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Chapter 7- It Ends Tonight
Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can't explain myself at all.
I dragged my bad to the car, sulking like a two year old child, it was there where I noticed Peyton was sitting in the backseat; she had her ipod on and wouldn't look up at me. I didn't blame her. I had been an asshole. I put my bag into the truck as Haley came behind me; I picked her bag up and put it in also. We didn't say anything to each other, just smiled awkwardly. I walked towards the passenger seat, opening the door my eyes glanced over at Peyton who was still ignoring me, I sat down. Haley got in and started the car. We left, for an interesting week I assumed.
We drove for about 15 minutes before anyone said anything. I just stared out the window, occasionally looking in mirror and back at Peyton, she was still ignoring me, and my heart ached for her. I looked back as she turned and looked out the window. I saw in her eyes that I hurt her with my words and my actions, but I only did it to make her feel the pain that I felt. I knew that was wrong but I still did it and there was no going back now. I looked at her and saw the mark I had left on her neck. Although it was out of vain, I still had this accomplished feeling that I had left that on her. I watched as she tried to cover it up, embarrassed.
Haley finally broke the silence,
"Okay, I understand that you guys are both angry for some reason." She said in an annoyed tone as she said to both of us, but stared at the road, "But whatever it is can you guys just forget it and move on because this weekend is going to suck if you don't. I mean come on, I've moved on. Kinda. Sorta. Whatever. Can you guys just call a truce or something? " she finished, and waited for us to respond.
I glanced over at Haley and then look in my mirror back at Peyton, who was staring at me, a sarcastic smile straight across that often sweet and innocent face of hers. She went to say something so I listened, "If you tell him to stop being such an asshole, I'll forgive him." She looked over at Haley, never making eye contact with me, after her remark.
"PFTTT…" I laughed, "You forgive me, If anything I'm the one who should be doing the forgiving." I turned around and laughed at her, giving her that same sarcastic smile.
"What the hell did I do?" she snapped as she took out her earphones and moved towards me, I was angering her again, and I wasn't gonna lie, it turned me on.
"You mean besides being a bch and a huge slut." I shouted as I turned around and faced the front, leaving a shocked look on her face, turning me on even more.
"Me a slut." She laughed, "As I can remember you were the one all over me like some old guy on viagra, oh wait. You are!" She smirked and Haley laughed.
I laughed at her words, as I turned and faced her. She smirked. "You didn't seem to mind it with all your screaming and moaning." I winked as I rubbed my hand under her chin; she pulled away and snapped back at me.
"Yeah, I'm pretty good at faking stuff like that," she smiled at me. "And I had to make you for you're lack of…umm.. proportion." She grinned as Haley bursted into laughed, but stopped realizing what we were getting into.
I rolled my eyes at her and turned around. She was trying to get me where it hurt, but this playful banter only made me want her more.
"Okay, okay that's enough. I really don't wanna hear about all of this, and about Lucas's lack of mmm…yeah." She laughed at me.
"Whatever, we all know I have a big penis." I yelled loudly into the car as Haley and Peyton rolled their eyes. I couldn't believe I had actually said that out loud.
"Okay, can you guys at least agree to disagree, so we can have fun this week?" she whined, knowing that we weren't going to agree anytime soon.
"Fine." We both said in unison.
Haley's cell rang and she reached and got it.
I ignored her conversation as I looked in my mirror at Peyton, she made a snotty face at me and I made it back at her, she rolled her eyes and put her music back in and ignored me again. She took at deep breath, annoyed with me, as her chest rose, her jacket opened a little reveling a bit of skin above her tank top, man did I want his girl. She bit her lip and her eyes were dark. She looked so hot when she was bad. For some reason I enjoyed making her angry, she looked so sexy when she was angry with me. When she was insulting me before I never wanted her more. I knew it was wrong but I couldn't help it.
I looked over at Lucas, I didn't know why he was being such a jerk, a hot jerk nonetheless, but a jerk. I glimpsed over at him, he was staring out the window as his eyes did that squinty thing he always did. His lips were together and in the sexy pout, which I loved, I saw him randomly smile at something and my heart lit. He was so perfect. The way his hair suck out around his ear, the way his lips closed together, the way his eyes always looked so intense and the way his skin looked so soft and yet rough at the same time. It was then that I realized something that I couldn't believe was true. I loved Lucas.
Perfect that's just perfect, I couldn't have realized this when he said it to me. But now that he's being an asshole, I realize I love him. Perfect.
Haley finally got off the phone.
"Nathan's coming." She squealed with a smile in place, trying to still concentrate on the road even with all her excitement.
"When?" I smiled taking out my earphones.
