Okay so this is my final attempt to post this here… getting super enraged with this site and how I have to keep recovering my password and my post won't load. Let's try again… for the god knows how many times.
I wanna dance
Lissa didn't speak to either Mia or me at all Sunday. Sucks because Sunday is sacred to us, it's sort of our little time to either gloat or completely ignore the previous night. But regardless it's our time together.
Monday morning we got 'hello' but that was all, not even a good morning. This wasn't the first time but each time felt just as crappy as the last, but when you live with other girls little misunderstandings are bound to happen… but true friendships bounced back. Always!
But right now I had more pressing matters; I had to return a stupid cell phone that I stupidly took by mistake. If Lissa didn't come around in the next day or so I would bring her around.
I drove to his apartment today but didn't have the guts to go up, the Hummer I saw on the parking lot was now parked here and I didn't want to see him again. I waited for half an hour or so but he didn't leave so I went to work. After work I went back and this time his car was gone so I went in. I made it to his door when I heard his sexy accented voice disagreeing with something 'Eddie' said, Mia's Eddie, he just laughed it off… but I… I felt like a deer caught in the headlights.
'Shit,' I cursed in my head. Looking for an escape as they would round the corner any second, looking for a whole to burry myself in I spotted the 'DO NOT ENTER' room, and no I was no authorized personnel but I tried the handle anyway. Thanking any entity that would listen for the unlocked door.
I listened for them to dissipate, Dimitri told them that as much he liked to sweat he definitely did not like the smell of it and was going in his apartment alone for a shower, the fact that he emphasized 'Alone' told me that his companions tried to follow.
"Alright Chris see you later," the guy Dimitri had called Eddie walked away.
"Yeah, later," and at the sound of two more doors closing I breathed a sigh of relief as I slowly opened the door, and stepped out of the electric room.
"Stalk much?" fuck, I whirled around to come face to face with Lissa's Blue-eyed god.
"What are you doing here?" I asked in a hushed voice.
"I live here," he answered in the same tone of voice while pointing to door number 6.
"Of course you do," I muttered.
"Your toy is in the shower, but I can let you in," he waved a key in front of my face.
"No, that won't be necessary, just returning this- wait? How did you know I was here?"
"Your car is out in the lot and the elevator and hallway smells of your perfume, I have a keen nose and sight," he shrugged.
"Whatever," I shook myself and moved to door 7, I couldn't linger as I didn't want to see 'him'. "You didn't see me," I told him as I made to leave.
"No so fast princess, this time I'll only keep your secret if I get something in return," he grabbed hold of my arm.
"Sorry no sloppy seconds, you had Lissa you can't have me," I pulled my arm from his grip; he seemed a bit shocked at my strength.
"Not what I meant, give me her number," he was all business now, which gave him a brooding look.
"Not a chance," my answer was quick and short.
"Thought so, give her mine than."
"Why?" I dint mean to snap like that but I NEEDED TO LEAVE.
"Because I want to see her again," he stated a fact..
"Will never happen, we don't repeat," just than noise could be heard from behind door number 7 and he did something that had me in panic… he moved towards the door of my doom.
"Okay, okay," I grabbed his arm to keep him in place. His only response was to raise his eyebrow at me.
"I'll take your number, but I can't promise you she'll call… she's not on speaking terms with me right now," damn him and his annoying way.
"Good enough, give me your phone," I handed him my phone all the while stealing glances at door number seven
"Oh and Rose?"
"Yeah," I answered without looking at him.
"Tasha is my sister, and not his girlfriend," he said handing me my phone back.
"Why are you telling me this?"
"Just 'cause," and before I could even reply he went into his apartment leaving me all alone here.
Taking one final glance at door number seven I left their building… for the last time.
This week was rough, Lissa was still doing her best to ignore us and it was starting to hurt now, yes we had our misunderstandings before but they never lasted any more than a day or two, but today is Saturday and tomorrow makes a week.
My period came yesterday so PMS was the queen in our house… and tonight we were supposed to veg out all day and night but even the wheather didn't agree today… it was surprisingly warm for a winter day.
I made my way down to the kitchen feeling like someone walking down death roll… yes dramatic but hey it's how I feel now.
"Morning," I greeted my two best friends.
"Morning Rose," Mia offered me a smile so I smiled back.
"I'm sorry," Lissa sighed.
Oh so she finally comes around.
"You should be," I snapped. Yes I wanted my friend back but I was mad now.
"Rose," Mia's voice was a warning.
"No Mia, she's right! I'm sorry I've been avoiding you guys all week but I've been so mad at you guys… I mean what's the point of those," she pointed to the fridge. "If you won't follow them… I mean you have no idea how badly I wanted to say fuck it all to hell and back and stay with him… but no, I couldn't help but think how disappointed you guys would've been with me so he excused himself to go to the bathroom and I bolted. Was gone before he came out," she wiped away a tear that had escaped her eye.
