A/N: Making up the medical stuff...lalalalala.

Sonny walks in with a bouquet of miniature pink roses and baby's breath. Alexis looks alarmed and rises to protest.

"Lex, can we have a minute?"

"Sonny, I don't think…"

"Does anyone care what I think?!" I snap.

Her shoulders sag, she turns to me, and studies my face briefly. "Of course, I'll be right outside." She leaves in a rush.

"You remembered."

"It's a hard day to forget. I lost one daughter and was given back another." Sonny whispers.

"I was going to visit her today, but well…"

"I'll go for both of us Sam. I'll explain that you can't come, but that you are thinking of her. She knows, but I'll explain." I nod. "I…I know what its like to get lost in a dark place Sam. But Lila, she wouldn't want this for you…"

"It's so hard Sonny."

"I know, but you've got people to lean on now, lean of them Sam. Let Alexis be you're your strength. Let Nikolas be your compass. Let your sisters be your heart. Your mom is the single strongest woman I've ever known. And you are more like her than you know."

"Thank you Sonny, thank you for remembering, and thank you for understanding." He stands and kisses the top of my head.

"Grilled Cheese, French fries and a triple thick Chocolate malted for you and Chicken salad on wheat and a strawberry shake for you." Mike smiled as he gave us each the first real food we'd had all day.

"Thanks." I smiled.

"Thank you, Mike." Alexis said. The way she said it, she wasn't talking about the food.

"Alas, I can take no credit." Mike protested. "An anonymous benefactor was worried that you were being subjected to 'Yucky hospital food' and insisted I bring you something proper for dinner."

"Krissy." Alexis and I laughed.

"I cannot betray the confidentiality of my customers, but you might not be wrong." Mike grinned.

Alan Quartermaine leaned in to my room. "Alexis, can we speak to you for a moment?"

Her eyes darted from the door to me to Mike and back to Alan. "Mike would you mind?" I rolled my eyes. She hadn't left me alone for a second since she arrived. It was ticking me off. "I'll be right back Sam."

"You don't have to stay Mike."

"Would you mind the company?" He asked as he pulled up a chair.

"No." I admitted. "I'm really sorry Mike."

"Hey, no worries, you're okay and that's all that matters. How's the sandwich?"

I took a small bite and grinned. "You remembered the pickles!"

"Krissy did…you've corrupted her you know."

"Hey, she knows a good thing when she tastes it. I take no responsibility."

I watch through the door as Sonny approaches Alexis. He taps her gently on the shoulder and she falls into his embrace. He holds her. He whispers in her ear and they walk down the hall arm in arm.

"We have something of a dilemma here Sam." Alan Quartermaine explained. He, Alexis and Lainey had returned to my room and Mike quietly excused himself.

"How so?" I asked as if I somehow had missed the gist of this 'conversation'.

"Sam you are clinically depressed." Lainey reminded me, like I could have forgotten the diagnosis she'd given me just two hours before.

"Got that part." I nodded.

"And the damage to your hand is extensive."

"Yep, I remember that too."

Alexis let out an annoyed sigh. "You're being deliberately obtuse Samantha, knock it off."

"Sorry." I lied.

"The problem is Sam, you need both an anti-depressant and pain killers. It's not a good combination. Dr. Quartermaine and I are trying to find the best possible combination, but with your history…"

"Cut to the chase Lainey."

"We cannot, in good conscious, release you."

"What?" I yelled.

"There are options Sam." My mother interjected.

"Like what? It was an accident…"

"Sam it wasn't an accident. You deliberately injured yourself, and it's not the first time."

"Wait, wait isn't this like a violation of patient doctor confidentiality?" I had told Lainey that sometimes, sometimes, when I was really messed up, that I would cut myself so I could remember what it was to feel. There was no way in hell I wanted my mother or Alan to know that.

"Not in this case Sam. If the injury wasn't so severe, if pain meds weren't involved, there wouldn't be a need to consult Dr. Quartermaine."

"Fine, but why are you telling my mother?! She's not a medical professional."

"Because Sam, your mother has agreed to be your temporary guardian."

I'd listened impassively as Lainey listed my 'options'. I could stay in the psych ward until I was done with the pain meds, I could be transferred to a facility like Roselawn, or I could be put under the guardianship of my mother and return to my normal daily life. Alexis would be responsible for my medications and my now bi-weekly sessions with Lainey. I tuned out the rest and ate my cold grilled cheese and pickle sandwich, lukewarm fries, and melted malted.

A few minutes later Alexis returns, her face washed clean of tears, and a sad smile on her lips.

"You're still in love with him, aren't you?"

"What?"

"Sonny, you're still in love with him."

I've caught her off guard. "Sam…I'm married…to his brother"

"It's okay Mom, he's still in love with you too."