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Chapter 6-Play Hurt
And you don't know what you're doin'
When you turn and act tough
You don't know what it's like
To be me when your eyes light up.
"Peyton?" she screamed, pain in her eyes.
Peyton bit her lip, her eyes giving me an alarmed look, she had no idea what to do, how to get out of here. She wanted to disappear, but she knew that wouldn't happen. She squinted her eyes, covering her breasts with her hands and arms.the most she could cover up with her shaking body. She pulled herself up and away from me and slowly turning, she faced Haley. Haley eyes flashed open wider, like she hadn't believed at first that it was Peyton, but now she knew.
"What the fuck is going on?" Haley yelled, as she looked both us up and down I thought it was pretty obvious what we had been doing, but I knew she wanted to know how and why.
"Look, it just happened, please don't freak out." I tried to explain, as I covered Peyton and myself up under the blankets, not making the situation any less unconfortable for either three of us.
"Don't fucking talk to me you perverted asshole. I can't believe you took advantage of a sixteen year old like this, and not just that, my best friend, who was obviously wasted last night! I told you how Jake treated her and now you're doing the same thing!" Haley flipped out, as Peyton glared out the window, still unsure of what to say, but once Haley was finished speaking the words must have came to her.
"That's not how it happened," Peyton yelled back at her, but regretting doing so, when receiving a death glare from Haley. She hestitated for a moment before continuing.
"He didn't do anything wrong. Besides how the hell does it look like he took advantage of me, I'm the one who was on him." Peyton finished, a smile came to my face when she spoke.
Haley just stared at both of us in disgust.
"I'm sorry." I whispered loud enough for her to hear, as I leaned over towards Peyton and grabbed her hand and held it close. Haley's eyes reverting instantly to where my hand covered Peyton's.
"Me too, it wasn't supposed to happen this way." Peyton almost whispered as she pulled away from my grip.
"What I wasn't supposed to find out?" Haley voice sent sharp pains into me, causing me to try to make her feel better.
"We didn't mean to hurt you." I whispered, Haley's anger did not dim.
"Go to hell!" Haley yelled as she slammed the door behind her.
We both jumped at the slam of the door.Peyton moved away from me as tears streamed down her eyes. Her body was still shaking and her eyes were sad. I went to console her, but she pushed me away.
I then leaned in towards her, my arms wrapping around her fragile and weak frame, a small kiss was left on her head as I pulled away a little to lean in and kiss her, but she quickly moved away, grabbing a sheet and standing up.
"We can't do this." She stated her eyes full of pain.
"But…" I started, why was she being like this.
But she interrupted me,"Haley is my best friend and best friends don't do this to each other, I'm sorry this was a mistake." She continued to cover her body with the see-through sheet as she headed towards the door and she opened it, her face turning back and looking at me.
"But I love you." I said baring my soul.
She looked at me as more tears fell from her dark and broken eyes, before she shut the door and left, without saying a word, leaning me there. Alone.
I slammed my door behind me, falling on my bed to cry. What had I done, I had ruined everything, not only had I ruined mine and Haley's relationship, but hers and Lucas's.
I had no idea how to make things better, but I had to try.
I got dressed and walked over to the room Haley was staying in and knocked on the door. No one answered.
I opened the door, and started, "Look Haley, I know…" but nope, it wasn't Haley.
There stood Nathan pulling up his boxers, but when I stomped in I startled him and he fell.
"Oh my god, I'm sorry," I covered my eyes, but randomly looked again.
Not bad. I smirked. "Where's Haley?"
"She's in the bathroom," he squeaked as he pulled up his boxer and began putting on his other clothes. I looked away instantly and waited for Haley.
Just then Haley stormed out of the bathroom, she ignored me and went straight to the bed.
Nathan looked at us awkwardly not sure what to do.
"I'll call you later." he said towards Haley before leaving. I smiled at him and he smiled back as he shut the door behind him.
Haley got back in her bed and covered her face, I stared at the bed, not sure what to say, unsure of everything.
I walked towards her and sat on the bed beside her, "Look I'm soo sorry, like you don't understand how sorry." I said sincerely but she didn't answer.
"So is Lucas."
Something inside her must have snapped when I said that, because her figure popped up from the bed as she began to yell,
"Since, when do you talk for Lucas, what the hell are you guys now, dating? Because I'm fucking lost to where the hell this all started." her confusion obvious.
"I know this is overwhelming, it was for me to, but trust me. This won't continue. It was a mistake, we were drunk and we just got caught up in a moment." I lied through my teeth.
"But only you were drunk, and I don't even understand when this could have happened, you were passed out when I went to sleep, and Peyton, this was your first time.." she looked into my eyes, her feelings were know making sense.
"Okay, so we weren't drunk, but it was a mistake. We got caught up in a moment. We were lonely this morning and well we just did it, and I know I shouldn't have. my first time was supposed to be with someone..i love" I stopped, I hated lying. "But it wasn't that bad," I tried to joke but she didn't laugh. "But it won't happen again. I promise." I said looking in her eyes.
