AN: I've changed this a few times but i still don't feel like i'm doing the issue justice but i can't seem to write it any differently so here goes
And thanks again for all the feedback. :-)
Chapter 5 - The truth be told
Lindsey woke to hear the ringing of a phone, 'if that my mother I'm going to kill her' she thought as she reached for the cell phone beside her bed.
"What?" she snapped harshly
- Lindsey? Why the attitude?
"Oh I don't know Mom being woke up at 5 in the morning usually has that effect on me!"
- oops Honey I'm sorry I wasn't thinking……… with the time difference and all…… erm I'll ring you back later…….. I'm sorry Linds
Lindsey could sense the upset in her Mother's tone
"Mom wait it's ok. I don't have lectures today it's the weekend, anyway I can sleep in……… what's wrong Mom you sound upset?"
- I'm not baby…… it's just that I've……… erm
"What Mom what's wrong, your scaring me now"
-No Baby it's nothing bad I've………….. Erm……… well
"What?"
- I'm coming to Boston, my flight leaves in 2 hours
"What why Mom, seriously, I can't believe your coming to spy on me!"
- No Linds I'm not coming to spy on you…….. I ……. I need to see Sara
"Your coming all this way to see Sara why don't you just call her?"
- I can't explain over the phone Lindsey but I promise I'll explain in person when I see you………. There's just some things I need to speak to Sara about that I can't do over the phone, it's really important that I see her
"Sure…….. Ok……… but I really don't understand why you can't just call her"
- I promise you Lindsey I will explain everything when I see you, it's just important that I do it.
" Ok"
- I just wanted to ring and give you a bit of warning that I was gonna be there……… and if you want to maybe we could go out for dinner one night, tonight if your free? and I'll explain everything to you?………………….. I understand if your busy with your college life. I'm sure I'll see you at the holidays
"No Mom don't be silly I want to see you while you're here……….. I've missed you"
- it's good to hear that baby because I've missed you too
"So when do you get here?"
- I'll be at my hotel just after 3 o'clock. I've booked a hotel near the university campus because I don't know where Sara lives, but I assume it will be near by…………….. And Linds please don't mention my visit to Sara………. I want it to be a surprise
"Sure Mom it's not like I'm going to see her anyway" The younger Willows women yawned
- Ok Linds well I'll let you get back to sleep, I'm sorry for waking you
"That's fine Mom give me a ring later tonight and we can meet up?"
- Sure baby speak to you then……. I love you
"I love you too Mom….. Bye" Lindsey said closing her phone.
"weird" Lindsey muttered before turning over and snuggling into her blanket.
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Sara had spent a lovely Sunday afternoon with her daughter, they had lunch and played with Lizzie's toys and now Sara stood in the middle of a park pushing her baby girl on the swings.
"Higher Mama…….. Lizzie wants to go higher" The child beamed
"I think this is high enough for you baby" Sara giggled as she pushed the child repeatedly.
The pair spent a further 20 minutes playing in the park. Lizzie sliding down the slide landing in her mothers open arms at the bottom.
"Mama can Lizzie have scweam?"
Sara chuckled
"You want ice cream baby"
Lizzie nodded repeatedly. Sara picked her daughter up and took the child over to the ice cream kiosk buying herself and her daughter ice creams. Hand in hand mother and daughter continued there walk through the park until they found a unoccupied bench, together they sat side by side, Lizzie leaning in to her mother and Sara's protective arm wrapping around her daughter. When the pair had finished Sara took her daughters arm and they both made there way through the park.
"Sara!!!" Sara turned around as she heard a voice calling her. She stood to face a pair of bright blue eyes looking at her with a puzzled look on her face.
"Lindsey... Hi"
"Oh my gosh Sara who's this she's soooo cute" Lindsey said indicating to the tiny brunette at Sara's side.
"This is Lizzie………. My daughter" Sara lifted Lizzie in her arms and looked down at the child " Lizzie this is Lindsey, are you going to say hi"
The little girl rested her head on her mothers shoulder and mumbled an hello to Lindsey.
