Hope you enjoy chapter 12!
For the rest of the afternoon, the girls spent their time playing around in the water, jumping off rocks, having swimming races and water fights, it was the perfect afternoon and Santana had never wanted time to slow down as much as now.
They'd played and laughed until they were both tired and hungry. Luckily Brittany had packed some cheese and crackers in her bag and they ate them on the rocks with the sun shining down on them, they took turns feeding each other as they talked as if they had known each other their whole lives.
Once they finished they lay down, letting the suns rays warm them, they held hands and closed their eyes, relaxing; completely content in each other's company.
Santana smiled to herself thinking about what had happen between them earlier that day, she was still somewhat shocked that it had happened, but she wouldn't of changed it for the world, already she felt lighter and knowing that Brittany had made her feel that good confirmed in her mind that she had made the right decision in confessing all her feelings to Brittany.
Only one thing played on her mind though, now that Brittany had done it to her, she was worried about returning the favor, she was sure she would mess it up and wouldn't be able to make her feel good like other people had probably done before, she had no idea what to do, having zero experience in that region. What if Brittany compared her to the other girls she'd been with? Or what if Brittany felt like she had to fake it to avoid hurting Santana's feelings? Or what if Santana did it completely wrong? So many thoughts drifted through her head.
She could feel her chest getting tighter as she panicked and her head begin to spin.
As if sensing something was wrong, Brittany raised her head to look at Santana, "What's wrong?" she asked softly.
"How do you know something's wrong?" Santana answered not opening her eyes.
Brittany turned to face her and began running her finger tips in a soothing motion up and down Santana's arm, "You were gripping my hand and your breathing got heavier," she explained, "what is it? Are you regretting what happened earlier?" she worried.
Opening her eyes and turning to face Brittany, she lay her head on her hand and looked at her, she leaned forward to push a piece of stray blonde hair behind her ear, stroking her cheek in the process, Brittany sighed into the touch.
"No way, Britt, I will never regret it, the way you made me feel, I'm going to remember it forever." She smiled.
"Then what is it?" Brittany questioned, rubbing her thumb in circles on Santana's wrist.
"It's stupid," Santana whispered and Brittany only just caught it because she was watching her lips.
"Don't say that, nothing you are feeling is stupid," she smiled encouragingly, "just tell me."
Looking up at Brittany she let her eyes flit across her face, finding nothing but support and patience there, she was torn, she wanted to tell her but she didn't want to admit about feeling nervous and inexperienced.
But as soon as Brittany stuck out her bottom lip and began pouting, she knew she had no choice, when the girl did that, it was basically game over; Brittany got what she wanted. Santana smiled to herself wandering when she became so whipped.
"Fine," she smiled, defenselessly, "but promise you won't laugh."
"I promise" Brittany nodded.
"I was just thinking about what you did to me and how unbelievably awesome it made me feel," she said, looking up at Brittany, "and I guess, it made me think that maybe if I did it to you, I wouldn't make you feel as good because I won't know what I'm doing and what if I hurt you or do something wrong or you don't like it….." she rambled, becoming more flustered.
"Hey," Brittany soothed, trying to get Santana to stop talking, "Hey," she repeated, grabbing Santana's chin so she could see her face. When Santana finally looked up at her, she continued, "that's crazy, you definitely have nothing to worry about in that department, I promise you," Brittany confirmed but still seeing doubt spread across Santana's face she continued, "you know how I know?" she questioned with a lazy smile, waiting for Santana to answer.
Santana shook her head, looking into Brittany's eyes.
Brittany brought Santana's hand to rest over her heart, "that's why," she spoke, "I get worked up just from being around you Santana, but when you touch me, God, it sends my heart racing like this," and Santana had to admit, Brittany's heart was racing. "So even the thought of you touching me down there, gets me all hot and dizzy," She blushed honestly. "And the rest, about you not knowing what to do, I'll help you, but I'm pretty sure you'll be more than fine doing it yourself, because seriously, even the idea of doing that with you, has me all worked up, I promise." And she lent forward and rubbed her nose against Santana's and smiled at her dopily.
Santana smiled at her, her own cheeks going red from Brittany's confession.
