Sorry for the long wait once again but I moved and with school life has been crazy
Sorry for the long wait once again but I moved and with school, life has been crazy. But as soon as I got free time I was writing. So here you are chapter 4. I'm not giving up on this story and I hope people are still reading it after having to wait so long…But alas I give you chapter 4 and I promise chapter 5 is coming soon.
I Thought You Knew- Chapter 4
"So, you decided to come to the trip then" Sango asked.
"Well, he didn't really give me a choice in the matter Sango" Rin snorted as they enter the store.
"I just don't get it" Kagome sighed. "Both of you are miserable, it doesn't make sense."
"Of course you don't get it, you've never had to question Inuyasha's feelings" Rin said.
"Be that as it may, you shouldn't be questioning Sesshomaru either especially now that you guys are having a baby". She retorted.
Rin glared.
"This is exactly why I should Kags". She said rubbing her tummy. She glanced at her friend, "So how is he really".
"He's miserable Rin." Kagome told her softly.
"You haven't spoken to him?" Sango asked surprised.
Rin only shook her head before turning toward the rack of shirts.
She hadn't spoken to him since he stood before her, dominating her tiny kitchen. True to his word, he had given her space. The first day she was fully convinced he would come back demanding she return with him. However he didn't.
By this morning she was silently wishing he would come. She missed him, even though she told herself over and over again she did the right thing, she wanted him to barge through the door just to see his face.
They were heading to Hawaii tomorrow afternoon, and she would finally meet him face to face since they're last encounter.
Three hours later Rin found herself relaxing on the sofa. Two brown suitcases sat by the front door, waiting, mocking her in light of her current situation. Almost as if they knew she was going against her better judgment. Absently she let her hand rest of her tummy and sighed.
"Do you think we'll be okay?" she asked looking at her belly.
Sorting, Rin turned to her side.
"Like you're going to answer right?" she smiled to herself.
He paced in front of her door and growled at his hesitation. Sesshomaru never hesitated… ever…yet the act of something so trifling as knocking on a door had him unnerved. He was angry, angry at both of them for the situation he found himself in, and angry at Naraku for stalling on the deal. They were set to leave tomorrow afternoon but he would have to stay behind another day to finalize the deal.
He was no fool…nobody stayed around as long as he had by being a fool. He couldn't trust her to get on the plane if he wasn't there to make it happen. But he was Sesshomaru Tashio and he made things happen one way or another. Switching things around, he and Inuyasha decided they would fly out at ten am on his jet, and Sess would use Inuyasha's private jet the following day to meet up with them.
He elected himself to tell Rin the new plans, because it was his deal. Well as long as the other's believed it his reason. He hadn't slept much during the last two nights, sleeping alone was something he hadn't done in about two and half years. Funny how two days could feel like two years all over again.
He missed her; hard as it was, he wanted… no needed to respect her desire for space. Too much rode on this trip and regardless on what he wanted, he would not give her a reason to deny him. Unfortunately all restraint was lost this morning when he woke up calling her name in his pillow. He had to see her he realized, as his arm smoothed down her unslept side of the bed.
Sesshomaru wasn't sure how he was going to do it without jeopardizing his plans, then once he reached the office Naraku gave him all the reason he needed.
Smirking, he found his reserve and knocked. Maybe he wasn't so angry at the half-breed after all.
After a minute his fist met the door again as the faint sound of thunder followed from miles away.
Rin's head turned toward the digital clock by the radio. Mrs. Parker wasn't due to come over till five but she could use the company. Rin had taken great company in her old widowed neighbor in the last couple nights. To put it mildly, it gave Rin a chance to clear Sesshomaru from her mind…even if the relief was short lived.
"Come in" she called moving to get up.
"I'm in the living room" she said walking toward the hallway to greet her guest.
Her heart stopped beating as the visitor turned the corner. Mrs. Parker was not six foot four nor, did she have amber eyes and long silver hair. Gulping, Rin stared ahead at the full demon in her living room. She was shocked yet, relieved to she him, while at the same time confused by his angry growl.
