Thanks for the feedback :-) i wrote this ages ago but forgot about it. Anyway there is a shock in this chaper unless you already guessed :-) i don't know it if'l be a good surprise or a bad one? anyway here goes:

1Chapter 3 - A Mothers Love

Sara woke up at 6.28am waiting for her alarm to sound at 6.30. It was Friday finally, almost time for the weekend, her last day of work for the week. She lay in bed recollecting the events of the past few days. Lindsey Willows she smiled she's so grown up so quickly it didn't seem like yesterday that she was playing with dolls in Cath's office and got exited at the idea of going to the park or for ice cream.

BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP

Sara reached over and stopped her alarm, she shifter her legs over and got out of bed. She went through her morning routine as usual, she walked to Lizzie's room checked the child was still sleeping, then quickly took a shower and got her bag packed for work and Lizzie's bag packed for nursery.

She walked into the Childs room and sat on the bed beside the sleeping brunette, she stroked the child's hair and felt the child stare beneath her touch

"Lizzie…. Lizzie baby come on it's time to get up"

The child opened her eyes and peered up at Sara, a smile creeping on her small features

"Mama, Lizzie tired" the child said rubbing her eyes and yawning

Sara smiled and lifted the child into her arms

"I know baby but Mama has to go to work and Lizzie has to go to nursery"

Lizzie nodded as Sara got the child out of bed. The child was bathed and in her clothes for the day within 15 minutes, the child was dressed in light pink dungarees with a pink checked shirt underneath and a tiny pair of pink boots.

Sara sat Lizzie in safety seat at the kitchen table strapping the child in and kissing her on the forehead before leaving the child with a book to play with as she made her way to the kitchen. Sara entered the kitchen and made Lizzie's and her own breakfast she placed the bowl of cereal in front of the infant then sat beside her eating fresh toast and sipping coffee. Sara watched the child eat as she ate her own breakfast helping Lizzie when she needed it.

Sometimes on morning like this when Lizzie was low maintenance and so well behaved Sara loved her life, she had a beautiful daughter who had come to mean the world to her. The moment she held Lizzie in her arms she knew that from that moment on her daughter would be the centre of her universe and since the day Lizzie had been born Sara had been the best mother she knew how to be, she'd done the best for her daughter, she's moved to Boston and got a well paid job at Harvard, she got Lizzie the best childcare possible and spent every given minute she wasn't at work with her daughter.

Sometimes Sara would wonder what it may have been like if she still had Catherine in her life if they could have been friends, or maybe more. Sometimes she felt guilty that Lizzie had never met her father but she believed deep in her heart that she was doing the best thing for her daughter. If she'd stayed in Vegas things wouldn't have worked out, she couldn't raise a child with someone she didn't love., but still she knew she was doing the wrong thing in keeping the child from her father.

"Mama" Lizzie said waving her spoon around

"Lizzie finished her breakfast" The child said proudly with a big smile

"And you've eaten it all up aren't you a good girl" Sara said rising from her seat and collecting the Childs and her own dirty dishes, she put the dishes in the dishwasher and retrieved her daughter from the kitchen.

Sara undid Lizzie's restraints and lifted the child from the chair placing her on the ground. Lizzie toddled into the living room and headed for her toy box.

Sara grabbed her bag and Lizzie's bag and placed them over her shoulder, heading after the child.

"Arrrr No you don't missy, you can play with toy's when you get to nursery, Mama needs to go to work now"

Sara said lifting the child with her free arm and heading to the car.

Sara's morning routine continued as usual, she dropped Lizzie at nursery gave the child a big hug and kiss, then headed off to Harvard to get ready for her first lecture of the day.

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Lindsey and Torri walked down the Harvard corridor smiling and laughing with one another, planning their night and discussing their new friends and possible friends they had made over the past week.

The girls had just had physics which was taught my the head of department herself Doctor Sidle. Lindsey still found it odd Sara being her teacher, she never saw Sara that much as a child but she had fond memories of the time they had spent together, Sara would speak to her like she was an adult and as a child she believed that Sara was her friend as well as her Mom's friend. But now she realises that Sara did it to make her feel like an adult not a child and Lindsey respected Sara for that.

"Hey Tor I'm gonna nip and speak to the Doc"

"Ok sure Linds do you wanna meet up later?"

"Yes sure I'll give you a ring and we can go for lunch, just wanna see what her deal is. I'll see you later OK"

With that Lindsey made her way back into the physics department and to Doctor Sidles office. The girl stood outside the door for a few seconds before knocking.

"Come in" came Sara's response

Lindsey opened the door and peered into the room seeing Sara sat at her desk looking over some papers, Sara looked up to see her stood before her.

