Author's note- all the chapters are pretty short.
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This chapter strays from than the current GH storyline.
Six months later September 2007
Loving Jason was easy for Carly. It always had been. But being his wife wasn't as simple. Her emotions rollercoastered.
There were times when they laughed so hard, or the kids faces were so lit up with pure joy, that neither Jason or Carly could imagine ever not being married.
And then there were days when Carly ached to make her marriage real. Small moments when she wanted to take that step into the last place they were still divided- the bedroom.
But Jason seemed oblivious to her desires. And she told herself that was okay. Things were good. They were happy. There was nothing to complain about.
Then one afternoon Elizabeth Webber came home to Port Charles after a year of living with her sister Sarah in Europe. And she didn't come alone.
Carly was cutting through the park on the way to Kelly's when she heard Liz saying into her cell phone, "Yes, I know I have to talk to Jason. I will do it today."
Carly stalled in her tracks a few feet from them.
Liz looked over at her. The moment was fraught with tension as Carly took in the baby stroller in front of Liz.
Liz said into the phone "Kiss Cam for me. I'll call you later, Gram."
Putting on a fake smile Carly said, "Good to see you, Liz. Is this the newest Spencer? You know Lucky didn't say a thing about you being pregnant when you left town last year." Carly walked over and looked at the baby, dressed in blue. "How old is your baby?"
"Just a few months."
"He's a cutie. What's his name? Lucky Jr? Or another Lucas in the family?"
"No." Liz said shortly "Steven after my grandfather and brother. But his middle name is Sean and that is what we call him."
"Well I will be sure to send Lucky a baby gift."
Liz said, "You do that, Carly. I'll see you around."
Liz began to push the stroller away.
Carly called out, "Should I tell my husband you said hi?"
Liz turned around and said coldly "Is that your not so subtle way to tell me you and Jason got married ? I heard all about it from Emily."
"No Congrats?"
"More like I should tell Jason Good Luck."
Ignoring the dig, Carly said, with a mocking voice, "We're very happy. Thank you for asking."
"Good bye Carly."
Carly watched her go with a sinking feeling in her stomach.
JASON DIDN'T COME HOME until midnight that night. Carly had called Jake's around 10 pm and asked Coleman, "You seen my hubby?"
"Uh, sweetheart, he's here with a brunette. That nurse that used to be married to the cop. Libby?"
"Lizzy Webber."
"Right. Should I bolt down the glass wear? Are you coming down here to tear the place up?"
"Nope. In fact, don't mention I called."
Coleman said, "You got it."
Carly sat on the couch with a glass of wine, waiting. When Jason came in he looked emotionally wrecked.
Carly felt her heart tear in two as what she had feared all day was confirmed on his face.
Before Jason could say a word, Carly said "Is Elizabeth's baby yours?"
Carly sat her glass of wine on the coffee table. Jason swallowed hard. He ran a hand through his hair.
There eyes met and held.
"He could be." Jason said
Carly crossed her arms over her chest and looked away. Jason came and sat down next to her. He leaned his head back and closed his eyes.
In a ragged tear choked voice Carly said "Why didn't you tell me you slept with her?"
"We weren't married at the time."
" I know but still! I tell you everything. Why can't you share just as much with me?"
"It was just one night. She loved Lucky. I was ... I had saw Sam with Ric. It wasn't..."
Carly turned and looked at him but his eyes were still closed. "Love?"
He didn't answer. She started to sob.
"Carly, " he said in anguished voice
"Well, you always wanted a son." Carly said " A real son."
Jason sat up and met her eyes. His were filled with hurt. "Don't go there."
Carly immediately felt bad. She took a deep breath and said, "So Liz isn't sure right? Lucky could be the father?"
"Yes. She came back to have the DNA tests done."
"If you say you want Sean to be yours then I'll pray he is." Carly said, though it was killing her to have this conversation.
"I don't know what I want."
"Is that the truth? Don't try to protect my feelings. I am just your fake wife."
In a harsh voice he asked, "Since when do you call me a liar?"
"I'm not. But admit it, you want to be the father of her baby."
Jason looked down, he said "Lucky is clean now. They will probably reunite. They could be a family."
"And what about you?"
Jason raised his hands in a I don't know gesture.
Carly took his hand in hers. She ran her thumb over his knuckles. "I'm here, Jase. Right here with you through every step of this. If you want me to be? If not... I guess I can try and step back and let you deal with this alone."
"I want you with me."
Their eyes met. "Then you got me." she said
THE TESTS were done and Carly and Jason went home to wait. Emily was the one who knocked on the door with the results.
As soon as Carly opened the door she saw the answer in her eyes. Carly took a sharp breath.
Jason was shooting pool. The sound of the balls were like canons in Carly's head and they echoed.
In a hoarse voice, Carly told her "Come in."
Emily walked inside and said "Jason, I thought you would want to hear this from me rather than a doctor you don't know."
Jason put down the pool stick and walked over. Carly went and stood next to him.
"Lucky is the father." Emily said " I saw the results myself."
Jason's face fell. Carly could seen the pain spread over his whole body. She hadn't wanted the baby to be his yet now she was feeling every ounce of his pain.
"Okay." he said quietly
"I can stay if you want to talk?" Emily asked hesitantly
"No, I'm fine."
Emily nodded and left.
Jason said, "I'm going for a ride." He headed for the closet and grabbed his jacket.
Carly said, "Hey, hold up. Don't run out of here." she put her hand on his chest to stop him. Then her arms crept around his neck and held him.
He said, in a breaking voice, "Don't... okay... just not now."
She moved even closer and hugged him tighter "Yeah, now, Jase."
He stood still.
She whispered, " I know you wanted this. I know."
He let his body relax. His arms came up and wrapped around her waist. His head dropped and tears started to fall.
Carly held her husband and, surprisingly even herself, she ached for the baby he lost, without ever having, just as much as he was. Guilt coursed through her at ever having hoped Sean wasn't Jason's child.
"I'm so sorry, Jase." she said and meant every word of it.
AFTER THAT EXPERIENCE, Jason and Carly grew even closer, emotionally. Jason let down some of his guard and let her hear his thoughts about why he had wanted the baby and why had also thought it would be very complicated if he was the father.
Liz went back to Europe. Lucky joined her there so they could work on, at least, being parents together. Carly was hoping they would remarry and quick.
In the few days Liz had been in town Carly had felt like her whole relationship with Jason was slipping away, being stolen by the same dark haired nice girl who Jason danced with at Kelly's one night and made Carly so jealous she ended up Mrs. Sonny Corinthos. And if Jason wanted Liz as his wife instead of her, what could she do about it? She would have to let him go.
But now she clung to him tighter. Grateful she hadn't had to watch him make a life, a family, with another woman. She had seen that up close and personal when he was with Courtney and one time was more than enough for her.
Still the marriage wasn't real or romantic. Carly wasn't even sure she wanted to push the issue. She loved being Jason's wife but she wouldn't beg for his body. She had done that years ago and been rejected. I'm better than that now, she told herself.
So they grew closer over the months and Carly wondered, Will Jason see how good we are as a married couple? Will he want to make this a lifelong union?