"You're so cute when you get all stressy about nothing," Brittany grinned, stroking her cheek.
Santana playfully hit Brittany's hand away from her cheek, hoping that what Brittany had said would in fact be true.
"Anyway, there's no rush," Brittany added.
"What do you mean?" Santana replied confused.
"I mean, for you, to, you know, return the favor," she blushed. "I want you to be completely comfortable with this, it's clearly a big thing to you, which means it is to me too, we don't have to rush it." She finished.
Santana closed her eyes thanking whoever was responsible for bringing Brittany into her life. "You are so amazing Brittany," she declared.
"I know," Brittany grinned, waving her fist in the air, causing Santana to laugh as she watched her. "But so are you," she added seriously, making Santana stop her laughing.
Leaning into her, Santana brought Brittany's lips to meet hers, moving softly against them, a moan slipped from one of them but it was hard to tell who it came from as they were so tightly entwined, both sliding their tongues into the others mouth, both tasting the cheese and crackers they had recently finished.
Santana jumped up leaving Brittany frowning at the lack of contact, she grinned mischievously at the blonde and then ran and jumped off the rock back into the lagoon, sending a huge splash Brittany's way!
Brittany's shriek vibrated through the trees and Santana's wicked laugh was soon drowned out by Brittany's sudden burst into the water after her, Santana started backing away as Brittany glided quickly through the water, tracking her down, Santana groaned in frustration as Brittany backed her against the rocks.
Brittany came up for air one last time before diving under towards Santana's legs, Santana giggled uncontrollably as Brittany gripped her ankles pulling her under to join her, Santana had no chance against Brittany's strength and found herself soon being attacked by Brittany's long fingers on her ribs, she fought to get free but Brittany wouldn't give up, finally bringing them both up for air, Brittany found Santana's mouth and kissed her hard, both laughing at the same time.
"I'm sorry I got you wet," Santana smirked teasingly.
Brittany gasped at Santana's words, "you have no idea how wet you got me," she smirked back playing Santana's game.
Santana laughed bringing their lips back together as she wrapped her legs round Brittany's waist, Brittany held her up as she walked them back against the rocks, Santana moaned out when her back hit the rocks and she gripped around Brittany's waist tighter, a groan slipped from Brittany as Santana's hands wrapped round her neck bringing them closer together.
"Umm about all that I said about there being no rush," Brittany teased, as she groaned as Santana tensed her thighs around her again, "I was totally lying," and she faked having a heart attack from Santana's presence.
Santana threw her head back laughing at Brittany's drama. Brittany opened her eyes to watch Santana as her laugh caused her heart to really beat faster.
"You're so beautiful, you know that right? She asked, taking in Santana's wet curly hair, her long eye lashes and puffy lips from all their kissing, "you seriously take my breath away," she finished, watching Santana blush.
"Not as beautiful as you," Santana offered, looking back at the girl smiling.
Brittany huffed as Santana side-stepped her compliment, "I'm going to make you believe it you know?" Brittany whispered, "You're going to see how beautiful you are."
"Oh yeah? How are you going to do that?" Santana challenged.
"I don't know yet, but it's a crime that you don't know how awesome, sexy, beautiful and breath taking you are," Brittany said between kisses, bringing them back together.
They spent the next hour this way before they had to pack up and head back to camp; they had been gone most of the day, they didn't want the others questioning where they had been although Brittany was positive Sugar would cover for them.
They walked back towards camp, holding hands and chatting, Brittany even started rapping at one point, which had Santana in stiches, she was actually pretty good; Santana was impressed.
"What about you?" Brittany asked.
Santana frowned confused about what she was asking her, "what do you mean?" she asked back.
"Well, I know you can sing," Brittany answered, "beautifully in fact."
"How do you know that?" Santana replied.
"Well, I heard you, when I came to knock for you last week, you were singing a Kelly Clarkson song, and well, I was mesmerized by your voice, it was so full of soul," she said swinging their hands back and forth lightly.
Santana was quiet for a minute and Brittany had learnt not to push her, but to wait her out, she liked to think about things before she divulged what she was thinking, so Brittany waited patiently.