"Lindsey Hi…… come in and take a seat" Sara said gesturing to the seats in front of her

"Thanks Doc, well I just thought I'd come say Hello everything was a little rushed the other day….. And I'm really sorry for interrupting Doctor Fielding, I was so shocked to see you and was telling Torri that I knew you"

"Wow Linds take a breath, that's fine don't worry about it, it's in the past now………. And Linds it's Sara Ok?"

"What ever you say Doc……… Sorry Sara but I like Doc" Both women laughed

"So how've you been? I didn't say this to you the other day because everyone else was around…… but Lindsey I'm really proud of you and I'm sure your Mom is too, your making something of your life kiddo"

"Thanks Sara, Mom is really proud of me. You should have seen her face when she left here last week after dropping me off, she was so upset to say goodbye, but I know she's also really happy that I'm here"

Sara froze when she heard Lindsey say that Catherine had been at Harvard a week earlier, Cath had been so close and yet she still didn't get to see her, but then came the question did she really want to see her. Could she really face seeing her after these past 3 years.

"Your Mom was here last week?"

"Yes she came to make sure I settled and make sure I was ok, I think she did it for her more than me she needed to know that I was ok"

"yes I'm sure she needed to know you where ok, you are so far away from her she must miss you so much"

"Yep"

"So Linds you got any gossip for me from Vegas, how are the guys doing….. And your Mom"

"Uncle Grissom got Ecklie's job, he got sacked I don't really know what happened but think it was something to do with a hooker.

Warwick and Tina are expecting a baby, Uncle Grissom was sort of seeing some lady I think her names Heather, Greg's engaged to Mia, and Nick's still the stud he always was, I think he's seeing someone too but I'm not too sure who and Mom well she's not seeing anyone right now, She's been single forever it seems I think she's holding out for someone but she says she's just waiting for the right person to come along. She went through a rough patch a couple of years ago she never left the house other than to go to work and she didn't seem to have any personal life, but she's been going out with Aunt Nancy recently, I think now me and Jeremy are old enough to go it alone they've decided to get a bit of a life" Lindsey laughed

Sara was happy that her friends all seemed to be happy and it didn't surprise her that Grissom was now with Heather, she was happy that he had someone, Catherine being alone on the other hand upset her but also she couldn't help but feel relived, the thought of Catherine being with someone else unnerved her more than she cared to admit.

"I'm glad everyone seems to be happy, I miss them all so much"

"Sara can I ask you something?"

"yes sure Linds…."

"Why don't you speak to them anymore?"

"It's a long story Linds I guess I just left and started over, I do think about them though everyday, sometimes I just think I've left it too long to get back in touch"

"You should call them….. Call Mom I know she'd be happy to hear from you"

"You think?"

"yes I'm sure she would, she talks about you a lot still, when I decided I wanted to go Harvard she said I'd make something of my life and become the next Sara Sidle. She thinks very highly of you. When you left I remember right after she used to say she missed you a lot. When she was sad she always used to say I wish Sara had stayed, but don't tell her I told you that because I was ears dropping"

"Well maybe I will give your Mom a call"

Sara didn't have any intention to call Catherine, she was too scared but she knew that unless she said she would Lindsey would never give up.

"When I told her you where here she seemed really shocked"

'Oh my God!!! She knows where I am' where Sara's immediate thoughts, she knew that Lindsey would tell her Mom she was here but hearing that she knew made Sara panic.

"Yes I can see she would be, I never really had a plan when I left Vegas I just sort of ended up here. I'm glad I did though I like it here and I like my job"

"It's really weird seeing you as a teacher, but I remember when I was a kid you always taught me things in a way I'd understand. You're a good teacher Sara I'm glad you're my teacher and I'm glad I got to see you again"

"Me to Kiddo"

"If I can't call you Doc you can't call me Kiddo I'm 18 Sara"

"Deal"

Both women laughed

"So how about you Sara are you married?"

"No I'm not I never met the right person but there's still time I suppose"

"What happened with you and uncle Grissom……… If you don't mind me asking"

"Erm well it just wasn't meant to be, I liked Grissom a lot, but I don't think I loved him, we dated for almost a year but it just didn't work out"

'and I was madly in love with your mother' Sara thought to herself

"That's a shame but to be honest Sara you seem to much fun for Uncle Grissom he's a good guy but i think you'd be more suited to someone a bit more fun"

'Like your mother' Sara thought

Sara laughed "Thanks Linds I think"

Sara and Lindsey spent an hour talking about the past and about Harvard, Sara told Lindsey if she needed help with anything she knew where she was and Sara again promised to contact Catherine.

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So there it is... Lizzie a good move or bad?

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