Is it strange?

Since the snow finally got lighter again I decided it was totally time to get out of the house. I guess Liet was getting cabin fever too because he grabbed his coat before I even finished suggesting it. I'm driving since it's like my car. I'm going to drag him down to Krakow and take him shopping.

He's staring out the window smiling and looking sort of surprised.

"So like what's up? You've got one of those seriously funny faces again." I tease gently.

He jumps slightly his cheeks flushing a little and the smile fades, "You'll think it's strange."

"I kinda do already with that face you were making," I wonder if I should have kept my mouth shut.

He looks at me his closely, "I... It's…Uhm…" I can feel him thinking and choosing his words, "I'm not sure if you want to hear it."

I'm not sure if I want to know anymore but I can't just drop it. "Liiiiet, like just tell me already."

He turns to the window his voice softer like he's really ashamed, "It's just that I feel safe. I've been afraid for so long I forgot what it felt like to not be. It's weird isn't it? That something as simple as not being scared makes me so happy," He stops suddenly turning back to me, "I don't want to talk about it right now. You'll get mad."

I open my mouth to ask anyway but I totally can't. Instead I summon up a smile, "I'm like really glad that you're feeling better," He's totally right. Hearing about what the blini bastard did to him would totally piss me off and that would make Liet nervous and then we'd both be totally miserable.

"Thank you," He kisses my cheek and looks out the window again.

What he said is totally weird. Or it should be or something. It shouldn't be something so basic that makes him light up like that. He's thrilled because he's not afraid. That is seriously heartbreaking.

"So where are we going?" He tilts his head at me. "I miss the days we would just wander around the markets."

I'm a little surprised at how totally unsubtle he is about not wanting to talk about this. I probably should like make him at some point. Hiding it is probably unhealthy. But not today. I want to totally forget everything and just enjoy being together again, "Shopping. You know the chess set? I've got to show you the shop I bought it from. The owner is really fun and he has a ton of neat stuff. I think you'll totally fall in love with it," As I talk I start to relax again.

"It sounds like fun. Do you think we could stop at a bookshop too?"

I nod, "But before that we've like got to do something about you."

"Me?"

"Yeah, like you need some new clothes already," He really doesn't have a lot. I think he has like the coat, 3 shirts, and a couple of sets of pants. There's that totally lame uniform too. It's been in a heap in the corner of the closet ever since he took it off.

"I don't think…"

"If you don't shop I'll use Poland rules and like totally make you wear some of my stuff."

He groans raising his hands in surrender, "Let's go clothes shopping."