Chapter 28
It's been a long year Since we last spoke How's your halo? Just between you and I
Brooke was sitting on the bed, tying her shoes, when Peyton walked in.
"You have a visitor"
"Who?" she asked
Just then Lucas appeared around the corner.
"I'll leave you two alone" Peyton said before disappearing down the stairs.
"Hey" Brooke said, not really knowing what else to say
"Hey" he continued to stand in the doorway.
"You can come in you know, I'm not gonna bite" she tried to ease the tension. It kind of worked because he walked in a little further. After realizing he probably wasn't going to get any closer she continued "so I thought you needed space"
"I don't know what I want"
"Oh"
"I mean I wanted a girlfriend who loved me and only me but I guess you don't always get what you want"
"Lucas"
"sorry, guess I still had some anger left in me"
"And that's fine Luke, you have every right to be angry. I messed up Lucas, and I don't know what else to say or do to prove that to you."
"I don't think there is anything else you can do Brooke"
"I love you Lucas"
"I know you do Brooke, but that's not the problem."
"I feel like we've switched places or something. I mean just a little ago it was you telling me you loved me and I was the one say that that wasn't the problem."
"Shit happens"
You and me and the satellites I never believed you I only wanted to Before all of this What did I miss? Do you ever get homesick?
"Lucas I'm trying, I really am." she began to cry "I was scared okay, do you want me to say that. Brooke Davis was scared. I just got out of the hospital because I drank so much because I felt depressed. Anyways, Nathan came over because Haley had just told him about her being pregnant. We had a few drinks and things progressed from there. It was nothing emotional, no love included. It was completely physical, powered by alcohol. And I'm not trying to make excuses but I thought you should know the truth."
"But you kept it from me for so long"
"That's because I was scared Luke. I mean we had just began getting serious again and I didn't want to lose you. You were always there for me and I knew I couldn't always be there for you and I was scared. I didn't want to be pregnant at 18 and I didn't want to have Leukemia" she was crying hard now "Lucas I have never felt like this before. The way I feel safe when you kiss me. It's like the rest of the world froze when we were together. The way you held me in the hospital. Lucas, you are the one for me, and I cant picture my life without you. I don't know what else to say Luke but I'm sorry and I promise, if I'm given a second chance, I'll never do it again." she stopped to catch her breath. These emotional speeches she had been giving lately caused her to become exhausted more often. She couldn't look at him anymore. It was just too hard to see him and not be able to be with him. "and I understand that you need time and that's fine. But I will wait for you Luke. I will be here to prove to you that I am the one for you. So take the time you need, because I'm not going anywhere"
"I love you" he said. She looked up at him. She could see something in his eyes that she's never seen before. "and I forgive you pretty girl" he said, smirking a little. She didn't know what to say. She expected him to let her in eventually, but she didn't believe in a million years that he would forgive her now. "you're the one for me too Brooke Davis, and I know we've both hurt each other a lot in our past, but I believe in us. I believe that we can make it, because I too have never felt this way." she ran towards him, with all the energy she had left and fell into his arms. She allowed him to hold her tight and then kiss her allover.
"I'm so sorry Luke"
"I know Brooke, I know"
"Everything's gonna be okay, right?"
"Everything's gonna be fine" he stated, holding his love in his arms.
I can't get used to it I can't get used to it I'll never get used to it I'll never get used to it
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I'm under that night I'm under those same stars We're in a red car You asleep at my side
"Nathan" Haley called into the beach house
"On the deck" he shouted, not knowing who it was
She ran back to him, not really knowing what she was doing. As soon as he saw it was her, he immediately shot up.
"Haley, what are you doing here? I mean I'm so glad to see you" he stammered
"I'm not exactly sure" she stated truthfully
"Well while you're here I need you to listen to me."
"that I will do" she said
"okay, first off, I'm so sorry."
"I know Nathan"
"I love you with all my heart and soul. Always and forever" he added "I messed up Haley, and I cant take it back. But you need to understand that it meant nothing to me. Nothing at all. It just happened. Bad things happen Haley, but there's always a silver lining. I'm not saying that you need to forgive me for what I've done, because it's not right. All I'm saying is to give me another chance. I gave you one" he added, later wishing he wouldn't have.
"For what?" she asked, now getting a little upset with him.
"For kissing Chris and leaving me to go on tour with him" he shot back
"I can't believe you're throwing that back in my face." she cried a little now
"see Haley we both made mistakes, but we can get through them"
"Nathan, I came over here, not really knowing what was going to happen. I wanted to believe you were sincerely in love with me and no one else" he tried to interrupt but she kept going "and I know you are, but you brought up something I did like it cancelled out what you did, and I'm sorry but it doesn't work that way. This will take time Nathan, and right now I don't really know what else to say. You hurt me really bad Nathan, and bringing up Chris just made it worse. I need some time, so I think you living in the beach house for a little is the best thing right now" she said turning to leave. She wanted to believe that everything was going to be okay, just like Lucas had said. But he had let her down. For some reason, he hadn't said the right things, and that crushed her.
"Please don't go Haley"
"I have to" she said and turned around and left
Going in and out of the headlights Could I have saved you? Would that've betrayed you? I wanna burn this film You alone with those pills What you couldn't do I will
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"Brooke" Lucas said as they were lying in bed
"Yeah" she said, not looking at him
"I love you"
"I love you too" she now looked up at him, hearing that there was something else he wanted to say
"No, Brooke. I love you. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. You challenge me to be a better person. You make me laugh, and you make me cry" he chuckled "but most of all, you make me feel. Brooke Davis, will you marry me?"
"What?" she said surprised
"I love you Brooke, will you love me forever?" he asked
"Of course I will Lucas, but are you sure getting married is what we need right now?"
I forgive you I'll forgive you I'll forgive you I forgive you
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Peyton walked into the apartment, knowing that Lucas and Brooke needed to be alone, and Haley probably could use somebody. When she found the apartment empty, she decided to wait until she got home. A few minutes later, Haley walked in.
"Peyton" she said shocked
"Hey sorry, I just didn't know where else to go and I figured you could use a friend so I….." she was interrupted as Haley walked over to her and cried on her shoulder.
"I don't know what to do anymore Peyton. I tried being strong, but I just cant anymore. How can I love someone this much and yet hurt so bad" she cried. Hearts were beginning to mend in Tree Hill, some quicker than others. But most of all, they were healing.
For blue, blue skies For blue, blue skies For blue, blue skies For blue, blue skies I'll forgive you
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