I just don't want what we have (or had) to disappear completely. Judy said he still loves me, just as I still love him.

I know she is right about me still loving him, but I know that he doesn't still love me. He couldn't love me with that look he gave me in the pizza shop tonight.

I feel so hopeless right now. I can do nothing now, since he probably hates me right now, and probably always will.

I know that sounds stupid and all, but that's how it feels right now. He probably doesn't hate me, but he sure doesn't love me either. I know that one for sure.

I need to talk to him tomorrow. I have to tell him the whole story, because it can't end like this.

It isn't supposed to end like this. It's supposed to be 'happily ever after' isn't it? Or is that only in the movies? And if it is, why can't real life be like it is in the movies?