Addiction Chapter 10
By: Catrina
A/N: Here is chapter 10. Those who have been waiting for a real lemon from me will be able to find it this chapter. I haven't been getting a lot of reviews lately which made me speed up the story a little bit, it has gotten a little long, and so after this installment there are only two chapters left. I wanted to thank all those who have hung in the whole way and left review for every chapter. Enough of the fluff get ready for the angst…
On to chapter 10…
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After Christmas the days seemed to pass as quickly as the pictures were taken then placed in Kyo's album. Both Kyo and Yuki settled into a routine around and with each other and settled even more into a companionship and a real relationship.
And the days were passing far too quickly for Kyo.
He wished that he could slow the clock, slow the rotations of the earth and the entire workings of the universe, but even he knew that there were many things that were beyond the control of man and left in the hands of god. And he knew this was one of them. Through this time, the leader of the family had become bedridden with an illness that left Hatori speechless, and while he was confused he never seemed to stop working. Though in all honesty the only people that seemed to really care about Akito's health, were Shigure, Hatori, and Tohru. They were the only ones who seemed to worry about his health and whether or not he would last to the next day. But the younger generation that had had to deal with his cruel treatment, knew that there was still something that was keeping him alive, and something that only Akito knew.
So Yuki no longer really had any threats when it came to visiting the leader of the Sohma family on Sundays, they passed almost like everyday.
When Valentine's Day came around Kyo was surprised to find an invitation on his desk along with a small piece of strawberry candy. When he opened the invitation, well needless to say, Yuki had never seen Kyo blush that hard. Yuki had planned a picnic on the roof and the weather had allowed for it. Yuki also had the pleasure of seeing Kyo rack his brain for a month to see what he would come up with for White day since Yuki had given him something for Valentine's Day. He ended up making cookies, in the shapes of rats and cats, saying that cookies were the reason they had got together in the first place. It was then that Yuki had disagreed simply saying, "I'm addicted to you, always will be."
The next two months were hectic to say the least, Kyo was running in every track meet, and in the end broke not only school records, but regional, and country records as well. Needless to say his coach was happy about it and that news got passed on to Shigure who was more then pleasantly surprised. Though for once the dog was patient and wanted to see exactly where Kyo's track career would take him. Needless to say, when he ran in the last regional meet of the year, he took 1st in all the races he ran, and second in the team relay. The scout for the scholarship was there, his coach was sure that he had it in the bag.
But Kyo didn't know.
And Shigure was waiting for the letter.
Then it was May.
And before Kyo really knew what was going on he was counting days, and counting nights. His sleep came less easy and he clung to Yuki in the nights, in the mornings, and any minute that he could in the boy's bathroom, closet, or outside storage room. Yuki certainly didn't seem to be complaining. Still after so many months, their chemistry, and their relationship was strong. But Kyo still knew that he had to tell Yuki and as the days sped by he was afraid.
Afraid of going to his cage.
Afraid of going insane.
Afraid of losing Yuki before he had to give him up.
There were days, when he would look at his lover, and stare. Yuki was always so pale, a frigid prince with a fire underneath. His eyes were always calm and stable, until they were all alone tangled in sheets. And he knew… he knew that he had to tell him. Had to make him understand that something bad was going to happen, Kyo needed to tell him that the future that they both wanted was gone…
Like the sunset each day.
Like how the sun's light fades eclipsing the word to darkness.
Kyo had to shatter the dreams of the one person that he had truly learned to care more about then himself. He knew that it would break Yuki's heart and he couldn't really stand that thought. Yuki had his plans...
To go to Tokyo University, he wanted to get an apartment with Kyo, live together. No one would question them, no one would judge them, and he hoped that the Sohma name wouldn't stretch that far. Only Kyo knew that they wouldn't make it that far, that something would get in the way.
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"Just say it."
"What?" Kyo head popped up from where he had been working on his homework, his crimson eyes were startled and surprised.