"Tonight." She smiled. "And I said we'd mmm… meet him for diner." She whispered the ending, knowing we weren't gonna be happy.
"What?" I asked as Lucas looked over at Haley, now paying attention.
"Meet him for diner," she looked away awkwardly, "Us four." She finished.
"Haleyyy…" I groaned.
"Come on, it'll be a great time for you two to fix everything." She begged me, giving me the puppy dog face.
"Fine." I rolled my eyes, putting my earphones back in.
She looked over at Lucas giving him the same look; "Whatever," he shrugged his shoulders as he turned on the radio.
We drove all the way to the cabin without saying anything else. I would stare out the window listening to the radio and would often look over at Peyton. Our eyes would connect sometimes but we both instantly looked away, not sure if the other was looking or not.
We set up in our own cabin about a 1-kilometer from Haley's parent's cabin. It was huge, Haley had her our room and bathroom and Peyton and I had our own rooms. It was more of a house, then cabin.
Peyton stormed right to her room upon arrival, she seemed to be quite angry with the hand gesture and comment I had made to her when getting to the cabin. And I don't know what came over me, but I just wanted to see her angry.
"How bout another of these, baby.?" I whimpered softly in her ear, after opening her door. My hand imitating something that I had a feeling a feeling I would be giving myself the next while.
She laughed disgustedly , grabbed her bag and stormed off, me grinning after her sexy legs.
Regretting what I had said when she slammed her door, I walked to my room and shut my door.
I unpacked more much easily than I had packed, this room had no memories of her. By the time everyone was done, we had to get ready for diner. Haley's parents had set up the diner at the country club. It was a fancy restaurant and we were entitled to dress up.
Luckily I had bought my suit. It was an average suit black suit, white shirt and black tie. I looked in the mirror and had to admit, I looked pretty good. Hopefully Peyton would think so.
I was ready in 15 minutes and waited down stairs for Haley and Peyton, who were obviously going to be late. I looked at my watch and noticed we were already late and I started tapping my toe. Man what was with girls.
Just then I heard someone coming over the stairs.,Haley appeared and was in major search of something. I laughed quietly at her, as she finally found what she was looking for and came and sat down with me, waiting for Peyton.
Haley looked really cute; she had a purple long dress on that really suited her. Nathan was going to be impressed.
"You look beautiful." I smiled at her.
"Thanks." She looked embarrassed, " And you don't look half bad yourself mister." She winked, eyeing my suit.
"Oh, this old thing." I laughed suggesting towards my suit.
Haley laughed as she looked down at her watch. "Come on Peyton." She yelled, knowing that we were late.
She looked over at me and said " By the way, this place is kind of a couple's thing, so you are going to have to be Peyton's date." She squinted scared of my respond, "Is that okay?"
I nodded as I got up from my sit and went to get my shoes to put them on. I heard Peyton coming from down the stairs, but didn't look up, I was scared to even look at her, knowing that she was going to look unbelievalbe.
"I don't have any shoes." She whined, as I continued to tie my shoes.
"Here" Haley said and I heard her pull out a pair of shoes from the closet.
"You look amazing." Haley muttered loudly enough for me to shutter from the even thought of Peyton looking 'amazing'.
"Are you kidding? Look at you." Peyton whispered with enthusiasm, as she pulled on her shoes.
I finally tied my shoes and stood up, and right in front of me. There she was, sitting on a table, pulling on Haley's black shoes. Her long and oh so smooth legs staring at me. Her head was down and I noticed that her hair was down and curly. She finished pulling on her shoes and stood up. My eyes widened. She looked down and fixed her short fitting black satin dress that pushed up her breasts and made a lovely cleavage. She pulled up her top only making her breasts bounce as she smirked in my direction, knowing what I was thinking. Her eyes were dark and hazy with make up and her lips were red and pouty and so kissable. Her hair completed her look, making her look sexy and confident but also innocent and cute, the way I liked her.
"Ready." She smiled looking in Haley's direction, avoiding my obvious stare.
She walked past a still in awe me. Haley was already at the door and didn't notice Peyton lean into me and whispered, softly, her warm breath on my neck.
"Now, I know you wish I could do that little favor for you now." She kissed the air in my direction as she winked, walking right past me. I rolled by eyes, boy was she right.
I noticed that her shoes made her taller, and all that passed through my mind was how much easier it would be to kiss her. But quickly I shook it off when Haley looked back at me funny.
"Let's go." I smiled as we headed to the door.
Nathan was waiting at the door and Haley nearly screamed. She jumped into his arms as he smiled in my direction, laughing at Haley. They headed out the door complimenting each other the whole way to the car. They were so cute.
Haley drove and Nathan sat in the passenger seat. Lucas walked me to the car and opened the door; I looked up at him with a weird look. And why was he actually being nice?