She was unaware of backing away from him until her legs backed into the side table. Losing her balance, she attempted to throw her hand out to stop herself from falling but found herself in his arms before she moved a finger.
"Sess" she whispered allowing herself to fall into the warmth his chest brought her.
"What kind of fool are you?" he spat setting her down.
All thoughts of his warmth quickly fled her thoughts as anger set in.
"A fool?" she gasped.
"I almost fell, it happens sometimes. It hardly makes me a fool" she cried out.
"And it's your fault for startling me" she added.
"Humans are clumsy by nature. I don't hold against you" was his reply, his lips thinned clearly showing anger over something still.
"I meant who calls out for someone to come in without knowledge of who the caller is?"
Shrugging Rin looked him over, he didn't seem as miserable as Kagome claimed she realized bitterly.
"Not that I owe you an explanation but I was expecting the neighbor for dinner" she sighed.
"And yet, I am not your neighbor. Therefore I state my point. You're too trusting in your nature for you're own good Rin" he growled back.
He had expected her to answer the door, expected her to be a little perturbed at his presence, he however, didn't expect for her to offer entrance to anybody. It sent chills down his back. He had been around for a long time. Made many enemies, many that wouldn't hesitate to harm her if it brought him to his knees. Just the though heightened his anger.
"I could have been anyone Rin, someone who could have hurt you." He growled out at her. "Hurt both of you" he added for measure as his eyes glazed over her flat tummy.
She just blinked at him not knowing what to say. She didn't know how to take this side of him. He seemed more uneasy then the last time they spoke.
He missed her, she wanted her to forget all of this craziness and just come home. Most of all he wanted the fear that had taken residence in his very bones to disappear. Sesshomaru Tashio was not weak. Was he?
He didn't have the answer nor did he want one.
"I am more than capable of defending myself Sess," her voice sounded shaky but her eyes were hot with warning.
"I wouldn't go down without a …."
He cursed, grabbed her, hauled her back into his arms and captured her mouth with his. It was sudden; she had no time to think, no time to do anything except let it happen…
No time to keep her lips from parting hungrily under the hard pressure of his.
When he released her lips, she stood still, heart racing, body tingling, while he watched her through narrowed amber eyes.
Cursing her body for betraying her, Rin met his gaze.
"I know that look. I know what you have in mind. And I don't want any part of it." She said.
She remained still, watching him as her mind mocked her. Liar…You want every part of it….
Sesshomaru fought the urge to test her words but held back despite the painful reminder between his legs that it had been almost four days since he last touched her.
"There has been a slight change of plans with the trip." He said. the cool mask back as if it never left.
"I'm afraid business matter still need my attention and I can't make the trip tomorrow afternoon" he began.
Disappointment set in before she could stop it.
While she had not wanted to accompany him on the trip since he first demanded it, she was looking forward to reaching a solution to their problem. This only proved to her that business would always come before everything else.
She would not let him see her disappointment. She had been right in her decision; she knew that now more than ever.
"Good," she said cutting him off.
"Now that this crazy notion of yours has come to pass, we can discuss joint custody and such after the baby is born"
If she wasn't sure he was angry before, she knew it now.
"There will be no need to discuss anything about joint custody Rin," he spat, his eyes narrowed in anger.
"That was not an option offered to you. We will raise this baby together." And before she could retort he added, "As a couple"
"But there is no need for me to go to Hawaii," she sighed.
Cold and calculating, he stood up eyeing her. All hints of his anger remaining.
"I said slight change in plans Rin, not that the trip was off. I would have clearly explained my meaning had you not interrupted."
"I must stay on another day here to conclude a deal, but the rest of you will leave on my private jet tomorrow morning. I'll follow on Inuyasha's plane once I finish." He turned toward the window.
"I won't go" she yelled out crossing her arms disobediently.
