Chapter 34
I need a sign to let me know you're here
All of these lines are being crossed over the atmosphere
I need to know that things are gonna look up
'Cause I feel us drowning in a sea spilled from a cup
Brooke was so anxious for school to be over that day, she couldn't wait for Lucas to get home. She hated being cooped up by herself, it was no fun at all. 3 o'clock rolled around and still no Lucas. She was starting to get a little worried when she finally heard the door open.
"Hey there boyfriend. I missed you" she said as she hobbled over to him and gave him a kiss.
"Sorry, I had to help Peyton with something"
"and what would that be"
"cant say"
"why not" its not like she was getting suspicious or anything, but him and Peyton keeping secrets was never a good thing
"because I promised" he said giving her a smirk "you have nothing to worry about ok?"
She stared at him, hoping he was right. She wanted more than anything to be able to trust him completely, but him and Peyton would always be there. It just was, and there was nothing she could do about that.
He kissed her. "I know" she finally spit out.
"so what have you been up to today?" he asked, hoping to change the subject
"nothing, that's why I couldn't wait for you to get home. I'm bored Luke, and sick of being inside"
"Well then follow me" he reached his hand out in an attempt for her to place her own in his. This was when she realized she couldn't exactly do that on crutches so he decided just to walk ahead of her as she followed along on her crutches. He took her outside and into his car.
"where are we going?" she asked
"anywhere you want to"
She smiled. How could one person make her so happy, yet she could never trust completely.
"Paris?" she asked and giggled
"if that's where you want to go Brooke Davis. We will go there. Someday" she leaned over and kissed him.
"let's just drive and see where that takes us" she finally said
"sounds good" as he took her hand in his and brought it to his lips to kiss it before placing it on his lap.
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When there is no place safe and no safe place to put my head
When you feel the world shake from the words that are said
"thank you" Jake said before hanging up the phone and looking at Peyton
"what is it?" she asked noticing the look in his eyes
"Nikki's in jail"
"what?"
"yeah, apparently she got caught driving drunk or something and they want me to go down there"
"oh" she said, knowing this day would come
"but" he said moving closer to her and holding her in his arms "I'm only going down there to get Jenny. They told me that I can keep her, and that there would be no more trial or anything like that." he stopped and looked in her eyes "its over Peyton. I won"
"That's great" she said giving him a kiss
"so when do you want to leave?" he asked
"what?"
"I promised you I would never leave you again, so living up to my promise, you're coming with me of course"
"oh right" she said and smiled. She loved Jake with all her heart. She couldn't believe she ever risked her friendship with Brooke over a guy she never loved like this. Yeah, she had feelings for Lucas, but none like this. "then let's get going" she said as she grabbed her keys and headed downstairs to go get another big part of her life.
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-6 days later-
And I'm calling all angels
I'm calling all you angels
"I'm nervous Luke"
"I know you are" he said, trying to reassure Brooke that this was the right thing to do
"I don't want to do it anymore" she hesitated
"You need to Brooke. For yourself, for your friends, for me" he said kissing her forehead. He was right. She needed to do this and get past her fears. But this was all so new to her, and there wasn't even a guarantee that it would fix her. But she needed to try, to fight, and that's what kept her going.
"I know. I'll be fine once we get there" she said trying to reassure herself. They drove to the hospital together of course, Brooke's hand tightly wrapped in his. She still had to use her crutches since it would take at least another weak before anything would heal. When they arrived, they sat in the waiting room, just sitting and waiting to begin on this dark road ahead, the road to recovery. They both knew it wasn't going to be easy, but they had each other, and that's what mattered.
"Ms. Davis, we're ready to see you" the nurse called. They both rose to their feet and stumbled their way to the room. "okay so today you are going to begin chemo" the nurse stated
"yup" Brooke said, trying to be as strong as she could.
"well the doctor will be in shortly to go over everything with you."
"okay" she said as the nurse left.
