Chapter 23
Honey I just cant get around it anymore. You make me feel like home is where you are.
Brooke waited in the kitchen for Lucas to arrive, he was going to take her to get the abortion. She paced around the room, feeling very uneasy about the decision she made. In a moment of weakness, she had made another selfish decision. Just because she finally wanted to be with Lucas, did not mean she had the right to do this. Now what was she going to do. She couldn't keep changing her mind and expecting it to all be okay with Lucas. She continued to pace as Lucas walked into the room.
"Hey there beautiful." he said as he walked over to her and kissed her. He saw the look on her face "What is it now?" he asked
"I don't know if I can do this"
"Not again"
"Luke this is a BIG decision, and I don't know if I made the right one."
"Brooke"
"I mean, yes chemo is a very important thing to do, but this just seems like the wrong way of doing it."
"Brooke"
"I just don't know if I can do it Luke"
"That's fine" he finally said. She was pacing so hard and talking so fast he couldn't get much in.
She stopped and looked at him
"Are you sure?"
"I'll always want you to take the chemo, but I told you, whatever you want to do, I'll do it. Just let's make up our minds this time, okay?"
"Okay"
"So should I call the doctor"
"If you wouldn't mind"
"Are you sure?"
She stopped to think about it for a second to make sure she was doing the right thing. "I'm sure"
"Okay" and he walked to the phone to call the doctor.
And baby I just cant run around it any morn'n. It's time that I believe it, home is where you are.
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"Hello"
"Jake"
"Its so good to hear your voice Peyton"
"I miss you"
"I miss you too"
"Then why cant you come back or I come there. This is just stupid"
"I know it sucks Peyton, but I cant leave and you belong in Tree Hill"
"I don't belong anywhere if you're not there"
"Peyton please don't do this"
Peyton began crying. She missed him so much and she didn't know how much longer she could live like this. "Jake I wan to be with you"
"I know Peyton….I know" As far as either of them were concerned, this sucked.
Notes in my drawers, songs in my pockets, Fragments of letters that you sent,
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There was a knock at the door and Brooke went to answer it.
"Hey Mouth"
"Hey Brooke. How are you feeling"
"I'm fine Mouth. Bitchy's upstairs"
"You two still fighting?"
"I'm assuming Rachel told you. Well it was her fault anyways"
"But you could apologize and end it"
"I cant believe you're taking her side."
"I'm not taking anyone's side Brooke. I'm just saying it's stupid to be fighting over something like that."
"Mouth, she was so rude"
"I'm sure you both said some things you didn't mean"
"I can not believe you are saying this. You and me are suppose to be friends, why in the hell are you taking her side?"
"I'm not Brooke"
"Whatever Mouth, I can not believe I actually considered you one of my best friends. Just go up to her special girl friend and leave me the hell alone." and she stormed out of the house.
Leftover phone calls, cologne in the bath I still have that bottle of Rosé
Staring at your photograph, tryin' to take it down. There's still a stirring in my heart
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"Haley" Nathan screamed through the apartment
"I'm in the bedroom" she called back
He hurried back there.
"This came in the mail" he said handing her a letter
"What is it?"
"I don't know, why don't you open it"
She ripped apart the envelope and took out the letter.
Dear Mrs. Scott,
We are pleased to announce that you have been accepted to Stanford University……
"Oh my God" she screamed
"Haley that's great. I'm so happy for you" he said and gave her a kiss
"I don't know what to say" and then it hit her "now what are we going to do? I mean you want to go to Duke and I want to go to Stanford"
"Haley, lets not worry about it right now"
"Now's when we have to worry about it, Nathan."
And honey I just can't get around it anymore
You make me feel like home is where you are
And baby I just can't run around it every morn'n
It's time that I believe it, home is where you are
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"Can I come in?" Brooke asked when Peyton opened the door
"Sure" she said gesturing for her to enter "What's the matter"
"I cant live with Rachel anymore"
"I could have told you that" Peyton joked
"Yeah well, the problem is I don't have anywhere to go" she side smiled.
"You know you always have a home"
"And where would that be?"
"Here" Peyton responded, hoping she wasn't over-stepping any boundaries
"I don't know Peyton, we're just working our differences out. I don't know if that would be the best thing to do right now."
"Look at it this way. You could move in for a while. If it doesn't work, you can always move back out. No harm, no foul. What do you got to lose?" she asked
"I don't know"
"Come on Brooke. It could be the best thing for us" she kind of begged. She was rather lonely in this house by herself, and she could really use the company.
"Are you sure it wouldn't be weird?"
"That's up to you"
Brooke thought about it. Yeah it probably would get weird every now and then, considering her and Luke were having a baby and what not, and the fact that Peyton didn't even know about it yet. But, she had no other place to go.
"Okay fine." Peyton smiled "Thanks Peyt"
"Anytime….Now let's go get your stuff from hell"
I've never been to half of these places
But your postcard collection makes me crave
A little space, a little ways out of the city to the grace of another land, another tongue, another time
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There was a knock at Lucas' bedroom door. He looked up to see his mother standing in the door.
"Hey kiddo, this came in the mail today"
She handed him a letter
"Thanks mom" he said as he took the letter and began opening it. He read it to himself.
"So what does it say?" his mom asked impatiently.
"I got into UNC"
"That's great." she said and gave her son a hug
"Yeah I guess"
"Have you and Brooke talked about college yet?"
"Not really" he said a little disappointed. "I don't even know where she even applied"
"Don't worry about it now Luke. There's too much going on right now. That decision can be made later"
She walked out of the room. He placed the letter on his dresser next to a picture of him and Brooke together. He hoped everything would work out. It had to.
Staring at your photograph, I can't take it down
There's still a fire in me yet
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"Honey I just can't get around it anymore
You make me feel like home is where you are
And baby I just can't run around it every morn'n
It's time that I believe it, home is where you are"
"What is that beautiful noise I here out there" Nathan shouted from the bathroom
"Just something I'm working on"
"It sounds great" he yelled back. She continued to play as she flashed back to the time she first played for her husband. Everything would be okay. It had to be.
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The song is "Songs in my pockets" by Bethany Joy Galeotti