The first thing Santana thought of was how soft Brittany's lips were, the second was that Brittany had not kissed her back, instead she was almost frozen against her.
Pulling back, Santana began to panic, "oh shit Brittany, I'm so sorry, I'm such an idiot," she fumbled moving back further, not meeting Brittany's eye, "I don't know why I just did that, I'm so sorry, shit, you're not even into girls and you were just talking about your mum and I felt really emotional and just, shit, I'm such an idiot," she rambled putting her head in her hands.
She felt a hand tug at her wrist but she ignored it, "hey, look at me, look at me," Brittany repeated softly, she didn't sound mad or upset so Santana chanced a peek at her, Brittany's face was close to hers and she traced all her freckles before she met her eyes, "you are not an idiot, don't ever say that. You just took me by surprise that's all, it took a while for my brain to engage what was happening," she laughed "I'm the one that should be saying sorry because I'm the one who totally just ruined our first kiss," she replied.
"You're not mad?" Santana asked
"Only at myself for not kissing you back," she smiled, "so do you want to try again and I promise I'll kiss you back this time?"
Giggling Santana lent forward but stopped just before their lips attached, "wait, are you sure? Is this not confusing for you? Kissing a girl?"
"I've kissed girls before San," Brittany replied before leaning back in.
"Wait! You have? When? How many?" Santana fired her questions.
Brittany rolled her eyes, "yes, I have, it's not a big deal San, now will you just kiss me?"
"But I don't understand."
Sensing Santana's stress levels rising, Brittany pulled back and took hold of one of Santana's hands bringing it into her lap; she stroked her thumb softly, trying to sooth her.
"I like people," she began to explain, seeing Santana's forehead scrunch up she chuckled and continued, "I'm attracted to both boys and girls, I don't see gender, I see the person," she continued, seeing the realization on Santana's face. "So I've kissed boys and girls, I've had boyfriends and girlfriends, but obviously not at the same time" she joked, trying to lighten the situation.
"Wow, ok, but do you have a preference?" Santana seemed intrigued
"No, as I say it's all about the person, so can you please kiss me now," Brittany groaned leaning in.
Santana giggled, leaning back, "I just have one more question,"
"Ok, shoot," Brittany hurried, letting her fingers trickle up Santana's arm.
"Do like, other people know? Like people at your school? Your dad?" Santana asked
"I've always been pretty open about it, I mean I first kissed a girl at the age of 6, so everyone just sort of accepted it, thought nothing of it, my dad was cool about it when I told him when I was 11 I think, he said he supported me as long as I was happy, I got teased a little bit at school but I've got great friends who just know me as Brittany and it's not an issue.'
"Just like that?"
"I'm sure that's another question San," Brittany teased.
"Sorry, I'm just interested that's all, I'm trying to understand."
Lifting Santana's chin up with her hand, Brittany brought their faces level, she held them there until Santana met her gaze, "here is what you need to understand," she whispered, her warm breath hitting Santana's face, "I'm attracted to you! Right now, all I want to do is kiss you, for many reasons but mainly, because you are you, and I think you're beautiful and funny and you have an awesome butt, which I just so happen to have a picture of on my phone," she smirked, looking Santana in the eye the whole time, "so if it's ok with you, I would really like to kiss you now."
Waiting for Santana to nod, Brittany brought their lips together, her hands moving to cup Santana's cheeks as their lips moved together, a small whimper coming from Santana as she parted her lips to let Brittany's tongue roam over and suck her bottom lip, Santana's hands found Brittany's hair as they both kneeled up facing each other, not breaking the kiss. The kiss began to speed up as both fought for the upper hand; Santana took the opportunity to slide her tongue into Brittany's mouth as a loud moan came from the other girl and they melted further into each other as they lost their inhibitions and were drawn further into the kiss.
Brittany let her hand wander down Santana's side and gripped her hip to pull her closer, they were both flush against each other and both girls felt the heat seep throughout their bodies. Both running out of air, Brittany slowed the kiss down, bringing their breathing down and finished it off with small pecks to Santana's lips. Santana smiled into the kisses and placed her forehead against Brittany's whilst they caught their breath.
"Wow," Brittany smiled, stroking the side of Santana's face "that should totally of been our first kiss."
"Let's just pretend it was," Santana offered shyly.
"Well in that case best (kiss) first (kiss) kiss (kiss) ever," she said, gently kissing Santana's lips.
Santana grinned back up at her as she latched onto Brittany's lips again, this time she tucked both of her arms around Brittany's neck and the kiss was much harder this time, more passionate as again both girls got lost in the other, moans were coming from both girls as the feel of each other was the sweetest thing they had ever tasted.