"You keep looking at me, and you only do that when you want to say something." Yuki looked up from where he had been working on his homework as well. Finals were coming up, then the summer would be filled with cram school, and hopefully by that time he and Kyo would already be in Tokyo, living together and getting ready for school.
"No I'm not."
"Yes you were, trust me, I know when your eyes are on me" Yuki stated a slight gleam in his eye.
"Oh really?" Kyo murmured before leaning over to him, looking into his lavender grey eyes. The two were sitting at the table in his room side by side working on their many projects before school was out. "And do you know what I'm thinking as well?" Kyo asked straying the conversation from the topic the easiest way that he knew how.
"Well…" The rest of what he had to say was lost in Kyo's mouth as he covered it with a kiss. With strong arms Kyo pulled Yuki into his lap, having the other boy straddle the chair Kyo was on and his lap in the process. Kyo though maybe…maybe, this passion would fade in their relationship, but that was never the case. Every time their lips touched he still felt fire rip through his blood, and if the trembling in the body on top of his was any indication, Yuki was still hot for him. He could see it in those darkening eyes and the way that his body reacted to him. Yuki pulled away gasping and Kyo took the opportunity to bite behind his ear and run his teeth down his neck. Kyo bit down on the shoulder when Yuki fisted both his hands tightly in Kyo's hair pulling him up so he could look him in the eye.
"Want you." It came out as a pant, but between that and the thrusting of his hips on top of Kyo's the meaning was clear.
"Demanding…" Kyo growled as he wrapped one arm around Yuki's waist and the other around his shoulder as he prepared to stand. Lifting Yuki was nothing, but the other boy tightened his legs around Kyo and released his hair. Yuki's hands went behind him pushing all their homework and books to the floor.
"Here." Yuki demanded and Kyo laid him back on the table. Through his clothes Yuki could feel the texture of the wood, and it felt good. He reached up and pulled off Kyo's shirt throwing it in some random location. He ran his blunt fingernails down his back as he reared up to attack his hardened nipples with his tongue and teeth. Kyo moaned a little as the pleasure/pain raced through his blood and he pressed his hard erection to the length beneath his own. Kyo's moan was echoed by Yuki who pressed against him. "Again…harder…" Kyo repeated the motion, trying to coordinate enough to unbutton Yuki's shirt. Giving up he ripped the shirt sending the button's flying.
"How am I supposed to explain that to Tohru?" Yuki asked on a moan as Kyo nibbled up his neck while unbuttoning his pants and pulling the zipper down. Yuki yelped at teeth dug into his neck and a hot hand grabbed his erection pumping it barely.
"Me…think only of me… you're mine." He growled before slanting his lips over Yuki's in a demanding kiss. His hand moved in quick and hard motions on Yuki's length, making the other boy buck into his hand. Sliding his hand over the head, he used the moisture gathering there to make the motions quicker and smoother.
"Yours…all yours…too long…can't hold on…" Yuki was stuttering as Kyo pulled his lips away trailing them to his ear to nibble on the sensitive lob.
"Its okay…come for me." Kyo demanded, sending the other boy over the edge, watching his eyes go hazy. Kyo lifted Yuki and carried him over to the bed. There he placed the boy gently on the bed removing his shirt and then pulling off his pants and boxers.
"Hmmm…good." Yuki muttered almost turning his head into the pillow.
"I'm not done with you yet." Kyo whispered, kissing his lover gently. He pressed his still clothed body against Yuki's reminding him that only one had gotten satisfaction from that tryst.
"Oh god." Yuki muttered already feeling his blood flowing a little hotter. "Again." Kyo wasn't sure if it was a question or a plea, but slowly he started to tease his lover's body. Kyo was trailing down the neck, attacking each nipple, biting the skin just above the belly button; Yuki tossed his head already lost again in the arousal building in his body. Kyo traced his hands all along his inner thigh teasing but never touching. The cat kissed lower still biting each one of the protruding hip bones before finally touching his arousal. Once surrounded by Kyo's hot mouth he thrust up but was held down by strong hands. Yuki was totally oblivious when he felt the first finger press into his entrance. Vaguely in the back of his mind he felt the stretching and the thrusting of the finger, but it was when the second finger was entered that a moan escaped his mouth.
