You love me but you don't know who I am,
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand,
You love me but you don't know who I am, so let me go… let me go…

Listening to the rhythm of '3 Doors Down' in her bedroom in the wee hours of the moring, Meredith pondered over Derek. And Finn. But mostly Derek, which worried her. Let me go. Over the past few weeks since their chat on the staircase, some huge changes had happened at the hospital. Izzy had quit and left Seattle, she said she needed a change of scenary, away from the memories of Denny, which made the house, and Alex, quieter than usual. Callie had moved in with George, so no matter where Meredith went in the house, all she heard were happy squeals of delight, for one reason or another. And perhaps, most importantly, Derek had left Addison, the two were a week away from a divorce. Since then, Derek had been sending Meredith thousands of bouquets of flowers, chocolates and phone messages – none of which she had replied to.

Understandably, when Finn came round, he noticed the flowers and the chocolates, but accepted that they were from George to Callie. However, as Derek called and left a message as Finn was in the house, he began to get a little suspicious. She was having so much fun with Finn, but with Derek, it was potentially destructive, but still something… else.

I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
When I know what I'm going through

The sun had long since risen, but the rain eternally pounded her window. As she stared out into the street, the whole world fell behind her. She looked over to her bed, and snuggled back underneath the covers for comfort.

In my head there's only you now,
and this world falls on me,
And in this world there's real and make believe,
And this seems real to me.

"Morning." A voice said from her bed: she jumped and turned quickly to face her lover, resisting the urge to scream. Waking up the rest of the house was never a good option. Derek's face popped out from under the covers.

Meredith stared blindly at him, speechless. "Well, this can't be good."