He wasn't looking at her but she knew when his shoulders lazed he was smirking. She was rewarded for her thoughts when he finally faced her, the taunting smirk present and accounted for.
"You'll be on that plane," he said with confidence.
"Don't get cocky Sesshomaru. I'm a grown woman, you can't force me on that plane." She told him.
"So then you're agreeing to come home then? Agreeing to come back to me?" he asked.
"I can't Sess." She whispered.
She wanted too… but it be their downfall. Hurting each other was bad enough. She couldn't….wouldn't let it hurt their child.
He closed his eyes, willing his anger to dissolve. He would gladly trade this trip for things to be normal again. But she failed to see his love. She threw it back in his face. That was unacceptable.
With a vengeance his amber eyes flew open and settled their harsh gaze on the woman who held his heart, soul, and child in that beautiful body of hers.
"Rin, I have explained the terms. You either give me the chance to prove your arguments wrong, and should I fail, we settle on your terms." He paused before continuing.
"Or you remain by my side."
"I'm not getting on that plane. You will get to Hawaii and I won't be there." She warned.
"I have already thought of that. This is why I will be escorting you to the plane."
Her surprised expression only helped widen his smug look of triumph.
"I need not worry of any mishaps; after all I handle all jobs of importance personally."
Jobs? She was a job to him.
Rin knotted her hands.
"Is there anything you won't do to get your own way?"
"A Win-Win," he shrugged.
"Our future is not some business deal. If you think for one minute that things will ever be the same between us again…"
He was by her side in an instant. He wouldn't let her finish that sentence. They were meant to be together and she would soon see it too.
Gathering her against him, he kissed her.
She struggled. Fought. But his kiss was deep and all consuming and in a heartbeat, she was kissing him back.
She missed him. God help her she did. Loved him with everything she had, but it wasn't enough if he didn't return the favor. His touch momentarily, along with her heavy racing heart clouded her anger.
The only way she could keep from falling was to clutch his jacket, rise on her toes, cling to him and cling to him until he let go of her.
It took a minute for her to catch her breath. By then he was already headed for the front door.
"Nine o'clock, Rin" he said over his shoulder.
"And be prompt. I don't have time to waste."
And it was business again. After a kiss like that, how could he?
"You pompous, arrogant," she shouted.
Blindly she snatched a photo frame from the side table and flung it. Without any real effort he leaned to the left. It shattered against the wall an inch from his head but he didn't turn around. If he had…
If he had, he thought grimly as he yanked the door open, god only knew what he'd have done.
There was a limit to how much of a woman's anger a man had to take before he said things he would later regret.
After all he'd seen it too many times with his idiotic brother.
Halfway to his car, he took out his cell phone and called Naraku's office.
"This is Sesshomaru Tashio. Get Naraku on the line" he said harshly, aware and not giving a damn that this was exactly the kind of superiority Rin had accused him of days before with the title comments.
He listened for a minute as Naraku came on the line. "I made the arrangements, tomorrow works for me" he said.
He listened again as he discussed concepts, and then made an impatient sound.
"Naraku, rules and regulation on your company are your concern, not mine. Find a way around them, make the necessary arrangements as I have. Send a report, the paperwork, whatever is necessary to close this deal, to my office. No, not as soon as you can. Tonight."
Snapping his phone shut, he reached for the door handle as the rain began to fall. Sesshomaru looked up to the sky and wondered if it was trying to tell him something. If he was lucky maybe it could wash away his anger.
Rin wasn't the only one who was furious. He was too.
At her. At himself. At how easily she could make him lose grip on logic and self control, the very qualities that helped him conquer demons of the old days, and build what she so disapprovingly referred to as his kingdom.
He knew others who lived on the generosity of those impressed by a useless title.
Not Sesshomaru Tashio.
He had worked hard for all he had; even though Rin made it clear she didn't think business mattered.
Maybe she had a point. After all she was the most important thing to him, yet he postponed his chance to win her affections for what?