I won't give up if you dont give up
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I need a sign to let me know you're here
'Cause my TV set just keeps it all from being clear
I want a reason for the way things have to be
I need a hand to help build up some kind of hope inside of me
It had begun to rain in Tree Hill. Nathan and Haley sat on their front porch, staring as the drops hit the white railing in front of them. They both looked at each other and smiled.
"Do you want to go inside?" he asked
"You read my mind" she said following him indoors.
They were already kissing before they even entered the bedroom. They fell onto the bed and continued.
"I want to try again" Nathan said
"what?"
"I want to try again" he repeated
"try what?" she asked, confused and shocked he had stopped what they were doing to talk
"I want to try and have another baby"
"what?" she screamed, now sitting up
"I want to have another baby Haley"
"why?"
"Is that even a question"
"a pretty damn good one if you ask me. What in hell would possess you to want to have a baby. Right now, before we go off to college"
"I don't really know Haley, its just what I feel. I feel guilty with everything that has happened lately, and I feel horrible about what happened the first time." he said "I want you to be happy and know that you are going to be an awesome mother." he said smiling at her
"that's fine Nathan, but we don't need to have a kid now, not before college"
"why not?"
"cause its not normal"
"since when have you cared about being normal" he asked her
"I don't, but…"
"Haley there's nothing wrong with it"
"we don't have the money right now to support a kid and go to college. Lets be reasonable here. We haven't even decided which college we're going to go to, let alone if we're going to the same one. These are the things we need to talk about first, and then we can talk about having a baby" she said, surprised that they were even having this conversation.
"I don't know why I brought it up. Forget it, it was stupid"
"Its not stupid Nathan, we need to talk more about the future."
"I know, but whenever we start to think about it and bring it up, we always get in a fight"
"Yeah I know. Whatever decision we make, its going to be hard. On one hand one of us would have to give up our dream school. On the other hand, we could go to our dreams schools, but then be separate from each other."
"So what do we do?" he asked
"Rock Paper Scissors" she smiled
"You want to decide our future by playing rock paper scissors"
"Um, yeah"
"What happens if you win" he asked
"We go to Stanford"
"what happens if I win"
"we go to Duke. And if we tie, we both go to our dream schools separately" she said
"are you sure you want to do this"
"would you rather continue to talk about the pros and cons of each situation and try to make a decision based on that."
"no not really"
"then I see no other solution" she said "now let's go" she said holding out her hands "on the count of three. One. Two. Three."
"Rock Paper Scissors Shoot" they both said in unison, their future played out by the shape their hands formed.
And I'm calling all angels
I'm calling all you angels
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Jake, Jenny and Peyton had returned to Tree Hill and settled in to their new home. Jake had built a swing in the back yard for Jenny and Peyton had painted the guest bedroom to fit the needs of a little girl.
"this is gonna work right?" he said one night at dinner "us, being a family"
"I have never been happier. So that feeling in itself tells me its going to" she smiled and kissed him as she cleared some of the plates away. However, when she said this, one picture flooded her mind. The boy she used to love, but in a different way. Why his picture shown right now was a mystery to her.
When children have to play inside so they don't disappear
And private eyes solve marriage lies cause we don't talk for years
And football teams are kissing Queens
and losing sight of having dreams
In a world that what we want is only what we want until it's ours
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And I'm calling all angels
I'm calling all you angels
"how did it go" Lucas asked as Brooke re-entered the room
"I guess okay" she said "I'm a little tired"
"That's perfectly normal" the doctor said following her back in the room. "you're probably gonna feel more pain at first, before it starts to get better. Headaches and nausea are also quite common. If you have any other questions feel free to call anytime" he said
"thanks" Lucas said. He rose to his feet, helping Brooke up as well. They headed out to the car. He helped her in and then got in himself. She had fallen asleep within the first 5 minutes. It was going to be a rough road ahead, he thought to himself as he looked at the sleeping beauty next to him.
Calling all you angels
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