"If I'm going to be you're date, I gotta act like it." He smiled as he gestured me to get into the car. I assumed Haley mentioned the whole 'it's a couples thing' bullshit to him. But if he was going to treat me like this the rest of the night, I'm glad she said something. I got in and he shut the door behind me.
He went to the other side and got in.
We drove, as Haley and Nathan talked. We didn't say much at first, but Lucas broke the silence.
"You look really nice, by the way, and I'm sorry about my comment before.." He smiled as I awkwardly smiled back at him, our eyes goggling over the other.
"Thanks, you do too and it's okay." I bit my lip and looked out the window. I had lied though, he looked amazing. I had never seen him in a suit before and it was taking everything in me from ripping off all his clothes right there and giving him what he had asked for before.
We didn't talk the rest of way.
When we got there, I ran out of the car and opened the door for Peyton, helping her out. She stepped around me and headed towards the restaurant, my eyes staring after her. Her body swaying as she walked in that sexy dress.
We entered the restaurant and saw couples everywhere, the restaurant was beautiful and obviously expensive.
We were escorted to our seats. I helped Peyton sit down as Haley smiled at me. She knew I was trying to make an effort. And I was. I felt bad for being a jackass before.
We sat down and talked for a while, I ended up getting along really well with Nathan, he seemed like a great guy and I was happy for Haley.
Haley and Peyton were talking normally and it was obvious that Haley had learned to forgive us.
We ordered our diner and when it came we couldn't believe our eyes, they all looked delicious. We all dived in. I looked over at Peyton and noticed how much she was enjoying her meal, she didn't even notice me staring. She looked so cute eating and she didn't care who was watching she ate at her own speed. I laughed to myself as I ate.
I looked over at her again and noticed her closing her eyes every time she took at bite of her steak. My eyes shuddered thinking of the last time I saw that look of pure bliss in her face. But she didn't notice she was enjoying every bit of her food.
I continued to watch her.
We finished our meals and talked for another while, Haley and Nathan talked alone for a bit, leaving me and Peyton to talk. We were back to normal and we're talking like nothing had happened. But the look in our eyes could never be hidden. She was telling me stories of her childhood and I smiled. I loved learning more and more about her.
About thirty minutes later, we left the restaurant.
"That was a beautiful evening." Nathan smiled at Haley as he walked her to her door.
"Yeah, it really was." She smiled at him and then smiled over at me, I winked at her.
I walked Peyton to the car door and opened it. Her face was glowing as she smiled. "Thanks so much for tonight, it has been great." She placed her hand on mine.
I fought the urge to lean in and kiss her red lips and instead smiled. "It was my pleasure."
I helped her in and got in myself. The drive home was enjoyable, everyone seemed to get along well.
We drove back, but stopped at Haley's parent's cabin for awhile, we hadn't seen them yet and Haley wanted to introduce Nathan to her parents.
Once we got in I loosened my tie and went into the living room away from everyone else as Peyton followed me.
She let out a deep breath when she took off her shoes. "Thank god, they were killing me." She smiled as I made myself comfortable across the coach, taking off my jacket, throwing it to the coffee table as I unbuttoned a couple of buttons on my white dress shirt.
"God, this dress is so annoying." she whined.
Peyton pulled up her falling dress as I watched her.. She came and sat down beside me on the coach.
"It's been a long day." I laughed as made room for her.
"Tell me about it." She smirked as she leaned beside me like old times. I was happy we could go back to normal. But I knew we still had a lot to talk about.
"We never really got to talk about this morning, I just wanted to..." I started but we were interrupted by Haley, her parents and Nathan joining us in the living room.
"Aw, don't they look cute, as usually." Haley's mom smiled when she saw Peyton and I, as Haley looked away awkwardly. And I moved a little bit away from Peyton, not wanting to make things more awkward. Peyton noticed my distance but understood.
We talked for a while about our plans for the week. We had another 5 days til we had to go back and had a lot planned. Haley's parents invited Nathan to stay, but in their cabin of course and he agreed.
Everyone was talking except for me and Peyton who began to doze off, we were both really tired.
We both hardly noticed when they started talking about us.
I was quickly awoken when I heard Haley yell no, I was confused at first but then realized that Nathan had asked about what had happened this morning. Haley had tried to cover it up, but it didn't work. I heard uncle John trying to wake me up. I sat up straight as I opened my eyes.
"What is he talking about?" He asked, not really accusing anything, but knowing something was up.
"It's nothing dad," Haley whined, the pain in her eyes still there.
"What?" was all I could mutter.
"What happened this morning with Peyton?" he asked, I wasn't sure what he was expecting to hear. Peyton then awoke, looking over and me, wondering what I was going to say.