To gain Naraku's company for a merger. For more money? He was already rich enough. Ridiculous. He wanted it yes, but enough to risk the family he loved?
Sure he never said the words to her, but he showed her. Well, as much as he could.
If she had just hinted to a problem, he'd have seen all this sooner. But she didn't…She hid it from him and she hid the fact of her possibly being pregnant as well.
Had she included him, things would have never gotten this far. But Rin had forced an argument. Her anger fueled his and he'd let her squeeze control of the situation from him when he allowed her to stay away.
She was good at that.
The only time he'd been in control in that last week of his life was the night he'd made love to her. The night before she walked out. She had been his. Heating at his touch. Yearning for his kisses. Wavering under his caresses.
Sesshomaru cursed.
Grabbing his door handle he opened the door and quickly slid in. He would come pick her up in the morning and get her on that damn plane, head straight to Naraku's office finalize the deal quick and painlessly, and do it all with time to spare.
Then he could focus on Hawaii and the wedding. He would leave Tokyo alone, but return with his wife. No matter what it took, he would show her how much he loved her. In fact he dared anyone or anything to stop him.
Taking a quick glance up at the house Sesshomaru folded his arms, sat back and smiled. He was soaked to the skin but he was happy.
Once the dishes had been done, Rin flipped off the kitchen light and headed toward her room. The two suitcases taunted her as they sat by the door making her pause in her step. Her eyes glanced toward the window she stood at for twenty minutes after he left.
Watching him stand in the rain on the phone, her heart broke at the prospect of what they had become. The day would come for them to settle and tomorrow was it. She hardly heard a word Mrs. Parker said during dinner, with the events of tomorrow morning plaguing her mind. After assuring the old woman she was fine, Rin did her best to enjoy the rest of her company. However, the woman left early claiming exhaustion, but Rin knew otherwise. Thankful for the woman's tact for not stating the obvious, Rin found herself cleaning up.
Now as she stood in the doorway of the living room she decided she would not fight him from here on out. He didn't love her, yet he thought he could show her he did. He would fail no doubt about it and if the end meant raising a child as friends, well she would let him try.
Hours later, Sesshomaru sat in his study combing through the contract. A note to his left assured him all he had to do was arrange funds to Naraku's accounts, redefine the clause of Naraku's involvement in future dealings, ask his secretary to file with the appropriate people and get on a plane. Glancing at the clock he noticed it was past midnight. He needed to sleep yet, he doubted it would come. Sighing, he opted for the couch. Somehow the bed just seemed so small.
Morning came before he knew it and by seven-ten, Sesshomaru was showered, and dressed in his black slacks and white shirt. In front of him sat his half uneaten toast, and his cup of coffee. Growling, he tossed the paper aside. He couldn't focus on none of the articles.
Sipping his coffee again, he checked his watch for what had to be the thirteenth time since he'd woken up. Not even seven thirty. Too early to pick up Rin.
Time slowly ticked by and he found himself checking the watch again and again.
Seven forty-five
Seven fifty.
Seven fifty-seven.
"Damn it," he snarled, jumping up from the couch. He could arrive at Rin's any time he damn well wanted too.
Traffic was a mad house and it was almost eight-thirty when he pulled up in front of the house. He paused outside her door, silently wondering if she would answer the door this time. When she didn't answer after he knocked, he knocked again.
She might be in the shower, getting ready for the trip. Or, knowing Rin, not getting ready.
It almost brought a grin to his face.
Whatever else she was, she was brave. He'd known no other woman who would stand up to him. And he knew darn well that the argument from yesterday was not over. The minute she opened that door and saw him, her chin would lift in that way it did when she was angry and she would tell him what he could do with this trip.
He was feeling generous today, so he'd let her rant a few minutes and then remind her of her options. The door opened bringing him out of his thoughts.
Everything he projected was wrong.
Rin's chin never lifted. No rant flew from her lips. And even at a half hour early, it was obvious she was waiting for him.
