Chapter 27
The streets are dark, my pulse is flat-lined
as I'm running to you
You sit completely unaware of what I'm about to do
The air is thick with tension much like when we are together
My fangs are aching as I'm pondering about you and I forever
Brooke woke up to find Peyton still sleeping. She was so glad to finally have her friend back. Although it would probably never be like it used to be, she hoped that their friendship would last this time around. She didn't want to think about the pain, but that's all the flooded her brain. She got up and got dressed. She had to speak to Lucas. She just had to.
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Lucas and Nathan were released early that morning. Lucas went home, and Nathan went to his parents' beach house, knowing that Haley probably didn't want to talk to him just yet. Lucas was awoken by a knock at the door. He slowly got up and headed toward the door.
"Hey" Brooke sad sadly
"Now's not the time Brooke" he said coldly
"Please Lucas"
"There's nothing you can say"
"I love you Lucas, and I know you have no reason to believe it but…."
"Brooke" he interrupted her "I need some time"
She paused, there was nothing she could say. Her heart ached for the man in front of her, but too much shit had formed a barrier. She realized that what she had done could have ruined her life. She looked at him, with tears in her eyes.
"This may be hard for you, but its 100 times worse for me" he said before closing the door. They both leaned against it, one on each side.
"I love you" they both said before she walked away wiping tears from her eyes.
As I round your corner
I am nervous that you won't be my lover
I knock three times and hope that my pale complexion won't blow my cover
You answer the door with your innocent face
Would you like to leave this human race, tonight?
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Eternity will never be enough for me
and eternally will live our infallible love
"knock knock" Haley said before entering Lucas' room.
"Hey Hales" and they ran toward each other and hugged. They stood there, embraced in each other's arms, trying to forget the rest of the world.
"So, how was jail?" she joked
"awesome. I got to wear orange, and they fed me this awesome soupy stuff. It was basically the best night of my life" he said sarcastically
"Well maybe if we would stop hitting people"
"So not my fault" she jumped in
"I know I know…let's not get into it, okay?"
"sounds good to me" she said "so what do you want to do today"
"I don't know. Brooke was just here"
"Oh" she said a little disappointed. She was not so ready to talk to her.
"No I'm not saying I want to go be with her, because actually I'm not ready to go there yet" he admitted "Yeah she slept with other guys, including Chris Keller, but this….this….I just don't know where to go from here"
"well then let's not" she added "let's go do something"
"How do you do it?"
"Do what?"
"Be so happy, like nothing happened?" he asked, so confused that she was not acting that hurt
"Lucas, I'm not happy." her facial expressions changed. "I'm not happy at all. I'm sad, and hurt, and depressed. But I have to go on living because if I don't, I might just die" she responded before breaking out in tears.
"oh Haley" he said walking toward her again and wrapping his arms around her " I'm so sorry"
She cried. "What are we going to do Luke, what are we going to do?"
My brain is pumping an unusual secretion of lust
Your eyes are softer now
and your chin, it drips a bloody color of rust
I am raising up the stakes of this round, I am playing for keeps
Oh, would you like to leave this human race, tonight?
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Brooke walked to her next destination, one she knew needed to happen, but didn't want it to occur. She knocked on the door, hoping that no one would answer. Nathan opened the door.
"I don't think this is a good idea" he said seeing her in the doorway.
"Nathan, we need to talk, and besides, we're at your beach house. No one will see us" she said before sliding past him into the house. He disgustedly shut the door and followed her to the kitchen.
"Brooke, there's nothing we can say, or do that's going to make this better"
"First off, let's not get mad at each other. If we're going to make it through this, we need to remain friends."
"Do you think that's possible?" he asked, all hope in him had left
"Of course. Nathan, we will get passed this. Its going to take some time, though"
"How do you know?"
"I just do"
"How?" he asked, confused as to why she was all of a sudden so certain things would be okay
"Because I need them to okay?" she shouted "I need things to work out. I need Lucas to forgive me so we can have this baby. I need Haley to forgive me so she can help through this Leukemia. Call me selfish, hell call me a fucking bitch, but I know this will work out because I need it to" she yelled as a few tears trickled down the side of her face. He paused, not knowing what to say. They had screwed up, and they couldn't take it back. But this girl in front of him, his accomplice in this whole mess, was being selfish, but in a way, hopeful. She believed it had to work out, and as she stood there, she convinced him too. This thing would work out, it had to.
Eternity will never be enough for me
and eternally will live our infallible love
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Follow me into the sea
We'll drown together and immortalize you and me
Leave behind this lonely town
We're both better than this, it's not worth being down
"I figured I'd find you two here" Peyton said as she walked into the café. This was the place Haley and Lucas always went when things got rough.
"Damn" he said "we tried to be secretive" he smiled
"Well, I guess I'm just a good detective." she smiled back. She walked over and hugged both Haley and Lucas. "So I see you two are hiding from the world" she said pointing toward the closed sign on the door.
"Well the world has us hiding" Lucas responded
"I know it sucks right now, but do you honestly believe that either one of them loves the other. Because I don't" she continued, not letting either of them interrupt her "I believe Nathan loves you Haley and Brooke loves you Luke. They made a mistake, that's all that was. Lucas, do you remember a time not so long ago when we did the same thing. We realized it was a mistake and wanted nothing more than for those around us to forgive us. I'm sure that's exactly what Brooke and Nathan want."
"Just because that's what they want, doesn't mean they deserve it" Haley jumped in
"No it doesn't, but Ellie told me to live life without regrets. I think if you two don't forgive them, you will have a regret. You will regret not knowing what life would be like with them in it. People make mistakes…"
"Why are you standing up for them?" Lucas interrupted her. He had been listening to what she was saying, but was a little confused as to why she was on their side.
"I'm not standing up for them or saying what they did is okay. I'm just saying that I know what it's like to want forgiveness. I just want to help" she finished.
"But how? How do we forgive them? What they did is not okay and…..and…..I just don't know how we get passed it" Haley mumbled
"I know its going to be hard. But it has to be done sooner or later. And wouldn't you rather do it sooner?" Peyton asked
"Yes" Lucas blurted out, catching all of them off guard.
"Lucas" Haley asked
"No I mean it. Yes what they did was awful, but I still love Brooke. And I cant see my life without her. She may have caused me pain, but she makes me laugh, and she makes me smile. So what if its going to be hard, I'm up to the challenge. I want her in my life Hales, and I know you want Nathan. Look deep inside Hales, tell me what your heart says" he paused, hoping his friend would realize it too.
"It's true, I love Nathan, but how do you just forgive someone Luke"
"I don't know Hales, but we have to. Just like you said, we have to go on living, or we might die" he said trying to get her to smile. It would be rough, but both of them knew, it would be worth it. Because deep down, they still loved them, and this incident wouldn't change that.
Eternity will never be enough for me
and eternally will live our infallible love
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song is "this is for keeps" by the spill canvas