"Hi Lizzie, your such a pretty little girl" Lindsey beamed and addressed the child, a smile across her face
Lizzie smiled and continued to hide her face in her mothers shoulder
"Come on Lizzie your not shy, this is Mama's friend Lindsey"
"Wow Sara she's such a cute baby…… I didn't know you had a child?"
"Well you do now kiddo….. Linds" Sara smiled at the Blonde women.
"Listen Linds can you not say anything to your Mom about Lizzie I want to tell her myself"
'Oh no Lindsey thought, don't tell Sara Mom's here, don't tell Mom Sara has a baby, god why do they keep telling me not to tell each other things. This is getting ridiculous'
"Erm yes sure Sara, Mom will be so pleased for you, you have such a beautiful child……. You know Sara anytime you need a babysitter you can give me a call" Sara and Lindsey both smiled
"Thanks Linds"
"Well I have to run"
"You got a date" Sara teased
"No not a date just meeting up with…….. Someone"
"Ok you have fun Linds and I'll see you soon"
"Bye Sara, bye Lizzie" Lindsey said waving at the tiny brunette
With that both women parted ways. Sara headed over to her car.
Sara thought for a minute about Lindsey seeing Lizzie, She felt bad at the fact that she wasn't happy Lindsey saw her daughter, she Loved her daughter more than anything so why was it so bad that the young Willows had met her, How could she be ashamed of her own daughter, Sara began to get mad with herself she sat in her car thinking about her feelings. It wasn't the fact that she was ashamed of her daughter she was ashamed of what she'd done, she left her old life behind her not sharing the most important part of her future, her child. She made her decision at that moment she needed to speak to Catherine and tell her about Lizzie and explain why she was here and why she made the decisions she did.
She looked in the back seat to see a sleeping figure and pulled her phone from her pocket. She felt her heart beat as she typed the number in that she still remembered after all these years, the phone rang for what seemed like eternity before she heard a click
- Hi I can't get to the phone right now, leave a message and I'll get back to you.
Sara sighed as she heard Catherine's voice on the answering machine. The tears she didn't realise she'd been fighting ran down her face. "Fuck" she exclaimed angrily throwing her phone on the seat beside her, then turning to check her daughter was still sleeping. She placed her head in her hands and let herself sob silently.
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Catherine sat in the diner waiting for her daughter to arrive, she reread the menu over and over again, 'Come on Linds I need to tell you this while I still have the guts' Catherine thought as she looked down at her watch.
"Hey Mom" the smiling blonde said has she approached Catherine. The young woman leaned over and hugged her Mom before giving her a kiss and the cheek and taking a seat opposite.
"Hey honey how are you?" Catherine said as she moved around uneasy
"I'm good thanks, but you already know that….. Come on Mom what's going on?"
"Erm……. Can we order first and I'll try to explain things to you"
"sure if that's what you want"
The two women sat in the diner for almost an hour discussing Lindsey's first week at college and Catherine passed on messages from the other members of the graveyard shift, Catherine still hadn't addressed the issue she was here to speak to her daughter about.
"Mom……… are you gonna tell me why you're here?" Lindsey said looking her mother right in the eyes.
Catherine shifted uneasily.
"Ok Linds I'm sorry………. Like I said I'm here to see Sara"
"but why couldn't you just ring her"
"What I have to say to her can only be said to her face, plus I really need to see her………………….. You know that Sara just left?, she was there one minute and not there the next, I never got the chance to say goodbye to her"
"Why did she leave? I don't understand why she didn't say goodbye to all her friends it makes no sense"
"I know it doesn't Linds but it's very complicated………………. Sara left because I found out something that upset me……………… She left because she thought that if she stayed I would be upset"
"What did you find out?"
"it doesn't matter Linds……. It's in the past……… "
"Mom stop it………….. Stop holding out on me……. I want to know what happened!" Lindsey said getting angry with her Mothers lack of explanation for the whole situation.
Catherine could feel the tears welling behind her eyes, she tried so hard to regain her composure she really didn't want to break down in tears in front of her daughter. Lindsey could see how uncomfortable her mother was finding the whole situation.