Kyo moved his fingers slowly and steadily, they had both done this more time then they had counted, but never had they not completely prepared the other. Scissoring his fingers he tempted the small opening wider, allowing a third finger into his lover. Pressing in just a little hard he knew when he hit that spot.
"Kyo!" the name tore from Yuki's lips with out any knowledge of Yuki even knowing. Unsure of whether to press against the fingers or thrust up into that hot mouth he did the only thing he could. Hands fisted in Kyo's hair, he sobbed asking for more, hard, for Kyo to fill him, to press into him. With Yuki begging, Kyo quickly divesting his clothes, grabbed again the bottle of lube usually stashed under the pillow, and covered his erection. Using one hand to brace himself over Yuki he used the other to hold his length steady. He waited until Yuki opened his confused eyes to meet his.
"Now?" Kyo asked panting as well, trying to hold back from just thrusting into his lover, and riding him until he couldn't move.
"Now." Yuki moved his hands to Kyo's shoulders, as he felt the head of Kyo's erection into his entrance, he moved slowly, slower then Yuki would have liked, but inch by inch Kyo moved until he was seated in his lover. Yuki loved that awkward full feeling of the first thrust, of being filled of being complete. He moved his hips signaling to Kyo that he was ready.
"Impatient…"Kyo muttered before pulling out all the way and trusting back in hard. They both moaned, "Too long… why so long?" Kyo asked as he started to move, hard and steady. Each thrust gaining more power and speed. Yuki's pleas of 'harder and faster' were being met as he pounding into his lover. Hands traced up Yuki's body one ending on his hip the other in his hair, as Kyo swallowed the moans of his lover with a kiss. With a tilt of the hips, Yuki shouted into Kyo's mouth, letting him know that he had hit his prostate, and after that it was nothing but a blur of pleasure. Kyo's mouth moving over his, white lights dancing on the edge of his vision, but it was only when that hot hand once again grabbed his weeping erection that those white lights exploded and he pulled his mouth away from Kyo's with a shout. His body arched up and clamped down around Kyo's own erection pulling from him his climax.
Kyo thrust and thrust as Yuki's body grabbed his own milking it dry as they both relaxed, Kyo collapsing onto Yuki.
"Can't go that long again." Yuki muttered, even though it had only been two days.
"Miss me?" Kyo asked pulling out of Yuki and grabbing the towel that they kept hand for such occasions. But while he cleaned his lover, he bent down, kissing him lovingly, gently.
"I always like to have you inside of me,"
"I like to be in you." Kyo muttered blushing a little at the statement, getting up and turning off the lights.
"I like to be in you, too." Yuki whispered as Kyo got back into bed, the next morning he proved how much.
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Yuki noticed that Kyo had something that he needs to say. More and more he was looking at him with that look and every time Kyo would brush it off and more often then not what followed was the best sex thus far of their relationship. All Yuki really wanted to know was what was on his mind. What had Kyo scared? Why was this going on? His lover was getting gentler and more and more clingy each day. Not that he actually minded, it was more along the lines as he was just confused. He didn't know what to do or what to say, and at this point in time he was at a loss.
He just couldn't let Kyo distract him.
Yeah right, he has been addicted to him since the first time they went all the way. One look and Kyo could have him writhing in bed, and the damn cat knew it too. But he needed to find out what was going on. So now it was simply five days until graduation, and they needed a plan. Dinner started off easily, but Shigure changed that note fairly quickly.
"I got a call from Mr. Cho today."
"Coach?" Kyo asked
"Yeah, Look Kyo, he put you in for a scholarship and the announcement letter went out yesterday. In the mail tomorrow, you may get a full ride to Tokyo University."
"What?"