"So, it's done. That was the only time, this morning. Once, only once?" She asked.
"Yes." I had trouble saying.
We stared at each other for a moment, I felt horrible. I leaned in and hugged her, "You're my best friend, and I'm soo sorry." I kissed her cheek.
She smiled.
She looked down at the ground as I did to, to where Nathan had left his sweater.
"So, you and Nathan? How was it? It was great right?" she smiled, "It must have been because from what I walked in on, WOW!" I winked as Haley hit me playfully and smiled.
"It was amazing." Her eyes widened. "He is amazing."
Haley somewhat forgave me and we worked together to clean up the house.
While we were cleaning we saw Lucas leave. My heart broke when our eyes met His wonderful eyes, seemed broken and almost black.
But I had to pretend it was nothing, when Haley looked over at me. I noticed as Haley gave Lucas a smug look, she looked angry with him. I went to say something, I had to clear up what had really happened, but the phone ran.
Haley ran and answered it, "Hello?"
"Yeah,"
"mmm..hmmm"
"ooh really."
"Okay, see you then."
She hung up the phone as she kind of awkwardly bit her lip.
"Was it Nathan?" I asked in a teasing tone.
"No, it was your dad" she stopped and I looked up, "He isn't getting home till next weekend, He said its march break anyways and he already asked my parents and your coming with me to my cottage for the ski trip." She said, not sure how I was going to react.
"With you." I smiled.
"And Lucas." She added and I looked away awkwardly. Shit.
I got back later, like either of them even cared. I went straight up to my room and began to pack. I was looking forward to leave, even though it was with Haley. I could deal with her.
It was now an hour before we were leaving and I counted down every minute. As I packed my clothes, I kept staring at the bed in a weird way; I couldn't help but to think of Peyton, her touch, her body, her lips, her words, her. Every thought made me feel hazy and my body excited. But the more I thought of her the more my heart broke. I couldn't wait to leave this room, the room where I proclaimed my love and got shutdown in only a matter of seconds.
Though I knew Haley and I had a lot to talk about, I knew there was a better chance that we would work things out, than the chance Peyton and I had.
Even the thought of her name hurt.
I uncomfortably leaned down and made my bed, but thoughts of Peyton came back to me, over and over. Me inside her, her lips on mine, her lips on my chest, her moaning my name, her nails on my back, me exploding inside her. Over and over. It wouldn't go away. I had to get out of this place, my head was spinning and my body felt weak. I dropped the pillow, and flew toward the door.
Like on cue, Haley walked in, catching my off guard. She looked kind of angry, but I couldn't really tell. At first we didn't say anything, but I knew I had to talk first.
"I'm sorry about everything. I take full responsibility for what happened." I said wanting to make everything better, but knowing this wouldn't change it.
"I have one question," she couldn't look me in the eyes, "Who started it? Who kissed who first?" she finished almost snapping as she raised an eyebrow.
I took a deep breath, knowing that this were only going to get worse.
"I kissed her." I faltered.
Her eyes widened and I saw anger in her eyes, "What the hell were you thinking? She is 16 years old for god's sake." She yelled as I looked away, I hadn't expected her to react this way. I could tell she was more disappointed in me than she was with Peyton, but I couldn't blame her.
"I know you're the lady's man or whatever in Arizona, but you can't just come here and do this." She snapped as rage filled her eyes. I hadn't expected this, I thought Peyton had told her what happened, they looked fine downstairs, but I guess Peyton hadn't told her everything.
"She's been through so much pain with Jake and she doesn't need you to hurt her. This morning was her first time! Did you even fucking know that?" She yelled the ending.."Wait dont even answer because if you did know, your an even bigger asshole that I thought." I didn't have to even answer, she knew the truth.
"And for some fucking reason she choose you. A guy who just uses chicks for sex, for her first time." She pushed me with hatred in her eyes.
"You hurt her, I can tell by the way she looks at you." I couldn't believe what I was hearing, but I didn't say anything I just took it.
"She's my best friend and you're my favorite cousin, why did you do this?" She screamed as she fell apart. I felt tears coming from my eyes when I saw her cry. I pulled her into a hug as she let go of her anger and hugged me, tears falling on my shirt, for a moment we both just stood there.
"I'm sorry I hurt you." I whispered, as she cried loudly in my shoulders.
She slowly pulled away and almost smiled as she wiped away her tears.
"Just make things right okay." She said in a soft tone as she turned to leave but stopped and faced me. "You'll have a lot of time to do this because Peyton's coming with us to my cabin." She shut the door behind her.
Packing was difficult to do. For some reason everything reminded me of Lucas. Every thought that passed through my mind was off him. I knew he was hurting, he said he loved me and I just left and then Haley blamed everything on him. I overheard her yelling from the thin walls. And he just took it, he let Haley blame him and we both knew that it wasn't his fault.