"I'm sorry too, I'll change my number first thing Monday morning," I could tell it pained Mia to say this but I also knew she would follow through with her word… Friends over dick any day.
"I'm sorry too, though I passed out so I didn't break that rule on purpose," I shrugged.
"What?" Lissa's eyes grew large with curiosity.
"We had sex for hours, he gave me multiple orgasms and I passed out," I smirked… really happy for the first time this week… I had my friend back.
"For real?" her eyes got even bigger. "That never happened to me."
"Don't feel too bad, I'm jealous too," Mia laughed.
"Only problem is that I doubt I'll ever find another like that," I sighed dejectedly.
"Eddie was great too, but next Saturday we'll find something else to gloat about," Mia tried being optimistic.
"I was thinking of giving Dennis a go, I mean he's sexy enough," Lissa surprised me.
"Seriously?" I had thought about it too but I liked the idea of the guys being total strangers I would most likely never cross paths with afterwards.
"Yeah, Mia said Lev was alright… plus blue eyes have been plaguing my sleep, I'm starting to grow bags under my eyes," can't say I knew exactly how she felt because I had had one dream with the Russian god but that was just that and if it wasn't for this talk now I had forgotten about him.
Well not completely but he wasn't the star of my dreams and thoughts of Lissa being mad at me had ruled my week.
"Dad's birthday is next Saturday, I have no idea what to get him," I said bringing the conversation to more pressing matter.
"A scarf," Mia and Lissa said at the same time. All three of us burst out laughing… I mean what do you get a man who has virtually everything?
"That man had more scarfs than New York has yellow cabs," I said.
"More like more scarfs than Tokyo has citizens," Lissa giggled.
"Okay so no scarfs, I'm keeping my gift a secret," Mia smirked.
"Whatever we give him he probably already has," the ringing of my phone interrupted what I was saying.
"Speaking of the devil," I smiled showing the girls who was calling.
"Hi daddy," I greeted.
'How's my favorite woman?'
"Better now, how was Vegas?"
'A huge success of course, I wanna see you girls at club Dhampir this weekend, it's not every day that a man turns the big 40.'
"Are you actually celebrating your birthday old man?" I giggled.
'I wanna see my girls and I can't do that at all this week as I'm on my way to Russia for the week, I'll be back some time Saturday afternoon so you girls better be there next Saturday.'
"Okay daddy, I miss you… can't you come see us before you head to Russia?" I pouted.
'Can't kiz, something went wrong there, I'm actually already sitting in the jet,' he didn't specify so I didn't ask… deep down I knew that not all his business were legal, especially if he was dealing in Russia but I loved him no matter what.
"Okay daddy, we'll see you next Saturday."
"Oh and kiz, tell the girls no gifts okay.'
"Okay daddy, whatever you say, I love you."
'I love you longer,' and he hung up.
"What did he say?" Mia asked.
"He said he's headed to Russia and won't see us until next Saturday so we better be at club Dhampir and he also said
"No presents," we said together. After all he said the same thing for the past five years.
The rest of the weekend was spent laughing and pigging out over ice-cream and chocolate, and chocolate ice-cream and chick flicks and 300 for the Spartan's abs and Troy for Brad Pitts' butt. Oh and eclipse from the twilight saga for Jacob's abs too. Who cares if he was a baby still, for him I'd be a pedophile.
The following week I had no thoughts of Lissa to chase away thoughts of a certain Russian that I wanted to take for a second test drive.
But so long as I occupied my mind with something he would stay forgotten, so I took up classes at the gym in the afternoon, and even watched the food channel to try some new dishes. Only time I had to think about him was before bed and even then I was too tired to give it too much thought.
"Hey Rose," Mia approached me on Thursday before I left for the gym.
"What's up?" I asked.
"I should ask that to you, I haven't seen you this week," she looked at me with worry.
"I gained five pounds this weekend," LIE.
"Aham sure, anyway Stan called and asked if we can dance for daddy's birthday. He said last week was weak and he wants to make sure next Saturday is the best yet," she chose to ignore my lie and for that I was thankful. She had gone through with what she had said and changed her number so no more Eddie for her but I felt deeply guilty for wanting to see Dimitri again.
"Yeah sure, its daddy's birthday so it's not like we can pick up guys anyway," a small sense of relief washed over me, yes I wanted sex but I wanted it with him. Shit… I'm in trouble! I just admitted something I had been denying for days.
"True that, see you later," she walked back to her room and I left to the gym.
Finally the time came to see daddy. Mia, Lissa and I had on matching outfits… boy shorts and a halter top that left our whole midriff bare.
"Happy birthday old man," I yelled jumping on him.
"Thank you baby girl, I think we'll have full house before 11 if people keep pouring in," his smile lit up the room.