"I used to sing," Santana started, keeping her eyes straight ahead, "but then I stopped."
"Why?" Brittany asked intrigued.
"My parents told me I was wasting my time, that it wouldn't pay the bills in the future and to focus my time on my writing instead. I used to be apart of my glee club at my school but it drew too much attention to me, so I stopped altogether, I only ever sing when I'm alone now."
"That's sad San, you should share your voice; its so pretty." Brittany pouted.
Santana found herself laughing and brought her finger up to push Brittany's bottom lip back in her mouth, "put that lip back in there," she sang causing Brittany to laugh too, "you're going to cause a riot," she laughed.
"Do you want to sing? I mean you didn't mention it in your five year plan." Brittany remembered.
"I don't know, I mean, sure I enjoy it, but writing is my passion, if I had to choose, I'd choose writing."
"But why do you have to choose?" Brittany defended, "you should be able to do both."
"Yeah, I guess, but don't worry, if I feel like singing I will ok? It's not another challenge you need to take on to make me happy ok?" she nudged leaning in for a kiss.
Brittany smiled into the kiss and before they knew it, Brittany was pressed up against a tree and Santana was flat against her with her arms round her neck, they were lost in each others kisses and didn't hear the sound of broken twigs or the breath of a person running towards them until it was too late, they pulled back to see a startled Mike looking at them.
Santana stepped back and stumbled but Brittany was quick to wrap an arm around her waist to steady her. All three of them stood still for a minute; just Santana's breathing could be heard.
"Mike," Brittany greeted, her voice higher than usual.
"Hey," he answered, not sure what else to say, he looked from one girl to the other and back again, he watched how Santana looked panicked and upset and how she gripped onto Brittany's wrist, and how the other girl looked down at her nervously and then back at Mike.
"We were, erm, just heading back to camp," Brittany explained, eyeing Mike, hoping that he wouldn't ask questions.
"Sure," he replied, "I'm just getting an afternoon run in before dinner," he mumbled, "so, I best be off, I'm trying to beat my time," he smiled.
"Cool, ok see you at dinner," Brittany answered looking at a silent Santana who was busy staring at the floor.
Mike turned and carried on running and Santana sank to the floor leaning against the tree, Brittany sat down too, pulling her against her.
"You ok?" she asked attentively.
"Yeah," she croaked, "I just wasn't really ready for that, it took me by surprise; do you think he'll tell anyone?"
"I'm pretty sure he won't, Mike's a good guy, he'll probably ask me about it but I don't even think he'll even tell Tina, I'll talk to him though, explain everything."
Santana slouched into her further, "I know we can't hide forever, I just thought it would be easier than this you know, I'm sorry Brittany."
"You have nothing to be sorry about, stop worrying. Come on, lets get back to camp."
Pulling her up they both walked back towards camp, both sad that they felt their special day had been ruined. Santana had her arms crossed over her chest instead of swinging in Brittany's hand, she hated herself for it but she just couldn't bring herself to do it.
Brittany seemed to understand though as she didn't question it. As they came to the huts, they stopped, both unsure of what to do now, Brittany looked at her watch, seeing that they had an hour until dinner, having only eaten cheese and crackers since breakfast she was starving, "do you want to meet up before dinner?" she asked, hoping Santana would say yes.
"Sure," Santana smiled, "I'm going to go shower and catch up with my journal, maybe knock for me when you're ready to leave?"
"Ok," Brittany breathed, feeling sad for the first time that day, she didn't want to be apart for the next hour, but knew Santana needed some time to think about things. "I'll see you in a little while," she smiled, turning towards her hut.
"Hey Britt," she heard and turned back around to face Santana. "I had the best day, thank you," she whispered.
It warmed Brittany's heart to hear that and she found herself grinning back. "Me too," she answered and she watched Santana turn and head over to her own hut.
Opening the door to her own hut, Brittany found Sugar reading on her bed, she put down the book when she saw Brittany enter the room.
"Hey Britt, how was your romantic date?" she smirked.
Brittany couldn't help but smile as she looked over at Sugar and flopped down on the bed next to her, lying on her belly holding her face up in her hands.
"It was amazing," she gushed.
