-1AN: continued from The moment of truth
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Chapter 7 - Mini me
Sara put the phone down and looked up at Catherine
"Sara what's wrong?….. Are you ok?"
"yes…… erm there's something I need to tell you, I was going to explain much more before I did but this can't wait……. Catherine I have a daughter and she's not feeling well so my colleges gonna bring her here. I promise I'll explain everything"
Catherine sat there in shock. Sara could read her mind, she was assuming that Sara was married, settled down with a child. If only that was it would it be easier for Cath.
"OK" was all Catherine could manage
"Cat it's not what you think….. But it's complicated"
KNOCK KNOCK
Sara made her way to the door quickly and was greeted with the site of her crying daughter clinging to Dana's neck. Sara looked down at the child and reached her arms out to her. The child clang to Sara and settled on her mothers shoulder, her cries died down but her sobs continued
"Shhh Baby it's ok mama's got you"
Sara looked up at her colleague
"Thanks Dane I think she's just tired, she doesn't seem to have a fever" Sara said feeling the Childs forehead
"I'm sorry Sara I knew you where busy but she just kept asking for you and she was really upset"
"Its fine Dana don't worry, Thanks for looking after her for me"
"Your more than welcome, I'll see you later"
Dana walked away from the door mouthing 'good luck' at Sara as she left
Sara took a deep breath and she turned to face Catherine
"She's a beautiful baby Sara…. I saw her with your friend in the hall before"
Catherine walked over to the pair and took the child's hand in her own
"Hey little one" the child smiled at Catherine continuing to rest her head on her mothers shoulder
Sara looked between Catherine and her daughter
"Lizzie this is Catherine Mama's friend, say hello"
The child looked up at Catherine and smiled a weak smile
"Hello Cafareen"
Sara and Catherine both smiled as the girl pronounced Catherine's name
"Cat why don't we sit down on the sofa over there" Sara indicated to a large sofa to the left of them
"There's some things I need to tell you……… and I don't know if your going to like them but If…….. If we have any chance of being……. Friends again I need to be honest with you"
"Ok" Catherine said walking over to the sofa.
Sara sat at one end of the sofa and Catherine sat at the other a sleepy Lizzie lay between them her head on Sara's lap
"Ok Cat I can't begin to tell you how nervous I am about this so I think it's probably better if I just tell you everything right up and I promise to answer any questions you may have at the end but I need to tell you this before I loose the courage"
"Ok Sara but please don't be afraid of my reaction and please don't think that it will make me…… make me love you any less"
Sara could feel the tears well behind her eyes, The lent over and took Catherine's hand in hers as she began to tell Catherine her story.
"Ok well I'm gonna be completely honest with you here cat or there's not really much point in this. When I met you I was instantly drawn to you, I wanted to be your friend, I wanted to get to know you. But no matter how hard I tried I just couldn't seem to break down that barrier between us, you and I had a really tense relationship to start with I know you saw me as an outsider someone sent to spy on you, but Cat that was never my intention I just wanted to be part of the team and eventually I felt like that after many years I began to feel like I fit in, sometimes we'd go out as a team and it was great. Sometimes I would just sit back and watch you talking to Nick or Warrick and see the friendship there and I just wished that could be me. Eventually we seemed to tolerate one another we would chat at work and we got on.
Eventually I realised that even though we where barely friends I wanted us to be more than friends. I couldn't keep my eyes of you at work and I knew I could go on like that. So then Grissom came along, and along time ago I believed I loved Grissom, we seemed like two peas in pod we where so alike in many ways, mainly the fact that neither of us where really people persons. So then Grissom asked me out and I accepted. I asked him out years before and he rejected me and that didn't hurt me, sure it hurt my feelings but it wasn't a broken heart kind of hurt and I think at that point I should have realised that as much as I loved Grissom as a person I wasn't in love with him. We'd been dating for almost a year and I kept hoping that one day I would fall in love with him but it never happened because…….. Because I was In love with you.
Then you saw us in Grissom's office, that day I planned on leaving him I went there to tell him that it was over that I didn't love him. I told him I needed to speak to him but he said he had something to do first and he kissed me and that's when you walked in………… Cat I'm so sorry you had to see that, after you left I cried I told him it was over that I didn't love him, then he cried.
That was when I realised I had to leave I saw the look of hurt on your face when you left and I saw it again on Grissom's face when I left and I knew I had to go. I couldn't hurt the 2 people I loved the most. So I left I went back to Frisco for a while then within a month I was here. When I got here I had to go to the doctors to register and he told me I was pregnant. I didn't know what to do, but I couldn't go back to Vegas. So I decided to stay here and raise Lizzie alone…….. And that's it….. God I feel like I've been talking forever" Sara said wiping the tears from her eyes.
