Disclaimer: I do not own Grey's Anatomy. I do not write for Grey's Anatomy. But I've decided that one day I'm going to. No word of a lie, in all honesty, one day I'm going to write for Grey's Anatomy. Even if it just involves sitting in the room and adding in a line, I'm doing it.

Yet again thanks for all the great reviews. Glad to see that my filler chapter worked and wasn't too boring. But everyone seemed to like it, so it's all good.

This chapter is going to be sadish, I thought I would warn everyone right now. I mean, given the circumstances it can't really be happy. Derek does have to tell Meredith that he's stuck in Africa for another 5 months, and that's never an easy thing to tell your pregnant girlfriend, who happens to be the love of your life. So yeah emotional and sad chapter. But I'm going to try to add some of the usual Mer/Der pizzaz that makes everyone giggle.

Oh yeah, it's IM.

Enjoy.

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Meredith has logged on 2:00 PM

Meredith: Seriously?

DaddyShep: You are aware that's how you greet me everytime.

Meredith: Blame it on your nicknames.

DaddyShep: I like my nicknames. You should get fun nicknames. Change yours to MommyShep.

Meredith: My last name isn't Shepherd.

DaddyShep: It will be one day.

Meredith: It will. Did you hear back from John?

Meredith: Der?

Meredith: Derek? ... It's not good is it.

DaddyShep: Mer ...

Meredith: Don't Mer me. I don't need to be Mer'd. Just tell me.

DaddyShep: I can't come home for another 5 months.

Meredith: 5 months?

DaddyShep: 5 months.

Meredith: 5 months. Not a year.

DaddyShep: Technically I only had to commit 6 months, I volunteered a year. I was allowed to cut it down by 6 months.

Meredith: We can do 5 months. It's okay. I'm okay.

DaddyShep: It's okay not to be okay.

Meredith: Are you okay?

DaddyShep: No, Mer, I'm not. I want to be there. You're pregnant, I'm finally going to be a dad. And I'm stuck here, which is basically the last place I want to be. I'm so far from being okay.

Meredith: I'm not okay either.

DaddyShep: I know.

Meredith: Derek, I'm so scared. And this is so hard, being alone for this. My friends have been great, amazing, but they're not you. I need you. I hate needing you, but I do.

DaddyShep: Meredith, it's okay to need me.

Meredith: I get sick every morning, and everyone has been there to hold my hair, even Alex. But the one person I need to be there. You haven't been there.

DaddyShep: Mer, you know I hate this just as much as you do.

Meredith: I know you do, I just need to beside me for this.

DaddyShep: God, Mer. You know if I could I'd be there.

Meredith: I know, and that makes it so much harder.

DaddyShep: I know it's hard. I know it's not supposed to be this hard. But it will get better. We have each other, and in 5 months I'll be beside you again. We'll get through this and it will get better.

Meredith: I know ... I know. It's just so hard. Sometimes I just wish . . . I wish I had chosen the other path.

DaddyShep: You don't mean that.

Meredith: No, Der, no. Not at all. It's just . . .I'm just . . .

DaddyShep: Shh, Mer I know, shhhh...I'm here. Shhh. Go to the kitchen and get a paper bag, breathe into it. Shhh.

Meredith: I am not hyperventilating.

Meredith: Fine, maybe I am. But you don't get to boss me around.

DaddyShep: I'm the father of that baby growing inside of you, gives me full range on bossing you around.

Meredith: I miss you.

DaddyShep: I miss you too. You okay now?

Meredith: No, but I will be. You'll be home for the birth.

DaddyShep: I'll be home for the birth. And to rub your feet when you're too big to reach them. And to feel the baby kick. And everything. I'll be home for the end. I'll be right beside you in the delivery room.

Meredith: Good.

DaddyShep: I would have found anyway to be there for that Mer, I'm not missing that for the world.

Meredith: You've always wanted this, haven't you?

DaddyShep: Not when I was with Addison. We talked about having children, you know how my family is with children, but it was never the right time, never something I really wanted. But the second I sat beside you, the second I looked into your eyes, this is all I've wanted.

Meredith: I never wanted this, I never even dreamed of having this. I didn't want it. Until I had it, and as scared as I am ...

DaddyShep: I know.

MommyShep: Happy?

DaddyShep: Ecstatic.

MommyShep: It's on your head when Cristina kills me in my sleep.

DaddyShep: I saved her boyfriend's carreer, she owes me one.

MommyShep: One minute . . .what are you doing online?

DaddyShep: Was wondering when you were going to ask. John transfered me to a clinic closer to an actual city, so I'm staying in an apartement with net access.

MommyShep: Seriously? So I can reach you whenever I need to.

DaddyShep: Yep.

MommyShep: I'd say let's name this child John, but I'm hoping for a girl.

DaddyShep: You want a girl?

MommyShep: You want a boy?

DaddyShep: Lol, Mer, I don't think there's a point of figthing over this.

MommyShep: All I'm saying is, as the person who's carrying the child, I think it's a girl. I'm willing to bet on it being a girl.

DaddyShep: Oh I'll take that action. If it's a girl, you get to be in charge of sex for a month, you get anything you want. If it's a boy, I get to.

MommyShep: Sexual bets of course. You have a dirty dirty mind, Dr. Shepherd.

DaddyShep: Matches so well with the dirty dirty mind of my girlfriend.

MommyShep: I'm not the one who made this conversation dirty.

DaddyShep: It's midnight here, hun. I have to be up in just over 5 hours so I have to go to bed. I love you.

MommyShep: I love you too. Talk to you later?

DaddyShep: Counting the seconds.

DaddyShep has logged off 3:03 PM.

So that was a little angsty. But I made it have a happy ending, so I assume that to be a good thing. And I know it jumped from angsty to happy rather quickly, but as far as I'm concerned that happens. You just need something to break the tension and in this case it was him bossing her around. Because he's half way around the world and still managing to worry about her enough to boss her around. That bossing around, and just knowing exactly what she was doing (hyperventilating) was just a reminder that even though he wasn't "there" he was still very much "there". So angsty beginning but happy ending.

As for the time difference, I researched and it's correct.

Anyway, the next chapter will be up tomorrow. Either during the day or at night. Not sure which yet. But definitely by night.

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