"Ok, you have to spill, tell me everything," Sugar pleaded.
Brittany laughed, "I'm not a girl who kiss and tells," she teased.
"Since when?" Sugar deadpanned.
"Since now," she smiled.
"Oh you mean now that it means something," and she lent forward to squeeze Brittany's cheeks, "Aww Britt-Britt's in love," she sang.
"Get off," Brittany laughed as Sugar started making kissing noises. "Shut up," she giggled finally getting Sugar to stop and sit back down.
"So you're not going to tell me anything?" she asked frowning watching Brittany glow as she thought back over the day.
"It was so good Shug," Brittany started, forgetting about not telling her anything. "We walked up to the waterfall and on the way we chatted and found out lots about each other, she's really into photography as well as writing and she's really talented, like really talented, you should of seen the way she lit up when she talked about it."
Sugar giggled, "I guess a lot like you are when talking about her," she pointed out.
Brittany felt her cheeks blush at the realization that Sugar was probably right, "anyway," she continued "we had the whole, 'how many people have you slept with talk' which was interesting and then we got to the waterfall…."
"Wait, wait, you're not going to tell me what she said?" Sugar interrupted.
"No, it's personal, you don't need to know that," Brittany confirmed to a frowning Sugar. "Anyway," she repeated showing she was annoyed that Sugar had interrupted her, "we swam, we jumped off rocks, we had water fights and I pretty much laughed the entire time, except when we were kissing," she finished.
"Sound's perfect," Sugar commented as Brittany beamed. "But there's something you're not telling me," knowing Brittany was a bad liar, Sugar continued to probe, "what else happened?"
Brittany laughed, "just leave it Sugar, I've told you all you need to know," and she stuck her tongue out at her.
"Fine," Sugar huffed, sensing defeat.
"Oh there was something else that happened actually," Brittany remembered.
Perking up, Sugar leaned forward to listen.
"When we were walking back, we somehow ended up kissing against a tree," Sugar smirked at this bit of information, "and before we knew it Mike was stood in front of us, staring open mouthed,"
"Oh no," Sugar gasped, sensing Santana wouldn't of liked that very much, "what did he say? Why was he there? It sounds rather pervy"
Rolling her eyes at Sugar's last comment she filled her in. "Well nothing really, I sort of explained we were walking back to camp," Sugar snorted causing Brittany to roll her eyes again, "and he said he was out running and needed to go because he was trying to beat his time."
"And what did Santana do?"
Brittany rolled over onto her back and starred up at the ceiling, "not much, she stumbled and I caught her, her breathing got heavy and then she stayed silent the whole time, looking at the ground," she closed her eyes remembering the scene. "Once Mike had gone, she was ok, well she didn't freak out at least," Brittany finished.
"So how did you leave it with her? Has she gone back to her hut to freak out?" Sugar asked.
Brittany rolled back over so she could look at Sugar, "no I don't think so, I mean she said she wanted to shower and catch up on her journal, but I don't think in a bad way, I think she just wants to catch her breath almost,"
"Yeah I guess, it makes sense," Sugar nodded. "What about you Britt, how do you feel about it all?" Sugar asked and watched the joy leap across Brittany's face.
"I just can't get enough of her," she grinned, "I just feel really happy Shug, I mean sure if it wasn't such a secret I would feel a lot better but this is new to her, I have to except that and I do, it's just…." And she paused.
"What? What is it?" Sugar asked.
Sighing, Brittany hushed, "I just want to show her off to the world, I want everyone to know she's mine."
"Aww Britt, they will be do, soon I'm sure, but for now, don't worry about that, she needs to get there by herself, just be patient."
"I am," Brittany confirmed, "I really am,"
Sugar lent forward and squeezed her hands, "well I'm always here to listen if you want to talk ok? Even if you are keeping the good stuff to yourself," she frowned.
"Thanks Shug, I appreciate it." Brittany answered before finding out all about Sugars day.
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After she had showered and changed, Santana dropped down onto her bed and pulled her journal out of her bag, she hadn't had a chance to write all day and so much had happened. She grabbed her pen and began to fill the pages, starting with last night; how Brittany had reacted to the letters, to Brittany becoming her girlfriend and how they had spent the night in the tree house together.