"He put you in for a scholarship." And Shigure had approved. He wanted Kyo to win, to prove to the rest of the family that he was just as good as everyone else. It was something that Shigure no longer question. He knew that Kyo was an amazing person, and even more then that Kyo was someone to look up to. When Shigure thought he was having a bad day all he really had to do was think of his young ward. Knowing when your life would be over was a huge burden to bear. Trying to keep people away while wanting so hard to have friends, he had to be lonely and even more then that there was no one to share or understand his pain. Shigure knew, but there was no way that he could understand… he was the dog, he wasn't double cursed like Kyo was.
"That's great Kyo." Tohru butted in.
"What, don't they need some sort of guardian okay for that stuff?" Kyo yelled standing. "Akito would have never allowed that."
"I did it." Shigure said standing as well, thinking to sooth the boy.
"Why? Why would you do that? You know he wouldn't allow it. You know exactly what he is going to do to me." Kyo angry almost forgot the others were there.
"Don't you see, this will show him…" Shigure knew that Kyo had to prove it, to show it to everyone, that he was someone who was great.
"You don't understand…he can't wait, all he wants is to lock me up and throw away the key. He wants me to not exist…to disappear!" Kyo shook in his anger, there was no question that even the thought of it was something that irritated the boy.
"But he has no reason to if you can do this!" Shigure was sure of this, this way he could at least have four more years, and that was better then nothing.
"You don't understand…screw this!" Kyo pushed away from the table and dashed up the stairs.
"Well that was rude." Yuki commented before turning back down to his dinner picking at it with his chopsticks. He hoped that it looked like he was eating because after seeing Kyo so upset it was hard to pretend like everything was okay. So he moved through the motions, bickering with Shigure and then helping Tohru clean up. It was almost an hour before he got the chance to head upstairs to check on his boyfriend.
Taking the side of caution, he knocked on the door before entering. Kyo sat on the bed, facing the window, crimson eyes locked on something that he couldn't see. The light of the half moon, cast an eerie glow over Kyo making him look almost ethereal, like a fallen angel, Yuki mused. He stood in the doorway for a moment looking before he closed the door.
"So what was that about?" Yuki asked walking over slowly as not to startle a scared animal.
"You know that I have been trying to tell you something, right?" Kyo's eyes were downcast, seemed like he was almost staring at the sheets, memorized by the wrinkles and the light that the moon cast on them. Yuki reached up with a pale and brushed the soft skin of his cheek.
"For a while now, I didn't want to push, you would tell me when you wanted." Yuki stated wondering now if that had been the right decision. Right now, Kyo looked very upset. And he wondered just how important it was.
"You've notice I never really had pictures."
"Right," That was what had prompted his Christmas gift.
"That I never really thought that much about the future. Never really thought about the apartment in Tokyo and living together with you."
"Is it because…" for some reason Yuki couldn't voice his insecurities.
"No, it's not because I don't want to, it's because I can't." Kyo finally raised his eyes to look at the person he had come to know so well.
"Can't?" The question was in his shaky voice as well as the confusion apparent on his face.
"You know what Akito thinks of me right?" Kyo asked.
"Kyo you know that no one else thinks of you as a monster. Your place as Akito puts it is right here with us like all of us." Yuki's confusion was still written all over his face.
"Listen, I've always hated being the cat. I was always the one that didn't belong, was the one that wasn't accepted, the one that everyone was afraid of. And I do turn into an ugly monster. Because of that there is a tradition in the family."
"Wait…what are you talking about. I know you aren't allowed in the house and such, but even Akito is breaking that rule for our party." Kyo reached out and grabbed one of Yuki's hands interlacing their fingers.
"Just keep listening. The other tradition with the cat is that when the reach maturity, they get… they get locked away. After graduation, after the party, Akito will take me, and lock me away."
"What do you mean? Lock you away, that can't be right." Yuki shook his head his pale hair fluffing around his face as he did so.
