Chapter 26
Where are we? What the hell is going on?
The dust has only just begun to form,
Crop circles in the carpet, sinking, feeling.
Brooke woke up to a wet towel on her head. She slowly opened her eyes to find Peyton and Mouth sitting on the couch next to her.
"Hey B. Davis, wasn't sure when you were gonna wake up" Peyton jeered.
Brooke chuckled a little, hoping the tension between them had lessoned. She sat up and turned to face Peyton. Peyton gave her a smile.
"I'm so sorry Peyton, I'm so sorry" and she fell into her friends arms.
"I know Brooke, I know" Peyton began rubbing Brooke's back. "We all just need time. Some more than others." she added. After Brooke had calmed down again she sat back up and looked around the room.
"Where's Haley?"
"She went down to the jail to get Nathan and Lucas out"
"We should go down there"
"I don't know if that's such a good idea" Mouth jumped in
"Yeah, I don't think you being there will be a good thing" Peyton added. "No ofence" she quickly said after seeing Brooke's facial expression drop
"I guess you're right." she paused. Now what was she suppose to do. Just sit and wait for people to slowly forgive her. That would take forever. "But I have to do something"
"I think you need to give people their space for a little Brooke, I know it will hurt, but that is what their gonna need and want. Come on…I'll take you home" Peyton stood up and held out her hand. After a second of hesitation, Brooke put her hand in Peyton's and was led outside of the apartment, toward the house she now called home. She didn't understand why Peyton was the first to forgive her. Yet, it kind of made a little sense, in a way. Either way, she was grateful.
Spin me round again and rub my eyes.
This can't be happening.
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When busy streets a mess with people
would stop to hold their heads heavy.
At the jail, Haley was talking to one of the policeman.
"How long do they have to stay in there?"
"Just overnight. We want to make sure that whatever caused this feud has diminished by then" the policeman responded
"Thanks" she said "Can I see them?" she asked
"Which one?"
"Lucas Scott" she couldn't face Nathan, not yet anyways.
"Sure, follow me." He led her down the hall to a small cell. "Here you go" he said "you got 15 minutes" he added before leaving them alone
"Lucas"
"Hey Hales" Lucas said without any emotion. He was physically and emotionally drained. They both stood there, in silence, not knowing what to say to the other. "Do you ever wonder what life would be like if we would have stayed away from all these people?" Lucas finally asked
"All the time….all the time" Haley responded "But there's no reason to wonder what would have happened. We need to worry about what's gonna happen"
"I know, but it seems life would have been so much simpler and easier if we would have stayed in our own world. I mean, I wouldn't have formed this stupid triangle between Brooke and Peyton. You wouldn't have married Nathan and been hurt by this. Jimmy and Keith would still be alive. Everything would just have been better."
"I don't know Lucas. I mean we all make the decisions we make. Yeah sometimes life's gonna hurt like hell, but it's the way we react to these hard things that make us who we are."
"Yeah but look at us now, we've both been crushed by our love ones."
"I know Lucas, and I'm not saying that that is okay. I'm just saying that it's the way we react to this that will matter. It's gonna suck, and I know it will be hard, but we have to go on living."
"Can you forgive them for this?"
"I don't know Lucas, I really don't know"
Hide and seek.
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"Here you go" Peyton said as she dropped Brooke onto the bed. Brooke was still a little weak so Peyton helped her to the bedroom.
"Thanks P. Sawyer."
"Anytime" She began grabbing the blankets to cover Brooke up. She knew all this stress couldn't be good for the baby, and knew that she could probably use a nap. "Why don't you get some rest" she suggested
"Do you think I'll ever be forgiven?"
"Someday" Peyton stated as she began covering her up
"Someday" Brooke repeated before falling asleep
Oily marks appear on walls
Where pleasure moments hung before.
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"Okay ma'am, your 15 minutes are up" the guard said to Haley
"Okay" she said and turned back to Lucas "I'll see you tomorrow Luke. And remember, we have to go on living" she winked at him
"How can you be so strong?" he asked
"Because I have you" she said. She leaned in and gave him a kiss on the cheek and walked away. As she was leaving, she walked by another small cell.
"Haley" the man called out. She turned around to find Nathan. "Haley I'm sorry"
"I cant talk to you right now" she said trying to turn around and leave, but was frozen in place. She loved that man behind those bars, but he broke her heart. How can you just forgive someone for doing that?
"Haley please….please just give me a chance to explain"
"No explanation is needed Nathan, you did what you did, and you cant take that back." she turned around and walked away. Nothing he could say right now could change how she felt. She needed time and space, and she was determined to get it.
The takeover, the sweeping insensitivity of this
still life.
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Peyton sat on the edge of the bed, staring at the sleeping body of her friend. In a slight way, she felt responsible for the drama that had unfolded. She caused Brooke the pain she felt, causing her to feel alone in the first place. How could she have done that to her friend. She was no better than Brooke. She began crying. She didn't want to be here anymore. She hated Tree Hill. She hated the things she had done in Tree Hill. Like cheating with Lucas, doing drugs, ruining her friendship with Brooke. She hated the things that happened in Tree Hill. The school shooting, her mom dying, her dad always leaving her behind. She missed Jake. She missed the way he held her when things were bad. She missed the way he kissed her and told her that everything was going to be okay. She missed the smile on his face when they woke up together. Most of all, she missed Brooke, the way they use to be. She wanted nothing more than to go back to when it was them against the world. She curled up next to her friend and fell asleep crying.
Mmm, what you say?
Mm, that you only meant well? Well, of course you did.
Mmm, what you say?
Mm, that it's all for the best? Ah of course it is.
Mmm, what you say?
Mm, that it's just what we need? And you decided this.
Mmm what you say?
What did she say?
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Haley walked into the apartment to find it a wreck, but she didn't have any energy to clean it up. She sat down on the couch and stared at the wall mural of London. Nathan and her were going to go there for their honeymoon, before the car crash had occurred. She tried to fight the tears. She didn't want to cry anymore. She walked to the bedroom. There she found more memories. She walked to her closet, hoping to find something she could put on that didn't remind her of yesterday. That's when she noticed her wedding dress. This made her think of both of them. Brooke had designed the dress and had been the maid of honor. She couldn't hold them back any longer. She sat on the bed, crying, holding her dress in her hands. How could her world be falling apart.
Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth.
Mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut-outs.
Speak no feeling, no I dont believe you.
You don't care a bit. You don't care a bit.
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School continued to go on in Tree Hill, with a few absentees. The lives of 5 people had been broken in more ways than one. School just didn't seem important at that moment. Each of them wanted to move on, and get past these next few days, because they knew that they would be the hardest. Tree Hill had been changed for them, and there was no way of turning back.
You don't care a bit.
You don't care a bit.
You don't care a bit.
You don't care a bit.
You don't care a bit.
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Song is "Hide and Seek" by Imogen Heap