"Ibrahim Mazur's birthday bash is the place to be seen, happy birthday dad," Lissa took my place in his arms.
"Hmm is good to see you Vasilisa," he hugged her back.
"I have hugs to give too you know," Mia pouted.
"Oh my, than give me some," Abe chuckled.
"Happy birthday dad," she laughed.
"If you Girls are ready, I'm off to start," Niko smiled.
"Let's get it started in here," Mia sang and we all laughed.
The whole wall behind the bar was a trick mirror, from the back room we could watch the people in the club… and daddy was right, we would hit full capacity early tonight. Without my conscious approval my eyes scanned the club for my imported good but he was nowhere to be seen… better this way.
"Ladies and Dawgs I'm your man DJ Nikko and if you are in here than you know how to party," he screamed into the mike and the crowd roared. Nikko knew how to work a crowd.
"Now the reason for this night is to celebrate a great man, without him we wouldn't have the hottest club in the country, its Abe's birthday bash peeps," again the crowd erupted into cheers. "But I know why the smell of testosterone is dominating tonight, give it up for my favorite girls in the world Miss Mia, Little Lissa and sweet sweet Rose," cat calls and whistles exploded louder than the background music as we made our way to the raised platforms around the club.
This isn't that type of club so it's not like we are going to do routines or anything like that, but we did get to pick guys to come up and dance with us… and it was fun as I quite enjoy being the center of attention.
Once the music starts we dance, we kind of work as the first dancers on the dance floor, and soon everyone is dancing too… some try to mimic us while others do their own thing, it's a nice high. Looking down at the crowd around me for a suitable dance partner I chose one, leaning down I stretched my arm out towards him for him to climb up and dance with me. The next series of events happened so fast I barely had time to process what was happening before all hell broke loose.
Instead of helping the guy up onto the platform someone else tugged me down from my place landing me hard on my feet, harder still was the hit against my cheek that sent me crashing down on my ass. Tears clouded my vision and as I blinked them away I could clearly see a fight, Lissa and Mia were now on my side helping me up to my feet.
When the lights went up and the music turned down Dennis and Lev had broken up the fight and to my surprise Dimitri was on one side and Mason was on the other.
Apparently I had just entered the twilight zone.
"Outside. Now!" Abe's voice needed no microphone.
As I followed the commotion out the back doors I could vaguely hear Nikko trying to get the party back on, and honestly he didn't seem to be having much trouble as the music kicked back up and the lights went back down.
"What gives you the right to come into my club, on my birthday and lay a hand on my daughter?" Abe was furious.
"Wait? You hit me?" I mean I knew Mason since we were kids, he would never.
"It's what you deserve for being such a whor-
But before he could finish what he was saying Dimitri's fist connected once again with his face and no one bothered to hold him back this time.
"Don't finish that sentence," Abe seethed.
"Call off your hounds' old man," Mason seemed to have a lot of guts being he was bloodied and bruised and being held back by Lev.
"Girls go back inside," his tone of voice left no room for argument.
"Dennis go make sure Rose puts some ice on her cheek before it bruises," we obeyed and left them outside. I just hoped that one of the illegal businesses my father dealt in wasn't murder; Mason was so not worth the time in jail.
Being in no mood for partying anymore I went straight to back room, leaving the girls to mingle and party. Once in solitude with a bag of ice pressed to my cheek the dam broke and the tears spilled down my face. Was it possible that after all these years I wasn't over what he had done to me? I don't love him anymore! that I know! But I thought I was over it, but seeing him brought it all back. No, unfortunately I wasn't over it and my heart wasn't healed.
This moment was my perfect example that just because you conceal it in your heart doesn't mean you are over it. Not wanting any of the speculation that was sure to follow I slipped out of an emergency exit peeking around the corner to make sure they weren't still outside. No one in sight I slipped out, heading towards my car… each step I took felt heavier and heavier as millions of thoughts bombarded me. Not over it. Not over being betrayed by my own mother. Once again my heart shattered as a sob raked through my body making my knees buckle sending me crashing down for the second time this evening. Only this time it onto hard concrete that bit into my skin, but the pain on my knees and hands was a whisper compared to the pain in my chest.
The lot was empty as it was too early for the club to let out, and honestly right about now I couldn't care less if anyone saw me… so long as no one that knew me saw me.
I was weak and couldn't find the strength in me to get back up, my car was maybe two feet away.
"Get up Rose," I said to myself. Strong arms lifted me clean off the floor without a word, looking up I locked eyes with none other than my Russian god. Not able to form words I wrapped my arms around his neck and bawled.
"It's alright now, I'll make it all better," his voice soothed me, and I'll be damned but I wanted him to keep his word… I wanted nothing more than to let him make it all better… even if only for tonight. Tomorrow I would deal with this on my own, tomorrow I will forget Dimitri and all man alike. Bu not tonight, tomorrow.