"There is a cage on the Sohma estate that was built generations back for the cat to be kept in. It was the reason that I fought you so much and hated you so much. If I could beat you, I would be accepted into the family and then I wouldn't be locked away. But as much as I tried I could never beat you, and I never really hated you. I think that I just hated the fact that you were the rat and I was the cat. The rat was the one who made a fool of the cat, and I always felt that you were trying to make a fool out of me as well."
"Wait, after graduation…"
"My life is over, I belong to Akito."
"You're a person." Yuki could feel tears burning in his eyes, he could see it. Two years from now, they would be living in an apartment off campus spending their nights together, while attending classes during the day, with part time jobs to help with the rent. It wasn't perfect but he could see it…it was his future he knew it.
"I'm the cat."
"No you aren't just the cat!" He yelled at Kyo the tears finally running down his cheeks, "He can't do that to you, and you're mine." Yuki's voice was shaking. It wasn't the fact that everything was changing, but the problem it wasn't his choice or Kyo's but it was all because of him. It was because of Akito.
"You don't know how happy it makes me to here you say that. For so long I wanted someone to see me as more then the cat. As something more then a monster. But the end was always the same. It really doesn't matter if I get that scholarship or not, because my time is up."
"Our time isn't up." Yuki demanded facing Kyo down, in this moment he even thought of taking Akito on. This person was the person in a long time to mean something to him. Kyo was his, his future, his everything.
"We don't have a say in the matter." Kyo brought the pale hand up to his lips and kissed each finger gently. "I have had a long time to know and deal with this…it's my fate."
No wonder he had been so angry, so hateful. To know that your life would be over when you hit graduation, it was a wonder he didn't drop out of school, but then again it was probably the only thing keeping him out of the cage now. Kyo had always hated him, taken it out on him. And why not, the cat and the rat were supposed to hate each other. What they had now was strange and had never even been heard of in the history of the Sohma family.
"I…I can't just accept this." Yuki found that his tears couldn't stop. Kyo's hands on his face just made him sob harder knowing that soon…soon he wouldn't have this. He wouldn't have this gentle touch, he wouldn't have this caring person to share his problems with that in just a few days… "Can I see you?"
"After I get locked away…" Kyo looked down, not sure how to say it, "It would be best if you just forgot about me and moved on. I won't exist anymore."
"But what about the rain… who will comfort you and take care of you?" Yuki's voice was small sneaking thought the sobs that wouldn't stop.
"God…" Kyo gave up and rushed forward wrapping Yuki in his arms and holding him tight. Yuki's body was shaking with sobs as his heart broke in the hands of his lover. "I'm so sorry, I never should have started this….you'll just have to forget, about me and everything…"
"Forget the best thing…" The sound of tears covered the rest of what he was about to say, but Kyo wasn't sure if he could stand hearing the rest of it. Gently he laid them back on the bed and settled them in; stroking a comforting hand over Yuki's back as the boy slowly sank into sleep, Kyo following shortly after.
Yuki woke early, with a large headache. The nights memories came back slowly and disjointedly he thought that it had to be a dream, that this wasn't something that could happen in the real world, that this was something that his tired and fried brain came up with to deal with the fact that in four days he was graduating high school.
But he knew that it was true…
That his future as he had seen it was over, that everything that he had thought was okay and right in his life was not true.
'It would be best if you just forgot about me and moved on…' Kyo's voice echoed in his head. He could never image kissing another, touching another, sleeping with another. As much as he said that Kyo was his, he was Kyo's.
Looking up he took in the beautiful tan face of his lover, his proud features, and crimson eyes hidden by pale lids, sharp cheek bones and strong lips. He ran a hand over the soft skin and over the silky hair and laid his head down on his chest listening to his comforting heartbeat.
Soon this wouldn't be here, he wasn't sure if that was something he could accept. It was not something he wanted to accept. Why was it that being a Sohma made it okay for Akito to run their lived. He wasn't a damn dictator. He just watched Kyo sleep listening to his heartbeat; he just didn't know what else to do.