Santana grinned the whole time she wrote about it, thinking about the moment Brittany climbed into the tree house, her tear stained face and the way she jumped into Santana's arms when she saw her, Santana could hardly believe it had happened, she wrote and wrote, filling pages with her thoughts and feelings about the night.
Stopping to flex her fingers as she had been gripping the pen too tightly, eager to get everything down onto paper, Santana thought back to when Mike had caught her kissing Brittany, she let the scene play over in her mind and for the moments glance she had given Mike she didn't see any sort of repulsion on his face, just shock, she thinks. Even so, she hopes he won't tell anyone because in an ideal world, her and Brittany will tell everyone when she's ready.
Thinking back to Brittany she hoped that incident hadn't ruined their day together, apart from that part, it had literally been amazing from start to finish. Her core tightened as her mind flashed back to the way Brittany touched her, so gently and loving but also totally hot at the same time.
Grabbing her phone to check the time, she sees she has a text message and her heart flips as she hopes it's from Brittany. However, when she opens it, she sees its from her Mami; curious to see what she has to say she opens the message and reads;
Hi Santana, hope camp is ok and you are having fun and making friends, well nice ones anyway. Papi and I are in New York. Love you xxxx
Reading the message again she decides not to respond right now, let them actually wonder about me for a change, she thought.
Looking at the time, she hid her journal under her pillow and found her shoes, anxious to see Brittany but scared to see Mike.
She went round to Brittany's hut and knocked, Sugar answered and let her in. Brittany was lying on her bed, but sat up quickly when she saw Santana.
"Hi," she greeted smiling at the brunette girl, she looked over her face, trying to read her thoughts but when Santana smiled back, she relaxed. "I'll just get my shoes."
"Cool," Santana replied sitting down whilst she waited. "Why are you looking at me like that?" she asked when she found Sugar staring at her.
"You look different," Sugar answered with a smirk, "you enjoy your trip to the waterfall?" she asked coyly.
Looking over at Brittany to see whether she had told Sugar about earlier, she finds Brittany shaking her head slightly, and therefore Santana's shoulders drop in relief and she turned back to Sugar. "Yes I did, it was gorgeous, what did you get up to?" she asked.
"I like what you did there," Sugar pointed; "how you changed the subject. Interesting." She smirked.
"Leave her alone Sugar!" Brittany demanded, "Santana ignore her, she's just mad that I won't tell her every little detail about our day, so now she's convinced I'm hiding something." Brittany finished rolling her eyes.
Santana laughed as Sugar narrowed her eyes at Brittany.
"I'm just saying, I helped get you love birds together, I deserve to know the juicy details." Sugar answered back with narrow eyes.
"No you don't" Santana laughed, "all you need to know is that we had fun, it was a great day." She smiled smugly.
"ergh, whatever," Sugar laughed, "just be careful ok? Remember to use condoms," she replied laughing at her own remark.
Smirking Santana and Brittany both picked up a pillow and flung it at Sugar, Santana's hit her in the tummy and Brittany's in the head, both girls cheered as Sugar shrieked dramatically, until all girls were laughing.
"Let's go," Sugar suggested, as she ran her fingers through her hair. "A few of us thought we could go up to the hilltop after dinner for some drinks for your birthday Britt, seems as you where 'busy' last night," she smirked. "You two love birds up for that?"
Brittany looked over at Santana who shrugged her shoulders suggesting she was up for it. "Sure," Brittany replied, "sounds fun."
Whilst Sugar rummaged under her bed to find her shoes, Santana lent in for a hug from Brittany. "You sure you want to go for drinks with the others? We can just come back here if you want?" Brittany suggested.
"No, it's cool, I could do with a drink actually," she smiled, "but I was wondering whether you wanted to sleep in the tree house again tonight, the blankets are still up there and…"
"Why are you blushing?" Brittany queried whilst her eyes darted around Santana's face.
"Well, erm, I've been thinking," Santana started and then stopped, looking back up at Brittany, "I umm, want to, you know, umm try and return the favor, if you know, you want." She stuttered.
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