It took me awhile to pack as flash backs of the mornings events passed through my horny teenage mind.
I had finally finished packing after an hour. I was extremely anxious.
We were leaving in another 15 minutes, so I began to bring my bag out into the hall. I waited. My eyes kept reverting back and forth to Lucas's door, I tried my best to stop but I couldn't. And without even thinking my body walked towards it. I stared awkwardly at it for moment before I finally got the courage to knock.
"Come in." I heard him snarl.
I slowly opened the door, as he looked up from packing and our eyes connected. A moment were everything seem okay. I then smiled but he looked away, as he grinded his teeth. I felt the pain I was making him feel.
"How are you?" I asked, not sure what else to say, but instantly regretting asking.
He laughed and rolled his eyes, and it was then that I saw a new side of Lucas. Anger.
"Don't come in here and act like nothing happened." He snapped and he aggressively shoved his pants into his bag, taking his anger out on his bag.
"I'm not acting like anything." I said in a soft tone, trying to calm him down, but mostly trying to calm myself down.
"Well, you were sure acting with Haley," He raised an eyebrow as closed his bag. "Because she seems to have a totally different story. One that includes me using you for sex and you loving me..." his eyes were glaring into mine. " But really I thought it was the other way around. But you had to go and fucking lie." He wouldn't even look at me anymore.
"Don't you dare blame me." I snapped as I stepped towards him, now he was seeing Angry Peyton.
"I'm sick of all the shit I've been getting for all this." He grabbed his sweater and pulled it over his shirt.
"Than stop being an asshole." He looked at me with a sad look on his face as he turned around, I knew he was disappointed in me.
There was silence.
"Look I'm sorry, you didn't deserve that." I whispered as I stepped towards him, "Can we just talk about this?" I placed my hand softly on his shoulder and felt his body quiver under my touch. My thoughts thinking back to when my nails were digging into this very shoulder as he entered further into me and I cried with bliss.
"No." he snapped as he pulled away.
"Why are you making this so hard?" I yelled at him, I hated having him angry with me. I felt tears begin to form.
"Because you make it too easy." He turned as his eyes jolted at me, the anger in his eyes seemed to disappear.
"What?" I rolled my eyes at him, confusing by his sudden change of character.
"Easy" He smirked as he stepped towards me. He was getting closer and closer, his eyes; dark and seductive. His body intoxicated me, as he came very close to me and stopped, grinning, just before he pressed his legs up against me.
He pushed me into the wall, his hands reaching down towards my body and into my hair. My mind went blank, as his rough fingers touched my wanting skin and massaged my curly hair. I didn't know what was going on, but I couldn't concentrate on anything but the look in his eyes that made my body urge for him. He leaned forward and my eyes closed. He breathed, kissed and bit the side of my neck as I moaned uncontrollably,my hands flat against the wall, holding myself up from falling.
He smirked as he moved his lips slowly up to my face, his lips grazed my cheek. I moved my lips towards his and instinctively kissed him. His lips lightly placed on mine, teasing me horribly.
I leaned forward to shove my tongue into his mouth but he pulled away and finished what he was saying, "You know like how easy you make it for me to get anything I want from with you, yesterday, this morning, oh and now." He smirked as leaned in and bit on my neck hard finishing the mark that he started. I pushed him off after enjoying the feeling for only a moment or two... or three and slapped him across the face.
"fuck you." I stated as I turned to leave.
"Aww, now you already did that." He smirked, feeling somewhat accomplished by the look on his face.
I couldn't believe what he was doing and saying, I gave him the middle finger and he smiled, I didn't understand how he could love me one minute and then be so horrible the next. I slammed the door, hoping it would break off and fall on him.
Haley came out of her room into the hall and saw me pouting.
"What's wrong?" she asked.
"I just met Asshole Lucas." I squinted my face.
"Bummer, he can be pretty mean." She sympathized for me jokingly.
"Uh, yeah!" I said my hands falling to my thigh. I looked towards her and I saw her look at my face funny.
"What's on your neck?" She questioned.
I remember what Lucas had done, only moments ago. Crap.
"Oh … its just from my hair dryer." I thought up from the top of my head,laughing to myself at how ridiculous it sounded.
"Oh." She looked at me funny.
"Yeah" I said, I had a feeling she knew what it really was. I grabbed my bag and carried it down the stairs towards the car.
I took one last deep breath as I stepped out of my room with my bag, I nearly had a heart attack, when Haley was standing outside my room waiting.
"What the hell are you doing?" I snapped at her, my heart pounding.
"No, what the hell are you doing?" she raised an eyebrow as she picked up her bag. "I thought I told you to fix things with Peyton, not to be an asshole and give her a hicky or whatever the hell you did." She raised her hand at me.
"Whatever." I rolled my eyes as I slide past her and down the stairs.
And you don't know what you're doin'
You can only play hurt so much
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