I wonder why I had to always say things that everyone is thinking but no one wants to say. Like when I had to yell at that guy Kenny because he had his hands on Mia. And okay yes, they are dating and everything but it's not like he has to touch her in front of me. I'm pretty sure the whole world knows I like Mia. So anyway this is what happened.
Lilly and I had to be "host" which isn't what it is cracked up to be. I mean sure everyone who is here are our friends but come on can't they get their own drinks? They've been here before. So anyway, she and I had gone into the kitchen to get a plate of chips and assorted beverages when Kenny got here. He went straight into the living room, where Mia was like he had a tracking device on her. I didn't see him come in, not that I was going to greet him or anything but I'd still like to be informed when someone who has stabbed me in the back has entered my home.
Mia was alone in the living room; everyone else was taking over their coats and placing them in Lilly's room. When Lilly and I walked in Kenny had his hands practically up Mia's shirt. I couldn't take it. I mean what is this kid thinking?
"Oh hey Lilly, Michael," he said with almost a gloating tone to it. "I thought we were alone."
"Pea brain you knew you weren't alone," Lilly said throwing a pillow back at him.
"Well, a man can dream." I didn't even bother to tell him he wasn't a man but then I didn't want to stoop down as low as him.
"Whatever," I replied as I sat on the couch waiting for Mia to tell him off. She didn't, of course, but she did scoot towards me away from Kenny.
"Kenny?" Lilly said. "Would you mind coming with me to help me move the table in the dining room?"
"Get Michael to do it," he said looking at Mia as she fake smiled at him playing in her hair.
"NO! I mean no Kenneth, I mean Kenny, I need a real man." Lilly looked at me.
"Thanks Lil. I really appreciate it," I answered sarcastically.
"Fine, Mia stay here." He almost directed her and I wanted to punch him. I resisted the urge and I waited for him to leave.
"Thermopolis, are you okay?" I looked at her as she starred at the coffee table.
"I don't know." She looked in my eyes then quickly looked down. I pushed some of her hair behind her ears and my fingers felt as if they were on fire. Her eyes closed as my fingers brushed her face.
"What's the matter?" my hands were still in her hair. She turned and I saw that she was breathing softly.
"I looked up quixotic in the dictionary. Why would Lilly do that?" she looked at me.
"Mia, I'm sorry. I should have told you. It's just that it's hard when your little sister's best friend is also the one person-"
"Michael, I understand." I didn't get why she was almost in tears. This wasn't going like I had planned. "You don't like me. It's okay, but you could have told me. I made a fool of myself by thinking you were even just a little interested but now I know so don't worry about it. I'm fine with Kenny."
"No Mia it's not like that at all. It's just that Lilly wants you to think that I don't like you." Mia moved over on the couch and I couldn't help but look at her again. Her hair, so perfect behind her head, was now slightly tangled, her eyes, so soft and caring, were worn and distracted. She rubbed her leg again. "Why do I make you so nervous?" I said trying to understand.
"You don't get it do you?" she was crying now.
"Mia I don't like you…I love you. And not like a brother either. I really love you."
"You don't," she said through sobs. I took the opportunity to kiss her. She pulled away immediately and then ran into the dining room but not before saying, "you don't get that you scare me!" then she ran away right into Kenny who just happened to have his arms opened and then closed them around Mia grabbing her butt softly looking strait at me.
"Get off of her!" I yelled before ripping his arms off of her and then punching him. "You don't get that you don't deserve her do you?" I added. "She can't like you!" I was trying to make myself believe this also.
"MICHAEL!" Mia yelled through a sob. "Stop it!" Kenny got away and Mia stood in between us. Of course I couldn't tumble over her just to hit Kenny one more time.
"Is it true? Mia??" Kenny seemed to be pleading with her. She didn't answer so he said it again. I knew Mia, she wasn't going to lie to him.
"Yeah, it's true," Lilly answered for her. "Get over it." Kenny ran away and Mia watched him leave.
"I guess we aren't going out anymore," she said softly before turning to me and sobbing in my chest. I smoothed her hair down with my hand.
"Shhhh," I couldn't take her crying. She struggled to get away but I wouldn't let go.
"Michael," she kept repeating and I just stood rocking her.
"Mia, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to do that." I was repeating myself too. I wanted them broken up but I didn't want her heart broken.
"Michael, this is why you scare me. It's almost like you are bipolar sometimes. So you have to decide to either like me or not to." She looked into my eyes and I couldn't understand. "Bye Michael."
I couldn't comprehend what was happening but then Lilly told me last night that Mia had left for Genovia and has been under a lot of pressure from her Grandmere so to please give her time. Whatever, I needed time to think this over. She pretty much told me she likes me. A month or so without her was going to be hard.