Sara looked down at her sleeping daughter then up at Catherine, she saw Catherine's eyes full of tears. But she also saw a look of understanding, love and compassion.
"Sara I'm so sorry you had to go through all this alone, I just wish you'd have called or wrote a letter anything"
"I know Cat I wanted to so much but I was too scared. I didn't want to be with Grissom and didn't think you'd want to know me"
"Sara why did you ever think that?"
"because of what I did…… because of Lizzie"
"Sara she's your child, she's part of you. I would love her just as much as I love you"
"Do you Cat……. Do you love me?" Sara said between sobs
Catherine stood before Sara taking the sleeping child from her arms kissing the bundle on her forehead before placing her on the couch that she had just vacated. She stood before Sara look her hands and brought her to her feet.
Sara didn't know what Catherine's plan was she was scared that she was going to leave
"I'm sorry Cat I'm so so Sorry"
"Shhh Sara, you'll wake the baby"
Catherine pulled Sara to her and hugged the taller women fiercely
"As to your earlier question Miss Sidle….. I do love you, I've always loved you"
"I love you too"
Sara placed her hands on either side of Catherine's face and pulled her head down to meet her own. They stood there foreheads touching and looked into each others eyes
"You have no idea how long I've waited for this" Sara said as she pulled Catherine's head even closer
"I think I do" Catherine said as she brought her lips to meet Sara's. Has there lips met both women felt the same spark they'd felt all those years ago, the kiss was soft and sweet full of love commitment. Both women
Sighed as they rested there foreheads on each others.
"Well Sidle do you believe I love you yet?"
Sara smirked up at Catherine, who was wearing a big smirk of her own
"Well I'm still not 100 sure but it's a start" Sara laughed
Her laughter was soon cut short as Catherine's lips met hers again this time much more forceful it was driven by pure lust and want. There lips crushed together and Sara felt Catherine's tongue brush her lips seeking entrance to her mouth, Sara moaned as she allowed Catherine the entrance she desired. Sara sank into the kiss allowing Catherine full control until she couldn't take it anymore. She backed Catharine up against the wall and her tongue fought it's way into her lovers mouth. Catherine whimpered at the loss of control and the lovers continued there fight for dominance of the kiss.
RING RING RING RING
The lovers pulled apart and looked at one another pure lust showing behind each pair of eyes
"Sara…. Phone"
"What" Sara heard the ringing as she remembered why they weren't kissing anymore.
"yes I should get it" Sara said as she walked over to the phone
"Hello……… erm Sara Sidle speaking"
- Hello Dr Sidle I have your 2 o'clock appointment waiting in reception, shall I sent him in?
"NO… I mean no I'll be out in a minute…….. Thanks carol" Sara said putting the phone down.
Sara looked over to where she left Catherine standing only to discover she wasn't there. I wash of panic spread over her until she heard that unforgettable voice
"Hey I'm here you didn't think I'd leave after that kiss did you, the phone woke Lizzie"
Sara looked at the site before her. Catherine Willows was sat on the sofa was a still sleepy Lizzie sat on her lap. She couldn't hide the grin that spread across her features.
"That was reception I have an appointment I need to go too. But now I really don't want to go" Sara said as she sat beside Catherine kissing her on the cheek and taking her daughters hand in her own.
"Oh ok…. Well maybe we could meet up later….. I mean if you want to" Sara could sense Catherine's nervousness
"Of course I want to. Why don't you come to mine and I'll cook?"
"Why Miss Sidle I do think I'll have to accept that offer" Catherine said kissing Sara on the lips
"Ok well I gotta go, I need to drop Lizzie off with a friend on the way"
"I could watch Lizzie….. I mean if that's ok with you?"
Sara smiled " Are you sure you want to…. I mean I don't want to impose on you"
"No I want to…… I want to spend some time with her if that's ok with you?"
"That's fine…. that's more than fine" Sara said kissing Catherine again
"Right appointment I must go" Sara got Lizzie's things together and told Catherine where the stroller was.
"You can stay here if you like I can take my appointment somewhere else?"
"No it's fine I'll take Lizzie to the park and get something to eat"
"Bye baby you be a good girl for Catherine" Sara said kissing Lizzie "Cat thanks so much for doing this……. For wanted to do this" Sara said kissing Catherine.
"You don't need to thank me, I want to do this more than you can know. Now we will be back here to pick you up at 5 and you can take us home and make us dinner. Deal?" Catherine kissed Sara back and headed for the door.
"Deal, see you both later"
"Bye Mama" Lizzie waved as she left the room
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Part of me thinks this was a bit rushed and I could have built a friendship first and drawn it out a bit more, but it's not gonna be a rush job I assure you I still need to address the Grissom issue hides