Brittany pulled both girls to lie down facing each other, and grabbed a few cushions to prop themselves up on so they could watch the sunset. Santana was lying in Brittany's arms with her head on her shoulder; she had never felt so content. They lay like that for a while, both lost in their own thoughts but totally comfortable in the silence. Brittany began stroking up and down Santana's arm.
"What are you thinking about," Brittany whispered.
Santana was silent for a while, thinking about how much her life had changed in a day. "Well considering I only arrived on this island a few hours ago, I would say they have been pretty amazing, this morning I was sat in the car, hung over, tired and hating myself, now I'm sitting here having had the best first and second kiss of my life, in your arms and watching this amazing sunset and I'm not even freaking out," she laughed.
"Wow, such progress." Brittany mocked.
"But seriously Britt, this is such progress, the old me would never have done anything like this, I just feel so much different and just calm."
"Good," Brittany replied kissing the top of her head. The stayed like that for a long time, both just enjoying the quiet but also remembering the kisses and the feel of each other's lips.
Long after if was dark the girls decided to head back to their huts, checking the time on her phone, Brittany hoped everyone would be asleep by now and they could just slip into their huts, she hoped Sugar was flat out and wouldn't ask any questions, knowing that Santana was not ready for that yet. As if reading her mind, as they walked back through the trees, Brittany holding the torch she kept stashed in the tree house, Santana spoke out.
"Do you think people will ask where we've been?"
"I doubt it, even if they do though we can just say I was showing you around," Brittany offered.
"Yeah, that would be great, I erm…." She paused
"What is it?" Brittany stopped them so she could look at Santana.
"Well, I er, don't want you to think that I regret kissing you because I don't," she looked up at Brittany, "I really don't, it's just, I don't want other people to know yet, I need to get it right in my head first and….."
"shh, hey, no pressure, I completely understand, San, I'm not going to do anything to make you feel uncomfortable, as long as I can still kiss you in private," she smirked.
Reaching up and stealing a quick kiss Santana replied "anytime."
As they were walking back into camp Jake, the dog came bounding towards them, as Brittany was distracted stroking him, Santana gently took Brittany's phone out of her pocket and typed in her own number, under the name 'awesome butt' and placed it back into Brittany's pocket.
Once finished they made their way up to the huts, stopping outside Santana's, Santana unlocked her door and stepped inside.
"Thank you for a lovely night Britt," Santana whispered, "I can't remember having a better time in my life."
Brittany's smile broke out across her face, "anytime San," and she stepped forward to hug her. "I had a great time too. Good night," she said and kissed her cheek.
Santana grinned back and stroked Brittany's face. "Goodnight Britt-Britt," and pulled back to look at her.
Brittany stepped back and turned to go; as she did she stopped and spoke one last thing, "I'll knock for you tomorrow, about 8, sleep well." And with that she was gone, Santana watched her go to number 118 and unlock the door, she watched her go inside before locking her own door and pulling out her pajamas from her case, she still hadn't unpacked but she didn't care.
Reaching for her tooth brush and tooth paste she went over to the sink in the corner of the room, she looked in the mirror and noticed the change in her eyes, it was subtle but they were definitely brighter than they had been in a while, she smiled to her self as she began to brush her teeth. Whilst she was brushing her teeth her phone vibrated on the bedside table, she rushed over to it hoping that Brittany had found her number in her phone.
Glancing at the phone she saw it was a text from an unknown number, opening it up, she read
Awesome butt? Wow, who could this possibly be?
Santana laughed to herself as she quickly saved the number under the name 'Britt-Britt' and tapped out a reply.
You've forgotten what my awesome butt looks like already? How rude
Placing the phone down as she got herself into bed, she reached for her journal and began writing about the events after dinner, as she was starting her phone vibrated again with a new message.
As if I could, but if I did, I always have a picture to remind me! Goodnight beautiful, Britt xx
Santana smiled at the message and set her phone back down, her tummy turning at the word beautiful. She wrote freely that night, she got lost in her words and was only pulled out of it by another text on her phone, picking it up, she saw it was now 2am.
She saw it was from Brittany.
Just got back from running to the toilet and saw your light on, hope you are not worrying or overthinking stuff, get some sleep, your lips need it lots of plans for tomorrow, Britt xxx
Santana was over come with how lovely Brittany was to her, she tapped out a reply to reassure her she was more than fine.
All good, just got lost in my writing, not stressing; tonight I made memories my lips are looking forward to being reunited with yours tomorrow! Can't wait. Sweet dreams, S XXX
Placing the phone down and switching off the light, Santana fell to sleep with a smile on her face.
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