Chapter 29

Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by

Peyton had spent the night at Haley's, making sure she had someone to lean on in case she woke up. Lucas spent the night with Brooke, and Nathan spent the night by himself. Today was May 5, one month exactly from graduation day. Tree Hill had a while to go to mend their broken hearts before they left forever.

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School was rather quiet today. Nathan and Haley didn't speak to each other in European History. Lucas and Nathan didn't talk to each other in Chemistry. Peyton half attempted to talk to Nathan in PE, but figured it wouldn't be wise with Brooke there. Nathan and Brooke tried to make a pact to remain friends, but the truth was, it was awkward, and too hard for everyone around them. The only people talking were Lucas, Peyton, and Brooke; which was rather odd considering their history.

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,

"Peyton wait up" Brooke called as the bell after PE rang

"What is it?" she asked turning around

"I have something I need to tell you"

"Oh God, not more bad news" she dreaded

"No no, it's good news. I think"

"Oh, then what is it?"

"Lucas asked me to marry him"

"What?" she didn't know what to think. She was happy for her friends, but at the same time, she still couldn't repress her feelings for Lucas.

"Yeah. Last night"

"What did you say?" she asked, not knowing which answer she wanted to hear

"I didn't give him an answer. I don't know what to say to him. I mean yeah I love him, I always will. But marriage, that's a big deal."

"I know. I cant believe it"

"Yeah me neither. Its all a little surreal."

"I'd say so" Peyton agreed. She had a few things she needed to do, sorting out her feelings topping the list.

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"Lucas" Haley said as she passed kids in the hallway to get to him

"Hey Hales" he said giving her a big hug

"Do you want to get out of here?" she asked hoping he would agree

"Haley James skipping class, who would have guessed" he said sarcastically

"I just cant take it anymore"

"I cant I'm meeting Brooke after school"

"Lucas"

"Haley, I've forgiven her. And I'm sorry if that upsets you but I cant help it. I'm completely in love with her"

"Lucas, she will ruin your life. She's not trustworthy, and she's always going to be crazy Brooke Davis, and there's nothing you can do about that."

"I know you're hurting right now Hales"

"That is so not the point Luke"

"I've asked her to marry me"

"WHAT?" she screamed "are you insane?"

"No I'm not Haley"

"Lucas you are rushing into things just because you were hurt and that's not being sane"

"Haley you are being ridiculous right now" people had begun to gather around and stare at the two. They were hollering and had caused a scene

"I'm being ridiculous, you just proposed"

"and you're already married, so how is this any different"

"You know what Luke, I may have had higher expectations of you, and you may think that's unfair, but next time you see me, don't talk to me" and she stormed away, leaving the gawking and staring of the other students to stare at Lucas as his best friend walked away from him.

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

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That evening, Haley couldn't take the tension anymore. Something had to be done. She drove as fast as she could to Peyton's house. She was sick of all of this. This one person had caused her so much pain these past few days that she couldn't take it anymore. She had taken everyone Haley cared about, and now she had no one. She didn't wait for someone to answer the door. She stormed up the stairs to find Brooke sitting on the bed.

"Haley I'm so glad you're here…" she was interrupted by Haley's hand coming across her face. It was the second time Haley had smacked her since the whole incident had been told.

"You stupid bitch. Stay away from me and the people I care about. You ruined my life Brooke Davis and I will never forgive you." and she had left as soon as she had arrived. Brooke didn't know how to react. She did the only thing she knew how to do lately, and that was cry. She couldn't blame Haley really, she just hoped that it would have been as simple as it was for Lucas to forgive her. She now realized that it wasn't going to be like that at all. And she wondered why? Had Lucas really forgiven her, and was the proposal just a way for him to call her his own? These questions flooded her mind. Something just didn't seem right.

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I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right

Peyton sat on her back porch, unbeknownst to her that Haley had come and gone. She sat there holding a picture of her and Lucas together. It had been a summer night. They were sitting in her car, listening to The Cranberries. They decided to take a picture to remind them of that night. Nothing had happened, but they wanted to remember that night, when everything was peaceful, and they were both happy. She allowed a few tears to fall down her face. Did she still love Lucas? No! That was impossible. She loved Jake. Underneath the picture of them, was a picture of Brooke and Peyton. They were lying on her bed, laughing hysterically at something she couldn't remember. She loved Brooke to death, and she couldn't imagine her life without her. The last picture she was holding was of her, Jake and Jenny. As soon as she saw the picture, she knew that Jake was the one for her. She just knew. At this very moment, Peyton Sawyer let go of her feelings for Lucas Scott. They would remain friends, but nothing more.

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

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And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time

There was a knock at the door and Nathan hurried to answer it. He hadn't had many visitors so any that he got, he was happy to see. He opened it to fine Haley standing in the doorway. She immediately jumped on him and began kissing him all over. He knew something was up, and that this wasn't right, but he didn't care. She was kissing him. He began kissing her back and he carried her to the bedroom, kissing the whole way there. They fell onto the bed, neither of them saying a word. That night, even though their hearts were still broken, Nathan and Haley had sex. And to them, that was enough.

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

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"Hey Brooke" Lucas said as he opened the door to find her standing in the doorway.

"Lucas" she said as she walked in. She gave him a kiss and then sat on the bed.

"So what's up"

"Haley came over"

"Ouch" he said "I'm guessing that didn't go well"

"My face still kind of hurts"

"I'm sorry Brooke. If it makes you feel better, we had a huge fight today in school. She's just still a little upset Brooke, but trust me, Haley cant stay mad for long."

"It doesn't make e feel better. I feel like I caused it"

"No Brooke, don't feel that way."

"Lucas I feel like we rushed things. I mean I wanted you to forgive me more than anything. But I feel like you didn't even think about it. And then you asked me to marry you. I just don't know anymore Luke"

"What exactly did Haley say to you?" he asked with confusion. Why was Brooke trying to pull away again?

"Nothing. I've just been thinking about it and I think we need to take it slow for a while"

"Slow?"

"yeah, I think it's the best thing."

"What exactly does that mean?"

"Well, first of all, it means no wedding" she sighed "and secondly" she added, but before she could say another word Lucas kissed her. As their lips were touching, she couldn't help but forget all the words she wanted to say. Who the hell cared if they were rushing things. They were in love, and that's all that mattered. They just hoped that the rest of Tree Hill would find love again as well.

And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star

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Enjoy! the song is "Goodbye to you" by Michelle Branch