"Nothing, it was just a misunderstanding." I laughed. I didn't know how I was going to get out of this.
He raised an eyebrow, " Okay, I'm too lazy to fight about it tonight. I'm going to bed." He laughed. Phew.
As my heart stopped racing, I looked over at Peyton and saw her bit her lips awkwardly as Haley's parents went upstairs to bed.
When they left, I saw Nathan smirk at Peyton and then back at me, as he walked to go to the bathroom. I followed him as Haley and Peyton sat in silence.
I caught up with him and slammed his body against the wall.
"What the fk was that man?" I whispered in an angered tone.
He laughed with a smirk, "You fucked her didn't you." He looked me in the eye as rage filled me.
I didn't respond. What was his problem?
" Don't feel bad man. I'd tap that shit." He smirked, I stepped towards him. What hell was he thinking he was saying?
"Here's a tip for next time you sleep with Peyton, don't get caught. You and Jake are both idiots," he laughed, "or maybe she just is."
I couldn't believe what he was saying. I slammed him harder against the wall. "Don't talk about her like that." I threatened him.
"Why not? The only thing she is good for is a good fk. We both know that." He smirked, and without even thinking I punched him hard in the face.
I heard a gasp and looked and saw Peyton looking at Nathan and me. Nathan winked at her as she ran, towards the door and out of the cabin crying. I shoved Nathan one more time before running after Peyton.
I chased after her towards our cabin.
"Peyton, wait." I screamed.
She just kept running until she made it to the cabin, she made it half way to her room before she broke down crying. I ran towards her out of breath, my heart breaking.
I kneeled down beside her and pulled her close to my chest as she cried.
"Don't listen to him Peyton, he's an asshole." I said as I rubbed my hand softy threw her tousled hair to push it out of her face.
She pulled away from my hug still crying. "It is true?"
I looked at her confused, not sure what she was getting at.
"Is that all I'm good for, because both you and Jake just used me and left." She managed to stutter.
"No, that not true at all. You're amazing. I'm still here and I'm not going anywhere." I wiped away her tears hugging her tight. She smiled as she hugged me close.
I began to stand up, she didn't move. I looked down at her and saw her body quiver, so I picked her up into my arms.
"Here. Let's get you to bed." I smiled down at her as she cuddled into my side. Her make up was all over her face from the tears she had cried. But in my opinion she looked more beautiful, she wasn't perfect and I knew that. But with her make up done nice and her dress on, I almost believed she was. Now I could see the real her, broken and oh so beautiful, but it was the real her, it was perfect to me.
I brought her to her room, and placed her down. She went to take off her dress and I turned around. I saw a bit of disappointment on her face when I turned.
As she changed I could feel the tension between us. As she slid off her dress, I felt her eyes on me. The sound of the dress and other garments falling to the ground was torture. The fact that she was right behind me naked, made my insides tingle and my heart beat fast.
"You can turn around now." She smiled. I turned around and saw her in a long white t-shirt and nothing else. When she climbed into bed, I could see that she was wearing absolutely nothing under it. Her butt showed a little as she slide, but she quickly and awkwardly covered it. And I looked away when she looked at me, making it seem like I hadn't seen anything. It felt easier that way.
I tucked her into bed and smiled down at her, I almost leaned down and kissed her head, but I hesitated knowing that my lips would more than likely find something other than her forehead.
"Night, sleep tight." I said as I headed to the door.
"Wait," she yelled as I stopped, sitting up a little. I knew she noticed me hesitate to kiss her.
"Can you lay down with me for a bit?" she looked at me after her words were said, not sure if she should have even asked.
I wanted to so bad, but I had a feeling if I did, something would happen, and that would not be a smart thing.
"We both know what's going to happen if I do and I really don't think it's a good idea." I smiled uncomfortably as I watched her eyes survey my body.
"Yeah." She said softly as she laid down and covered her body with the blanket, I knew she was a little mad but I couldn't do that to her again.
I shut the door without saying anything and went straight to my bed. Where I stared at the ceiling for hours, not sleeping, just thinking of Peyton.
When Lucas shut the door, I quickly sat up. What the hell was wrong with me? How could I be so stupid as to invite him into my bed, again? Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. I smacked my head over and over. I felt like some slut. No wonder Lucas had called me easy. I knew he didn't mean it, but right now I was trying to convince myself otherwise.
I wasn't going to do this. This wasn't going to happen again. I couldn't let guys control my decisions. I wasn't going to let any other guy take advantage of me. This had to stop. This need to be loved and wanted. But honestly I knew that I was only Lucas, that I had ever wanted.
I stared at my ceiling only thinking of Lucas before I fell asleep.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don't want to need at all.
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