Chapter 17 ~ Thoughts
***Ponyboy's POV***
I've been here for a week now. It's hell. We have to go hiking and we also have chores. How did that make Darry and Sodapop think that this school is going to help? I almost got put on shuns because I got into a fuss with Auggie again. Last time I seen Curly was 3 days ago. I want to tell him that Dally's dead but I can't. In a couple days Darry and Sodapop are suppose to visit. Half of me want to see them but half of me don't. The only person in my group that I get along with is JC. One time I almost called him Johnny........ I think Peter is getting worried cause me and JC aren't what they say "opened-up" with them yet. Like hell we will. We aren't like these other son of a bitches at this school. Today were suppose to go to this 4 week long camp trip up in the mountains. I'm still not use to the big areas. If Two-Bit and Steve came to visit up here they'd flip on how big and slow things are up here. Every once in awhile I still have dreams of Johnny and Dally. Its seems to be getting worse. I already have to go through the pain of knowing I killed them but re-living it in my dreams and seeing them make me want to kill my own self. The thought of killing myself goes through my head everyday since I've been here. But the thought of Sodapop and them at home change my mom. I can't do that do to Sodapop and Darry. They already lost mom and dad. Even though I deserve to die I don't think I'm ready to hurt people I love again.
*JC's POV*
One word to sum up this school. Sucks. The people here are trippin on the way they act. It's like they actually trust Peter and them here. I was sent up here to so-called learn better behavior not learning different kind of trees. Is this camp or school? Something reminds me everyday about California. I miss my friends; I even miss the fights and stealing down there. Were suppose to go on this long camping trip today. Maybe I can make a plan to escape from there. Maybe Ponyboy would want to come. I want to get to California as soon as possible. The only thing I liked about this school is being away from my brother. But soon that will end.
***Ponyboy's POV***
I've been here for a week now. It's hell. We have to go hiking and we also have chores. How did that make Darry and Sodapop think that this school is going to help? I almost got put on shuns because I got into a fuss with Auggie again. Last time I seen Curly was 3 days ago. I want to tell him that Dally's dead but I can't. In a couple days Darry and Sodapop are suppose to visit. Half of me want to see them but half of me don't. The only person in my group that I get along with is JC. One time I almost called him Johnny........ I think Peter is getting worried cause me and JC aren't what they say "opened-up" with them yet. Like hell we will. We aren't like these other son of a bitches at this school. Today were suppose to go to this 4 week long camp trip up in the mountains. I'm still not use to the big areas. If Two-Bit and Steve came to visit up here they'd flip on how big and slow things are up here. Every once in awhile I still have dreams of Johnny and Dally. Its seems to be getting worse. I already have to go through the pain of knowing I killed them but re-living it in my dreams and seeing them make me want to kill my own self. The thought of killing myself goes through my head everyday since I've been here. But the thought of Sodapop and them at home change my mom. I can't do that do to Sodapop and Darry. They already lost mom and dad. Even though I deserve to die I don't think I'm ready to hurt people I love again.
*JC's POV*
One word to sum up this school. Sucks. The people here are trippin on the way they act. It's like they actually trust Peter and them here. I was sent up here to so-called learn better behavior not learning different kind of trees. Is this camp or school? Something reminds me everyday about California. I miss my friends; I even miss the fights and stealing down there. Were suppose to go on this long camping trip today. Maybe I can make a plan to escape from there. Maybe Ponyboy would want to come. I want to get to California as soon as possible. The only thing I liked about this school is being away from my brother. But soon that will end.