Resting her hand on her mothers shoulder Lindsey looked into her mothers eyes
"Mom please I just want to help"
"can we go somewhere else Honey?" Catherine looked up at her daughter
"Sure Mom do you want to come back to my dorm, or shall we go to the hotel?"
"Hotel……………. I don't wanna cramp your style" Cath said forcing a smile, trying her best to make light of the situation.
After a five minute walk down the street Catherine and Lindsey arrived in Catherine's hotel room.
The room was massive, 2 double beds filled the room along with a sofa, a dressing table and a mini bar.
Catherine took her shoes and coat off and sat on one of the beds, Lindsey did the same and sat on the bed opposite her Mother.
"Mom are you going to tell me?"
Catherine couldn't hide her upset any longer, the tears began to flood from her eyes as sobs escaped her throat.
Lindsey was shocked to see the sight before her. Her mother had always been so strong, she'd never seen her like this before. Lindsey took a seat beside her mother and hugged her mother fiercely.
"Mom please just tell me………… what ever it is Mom………… it's ok…….. Just please tell me why your so upset?"
"it's…… Sara" Catherine said between sobs
"What's she done to upset you so much? I don't understand Mom, you keep giving me half of a story. Please just tell me the truth, tell me what she did to upset you?"
Cath took a 3 deep breaths in an attempt to stop her sobbing, she looked up at her daughter and tried to force a smile.
"I'm sorry Honey"
"It's ok Mom really" Lindsey looked at her Mom concern reflecting in her baby blues.
"Ok………The day before Sara left was Sara's birthday, we where all going out for a meal and a dance, so I went to Gil's office to tell him that I was leaving to go get changed for Sara's party………………. But when I got there I saw him…………… I saw him with Sara, they where kissing in his office"
Cath's eyes began to fill with more tears as she remembered the image of Sara and Grissom together.
"and that's why you where upset?……………. I still don't understand"
Catherine began to sob.
"I was upset because the person I loved was kissing someone else…………"
"You mean uncle Gil????……. But I asked you about him and you said the idea was gross he was like your big brother"
Catherine looked at her daughter, hoping that she would get what she was saying without her having to say it aloud.
"You mean Sara…………….. Sara………. As in my teacher Sara Sidle???"
Catherine just looked at her daughter unable to reply to the question, she looked down at the floor and nodding a 'yes' in reply to her daughters question.
"Lindsey I'm sorry………."
Lindsey stayed silent for a few minutes before taking her Mothers hand and looking up at her Mothers eyes.
"Mom…….. It's ok. You don't need to be sorry, you've done nothing wrong……. I'm just shocked thats all….. I just had no idea….. You and Sara didn't even appear to be that good of friends that's all……………… did you………….. Where you…………… I mean where you and Sara a couple?"
"No we where never a couple, I wasn't brave enough to tell Sara how I felt, and even if I did she was with Grissom………… plus the other billion reasons why me and Sara could never work…………… when Sara left Vegas she wrote me a letter………….. It appeared that she felt the same as I did about her, but she left, she hurt me when I saw her with Grissom and she knew if she where to be with me it would hurt Grissom, she knew how much Mine and Gil's friendship meant so she left……… and I've never heard from her since"
"Wow how can all this have happened and I didn't notice anything?"
"You where a teenager Linds living your rebellious years" Catherine laughed at the memory "Plus I tried so hard to hide the fact that I had feelings for Sara I manages a whole 6 years without even admitting it to myself so no one knew……"
"Mom why are you here?……………….. I mean are you here to tell Sara how you feel or are you here to say goodbye?"
"I really don't know Honey………………………. I think I just need to see Sara and see where we both stand………….. She if there's any chance for us……………"
Lindsey was shocked at her mothers confession, but determined to support her mother in what ever decision she made. Just like her Mom had always been there for her, it was now her turn to be there for her Mother.
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Next chapter is very long... or i could split it into 2 and have a very short one first i need to get writing because i've nothing left written after this next chapter.