She was wearing a simple light blue sundress and matching sandals. Her hair was pulled into a bun, showing every inch of her makeup free face, but it was her misty eyes that took him by surprise.
She had been crying.
At that moment she looked clearly young, painfully vulnerable and extremely beautiful. It was enough to make him want to pull her into his arms and tell her she had nothing to fear. That he loved her that he would take care of her and their pup…
But he bit his tongue, now was not the time for such declarations. It would have to wait till they were both in Hawaii, both saying their vows in the wedding of her dreams.
He frowned at her apparent sadness, then cleared his throat.
"Well shall we?" he asked.
"Can't we just handle this in a better way?" she asked softly. "I don't think…"
The hell with it he thought as she continued.
Sesshomaru captured her mouth with his, kissed her again and again until she trembled in his arms.
Then he picked up the small suitcases near her feet and jerked his head toward the door.
"Come, Rin…You have a plane to catch." He said and headed toward the car.
For a few seconds she stood watching him walk toward his car. He kissed her again. As a matter of fact he had done a lot of kissing since yesterday.
No more of that she decided.
"Rin?" he called from the car.
Sighing she slowly descended the porch steps.
The ride to the airport proved to be more difficult then Sesshomaru expected.
"Did you eat anything?" he asked.
She shook her head no before turning her attention back toward the window.
"Are you hungry? We have time to stop if you are" he assured her, once he switched lanes he glanced back at her.
"Rin, did you hear me?" he asked her, only he was met with silence again.
"Damn it, Rin…I'm trying here." He spat
"No, I'm not hungry…" she sighed.
"What's with the silence then?" his voice calming. She was finally talking, taking it as a sign of hope; he gave a silent prayer of thanks.
"You can talk to me Rin. You know that right." He said softly.
"I tried to talk to you remember? It does no good." She answered coolly.
"Would that be the time when you thought you might be pregnant or when you decided to leave me?" he snapped back.
"Right!" She yelled
"And I'm still waiting to hear why you gave up on us so casually, as if the last two years meant nothing" he yelled back.
"I do not do anything causally"
His knuckles were white from the grip he held on the steering wheel.
"Right, walking out the way you did was something you put a lot of thought into." He retorted.
"I thought I was pregnant, in light of the situation I put every bit of thought into what was best of all of us." She defended.
"You base that statement on what exactly?"
The crease on his brow deepened as he mused.
"Oh, my feelings. Which were never considered in they way they should have been?" He added.
Her face quickly returned toward the window as the airport came into view. Both said nothing else as he slowly turned into the lot.
Rin fought to hold back the tears. How dare he claim she had not considered his feelings, they were the very reason for their situation.
Did he not think she wanted him to love her? Of course she did, more than anything. However, the fact remained he didn't. And she was not going to settle for anything less just because she was having his baby.
It wasn't until he pulled up to the private strip, and shut the car off, that he chanced a glance toward her. She eyes remained glued to the airstrip and he sighed.
"Ten minutes to take off" he said.
"I'll get your luggage, and walk you…"
"I'll walk by myself" she whispered before he could finish.
Sighing again, Sesshomaru closed his eyes. The fight on the way here set him back even further. Arguing with her now would only make it worse. He would let her have this one.
Let her walk to the plane alone if that made her feel some sort of control. He would work damage control later once they were in Hawaii.
Many times in the boardroom he had to do damage control, he would figure it out.
"Our future is not some business deal. If you think for one minute that things will ever be the same between us again…"
Her words swam from his thoughts and the grip on the wheel tightened. Here he was acting like his future happiness was some business deal. Merely tackling it head on like he would at work. Maybe she was right?
"As you wish." was all he said.
Without another word, she stepped out of the car and slowly headed toward the plane. Leaving him alone, leaning against the car with nothing to do but watch.
His eyes followed her every move as she made her way closer to the steps of the plane. It wasn't until he felt the tap on his shoulders did he dare to remove her from his sight.