Around 6:30 he woke right before the alarm went off and Yuki leaned over him kissing him softly.
"Hey." Kyo said softly, his voice gravely and sexy from sleep.
"Hey."
"How are you doing?" As the question was asked Yuki already felt the comforting arms soothing his body and making him tingle.
"Okay, I guess."
"Good, let's get ready for school."
"How do you do it every day?"
"For you." Kyo rose and Yuki watched as he gathered his things to go and take a shower. "Shower?" Kyo asked as though the idea of parting for even a moment was tragic.
"I'm coming." Today, Yuki didn't care if they held their act in place and Kyo was abnormally quiet. Shigure was absent from breakfast and nothing really seemed normal. The trio traveled to school and went through the motions. They went through the prep work for graduation, how to line up and etcetera and then to no one's surprise Yuki was named top student.
At the end of the day, it was Tohru and Yuki cleaning up the class room. Yuki watched as some of Kyo's teammates had pulled him out for a moment. All day he hadn't wanted to take his eyes off the cat. He was watching him constantly; he had to bite his tongue every time another touched him.
"He's mine! Hands off!" He wanted to yell but had a feeling that that wouldn't go well at all. So he kept his mouth shut and for the first time he saw the sadness that surrounded his lover. It was today that he noticed for the first time that his smile was always so heartbreakingly sad. That there was something that was always there behind his eyes and in his heart and now Yuki knew what it was.
Before he knew it Tohru was standing along side of him talking about nothing that he really knew. He felt a touch on his arm and went to look over and down at Miss Honda but by that time it had been too late. The damage had been done.
Her congratulations for being top in the class had been a kiss on the cheek, until he had moved.
Their lips clung together a moment. To Yuki it felt all wrong. Her lips were too soft and were a little more chapped then Kyo's. Her mouth was wider and…it was all wrong.
That was when he heard the door slam shut. And he knew that the wrong person had just seen the wrong thing.
"I am so sorry; I was just going to give you a kiss on the cheek. I am so sorry I am so embarrassed; you know that I don't see you like that. Not that I want to…like… insult you or anything but…"
"Miss Honda, its fine. It was nothing…" He waited until she left the room before he fell to his knees hugging himself. He would have recognized Kyo's presence even if he hadn't seen his mop of orange hair.
"Kyo!" He started to cry, it felt like everything was ending.
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The image was raw in his head; it was something that he knew he would never forget. Yuki kissing Tohru. Sure he had said it, that it would be best for Yuki to forget and to move on, but yesterday, just yesterday they had been wrapped around each other in grief for their lost relationship.
Did it really mean that little to Yuki.
Kyo ran, faster then he could ever remember running before. He reached the house in record time and didn't even bother with taking off his shoes. He ran to his room and instantly he was assaulted with Yuki's scent. Something so familiar that it made the tears that he had been holding back start to fall. He grabbed his bag and ran to the bathroom gathering all the little things that he owned and threw them in leaving nothing behind. He rushed back to his room, trying to steady his breathing.
He…he had to get away, before….before Yuki and Tohru could get back.
He had to be gone.
He grabbed clothes, threw in some underwear, he was leaving behind a mess, but he figured that it would be okay… this one time Shigure could understand.
Shigure! Random thought, but he ran down to the dogs office and scratched a note, saying that he need to get away for a while, that he would see him at the party, and that believe it or not he really loved this house and the home that he had found there. He was didn't notice that a tear drop stained the note.
He ran back to his room and grabbed his bag. It was then that he noticed that his picture album was open. He went to it turning the pages. He and Yuki were on every page. Randomly he grabbed a picture and stuffed the album in his bag. It was one that Ayame had taken of them; sleeping…Kyo was on his back holding Yuki was curled around him. They looked so at peace and natural together. It was all that he would have left. Running to his balcony, he used his cat grace and jumped to the ground.
Now he only had one place to run to.
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Author's plea: please don't throw any sharp objects at me…
Thanks for reading
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