"Gees, bro. I called your name five times." Inuyasha said.
He shrugged.
"Sesshomaru" Kagome said nodded hello.
"Kagome" he nodded in return.
"Where's Rin?" she asked looking into the car.
His head jerked toward his jet. "Making her way to the plane."
He didn't miss the confusion in her eyes as she glanced out toward Rin and then back to him.
Sighing, he leaned away from his car.
"We had a fight on the way here, she asked that I not accompany her to the plane, I respected her wishes." Offering a shrug he continued.
"I think she needs you. After all… what time we weren't disagreeing, we spent in silence."
Kagome quickly nodded.
"Right. Well Sango and Miroku are already on the plane, so I'll catch up to her."
Gracing him with a small smile he gave his arm a soft squeeze.
"Hang in there kay, things will work out for you both. You'll see" she said.
Quickly turning she placed a kiss on Inuyasha's cheek. "See you on the plane Yash, love you."
"Love you too." He said to her retreating form.
"Five minutes to lift off. Cutting close weren't you" Sesshomaru asked his brother.
"Yeah, well Kags had to check three times to make sure we had everything." He said leaning back on the car.
"Sure you don't want me to stay on with you. Kags would understand" he asked.
He shook his head no and once he saw Rin enter the plane with Kagome, turned back to his brother.
"It won't take long. Besides you and I both know your wife wouldn't understand." He half smirked.
"Well, I can help that's all I'm saying." He grunted.
"You did your part. Everything else is up to me" Sesshomaru eyed him.
"Keh, bastard…Alright so I'm worried about you. Shoot me." He admitted.
"While the idea of killing you sounds appealing," he smirked again, "The idea of facing Kagome afterwards is not"
Inuyasha laughed. "The great Sesshomaru afraid of a girl. Priceless."
"But seriously, how are you holding up." He asked all traces of laughter gone.
"Good enough, but no time for that the plane is taking off in about three minutes. Get going."
"Yeah, yeah. Figures you wouldn't trust me." He joked.
"I trust you far more than you think. I trust you with my life." His cold amber eyes held a look of seriousness as they stared as Inuyasha's expression.
"Sess….I…" he said
"My life sits on that plane. I want you to do everything to assure her safety till I reach Hawaii." He told him.
"As if you even needed to ask." Inuyasha replied.
With nothing more to say, Inuyasha headed toward the plane, stopping only to toss a comment over his shoulder.
"See you soon" Sesshomaru called back.
Rin barely heard a word Sango was saying as she watched him lean against his car from the window of the plane. Inuyasha just came onboard and they would be taking off in a moment.
Angry as she was at him, she missed him already. She wished now she would have let him walk her over. Too late for that now. All she could do at this moment, was watch him become smaller as the plane glided down the runway.
"I love you Sess, no matter what happens" she whispered leaning back as the plane took air.
He stood there until he no longer saw the plane before slipping into his car.
He would do whatever it took to make her see he truly loved her. He had too, because if she didn't, he would be lost.
Lost, because he loved her with all his heart. He would always love her.
Two and a half years ago, a woman punched him in his eye and left him in a rage he hardly been able to restrain. Then she helped him, talked to him all night…and then rage had changed to desire so savage it baffled him.
Then love….
And that love had grown until it was the most important thing in his life. But yet, he never told her. He was too much of an idiot…well, maybe not an idiot. Sesshomaru Tashio was no fool, but he was a coward he supposed.
Too much of a coward to admit it. After all, he had never loved anyone before. However, through the twist and turns of destiny, he found someone to love, and that love created another.
Love them, he would. Until the end of time, and beyond…
Once he met with Naraku…he would go to her and this time fear was not an option.
Well there you have it chapter 4. Hope you all like it and once again so for the delay and I'm not giving up till this story is finished. Next chapter, Hawaii here we come. But unfortunately, old boyfriends and more problems may just hinder our couple. We shall see…
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